Beyond gold and jade [Yu Huang]

"I see." Ye Xiu took out a bottle of water, put it back and took out two cans of beer, "But I really want to drink, can you accompany me?"

Blue River looked at the beer can tangled up, but still nodded his head bravely.

There was no way he could refuse this person.

Stuffing the cold beer into warm hands, Lan He shivered for a moment before lifting the tab, hesitating to bring it to his mouth, only to find out from the corner of his eye that Ye Xiu took a big gulp like a cow.

"God Ye, don't drink like this! It hurts your stomach!" Seeing that the golden wine had spilled from the corner of his mouth and stained his beige shirt, Lan He frantically pulled out a few pieces of paper to wipe Ye Xiu's face, and finally wiped it a few times. Then I saw Ye Xiu's expression was not quite right.

Blue River has been watching this person since a long time ago.Watching him release singles and albums, each of which is the number one in sales; watching posters of his tour concerts are plastered all over the streets and alleys, and a few of his unruly smiling faces can be rolled up casually when the wind blows; watching him I won one award after another, stood on the stage with a smile and said that next year I would take a bunch of them home to stand on the table...

Then I looked at him, in an autumn when rumors were flying everywhere, he was driven into the abyss by a group of people like wolves and tigers, and fell to pieces.

As a fan, Lan He once cried uncontrollably for that unreachable person, not only because of the misfortune he suffered, but also because of his own powerlessness.

And now, at this very moment, this person is right in front of his eyes, and he can reach it with just a stretch of his hand.

As if to touch his sorrow.

"I have a friend...he is very good at making music, very talented..." Ye Xiu leaned his head on the back of the sofa and lowered his voice very softly.

Lan He knew who he was talking about, but he continued stiffly, "...and then?"

"And then... he died."

say no more.Say no more.Blue River shouted in his heart, he always thought that he was always ready and had become someone who could share the pain for his idol, but the moment he really heard it, he still wanted to shrink back.

"you are still alive."

"Yeah...I'm still alive. So I'm going to keep going and make lots and lots of good music."

Ye Xiu took a sip of his wine and swallowed it slowly, "Actually, he left a lot of great manuscripts...it's really great, if it is sung, it will definitely be the most popular...but, I can't even sing a single sentence. Come out, I can't even sing the old songs well...hehe."

"As long as you are still willing to sing, there will be people willing to listen. You haven't changed, and neither have many people. They are all waiting for you." Lan He didn't know what expression he used to say this sentence.He touched his cheek, it was still dry.

Ye Xiu suddenly turned his head and looked at him with strange eyes, "I said, are you all so blind?"

Lan He didn't react for a while, "What, what?"

"I can't sing anymore! Can you hear me clearly? It's not that I don't want to sing, I don't want to sing, but I can't." Ye Xiu's expression became calm again, and all the sadness from just now disappeared completely. As if he had never expressed such emotion before, "You are willing to listen to whatever I want to sing, just this broken voice that can't go up and down, what do you like about me?"

"Shut up!" Anger welled up inexplicably, and Lan He stood up abruptly, spilling the beer in his hand through the opening, "I like you...it has nothing to do with you!"

20.

Lan He still remembers how he "met" Ye Xiu.

In the third year of junior high school, he had a big fight with his parents because of his grades. The restlessness in his adolescence made him, who was always good-tempered, almost lose his mind, and ran out after slamming the door.The weather was very cold, and he ran out in a thin coat and cotton slippers, shivering in the windy street.He faced the cold like that, walking aimlessly, his mind was full of messy math problems, ups and downs of scores, and the voices of his parents and teachers questioning him, his heart was so cold that it seemed to be filled with cold wind.

Passers-by along the way all looked sideways at him, but he just kept walking forward.

Everyone is asking, where do you want to go, but he can only vaguely see where you want to go, but can't clearly express it.This kind of inexplicable thought has never been easy for others to understand.They asked over and over again, and he could only run away.

When he came under a huge electronic screen, the passers-by looked up excitedly at the screen. Blue River bumped into several people who were standing still, and only looked up blankly when he heard the deep and melodious singing voice.

At that time, Ye Xiu was still very young, his vitality and confidence seemed to be inexhaustible, and he was swaying it to his heart's content all the time.The show host asked him to sing a cappella, and he didn't hold back, he just sang a section openly, and when the last tone ended, he opened his eyes, his pupils were filled with the most ostentatious colors.

