misplaced love

"I'm sorry, I didn't protect Chen'er well." Standing beside Bai Youyi, Shen Xinyao said to him, she knew how much Bai Youyi cared for Bai Jingchen, although that person never expressed his love for Bai Jingchen directly, but for him Shen Xinyao saw everything Bai Jingchen did. Although Shen Xinyao knew a little about what happened between him and her sister back then, the doubts inside were not explained clearly. She was just a bystander about the past, so she could only Watching without being able to participate.

"Chen'er is the only thought left to me by Xiran. She is my life but also my catastrophe." Bai Youyi said with deep eyes looking at Bai Jingchen who was undergoing an examination in the ward.

"I've always used my own way to protect this child, but she was hurt even more by my protection." The pain in Bai Youyi's eyes was indescribable.

"I know that you were kind to her at the beginning because of your sister, but you don't need to be like this. In fact, my Bai family is sorry for your sister, and your sister is actually a poor person." Bai Youyi's expression finally changed. It seems that there is regret, and it seems that it is self-blame.

"If you can, let's stop the grievances of the previous generation here! You and Chen'er don't need to hurt each other because of us." Bai Youyi turned to face Shen Xinyao and said.

"I will divorce your sister and give her freedom." Bai Youyi took a deep breath and said slowly. After speaking, he seemed to have become more relaxed. The resentment and unwillingness of the past, from Shen Xinyu's saying that she would marry herself to make up for it Bai Jingchen started, he knew it was the worst decision, but he didn't refuse, because of the unwillingness in his heart, the hatred in his heart, and his pain, he wanted to hold on to that person and suffer together, but he didn't think that because of his unwillingness Because of his revenge, all this turned out like this. He lost his wife, and he almost lost Bai Jingchen. Now in Bai Jingchen's heart, his father may still be the most hateful person!

"Brother Yi, Chen'er should hate me so much." Shen Xinyu came from outside, and when she heard Bai Youyi's words, she laughed at herself with a sad expression on her face.

"If it weren't for me, your family of three would be the happiest." Shen Xinyu said in pain. Every time she thought of this, her heart would be swallowed by grief, and she was in pain. If she could go back to the past, she would never again Appearing by Qiao Xiran's side, if she could, she would never confess that relationship. If she could, she would give everything in exchange for that person's life.

"But you and Chen'er are Xiran's favorite. This is a reality that I will never change." After Bai Youyi said this, it seemed that he had lost all strength in his body. This is the ironic truth. You let him How to open your mouth to tell your beloved daughter that such pain is a fact, how do you ask him to tell Bai Jingchen that her mother does not love him, he is just a third party, a third party who stole other people's feelings, and Bai Jingchen's What does existence represent?All of this is a reality that Bai Youyi doesn't want to face, and he doesn't dare to face it. He thought he was strong enough, and he thought that everything he did was right. pain.

"Sister." Shen Xinyao never expected that she would learn the truth of the year in such a situation. She was filled with panic, surprise, and all emotions. She never thought that the truth would be like this. Even she couldn't accept it. So Bai Jingchen Will you accept this truth?She understood why Bai Youyi would hide Bai Jingchen's past, why he would bear all these mistakes, because he loves Bai Jingchen, and he hoped that all the pain would be borne by himself, and protect him in his own way. The two women he loves most in his life, it's just this way that makes him get farther and farther away from Bai Jingchen.

"Come and sit with me." Shen Xinyu looked at her younger sister. She never thought that her most beloved sister would be involved in such a relationship because of herself. She knew very well that such a relationship would cause multiple injuries. If she could She hoped that Shen Xinyao would not experience it, not bear it.

"Yao'er, do you know? At that time, I thought that love was the most important thing. I could give up everything, but I couldn't give up my love. But in the end, I realized that if love is sweet, it will bring so much pain, right? When I first fell in love, I would be more rational and mature." Shen Xinyu said with a sad look, it was her memory, the clearest, sweetest and most painful memory in her life.

Shen Xinyu remembers that the first time she met Qiao Xiran was on her fourth birthday. At that time, Qiao Xiran was ten years old and Bai Youyi was 11 years old. She immediately fell in love with the big sister with a smile on her face, so from then on, Shen Xinyu He likes to follow Qiao Xiran and be her shadow as her little tail. The people who played with him at the beginning all said that he was Qiao Xiran's little follower. If Qiao Xiran were a man, he would still be her child bride. These jokes She has been with Shen Xinyu's childhood all the time, but she is not unhappy at all, being able to be by Qiao Xiran's side and being pampered by her is the happiest thing for Shen Xinyu.

