Sheep and Wolf

"It's getting late, let's go eat first." After leaving the hospital, Xia Nihong said casually.

"You go! I have no appetite." Qi Fan took out a cigarette and put it to his mouth. Just as he was about to light it, Xia Nihong took it away with one hand. "Eating this will make you full?"

"Leave me alone." Qi Fan flung out another cigarette case a little irritably, and leaned against the wall. Xia Nihong didn't even confiscate his cigarette case this time. Seeing that he was about to have a seizure, he hurriedly said, "Are you going to see him in the smell of smoke later? The gas poisoning hasn't healed yet, but you're good to go and make poison gas for him."

"..." As soon as An Yiyang was moved out, Qi Fan really had nothing to say, but put his hands back into his pockets and looked ahead in silence.

Seeing her son being eaten to death, Xia Lianxin didn't know whether to cry or laugh for a while, maybe it might not be a bad thing to have someone who can control him, but love is sometimes like a math problem, if you choose, you don't need a process, no matter you No matter how tortuous the process is, as long as the final answer is correct, you can get points. However, if you switch to practice questions, points will be deducted if the process is slightly wrong. What's worse, you may use the wrong method at the beginning. Wrong, resulting in all wrong results.This stupid son of hers, who obviously loved him to death but used the wrong method, not only will be deducted points, but he will be directly slapped with a big "cross" by the other party because his mistakes are too outrageous.

"Okay, let's go eat! Just treat it as being with me, he will eat fruit after dinner, it should be a while, don't disturb him, let him finish eating with peace of mind." Xia Nihong knew that he was outside Surely he will go in again soon, so he persuaded him softly.

Qi Fan glanced at her, Xia Nihong said again: "You always have to tell me what you are going to do next, at least I can help you figure out a way, I have more experience than you in this area, otherwise I wouldn't I will become your mother, you know that those who were in a rush to be your mother could go around city A."

Qi Fan didn't say anything more this time, but went obediently with her to a nearby western restaurant, and Xia Nihong asked after the two ordered, "What are your plans for the future."

"I won't let him leave me." Qi Fan said without hesitation.

"Then what do you want to do? Keep him locked up? If you want to be with him, it depends on whether he is willing or not!"

"I couldn't leave him, I really couldn't."

"Then you can just watch him die?" Xia Nihong asked back.

"I will not let this happen again!"

"Oh, to put it lightly, if a person wants to die, can you stop him for a while? Can you stop him for a lifetime? If this happens once, it will happen again and again. How many times can you stop him? How many times can that small body toss? Think about it this time, if I hadn't returned from the United States in time and went there in time, would you have seen him again?"

Qi Fan visibly trembled, and looked at her helplessly.

"Mom told you, Mom is someone who has experienced it. In the matter of feelings, a twisted melon is not sweet. Compulsory love will only make you farther and farther apart. You don't want to live in pain for the rest of your life. Let him live in pain with you? Are you really willing? I believe that no one in this world wants to make him happy more than you. Just because of the energy you wanted to break with me, I knew you were I really love him to the bottom of my heart.”

Qi Fan remained silent.

"There are many ways to love someone. You don't have to tie someone by your side. As long as he can get happiness, it doesn't matter if he is by your side or not? You know how much the child has suffered these years. When you come back, you will Hurt him like that, and force him like this now, no one will be able to bear it."

"Then what should I do?" Qi Fan's expression moved slightly, with irrepressible impatience and urgency in his eyes.

Xia Nihong knew that after something like this happened, he could no longer maintain his usual calmness. An Yiyang disrupted all his plans, caught him off guard, and began to doubt himself. The whole person became confused and confused, and fell into a dilemma situation.In order to serve their good purpose and prevent her son from making big mistakes again and again, she can only look at the problem from An Yiyang's perspective: "I think judging from the current situation, you are still Let's separate for the time being! Let each other be calm and calm, especially you, you must know that your character is different from ordinary people, if you lose control, think about the consequences yourself, do you want to continue to hurt him?"

