Boyfriends are crazy

The boy paused for a moment, with a serious expression on his face, and suddenly asked, "Why did you follow in?"

"What?" Shen Xibai asked in a daze, even forgot to cry, took a breath, his eyes were still a little swollen from crying, he couldn't understand the meaning of the boy's words.

He obviously spoke very softly just now, but suddenly his tone became cold, and the speed of changing his face was too fast.

The boy's Adam's apple rolled up and down, and seemingly inadvertently, he slowly lowered his head, and his gaze also moved down, no longer meeting Shen Xibai's gaze. ——This is a very evasive action.

"It's dirty and smelly inside, why come in with me."

The boy's tone softened a lot, and he spoke softly, but hearing these words in Shen Xibai's ears, there was an indescribable sadness.

Shen Xibai moved his butt again, moving closer to where the boy was sitting.

He muttered, "Why can't I come in?"

After finishing speaking, Shen Xibai was a little annoyed, and murmured, "Could it be that you still want me to leave you alone in this small dark room to fend for yourself?"

The more he talked, the angrier Shen Xibai became, and his resentment and dissatisfaction with this ruined place further increased, with accusations and slander between the lines.

Hearing Shen Xibai's answer, the boy raised his head leisurely, slowly turned his face to the side, and looked in Shen Xibai's direction.

The surroundings were really too dark, and Shen Xibai was only more than ten centimeters away from him, which allowed him to barely see the outline of the other person's face clearly.

Under such circumstances, Shen Xibai's eyesight was not much better than boys', and he couldn't see everything around him clearly.

But he still felt the boy's straight gaze.

This line of sight was extremely aggressive and purposeful. Shen Xibai, who was being stared at, couldn't help but tremble all over, touched the back of his neck, and muttered uncertainly, "What's the matter, why are you staring at me like that?" Follow me."

Scary.

"I want to smoke." The boy opened his mouth expressionlessly, staring at Shen Xibai's face leisurely, then narrowed his eyes again.

His answer was once again wrong, very inexplicable. This was the second time he mentioned that he wanted to smoke.

Shen Xibai's face collapsed, and he cursed, "...you, then don't stare at me!"

The boy raised his eyebrows, returned to the bohemian look just now, and joked, "Is that why you don't want me to smoke?"

Listening to the other party's crazy remarks, Shen Xibai closed his eyes, held his breath, and said in a muffled voice, "Forget it, there's no smoke here anyway, you just want to go."

The boy stopped talking, sat on the spot, turned around, and sat facing Shen Xibai, then continued to stare at Shen Xibai with a playful look.

Shen Xibai became more and more uncomfortable being stared at, moved his neck, shrugged his shoulders, and his expression was a little stiff.

"Can I touch you?" The boy stared at Shen Xibai's arm with a serious expression and a hint of curiosity in his eyes.

"..." Shen Xibai's expression was blank for a moment, and his brain began to seriously think about this question.

He really didn't know.

In the whole world, Yan Muqin is the only one who can see himself. He also tried to touch other people, but his hands are like air, and they will pass directly through the other person's body. He can't even touch objects, and his sense of existence is completely zero.

Just as Shen Xibai was thinking about the possibility of carrying out this matter, the boy raised his eyebrows, and then grabbed Shen Xibai's wrist.

Quick and accurate.

"..."

"..."

The two stared and looked at each other.

And... so fucking suddenly.

Shen Xibai was a little surprised, this was the first time in this world that he could touch someone other than himself.

The boy began to play with Shen Xibai's fingers carefully, holding Shen Xibai's fingers in the palm of his hand, rubbing and pressing them non-stop, as if he was confirming whether the person in front of him really existed, with a few Probe very cautiously.

Seeing the boy having a great time playing, Shen Xibai wanted to pull his hand back several times, but he forcibly held back and let the other party continue to play.

Unexpectedly, Shen Xibai's connivance, in exchange for the other party's more unscrupulous caressing.

The boy was no longer satisfied with touching Shen Xibai's fingers, he first tentatively touched Shen Xibai's arm, then touched his shoulder, and pinched the other's face uncontrollably.

"..." Shen Xibai had a look of lovelessness.

Finally, from the very beginning of the touch, the boy who had been stern-faced seemed to be sure of something, showing a horrible smile, and before Shen Xibai could react, he wrapped his arms around the other's waist and imprisoned him in my arms.

"...!!" Shen Xibai was unprepared, and was embraced by the boy in a jiffy. He was shocked and wanted to stand up, but he was hugged by the boy again and fell back. into each other's arms.

"..."

"..."

Shen Xibai lay in the boy's arms, tilted his head sideways, and looked at each other. The boy tilted his neck, with a smile in his eyes, so strong that Shen Xibai couldn't break free at all.

