Slag Gong Love History

Xiao Hao stared at Cheng Qi quietly, feeling an inexplicably bad feeling rising from the bottom of his heart, and the chill slowly ravaged his limbs.

He didn't know why this was - one second he was full of indifferent ridicule, but the next second he suddenly felt that Cheng Qi's crying was a very bad thing.

Cheng Qi finally moved.

He rubbed his cheek with his hand, looked down at his wet fingers in a daze, his face was still expressionless, and he still didn't think of looking at Xiao Hao's side.

He just stood up slowly, and walked out of the private room in a low-key and unobtrusive manner.

The moment Cheng Qi opened the door, Xiao Hao felt as if he couldn't breathe suddenly.

There was a terrible premonition, a tearing pain unexpectedly appeared in his chest - it seemed that after the person walked out like this, he would never come back again.

He pushed the boy A who was hugging his neck desperately, and it took a lot of effort to tear the drunk brown candy off his body.He stood up, obviously anxious, but his legs seemed to be filled with lead, and every step was very difficult to move.

The group of drunken guys went their separate ways, and no one stopped Xiao Hao, he chased out the door in a few steps, and followed behind Cheng Qi step by step.

Cheng Qi didn't walk fast, and he didn't notice anyone following him at all.The direction of going downstairs is not this way, and the direction of the elevator is not this way either. There is a turn at the end of the road he is walking on. Xiao Hao knows that after turning there, it is just a storage room, and it is a dead end at all.

Cheng Qi also knew that there was no way there.

He wasn't looking for an exit, he was just looking for a place where no one would pass by.The last few steps were extremely difficult, almost completely relying on the support of the wall to barely go on.

He didn't want to lose his composure, and he didn't want to be seen by Xiao Hao with this miserable appearance.

So, just hide and go.It's fine as long as he doesn't see it.

……

Countless kinds of emotions that can't tell what it's like are jammed together in such a chaotic manner that it almost drives people crazy.

Cheng Qi usually considers himself a rational person, but at this moment, he clearly realized that the turbulent whirlpool of emotions was trying to swallow him up, and his whole body was like a person drowning in the vast sea, without the slightest strength to struggle.

He thought of an afternoon many, many years ago.He was lying on the bed with a low fever, and he heard someone knocking on the door of the dormitory while he was half asleep.

I don't want to move, I can't get up, I just pretend to be dead, anyway, if no one opens the door, I will leave in a while - obviously such thoughts are flooding my mind, but in the end I got out of bed and opened the door.

Before opening the door of fate, the trajectory of his life was extremely ordinary and clear.

Then, he broke away from the original track and galloped in the night where he could not see the future at all. He himself felt very incredible.

Rational, normal, calm, ordinary.When all the original attributes were crushed to pieces and recast on the wreckage, who is that person who reappeared in this world?Sometimes when Cheng Qi looks in the mirror, he feels inexplicably looking at a stranger who looks exactly like himself.

Cheng Qi didn't dislike that "stranger".

On the contrary, he was a little thankful that Xiao Hao honed him into what he is now.

Today, when he recalls himself when he first met Xiao Hao, he can’t help but shake his head—at that time, he was also in his second year of graduate school, and 24 years old is not too young, but he was still a completely innocent and ignorant fool Bai Leng.I have no inevitable dreams and pursuits, and I never thought about sticking to any principles and bottom lines. I just think that life should be simple and follow the rules and go with the flow.

Therefore, adhering to the principle of "letting go with the flow", at that time, he would be so stupid that he would cry because he couldn't coax a girl who was a hundred times simpler than Xiao Hao; He didn't have any ideas about development; he would be so stupid that after falling in love with Xiao Hao, he would be immersed in happiness defenselessly, completely unable to see the devastation under the mask of his perfect lover.

Instead of being forced to open up unexpected potentials like now, and quickly grow into a form that I can't even imagine.

In the eyes of the female students at the university and graduate students, the current Cheng Qi is simply a pity that they can't wait to go back and poke their eyes. When he was promoted, he had already sat firmly in the leadership position of their leader, and he was still the kind of big state-owned enterprise that is so powerful - how could such a super potential stock that has been trading at its limit all the time, how could it not have been seen at all back then? of?

But whenever others are so flattering, especially when a group of college classmates shouted at the party, "Xiaoyu, she hasn't come to the class reunion. If she sees you now, she won't regret that she didn't hurry up." ", Cheng Qi could only smile wryly.

For his ex-girlfriend, there is really nothing to regret.

Because if he was with someone other than Xiao Hao, if he hadn't been tortured by Xiao Hao, Cheng Qi knew that he would probably never be able to awaken this heaven-defying superpower in his entire life.

He did love that girl named Xiaoyu.

But if he really married her, Cheng Qi, who is in his early thirties, might just be satisfied with being a grassroots technician in a big company, earning what he said was a salary that could barely support his family in the past, and making a cup of tea at work Work slowly, go out for a walk with your proud son in your arms after work, and don't have any other pursuits.

And a woman who marries herself may feel that ordinary happiness is not bad, but it is more likely that she feels blind and married an incompetent husband and complains all day long.Cheng Qi doesn't think it has anything to do with being nagged by his wife - is it because of such a trivial matter that he can't get a divorce?It's not bad to just continue to be disliked until you grow old.

After all, ambition and struggle are reserved for those who have beaten chicken blood, not for Cheng Qi, who has always been indifferent to the world.