The waiter brought up the food they ordered, Qi Fan looked down at the food on the plate, and pressed his lips tightly, obviously caught in a dilemma.

"I know that you must be very contradictory in your heart now. You want him to be free but you are reluctant to let go, but, you have to know that you will only make him feel suffocated if you tie him tightly to your side, and will only drive him to a corner. Let him go and let him live a comfortable life or push him to death, you decide for yourself!" After Xia Nihong finished speaking, she pushed the soup in her set meal in front of him, "You have a bad stomach, you'd better drink the soup before eating, Warm your stomach."

The two had their own concerns, and they ate a long and heavy meal. After finally putting down the tableware in their hands, Xia Nihong spoke first: "Now go back and see him!"

Qi Fan didn't answer, and walked out with her after paying the bill. The driver was already waiting at the door, and the two got into the car together. Xia Nihong asked the driver to drive the car back to the hospital, but Qi Fan didn't get out of the car when he arrived. Xia Nihong stood outside and waited for a while, seeing that he had no intention of coming down, she immediately understood that he had made a decision, so she said to the driver: "Send the young master home."

"Okay." The driver was about to start the car after speaking, but Qi Fan suddenly said, "Tell me if there is anything."

"Okay, you go back to rest first! Don't meet again for a while, I'll tell him to pay attention to his health." After Xia Nihong finished speaking, he winked at the driver, fearing that he might change his mind temporarily. She was relieved when the car drove away, turned around and walked into the hospital.

The ward was quiet, the nurse had already left, An Yiyang was half lying on the bed alone, his expression was a little dazed, he didn't know what he was thinking, when he saw Xia Nihong coming in, his slightly relaxed nerves tensed again, Xia Nihong hurried away Going over, he softly comforted: "Qi Fan has already gone back, he won't bother you in the future, you can recuperate here with peace of mind."

An Yiyang obviously relaxed a lot, but he couldn't help being a little cautious when facing the people who once strongly opposed their being together: "What are you here for?"

"Of course it depends on you! Fortunately, I went there in time that day, otherwise you would have already..." Xia Nihong did not continue, and sighed, "Xiao Fan, this child really doesn't know how to measure, you miss you If something goes wrong, how will this end? The president of the Qi Group illegally put others under house arrest and died. If the media finds out, his life will be ruined. No matter how powerful the Qi Group is, it will not be able to prevent him from being infamous for the rest of his life. What's more, murder pays for life, and the disaster of prison will not be spared, I don't want him to follow in the footsteps of his friends."

"His friend?" An Yiyang suddenly thought of something, but he couldn't be sure, "Is he called Ouyang Cheng? Do you know why he is in jail?"

"You know?" Xia Nihong didn't expect him to know this, and couldn't help being a little surprised.

"He can be considered my friend. We met in the game, and he happened to know Qi Fan." An Yiyang explained.

"Oh, that's it! It's a long story. Although our two families are family friends, we only have business contacts, so we don't know much, because the Ouyang family is very powerful in the United States, and black and white are very good. Naturally, it caused a lot of trouble, and after the accident in the small town, their family tried their best to block the news, and the outside world didn't know much about it."

"Then you know exactly why he's in prison, don't you?"

"Killed someone."

An Yiyang's heart felt cold, and his voice trembled a little: "Isn't this going to be sentenced to death? Why did he kill someone?"

"I really don't know about this. With the power of the Ouyang family, they wouldn't just watch him die. In fact, he was released after only one year in prison. Part of it is because of mental illness!"

"Mental illness?"

"He has a very serious bipolar disorder, that is, mania and depression. In fact, not only him, but also Qi Fan. The reason why they became good friends is because they stayed in the same nursing home when they were young. He and Qi Fan's The difference is that his mania is far more serious than depression, while Qi Fan's depression is more serious than mania, and he will only show his violent side when he is mentally stimulated." Seeing An Yiyang's shocked face After looking up, she continued to explain, "Qi Fan often can't control his temper, and even uses violence against you because of this, he didn't actually mean it."