Just as Shen Xibai was brewing emotions and wanted to curse, the boy suddenly leaned his head on the back of Shen Xibai's neck.

The boy's body temperature was extremely low, not a normal temperature at all. As soon as his head rested on the back of Shen Xibai's neck, it was so cold that Shen Xibai couldn't help shivering, as if falling into an ice cellar, as if being trapped by a piece of ice. hold.

"do not move."

Feeling Shen Xibai's struggle in a small arc, the boy said sullenly.

When Shen Xibai heard his voice, his heart suddenly softened again, and he didn't move.

"Actually..." The boy opened his eyes, buried his face on Shen Xibai's back, and his voice was a bit dull.

"I don't like smoking."

Shen Xibai froze for a moment, then blinked quickly, a little unresponsive.

"My mother was pregnant when she died."

The boy said this very calmly.

So calm that when Shen Xibai heard this sentence, he didn't realize the extremely impactful information contained in this sentence.

After finally waiting for him to digest it slowly, Shen Xibai only felt that he was getting colder, and he shivered three times from the cold.

"Her death was not an accident. The murderer was my father's creditor. My father owed a lot of debt because of online gambling. The person who came to collect the debt killed her." The boy's voice was very cold, speaking At the time, the sound didn't seem to have much ups and downs.

If Shen Xibai hadn't faintly noticed that the other party's strength in hugging him had grown stronger, and that the other party's shoulders were trembling slightly, he might really have thought that the other party's heart wasn't fluctuating at all.

"For money, he chose to reconcile..." the boy paused, "I hate him."

Shen Xibai felt the other party's breathing that was sometimes relaxed and sometimes rapid, moved his lips, and wanted to say something to comfort the other party, but found that he didn't know how to speak, he just felt a throbbing pain in his heart, and was very depressed.

"I don't want him to have a good life, so I started smoking, drinking, fighting, skipping classes... The more depraved I am, the more miserable he is, the happier I am..."

"I want to punish him...I want to punish myself too..."

The boy slowly dissected his heart, word by word, word by word.

What he hated was his father's inaction and the man's reconciliation and compromise with the murderer.What he hates is that he is powerless and can't change anything, he can only be forced to accept it.

You know...before these things happened, he was being cultivated by the school as a key seedling of Tsinghua University....

But the better he gets, the more he hates himself, the more he loathes himself.

How can he live so well...

Shen Xibai was terrified when he heard it, and was shocked by the facts that the other party said several times, so he didn't know how to react.

He just felt that his chest was very stuffy and stuffy, which made him a little out of breath.

This feeling of depression caused Shen Xibai, who had just cried, to start crying silently again, his nose felt sore, and his eye sockets swelled.

But the difference is that this time, when he cried, he was very careful, not daring to make any sound, and pressed his lips tightly to suppress his crying.

Just when Shen Xibai's brain was running at high speed, he began to organize his words, trying to calm down the boy's emotions.

The head resting on the back of his neck seemed to have sensed something, and it suddenly lifted up.

In the next second, Shen Xibai felt a pair of big hands touching his face, and then he wiped off the water stains little by little.

The boy was amused by him, "Why are you crying? What is there to cry about?"

Shen Xibai sobbed for a while, took a deep breath, looked at the other's playful face, couldn't help but cursed, "I love you so badly."

The boy's smile was not restrained, on the contrary, he smiled more openly, the corners of his eyes were curved into crescents, and even eight teeth were exposed, and the two cute canine teeth were faintly visible.

"of course can."

Shen Xibai looked at the other party's unscrupulous appearance, a little speechless, and became even more angry, his cheeks puffed up in anger, his face was stern, and he didn't want to talk.

But it was also because of this sudden interruption that distracted him and allowed his tears to be controlled.

The two hugged each other tightly, sitting in this dirty, dark and smelly room, keeping each other warm.

Listen to the discordant sounds from various creatures in the room.

"Yan Muqin..." After a long silence, Shen Xibai suddenly called out the other party's name.

"Ok?"

"When will you leave this place?"

He was referring to this school that seemed to house the mentally ill.

The boy paused and asked back, "You want me to leave?"

Shen Xibai was silent, and opened his mouth sullenly, "This is not the place you should come to at all, you have done nothing wrong, and you don't need to punish yourself at all..."

"You should have the brightest tomorrow and the enviable future. You don't belong here."

The boy didn't speak, just hugged him tightly, and didn't know if he listened or not.

Shen Xibai continued to add, "I really don't want to see you hurt in front of me again."

The boy clenched his hands and made a clucking sound, as if this sentence really stimulated him in a certain sense.

Finally, Shen Xibai heard the boy who had been silent for a while muffled, "I see."

After a while, the boy said again, "Let me lean against you and sleep for a while, I'm tired."

Shen Xibai gave a "hmm" and smiled, "Go to sleep, tomorrow will be better."