Chaos in Xianzhou

Chang Qiu's Teachings

After hearing Ran Yi's enthusiastic words, several people turned their attention to Chen Zhongming, and found that he was staring out of the window as if shy.

Chang Qiu leaned close to his side, and then gently patted his shoulder with his hand: "You kid is simply hiding your secrets, why don't you usually see that you are so good at martial arts, and you pretend to be a pig and eat a tiger with us."

After hearing Chang Qiu's words, Chen Zhongming laughed out loud, then shook his head lightly, and said to several people:

"It was hard for you last night. I know you are here to accompany me. Now go back and rest. I just happened to go to see how my room is."

Just such a sentence made the atmosphere among everyone much more relaxed, and then they talked and laughed all the way back to the house.

In fact, Ran Yi has always felt that this place is very empty and that it is appropriate to add a few people, but this decision has never been discussed with Chang Qiu.

Chang Qiu likes to be quiet, usually he doesn't want strangers to disturb him, so this decision has been put on hold by him.

The tossing and tossing last night was really intense. After returning to the room, Huang Songjin and Qin Feng fell asleep on the bed.

And Chang Qiu and Ran Yi were no exception, leaving only Chen Zhongming sitting in the room blankly, wondering what was going on in his mind.

In fact, those things that happened last night have been recalled in Chen Zhongming's mind, but whenever he thinks of those people's indifferent faces, Chen Zhongming feels a burst of sadness in his heart.

He couldn't help but sneered. In fact, this wasn't the first time he was abandoned. He had been abandoned countless times before. He thought he wouldn't be sad anymore, but why are his eyes sore now?

Looking around, he found that this place was completely unfamiliar. Even Chen Zhongming didn't even light an oil lamp, sitting alone in the dark night.

It seems that ever since he could remember, he especially liked to sit alone in a dark room like this, and recall all the things that happened before.

Whether it is good or bad, those are engraved in his heart, even when he thinks of good things, he will laugh out loud.

But when he thought of those bad things, his head began to swell. At this moment, Chen Zhongming even felt that he existed.

He has never known why he wants to live in this world. He has never felt what is called family affection, and he even thinks that he is like a lone star.

Only when they are being used, those people will smile at him, and even hide something deliberately in their eyes.

Chen Zhongming pretended not to see it every time, and even lingered among the flowers all day long, not caring what they said at all.

In fact, in the bottom of his heart, Chen Zhongming still hoped that they would beat him up severely, and then pointed to his nose and warned himself: From today on, stop fooling around outside. You are from my Chen family, so you can't be ashamed and thrown outside.

But these words were never said once. They acquiesced to Chen Zhongming's behavior, and even felt that this would not threaten Chen Zhongjing's status at all.

Sometimes Chen Zhongming even felt that it would be great if he never showed up, at least he wouldn't be alone like he is now.

Thinking like this, Chen Zhongming leaned against the bed and fell asleep after a while. The exhaustion in his heart made him not sleep very deeply, and even dreamed.

In the dream, he was surrounded by a group of people, watching their pointing eyes, and the way they whispered made him panic.

I don't know what I did wrong, to be treated like this, when I just tried to stop it, I found it was futile.

I am like an illusory person, no matter what I am shouting or making large movements, no one cares.

...

Chen Zhongming woke up from the dream like this, and then touched his forehead with his hand, which was already covered with sweat, exhaled lightly, and then lay heavily on the bed.

Slowly closed his eyes, trying to make himself fall asleep, but it seemed all in vain, so Chen Zhongming tossed and tossed until dawn.

In the early morning of the next day, Chang Qiu got up early to move his body, and saw Chen Zhongming practicing martial arts there. The thick dark circles under his eyes were so abrupt that people could tell that Chen Zhongming hadn't slept well at all.

"Did you not rest last night? Look at the bruises in your eyes..."

Chen Zhongming put away his moves, then stood beside Chang Qiu panting, and nodded lightly. Knowing that he is a doctor, there is nothing he can hide from him, so it is best to admit it now.

Chang Qiu sighed softly, he could fully understand Chen Zhongming's feelings now, so he tidied up his clothes, and casually said to Chen Zhongming:

"If you don't have anything to do right now, you can accompany me to the street to buy some medicinal materials and come back. I have been busy with other things these days, and I don't have time to prepare some more drugs.

It just so happens that you have some time today, so you can go with me, and it can also let you relax. "

Chen Zhongming nodded lightly, and then followed Chang Qiu's pace, the two of them walked together on this busy street, thinking that there would be no conversation between the two, but in the end Chang Qiu spoke first:

"I know that this matter is a big blow to you, but you have to remember that the only person who treats you best in this world is yourself, don't put all your expectations on others.

In fact, I was a lonely person like you before, and even my master was also a moody character, and sometimes he was hungry.

I even feel that it would be great if I didn't survive in this world. Sometimes I also feel that my parents don't want me because I'm a burden.

But then I gradually discovered that everyone has their own value of existence, and the value of your existence needs to be discovered by another person, so you should not feel that you do not exist at all.

Maybe this matter is really a test for you. No one can say for sure in the future. I know that what I say now to make you recover is empty words. You still need to do this kind of thing yourself.

Hmm...Think about what I said to you today, and go buy some medicinal materials with me now, it seems that the drug is not enough. "