Hypnosis on the tip of the tongue

The Buddha said that the source of human suffering in this life is nothing more than the three poisons of "greed, anger, and ignorance".

Before I met Ah Yin, my world was gloomy.

What exists in memory is the infinite abuse of parents and the brutal beating of father...

I never tell others about the bloody past, but in the scorching summer, when I go out wearing long sleeves to cover the scars, my friends always cast curious and puzzled eyes, which make me feel ashamed.

I will never forget the first time we met, Ah Yin was like an elf, her pink dress turned into a dreamy light, and the smile on her face made me obsessed.

I never thought about what it would be like, just sinking like this...

It seems to be a ray of light in my life, and since then it has made my heart belong.In my life, I have never actively pursued anything, and Ah Yin is the first and the last.

What happened afterwards was beyond my expectations. Although my father was cruel, I never thought that I was not his own. When I saw my mother hugging Ah Yin’s father, my heart ached. It's because of Ah Yin, a strong person like her, if she knows all this, wouldn't she fall from heaven to hell?

I have never complained about the misunderstandings, resentments, and curses that followed. I have been a wicked person who has been in hell for more than ten years. It’s only a few days, but Ah Yin can’t do it. I can’t bear her to go there day and night. Dirty place.

Although she hates me, I can feel her attachment to me every lonely night.

The small trembling body in my arms has since become the motivation for me to grit my teeth and persist.

I don't have any relationship with He Xing. He didn't show me the kindness of nurturing me. Instead, Ah Yin deeply misunderstood and resented me. After following, I also hated him, especially when he looked at Ah Yin. , the deep nostalgia and the shadow of others in the eyes made me even more angry and uneasy.

When I was a child, countless curses and whips fell on me. I was never afraid, but his eyes made me afraid.

So, dare not leave...

So, guarding all night...

I will never forget that rainy day. If I went a little later at that time, would it make me regret it for the rest of my life?

Fortunately, my Ah Yin is still intact in my arms, but the seeds of hatred have already germinated and broke through the ground. When the bright red blood spread along the fingers, for the first time, I saw it in He Xing's eyes. When it comes to fear.

After that, it was the mother's begging...

She is a poor woman, I hate myself for being incompetent, unable to protect these two fragile women, once again faced with punches and kicks, this time, it was given by He Xing, Ah Yin hid in the corner trembling and crying, I hugged her Looking at her trying to smile at her, she cried even harder.

That night, she didn't resent me, but let me hold her in my arms like a rag doll.

Ah Yin is getting older, and her body is no longer the thick milky smell, but the aroma of peach blossoms, which fascinates me, so what if I fall into it for a lifetime?

Gradually, I grew up, and I can tolerate all the pain, oppression by the upper class, and He Xing's exclusion, I can bear it all, as long as I see Ah Yin's smiling face.

But one day, she will grow up too.

She no longer calls me "sister" so sweetly, but every faint "sister" makes me exhausted physically and mentally.

I don't know what means He Xing used to maintain his image as a "good father" in Ah Yin's heart, and I don't want Ah Yin to believe those clues hastily, or that sentence, no matter how much wronged, as long as she is in heaven, I will be happy and at ease.

If you are willing to let me become a chess piece, I will become a chess piece in your hand, and you can distribute it at will;

If you want me to be your enemy, I'd like to show you the cold side and let you grow;

Ah Yin, why don't you understand, as long as it is what you want, I can give you everything without reservation.

I have known since I was a child that Ah Yin's beauty is not only attractive to me, she is like the sun, burning everything around her with scorching heat.

I have never paid attention to those suitors before, although they will be faintly sad, but I understand that they are just a fleeting moment, and Ah Yin will not pay attention to them.

Until a man named Shen Shuoxi appeared...

I became flustered and confused. Seeing Ah Yin smiling heartily beside her, my heart felt as if it had exploded.

So, fell down, resented...

I seem to be farther and farther away from that gentle sister in front of Ah Yin...

But I can't help following her steps. Over the years, she has been my belief and the spiritual pillar for my pursuit of everything. Without her, I don't know how to persevere.

Later Song Niannian, she was a kind girl, but she was not what I wanted.

Her sentence: "Let go, don't let He Yin hate you to the core." It completely broke my heart, and the subsequent drinking, smoking, all kinds of...

Facing his mother's disappointed eyes again, He Xing tightened his complex eyebrows...

I don't have the energy to face it.

Tears kept flowing, and my heart ached to the point of death, Ah Yin, Ah Yin, my Ah Yin, don't you want your sister anymore?

The moment I fainted for the first time, I knew that my body would not allow such raging anymore.I can only swallow all the pain in my stomach with tears in my stomach. I don't want Ah Yin to be embarrassed, even though she still can't see her heart clearly, and I don't want others to see my fragility. I reject Song Niannian again and again, It's not that I have never felt guilty, but the feeling of guilt is not worth a lifetime.

The person I want for the rest of my life, she has never changed.

Without her, I no longer have the desire to survive, and even secretly fantasize about whether I can be buried with her after death, but I know that even this simple wish has become out of reach now, and her side has already don't need me anymore...

If it were someone else, maybe I would fight for it...

But Shen Shuoxi, such a person who loves He Yin deeply, protects her, follows her and tolerates her, and the most important thing is A Yin and loves her deeply, how can I do it?

I am not afraid of anyone resenting me, but I am afraid of Ah Yin's tears, the bitter taste, I swear I will never taste it again in this life.

So, I let go. During the operation, when I saw A Yin's crying and swollen eyes, I compromised again, reluctant to give up, just to see her again.

I love you, it has nothing to do with you...

Hehe, what a hypocritical word, but it is used on me at this moment.

Ah Yin, I love you, no matter whether you hold my hand or not.

I am afraid that the habit from childhood to adulthood will not change in this lifetime.

I am greedy, angry, and crazy towards you. In this life, I am afraid that no one can redeem me, so let me sink into hell, with love for you, I think, when I meet Po Meng, drink that When I have a bowl of Mengpo soup, can my love for you drift away under the tree on the other side?

Ah Yin, Ah Yin, Ah Yin, Ah Yin...