love is not allowed in hell

"Why don't you go and see him."

Xie Weixian was sitting on the single sofa on the other side in a daze, when he heard this, he turned his head: "Is it Lin Qingyan?"

"Hmm." Chen Liye picked up the chopsticks, picked up a pair of noodles, and said, "I really don't know what to do. If I go to see him, I might be able to figure out something."

Xie Weixian glanced at him, didn't say anything, lowered his head and turned on the phone and said, "He won't tell you what to do, you are the one who makes the decision."

Chen Liye smiled miserably at him: "I know, but I can't figure it out by myself now."

——Then Chen Liye stood here.

This is the affiliated psychiatric hospital of the second hospital in the city.According to the news Liu Xu sent him yesterday, Lin Qingyan was sent here.

Although Chen Liye's fever was mostly gone, he still felt a little uncomfortable.He coughed twice and walked into the hospital.

Liu Xu sent him complete information, not only telling him where Lin Qingyan was, but also explaining clearly to him where and how to get to the inpatient building.Chen Liye pressed these, and soon found Lin Qingyan's ward.

But as soon as he turned the corner, he stopped, and then silently retreated a few steps back to the corner.

Xu Muyu was sitting in front of Lin Qingyan's ward.

Chen Liye: "..."

For some reason, he felt a little guilty.

The reason may be that he and Lin Qingyan co-acted a scumbag to deceive Xu Muyu, or maybe he knew about hell but couldn't tell it.Either way, it made him very guilty.Even if he had a reason, he still felt guilty.

The mental hospital is different from other hospitals. The family members of the patients cannot go in to accompany them. Moreover, there is not a wall between the ward and the corridor, but a glass, which is a kind of glass that can see the inside from the outside, but not the outside from the inside. .Just by sitting outside, you can have a panoramic view of the scene inside.

Xu Muyu just sat outside like that, staring inside in a daze, her eyes were frighteningly red, and her face was haggard. From the looks of it, she probably didn't sleep at all last night.

Chen Liye suddenly didn't dare to go in.

After hesitating for a moment at the corner, he turned and left.

Not long after he walked out, he suddenly heard the sound of the door being opened from the other side of the ward.

Xu Muyu said, "Doctor!"

Chen Liye paused as he was about to leave, then silently retreated a few steps.

Xu Muyu asked anxiously: "How is it?"

"

no. The doctor sighed and said, "Although he took medicine, for some reason, he couldn't control his condition at all. His current state is getting more and more chaotic. If this continues, he will probably be completely useless." "

Chen Liye lowered his eyes.

He had expected this to happen.

But this was undoubtedly a bolt from the blue to Xu Muyu who didn't know it, and she couldn't accept it at all: "How could it be... no, isn't it medicine?"

"It's the medicine..." The doctor also nodded and said, "But the medicine has no effect at all, which is really rare. But Miss Xu, please calm down first, don't worry, there is another way now, which is to find out If the root cause of the disease is intervened from the psychological level, it may get better."

Hearing this, Chen Liye silently moved towards the corner, stuck out half of his head, and took a look there.

The doctor opened the medical record book, turned a few pages back, and asked, "Miss Xu, do you have a lot of mirrors in your house?"

Chen Liye was stunned for a moment.

Mirror?

"Mirror...?" Xu Muyu was also taken aback, and said, "There is a full-length mirror in the living room, and there is also a mirror in the bathroom... just these two, aren't there many?"

"Is that so strange?" The doctor frowned and said, "Under our questioning, your husband said something like "There are a lot of mirrors on display" and "There are also a lot of mirrors" with a very frightened expression on his face, and he also said " "run" and "pass". So I think the problem should be in these "mirrors". Ms. Xu, think about it carefully? For example, do you like collecting small mirrors, or Mr. Lin After we separated from you, have you ever been to a place where there are many mirrors?"

"...But I really don't have a lot of mirrors in my house." Xu Muyu said in a daze, "He went to live outside after he filed a lawsuit with me... I heard that he rented a hotel for a long time, and there are not many hotels Mirror?"