Seeing that he didn't speak, Xia Nihong could only continue, "I know he has caused you unbearable harm, I don't ask you to forgive him, but I hope you don't hold hatred against him, the reason why he behaves like this is nothing It's because he loves you so much, he just didn't use the right method. Qi Fan... is actually very pitiful. When I was young, I was too competitive. I married his father because it was helpful to my career and the marriage between the two families It is also what everyone expects. During the time when I was pregnant with him, I didn't feel happy and satisfied like ordinary women. I had plans to marry a husband and raise children. On the contrary, I felt that a child was a burden. If it wasn't for the heir, I didn't even want to give birth to him. So , when he was still very young, I left him to the nanny and housekeeper. At that time, Qi was at the peak of his career but was hit by the financial crisis. His father was also very busy and rarely went back to see him. , Even during the Chinese New Year holidays, I often did not go back because of meetings in other places.

When I had a little time, Qi Fan was already five years old, and he wasn't very surprised when I went back. He even looked at me with completely unfamiliar eyes, and basically didn't speak except to take something, until he went After entering the kindergarten, the teacher found that he was different from other children and called me many times. In desperation, I had to take him back from school. At that time, I found that he didn't say a word to me, so I took him to the hospital for examination I found out I had depression.

Later, after professional treatment, his condition gradually improved. After he recovered, he started to go to school like a normal child, but he insisted on returning to China to study after finishing junior high school. I was very puzzled at that time. He was fine, and he wanted to go back. I found out later that maybe he just wanted to stay away from us. "

Xia Nihong smiled self-deprecatingly when he said this, "I really regret it now. As a mother, I have not fulfilled my responsibility as a mother. I have always wanted to make up for it, but I found that he has grown up and is even older than me. Even stronger than his father, I missed the opportunity to be a mother, I am undoubtedly the most failed woman in the world."

Seeing her red eyes, An Yiyang felt compassion, wanted to comfort her but didn't know what to say, thought for a long time before saying: "There will be opportunities in the future."

"Don't wait until the future, I really want to do something for my son now, so, are you willing to give me this chance?"

"I do not understand what you mean."

"Qi Fan is sorry for you, so I apologize to you on his behalf, are you willing to forgive him? From now on, I will never care about his previous mistakes again."

"It's impossible for us," An Yiyang lowered his eyes, "If it's this, I'm afraid I can't meet your request."

"No, I'm not asking you to come back to him. I'm not that selfish. I just don't want you to hate him."

"As long as he doesn't intervene in my life or force me anymore, naturally I won't hate him, let the past go!"

"You really think so?"

"Ah."

"You really would rather die than be with him. Have you... really decided not to look back?"

"Well, don't look back." An Yiyang's eyes were extremely firm, "There is a feeling worse than death, and I have tasted it a long time ago."

"Don't think about it? Qi Fan, he... this time, it won't be like before."

"No." He has long since lost the drive he had when he was young, daring to love and hate, reckless of the consequences, getting into gangs as soon as he likes them, and breaking up at worst.But after getting together with Qi Fan, he discovered that he never thought of breaking up, just assuming it would make him miserable, he didn't dare to imagine that there would be such a day, such a possibility, he had already lost after taking the risk once. After a crushing defeat, he has no confidence that he can get the love of Qi Fan's life, and more importantly, he has no confidence that he can bear that kind of pain again.His perseverance and courage have been worn down by five years of anticipation and waiting, and the scene that came later was undoubtedly a fatal blow to him.Now, his heart sank together with the ring that was thrown into the sea, never to be resurrected.

He used to look for Qi Fan all over the world, but now, he just wants to hide in a world without Qi Fan.