love is not allowed in hell

Time passed like this little by little.

Every second seems to be stretched twice as long, every second is like a year.

Chen Liye held Xie Weixian's hand, and in such a torment as if he was in the deepest layer of hell, he finally accompanied him to the silent whistle that ended.

The wound on Xie Weixian's body stopped bleeding and began to heal slowly.

Chen Liye glanced at the time.

12:30 midnight.

He entered the iceberg hell at 05:30.In other words, Xie Weixian's punishment lasted for seven hours.

... seven hours.

Every time he crossed the bridge, he had to suffer for such a long time.

Chen Liye thought of Xie Weixian he saw every time he came back from crossing the bridge.Xie Weixian is very calm every time, but now that he thinks about it carefully, it seems that his expression is not right every time, there is always a strange solemnity, probably because he still feels pain.

... But Chen Liye hadn't noticed it before.

Chen Liye lowered his eyes, his mind was still a little chaotic, but it was much calmer.After a while, he trembled and sighed again, tightening the hand holding Xie Weixian.

His face turned serious, as if he had made a very difficult and decisive decision.

The wounds on Xie Weixian's body were slowly healing by themselves, and it was around one o'clock that the wounds on his body finally healed completely.

Chen Liye stood by the bed and waited for him, waiting for him to wake up.After waiting like this for a long time, he finally saw Xie Weixian's eyelashes move.

He woke up.

Chen Liye let go of his hand and straightened his body.

Xie Weixian woke up, he felt his body was still in pain, couldn't help but gasped, and slowly opened his eyes.After he opened his eyes, he realized that something was wrong with the scene in front of him.

The scene in front of him was not the Naihe Bridge as usual, but Chen Liye's home.

It was still Chen Liye's bedroom.

Xie Weixian: "..."

...Could it be.

Xie Weixian turned his head with a stiff neck.

Sure enough, Chen Liye was sitting on the edge of the bed looking at him with red eyes.

Xie Weixian: "..."

He got it.

The Gu Liye he saw before he passed out was not all hallucinations.

It was Chen Liye who really ran towards him, but under the pressure of pain, Xie Weixian mistook him for Gu Liye.

He wiped his face with his hand and let out a long sigh.Chen Liye was stunned for a moment, feeling strange, Xie Weixian was not surprised, shocked or amazed by what happened before him, but on the contrary gave people a sense of relief that he was finally liberated.

Chen Liye's prepared words were blocked by his reaction, and he was a little stunned: "You..."

Xie Weixian sat up slowly, his face was full of exhaustion.

He lowered his eyes, as if deliberately avoiding his gaze, and didn't speak. After a while, he turned his head to the other side.

He was really avoiding Chen Liye.

Chen Liye saw his intention, and asked tremblingly, "What's your reaction?"

Chen Liye's eyes were still red, he was really scared to death by Xie Weixian.

When Xie Weixian heard his trembling voice, his heart skipped a beat, but he still didn't respond.

"...Shouldn't you say something?"

"..."

Xie Weixian insisted on keeping silent and not turning his head.

Chen Liye pursed his lips and tried his best to keep his voice steady, but he couldn't help but yelled tremblingly: "Weixian."

For Xie Weixian, when these two words come out of Chen Liye's mouth, there will be a magical power that captivates his heartstrings.He shivered slightly all over, and finally he couldn't continue the stalemate with Chen Liye like this.

He turned his head slowly, but he still didn't have the courage to look at Chen Liye.

He knew what it meant for Chen Liye to call him by his real name.

Xie Weixian lowered his head, his voice was very hoarse, and asked: "You...remember?"

Chen Liye clenched his lower lip, nodded, and replied, "Yes."

After Xie Weixian got an affirmative answer, he didn't speak for a while.

A little silence.

After a while, he sighed again, seemingly not surprised, and said: "I knew I couldn't hide it from you."

"..."

"You're a smart man." He said in a hoarse voice, "I know I can't keep it from you all the time. Paper can't hold fire, and one day you will suspect that something is wrong with me. Even if I don't want you to know about some things, you can't hide it from me. meeting……"

Chen Liye interrupted him suddenly: "I never doubted you."

"..."

"Even if I found out that you lied to me, I never doubted you."