When Shen Xinyu discovered that she had different feelings for Qiao Xiran, it was because Qiao Xiran and Bai Youyi were married. She was only 14 years old at the time. She couldn't explain that kind of feeling clearly. She only felt that the most important person in her was not her own. That kind of fear and anxiety, At that time, she cried for a long time, hugged Qiao Xiran and refused to let her marry Bai Youyi, but Shen Xinyu's actions at that time were just thought to be the child's willfulness.When Shen Xinyu really understood that her feelings for Qiao Xiran belonged to her, at that time Qiao Xiran had already given birth to Bai Jingchen. At that time, the picture of Qiao Xiran's family of three, happy and harmonious, was the greatest pain for Shen Xinyu. Feelings, and in order to cut off her own feelings, Shen Xinyu chose to study abroad. She thought that if she stayed away from Qiao Xiran, she could let go of this relationship. She thought that if she didn't touch Qiao Xiran, nothing would happen.But if time can really make it forget about feelings, it's just that the love is not deep enough.Four years later, Shen Xinyu returned to China and reunited with Qiao Xiran again. The suppressed feelings became more turbulent. She had been carefully suppressing her feelings, but in the end she was defeated by Qiao Xiran's tenderness. She loved Qiao Xiran since she was a child. She became attached to her, but what made Shen Xinyu happy was that Qiao Xiran didn't hate her feelings for her, it was just that she was caught off guard and couldn't face herself for a while. Shen Xinyu was already immersed in her feelings for Qiao Xiran and couldn't help herself, so she Carefully probing, bit by bit eroding Qiao Xiran's heart.It is precisely because no one knew that Shen Xinyu would have such feelings for Qiao Xiran. At that time, in Bai Youyi's eyes, he always loved Shen Xinyu as a younger sister, and he was assured that Qiao Xiran and Shen Xinyu were together. At that time, the Bai family's career was on the rise, so Bai Youyi He has been busy with his business and neglected the development of the relationship between the two of them. By the time Bai Youyi found out, he couldn't do anything anymore.

"Sister Xiran, does she love you too?" Shen Xinyao quietly listened to Shen Xinyu's memories, looked at her sister's pain, and saw her self-blame.

"If I can, I hope she doesn't love me, then she won't leave me." Shen Xinyu said painfully. When Qiao Xiran had a car accident, he forced her to leave here with him, leave the Bai family, and they went abroad to find love. live together in a quiet place.When she was in love back then, Shen Xinyu was selfish. She couldn't bear the fact that the person she loved was still thinking about other people besides herself, and she didn't have herself in her happy life.Shen Xinyu thought that Qiao Xiran didn't do anything, she thought that Qiao Xiran didn't make any effort towards their relationship, but she didn't know that Qiao Xiran had confessed to Bai Youyi back then, she hoped to leave with Shen Xinyu, she was working hard for their future, but Shen Xinyu just didn't know.

That day, Shen Xinyu bought a plane ticket and told Qiao Xiran that she would wait for her, and if she didn't make it by then, then the relationship between them would really be over.That day, she waited for a long time at the airport, fearing that Qiao Xiran would not come, and that she would be the side that Qiao Xiran gave up on, but in the end, she received a call from the hospital that Qiao Xiran had a car accident on the way here.

Shen Xinyu rushed to the hospital like crazy, but she could only see her for the last time. She had too much time to tell Qiao Xiran, so she left, leaving her alone. She also wanted to go with Qiao Xiran, but Qiao Xiran's last How could she forget her last wish.Qiao Xiran loves Bai Jingchen, loves her child, from the moment she accepts her feelings, the one Qiao Xiran can't let go of and owes the most is Bai Jingchen, so Qiao Xiran left, but she can't follow her, she wants to take care of Bai Jingchen for Qiao Xiran, she To make up for Bai Jingchen for Qiao Xiran.Neither she nor Bai Youyi will destroy Qiao Xiran's beautiful image in Bai Jingchen's heart, so the truth has been kept hidden like this. She thought she would never tell it, but they never expected that the protection they thought for Bai Jingchen would become hurt.