It wasn't until he met Xiao Hao that Cheng Qi discovered that he could also dig out a personality that had never been awakened in more than 20 years.

He finally could no longer live a mediocre life of "letting nature take its course" with peace of mind.Every look in Xiao Hao's eyes, every word of complaint, the sense of crisis that one day he will be out of control, and a god-like opponent like Liang Yu spur him to continue to grow.

In seven years, all the cells in his body have been renewed, and he has finally transformed from the idiot he was back then to what he is now step by step.

is it hard?Difficult.

Countless days and nights of confusion, how can I survive until today is sometimes a miracle when I think about it.If it happens again, Cheng Qi doesn't know if he can hold on, and when he thinks that all these efforts may be nothing to Xiao Hao in the end, he will really feel very sad and helpless.

In this world, only Xiao Hao can make the blood that flows slowly in his body boil.There is only Xiao Hao, he is not willing to give up at all, insisting on going all out and fighting for every inch of land.

He identified that person as the one in his life.

But is such wishful thinking really all right?

You regard others as the right person, but other people's rightful person is not you at all.

I have never been recognized from the beginning to the end, even if I barely get happiness, does it really count?

……

There are always many contradictory truths in this world.

Some people say that sincerity is as good as gold and stone, but some people say that there is no time to force it.Whether Yugong Yishan is mentally commendable or mentally ill, there is still no correct answer.

...I love you, but loving you is really hard.

Does the thought of wanting to be with you for the rest of your life just cause you more troubles?

Or, is it that I'm already out of the game?Just ignorant.Still harboring dreams that are impossible to achieve day after day, deceiving himself and others and laboriously planting an imaginary oasis in a desert with no soil at all.

Cheng Qi has long passed the age to be jealous of those little sluts.Xiao Hao blatantly flirted with others, but he didn't think it was unbearable before.

But just now, he suddenly realized that - even if that person loved him even a little bit, he wouldn't do that, right?

As long as there is a little bit of love, it is impossible to hurt the other party unscrupulously like that, without considering the other party's mood at all.

At least Cheng Qi couldn't do this kind of thing.

Not to mention treating his lover, even if he treats a suitor who doesn't intend to accept when he doesn't have a lover, he will have to consider other people's feelings to some extent.

This has nothing to do with nature or kindness, it is simply the most basic respect an ordinary person has for others.

As for Xiao Hao, he didn't even intend to leave him with this most basic respect.

……

Cheng Qi closed his eyes.He didn't know what he did wrong to be treated so cruelly.I don't know what to be wronged when I am wronged, and I don't know who to blame when I am resentful. In the end, I can only blame myself for being useless, and I can only swallow all the bitter fruits by myself.

Forget it, at least... there was a time of happiness.

Obviously there are so many happy moments.But what Cheng Qi thought of at that moment was a long, long time ago, under the clean and bright night sky in the distant Sichuan, when everything hadn't really started.In the cool night wind, he leaned on the slight warmth that Xiao Hao felt.

That's enough...

Those memories with you, I plan to treasure and cherish them all my life.

Cheng Qin covered his mouth with his hands, and leaned against the wall like that, his bent body trembling, trying not to let himself cry out.

First meeting, parting, cat and Qinggang; hugging, quarreling, that person's gentle smile and frivolity hidden in his eyes forever.More and more sweet and sour and bitter choked Cheng Qi's throat, but the extremely rapid panting and choking sound could not relieve the almost suffocating pain.

He couldn't stand still, and had to slide down the wall several times.

And Xiao Hao stood behind him in a daze.

So close that you can touch him if you reach out.But he obviously stretched out his hand, but put it down in a daze, that calm and haughty face, at this moment, showed a panic like a child who has done something wrong.

From the moment Cheng Qi cried while listening to the song, he began to panic; when he chased him out, he gradually felt afraid; but now, Xiao Hao's only feeling is that he is almost finished.

It's like a naughty boy jumping and jumping on the frozen lake in winter regardless of dissuasion. Just when he felt very good about himself, he suddenly stepped down and heard a terrible cracking sound, and then the whole lake began to change from where he stood. Terrible cracks extend out in all directions from the point at the center, and it looks like it will soon be torn apart.

And he could only stand there tremblingly, staring dumbfounded at his glorious "record", making it so ineffective every day.

What to do, what to do?

It wasn't until this time that Xiao Hao finally realized that he was afraid, and his mind, which was not very smart, was overloaded in this short moment to complete the liquidation of how many bad things he had done to hurt Cheng Qi, but he planned to correct it immediately. Xiao Hao, who is a new man, is not sure whether it is too late for all this.

He finally saw with his own eyes how much harm he had caused the person in front of him.At the same time, the endless pain in his chest made Xiao Hao realize clearly that he couldn't bear the consequences of such reckless actions at all.

Would you... continue to love yourself?

Treated like this, crying alone in a place where no one is around, Cheng Qi is not mentally ill, why would he still love himself as foolishly as before after suffering such a big grievance?Not a masochist!

Thinking of this, there was a cold hole in my heart that seemed to be stabbed by a knife made of ice slag.

Why... do you want to do that?Why do you treat him like that, why do you want to kill him, why do you push away his hand that reaches out to you, why do you want to hurt him again and again?

Don't want to lose him.

I don't... don't want to lose him at all!

……

Xiao Hao simply admired his own stupidity.

How could it be possible to keep doing it until you are in danger and may fall into the ice cave at any time, and then you finally have a sense of crisis and understand what you really want?