The doctor was also a little embarrassed: "This is also..."

Chen Liye retracted his head, stood against the wall for a while, then turned and left.

"There are many mirrors on display", "There are also many mirrors".

"display" and "also".

Display, also——Chen Liye.

These are not two sentences at all, Lin Qingyan is reminding him.

He was reminding Chen Liye with his broken mind.

...Although I don't know if this is actually the case.

Chen Liye left the hospital and returned home.

As if he was escaping, his law firm also took a long vacation, and shut himself up at home, neither answering the phone nor returning messages, just watching TV on the sofa every day.

Xie Weixian didn't say anything about it.He has never made irresponsible remarks on Chen Liye's actions. He cooks, washes and washes the dishes for him on a regular basis every day, and then sits on the single sofa next to him to brush his phone or watch TV, and occasionally talks to Chen Liye. , such as telling him to turn up the air conditioner to avoid catching cold, asking him what he would like to eat, or occasionally bringing him a glass of warm water for him to drink.

The two of them seem to have subtly reconciled to some extent because of Chen Liye's memory recovery and the revelation of the bridge crossing incident.Xie Weixian is no longer as indifferent and speechless as before, but he still exudes an aura that resists blending into this world. He seems to be standing in the borderline between the world and hell. If there is no Chen Liye, he will definitely turn his head Go back to hell and choose to be shattered or shattered.

Chen Liye could see clearly.

On the second day after Lin Qingyan was admitted to the hospital, the mental hospital called Chen Liye and told him to pick up Lin Qingyan's things.

According to the notice issued by the court, all personal belongings Lin Qingyan held when he was admitted to the hospital must be handed over to Chen Liye for safekeeping, and he will decide where these things go—after all, he is an agent.

Having said that, when Lin Qingyan was admitted to the hospital, the only things he had on him were his mobile phone, keys and a briefcase, which was full of documents.When Chen Liye went, the hospital had not received the notice from the court, so they gave these things to Xu Muyu for a while.

But fortunately, Lin Qingyan is very foresighted. He had expected this day and changed the password of the phone. Xu Muyu failed to open it, and the photos recorded in hell were not seen. Chen Liye went to pick it up. By the time the phone was out of battery.

When he went to fetch the things, Xu Muyu stood behind him, kept looking at him, opened his mouth, hesitated to speak several times, but finally couldn't say anything.

Probably the main reason was because Chen Liye slipped away too fast, he took his things and left, he didn't know how to face Xu Muyu now, he didn't dare to wait for her to speak.

Later, Chen Liye went to the hotel that Lin Qingyan rented out, picked up the luggage he left there, and returned the room card.

Chen Liye stood in Lin Qingyan's room for a long time.There is a lot of life in this room, giving people the illusion that the owner is still alive and healthy, but just walked out of the door.Chen Liye even felt that as long as he stood here, Lin Qingyan might come back at noon.He would drag him to eat, and listen to what he was worrying about Xie Weixian as usual, and count for Chen Liye with his fingers how long it was before he went to hell.

... are all illusions.

Chen Liye stood for a while, walked into the room, walked to the table, and picked up a piece of paper on the table.

After looking at it for a while, he put it down again and lowered his eyes.

Chen Liye was afraid that his things would be broken, so he turned around and took two cardboard boxes, put his things in them neatly, carried them away, and put them in his bedroom without opening them. Pass.

For the next few days, Chen Liye stayed at home, thinking about Lin Qingyan.

The "mirrors" mentioned by Lin Qingyan, Chen Liye probably knows which level they are in.

Among the eighteen layers of hell, there is a hell that is obviously related to mirrors—so obvious that it is directly displayed in the name, and it is called the evil mirror hell.

According to the omnipotent Baidu Encyclopedia, this hell is not responsible for detaining criminals, but for work similar to interrogation—when a person commits too many crimes or refuses to admit it, he will be beaten into this hell. After looking into the mirror of evil mirror hell, all the crimes of this person's life will appear in the mirror.