The more Chen Liye spoke, the more he felt aggrieved, and his voice trembled more and more: "It was the night watchman from Iceberg Hell who gave me the statement of guilt and told me your name, and he was the one who told me that something would happen when the night watchman crossed the bridge... I never doubted it. you."

"..." When Xie Weixian heard this, he couldn't help but turned his head and cursed in a low voice, "That dead thing..."

Seeing him turn his head away again, Chen Liye said, "Look at me."

"..."

Xie Weixian was indifferent and silently refused.

It's a pity that Chen Liye didn't allow him to refuse, and said again: "Come here, turn your head and look at me."

Xie Weixian had a headache, so he had to resign himself to his fate and turned his head away.

As soon as he turned his head, he saw Chen Liye was still looking at him with red eyes, his red eyes stabbed Xie Weixian like a sharp edge.Xie Weixian's brows twitched, feeling guilty, sad, impulsive and other emotions swallowed him up like a flood of beasts in an instant.

Chen Liye said: "Is this always the case for you?"

"..."

Of course Xie Weixian knew what he was talking about.

His eyes drifted to the side again - Xie Weixian subconsciously wanted to escape.

Chen Liye was so annoyed by his avoidance that his voice suddenly raised several points: "Look at me!!"

Chen Liye had basically never yelled loudly before, and it was the first time for Xie Weixian to be yelled at by him, so he couldn't help but tremble all over.He thought that Chen Liye would shout again, his whole body tensed up, ready for his next attack.

But he didn't shout anymore.

On the contrary, Xie Weixian heard his choked up voice.

He froze for a moment, then looked up at Chen Liye.

Chen Liye really cried, the tears rolled down his cheeks and landed on the bed.

Xie Weixian: "..."

"...Why didn't you tell me."

Chen Liye's voice trembled so badly that he couldn't control it at all.

All the depression and incomprehension accumulated in his heart these days finally completely collapsed, and he shouted at Xie Weixian hysterically: "Why don't you tell me anything!? Why do you!? You don't want such a serious matter!" Tell me, you still don’t tell me what happened back then!! I’m living a good life, you fucking broke in and asked me to draw a line with you, you’re sick!! Why do you want to draw a line? Why do you still rely on me when I come back every day? Why do you still take me to hell!?"

"I've done whatever you want me to do!! I believe so much in you. You have so many doubts about me that I haven't even asked you. I just believe that you will tell me yourself one day!! In the end, you just treat me like this! ?!"

The more Chen Liye yelled, the more he collapsed, the more he yelled, the more tears he shed, until finally his voice became hoarse, and his throat hurt like a fire.

He choked up again for a long time, and then said in a hoarse voice, "You're just doing this to me...?"

"..."

"I hate you." Chen Liye took a breath, choked up and said, "I hate you to death."

Xie Weixian didn't speak.Even if he had so many words to excuse, even if he knew that as long as he explained Chen Liye, he would be given a chance to forgive him.

He just quietly accepted Chen Liye's collapse and roar, he knew it would happen, he deserved it, he deserved it.

But Chen Liye felt sad.Xie Weixian is still the same Xie Weixian, he knows it will be like this, and he has the realization that he will become like this, but he doesn't feel that he should make changes for this.

Chen Liye felt extremely sad.

He gritted his teeth and said, "Okay... that's fine, since that's the case, I'll go in by myself next time."

Xie Weixian, who had been quietly listening to his yelling, couldn't sit still when he heard this, and turned his head in shock: "What did you say!?"

When he looked up, he realized that Chen Liye had already taken off the ring on his finger. He took two unsteady steps back, then raised his hand, as if he wanted to smash the ring to the ground.

Xie Weixian was so frightened by his action that he rolled and scrambled off the bed: "Wait!!"

This time Xie Weixian was frightened to death by Chen Liye. Because he was too anxious, he threw himself on Chen Liye, and firmly grasped his hand holding the ring. Due to inertia, he also threw Chen Liye down on the ground. on the ground.

"Crazy!?!" Xie Weixian yelled, holding his hand tightly, "Do you know how important this is!? If you say you fall, you fall, you don't want to live!?"

Chen Liye seemed to be stung by his last words, and shouted at him heartbreakingly: "Of course I want to live!!"

Xie Weixian: "..."