"Ye Xiu's strength is obvious to all... You were still young when you debuted, did you encounter obstacles in this path?"

"Hinder? Maybe there is, I don't remember clearly."

"Remember, don't remember clearly?"

"My mind is full of music. How can I have time to memorize so many boring things? I just need to know that the front is where I want to go, and that's enough. Why do I care so much about the rest?"

You just need to know where you want to be.

These words encouraged Lan He on that bewildered winter day, and made him start to fall in love with this person.He started to review everything about Ye Xiu. The cheap MP3 was full of his songs. When he got tired of reviewing his homework, he took it out and listened to it one by one until he could muster up the energy to continue working hard.Even if he had to eat instant noodles for a month, he would save money to buy Ye Xiu's new album; even if he never had enough money to go to a concert, he would stand outside the venue the whole time and listen to the sporadic sounds inside.

When I look at you, I can only hold the dazzling you in my eyes.

And your eyes hold the whole world, looking at you, I can see the whole world.

His parents once promised that as long as Lan He was admitted to a good university, he would be allowed to enjoy the treatment in the front row once.During the three years of high school, Lan He has been working hard and looking forward to it—but he didn't wait.

Ye Xiu left sadly without even explaining a word.Lan He looked at the photos taken by the media at the airport, holding the admission notice, crying like he lost the whole world.

Those who have never experienced it will never understand the kind of devout mentality that is almost religious.Now the whole world is criticizing fans for their overly devoted attitude, but even at this age, Lan He still maintains his original aspirations.During the time Ye Xiuyuan was away abroad, he became the president of the support club, watching the familiar fans graduate one by one, he could only cheer each other up with the few remaining active old fans.Knowing that a girl found Ye Xiu's trace in the music academy in England, he persuaded her earnestly not to disturb Ye Xiu's life.But the girl persisted, saying that Ye Xiu's condition was not good, and asked him if he wanted to send something to let Ye Xiu know that they were still supporting him.

"Then you... put a pot of mint on his seat."

"What do you mean? Shall I write a card?"

"You don't need to explain anything, just put it down and go."

It's the feeling of having a relationship that doesn't need anyone to understand, not even the person they love.They knew that Ye Xiu was a cold person and didn't care much about the fans' feelings, but they could still love and look forward to it without hesitation.

Looking forward to seeing you again.

But now that they could face each other, Lan He only had the urge to turn around and run away.

What am I doing! ! !He looked at the wet alcohol on the two of them, wanting to cry but not crying.

"You..." Ye Xiu wiped his face stiffly.With a sad face, Lan He took out a large stack of tissues to wipe him, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry! God Ye, I'm so excited...I'm sorry..."

Ye Xiu let him wipe his face sorely, and didn't know what to say for a while.He has seen too many excited fans, some even fainted from excitement, but he has never seen a fan who said he loves him but poured wine on his face in the next second.

"Okay... I don't understand what's in your heads." Ye Xiu helplessly slapped his hand away, "Don't wipe it...Okay, don't wipe it...I said you don't wipe it! "

Lan He was so yelled at that he immediately withdrew his hands, his expression so ugly that he seemed about to cry, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry... God Ye, I'm sorry... I'll be leaving right away... You should have a good rest..."

"Stop." Lan He was about to walk out, but Ye Xiu called to stop him, "You...you like me that much?"

"Yes... I like it very much." Although his love for Ye Xiu could not be stopped, but if Lan He really wanted to say that he liked it in front of him, he would still feel embarrassed.

"Even if I can't sing?"

"We love more than just your songs."

"Even though I might actually be gay?"

"that's not important……"

"Even if I don't care what you think?"

"I said, it has nothing to do with you..."

"Okay." Ye Xiu clicked his tongue and lit a cigarette, "I still don't understand."

When Lan He heard it, he was almost on his knees, and couldn't help roaring in his heart: I know you are an idiot for things other than music, so I didn't expect you to understand at all!But this kind of madness can only be vented in his heart, he is still so powerless in the face of Ye Xiu, "If it's okay, I'm leaving..."

"Wait." Ye Xiu spoke again, and Lan He scolded himself for being a coward in his heart, but he still turned around again.

"The Lanqiao Chunxue who made the birthday celebration video on Weibo...is that you?"

Lan He laughed exaggeratedly, waved his hands again and again, "No! No! Who is that? I don't know him at all."

Ye Xiu chuckled, "