This kind of innocent hell, I don't know what kind of level was designed to make Lin Qingyan die here.Moreover, in the Iceberg Hell, a woman's boyfriend also died there, saying that he was "pulled into the mirror" and died.

...What kind of checkpoint is this going to be?

But compared to the checkpoints, Chen Liye's more headache was Xu Muyu.

Undoubtedly, just as Lin Qingyan truly loved Xu Muyu, Xu Muyu also deeply loved Lin Qingyan.Coupled with what Lin Qingyan said to her when he was crazy, there is basically no way to restore Lin Qingyan's scumbag plan.

Moreover, it is considered true love to be able to stay with Lin Qingyan even now.

Rather...

Chen Liye had an idea, then he turned to Xie Weixian and said, "Do you want to tell the truth to his wife?"

Xie Weixian watched the TV without turning his head: "You mean, you want to tell her about hell?"

Chen Liye nodded.After nodding his head, he realized that Xie Weixian, who was staring at the TV, couldn't see him nodding, so he responded again: "Yes."

"Why, you don't know?" Xie Weixian finally turned his head to look at him and said, "Hell is something that ordinary people cannot know.

Even if you say it to her, those words will be converted into other words. "

"...?" Chen Liye didn't understand, "What do you mean?"

Xie Weixian also knew that it would be difficult to understand just by explaining it this way, so he made an analogy: "For example, I am a participant and you are an ordinary person. I ask you if you believe that there is hell in the world. At this time I I haven't said too much to you, so you can understand. But if I say "I went to hell" in the next sentence, it will become "I ate dinner" to you."

Chen Liye: "..."

understood.

That is to say, the words about hell will be replaced with words that are not right.

"If you don't want to be regarded as a neurotic with a speaking problem, then don't say it." Xie Weixian turned his head back to watch the TV, and continued, "But it's very strange, I thought you already knew this rule , you haven't told anyone about hell yet?"

"No." Chen Liye said, "I wanted to talk to Luo Zi before, but the first thing he said was that he didn't believe me, so I didn't say anything further. I don't have many friends, and others don't bother to talk about it, so no one ever said it. .”

After hearing this, Xie Weixian turned his head around again: "You have very few friends?"

"...Yeah." Chen Liye blinked, "What's wrong? I'm too lazy to socialize."

"No." Xie Weixian turned his head back again and said, "I thought you had a lot of friends."

"...Why do you think so?"

Xie Weixian said, "Because you are a nice person."

After hearing this, Chen Liye was silent for a long time.

Then, he turned his head, looked at the TV, and replied: "You think so because you like me. Not everyone in the world will like me. I'm lazy and have a lot of things to do. Be my friend." I'm exhausted...I'm not a nice guy."

"..."

Xie Weixian was also silent for a long time.

He really wanted to refute, but he knew it was useless to refute.So after being silent for a long time, he only choked out three dry words.

"You're fine."

He said.

It was a bit stubborn, like a child who would not accept rebuttals.

Xie Weixian's words came a little unexpectedly.Chen Liye thought that he would not continue this topic, so he was stunned for a while.After a while, he smiled.

Chen Liye did not reply.

This is the fourth day he has been stuck at home.If nothing else, he will enter hell again on the eighth day.

Chen Liye was a little reluctant to go in again.And the main reason is that he doesn't want Xie Weixian to go through the bridge again.

That's their hell for each other.

But despite all the reluctance, what should come still came.

This was the eighth day that Chen Liye had trapped himself at home.

However, on the eighth day when something was supposed to happen, nothing happened.

At midnight, Chen Liye was lying on the bed, watching the time on his phone jump from 23:59 to midnight.

Lord Yan didn't come to call him.

Chen Liye stared at the lighted phone for a long time again, until the phone turned off automatically, then he silently put down his hand.