After Chen Liye shouted this sentence, his voice also lowered. He was wronged and sad, and said with a choked voice: "Of course I want to live...I want to live with you..."

"Of course I know this is very important...I don't really want to fall...I just..."

He took a breath, then raised his head and said, "I just...you don't respond to me at all, so..."

"You just... don't care about my feelings?"

"..."

Xie Weixian was completely speechless.

Every word Chen Liye said pierced his heart, every word and every sound turned into a rain of arrows all over the sky, piercing his heart full of holes, throbbing and throbbing.

Xie Weixian couldn't swallow the pain for a while.He closed his eyes, trembled slightly for a while with the hand holding Chen Liye, finally heaved a long sigh, let go of him, stood up, and took a few steps back.

After he let go of the hand clenched into a fist, Chen Liye spread his palm, and the ring rolled out of his palm. It rolled like that for a long distance, then turned around in a circle, and fell down.

Chen Liye sat up slowly, he took a few breaths, but he couldn't calm down, the resentment surged in his heart like a tsunami.

Neither of them spoke, and they were silent for a while facing each other.

Chen Liye was waiting for Xie Weixian to speak, he could explain or justify, anything was fine.

But Xie Weixian still didn't speak.After the two of them stood in silence for a while, Chen Liye suddenly sighed, as if disappointed.

"I'm going to sleep." Chen Liye suddenly said hoarsely, "Don't let me see you tomorrow."

Xie Weixian's expression suddenly changed.He was a little anxious and opened his mouth, but when the words came to his lips, he couldn't speak again.

After Chen Liye finished speaking, he stood up, picked up the ring that had rolled far away, and turned to leave.

"Wait." Xie Weixian wanted to stop him, "I'll just go, you are here..."

"Can't sleep."

After leaving this sentence, Chen Liye closed the door and left.

Xie Weixian: "..."

What is no way...

He turned his head in confusion, only to see his blood was all over the bed, and there was a faint smell of blood in the air.

...I really can't sleep.

Xie Weixian was silent.

He stood still and remained silent for a long time.Then he walked to the window, stood by the window, and looked at the sky outside.

He also felt a terrible pain in his heart.On the one hand, it was because of Chen Liye, and on the other hand, it was because it was his fatal injury.

He knew that Chen Liye shouldn't have kept this matter from him, but he couldn't tell him about it either.

This matter is too cruel.Xie Weixian knew Chen Liye well, if he knew about this, he would definitely feel more uncomfortable than Xie Weixian himself.

He is doomed to die, why should he tell this matter.

But... Chen Liye cried.

Xie Weixian squinted his eyes in displeasure.

Xie Weixian feels uncomfortable when he cries, of course he wants to hug him and pat his back to comfort him like before, but he can't now.

The alarm bell in Xie Weixian's heart kept ringing, deafeningly loud, warning him all the time.

No, absolutely not.

...But Chen Liye cried.

Xie Weixian frowned.

Xie Weixian felt that he should say something.He knew that Chen Liye, who had remembered everything, would not feel very good inside, except for Gu Liye himself, he was the person in the world who knew how depressing those things were to him.

Chen Liye needed him.

But he can't give him too much now.

The more Xie Weixian thought about it, the more confused he felt, he couldn't help but raised his head and rubbed his hair.

He looked at the sky outside the window, but he couldn't calm down for a long time. Chen Liye's cries to him just now circulated in his mind over and over again, every word of his heart, stabbing his heart recklessly along with the fatal wound back then.

Among those broken cries, the last soft words that choked up to the point where the words were broken were the most lethal to him.

"You just... don't care about my feelings?"

"..."

how could it be possible.

Just because I care, I can't get too close.

Xie Weixian sighed, sat down slowly on the ground, buried his head in his arms, what should he do now.

Chen Liye has already remembered everything, and when Xie Weixian dies, he will completely fall into the abyss again, and it is impossible to get out of this shadow again.No matter how good the girl he met in the future, and how comfortable his life was, he would always think of it from time to time.

I remembered that 2000 years ago, he offended all the civil and military officials in the court for a general guarding the border.

Even in the end, he died without a place to bury him.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-08-1523:06:44~2020-08-1619:21:00期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: 20 bottles of the sparrow holding the daisy;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!