In any case, Chen Liye finally ushered in a good thing - his stay outside hell was extended.Although I don't know the reason for the extension, but the fact that I can not go to hell can make me happy, after all, no one likes to go to that kind of crappy place.

Chen Liye's heart, which had been decadent for more than a week, finally jumped a little.He stretched himself on the bed, turned around and fell asleep.

The days passed lazily again.

Xie Weixian cooks for Chen Liye every day, and lives a peaceful, comfortable and lazy life.

He tried his best not to disturb Chen Liye.Although he was used to seeing the lives and deaths of the participants and the people around him leaving him, Chen Liye obviously wouldn't get used to it.

Chen Liye's mental state has been getting worse and worse recently.Last week, he would watch TV to divert his attention. This week, the TV was not turned on, and sometimes the curtains were not opened. He just sat on the bed in the bedroom and covered himself with a quilt. Those things are in a daze.

Can stay like this all day.

Xie Weixian knew that Chen Liye was struggling to make a decision.

He charged Lin Qingyan's mobile phone, but he didn't know the password, so he stared at a little girl on the lock screen in a daze.Sometimes he would take out a piece of paper from those cardboard boxes and stare at it silently.

Xie Weixian didn't know what it was.

Then, three more days passed.

On the fourth morning, Chen Liye woke up early, ran back and forth twice, and carried all of Lin Qingyan's belongings into the car.

"I'm eating outside at noon today." He said, "I'm going to attend to my funeral, wish me well."

Xie Weixian frowned: "What do you want to do?"

"I want to follow Brother Lin's idea and find a way to let her go." Chen Liye said, "I have been hesitating these days because I think it is unfair to Xu Muyu. But after thinking about it for a long time, I think this is the best way for her Her daughter is only four years old, if she doesn't find another man, her classmates will poke her back in the future and say that her father is mentally ill, and it will be difficult for Xu Muyu to take care of the child alone."

"Although it is very realistic, this is the best. Love cannot beat reality."

Xie Weixian didn't speak for a long time, he just watched Chen Liye put on his shoes, picked up his things and turned to leave. When Chen Liye opened the door to leave, he said: "You can see other people's affairs very clearly."

Chen Liye paused when he left: "..."

Xie Weixian went on to say: "You can't beat reality."

Chen Liye didn't speak, nor did he respond. He paused for a while, and left without saying a word.

The answer to Xie Weixian was the sound of the door closing with a slam.

"You can't beat reality."

This sentence has been lingering in Chen Liye's mind for a long time.

At that moment, he suddenly realized that what he wanted to understand these days was not only Lin Qingyan's thoughts, but also Xie Weixian's thoughts.

They are helpless, they kneel in front of the reality, they grit their teeth and bleed, endure the pain of cutting flesh and bones, and let go of their beloved from their side.It's not because they choose to give up because of cowardice, but because they have to give up because they know what the road ahead will be like.

Today's weather is fine, the sun is very bright, and there are no clouds in the sky.

Chen Liye stood in front of the trash can. In the trash can were several cardboard boxes discarded by him. Inside were all of Lin Qingyan's sincerity.Now, they are piled with other garbage, surrounded by flies, and they are also a pile of garbage.

this is the truth.

No matter how unforgettable the scenery we have seen side by side in the past, no matter how much heart you have paid for each word written by the other party in the past, no matter how indestructible the sincerity that has been tested by the long river of age was once, now, at this moment, here, It's just a pile of rubbish.These hearts are no different from those rotten, useless, and smelly ones. After all, garbage does not distinguish between high and low.

Standing in front of this pile of rubbish, Chen Liye suddenly thought of himself.

He was standing there mourning the spring and autumn, when suddenly there was another scream from upstairs.

"Get out of the way!!!"

Chen Liye: "?"

Chen Liye looked up, and saw a thing swooping down, about to hit him in the face.

"...???"

Does this scene look a little familiar? ! ?

The author has something to say: combine the two chapters into one chapter, enjoy eating~

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