Doomsday Rebirth

Niu Niu died because of my incompetence and weakness, her mutilated body was lying in front of me with almost only bones left.The taste of bright red blood, white brain or other liquids makes people tremble.

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I hate this world, why don't everyone have supernatural powers equally, why are some people doomed to live in a meager existence, to keep losing, losing, and losing again!

I still have Benben, everything will be fine, it will be fine...

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I dare not eat meat, I would want to vomit after biting it.

Pretending to be nothing, but Benben knows that I want to be strong and pretend.

It made me wipe my tears and snot on its clean fur, and gently let me hold it and howl with my mouth wrong.

I can grasp something, I don't have nothing, after today, I can forget the pain, I am the best at forgetting.

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As soon as I arrived at the base today, Benben ran away without making a sound, and I haven't come back until now. I don't know what he went to do.

I was really lucky, I met Lin Qing, and he gave me a pack of compressed biscuits, two sticks of ham and his coat!

He and Xu He are really affectionate, people in Linqing are really nice, and he is so powerful, so envious.I don't regret the thing that I wanted to hug Xu Hyuk's thigh at that time, it's my greed for life and fear of death, this is my nature.

But I am grateful to Linqing for letting go of previous suspicions. He saved my life without even thinking about it, and was even willing to help me when the supplies were so precious. I don't know why he is so kind to me.

My luck has always been good, especially with Benben.

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Benben didn't come back, it was so cold at night without him, I was hungry.Ah, it won't come back, I'll eat what's left for it.

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it's gone.

In the end, I still have nothing, I'm so ridiculous.

A person like me... obviously deserves to die alone, I can't trust others, and others even disdain me.

But I'm not fucking reconciled...

I can't keep up with it, and it won't stop for me.

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Mr. Zhong is such a beauty...

He sat in front of me, and when he was not talking, he seemed to gather all the good things in the world.Like the unattainable expensive luxury placed in the window, the extravagance and elegance make people feel ashamed.

All the things that others want, he has easily.

Of course, the premise is when you don't speak.

That morbid obsession with cleanliness and seemingly polite but unreasonable words made him very much in need of a beating.

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Although Mr. Zhong made trouble for no reason, my food stick cried.

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He is Ben Ben, and I don't know why, but I wasn't too surprised, and even accepted it calmly.

I seem to understand, but also seem not to understand, longing for him to give me a reason, but afraid of the truth.

I actually know that when I saw him the first time, I knew that I was always being passionate about myself before.

He is Benben, but he is not.

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He actually said that I only need to be grateful to him in the future. Didn't he threaten to hate me at the beginning, that is, he didn't want to be involved again, so why did he say that?Maybe, he is also a little bit reluctant to part with me, maybe...

How long is he going to keep it from me!I couldn't control my anger at all, I yelled at him, I was resisting him, those insurmountable distances broke my calm inch by inch, I was not normal at all, what was I thinking!

Yes, he can push me away with just a few words, and I can't struggle at all.And I can't even plead, he is not my indispensable person, and I am even more dispensable to him.

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His gloves, he cares about me, fears my death, indulges but disdains me, seems to like but loathes me.

I don't understand him.

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I thought I was going to die...

The panther charged at me, and I clenched my gloves, thinking only of him, almost blank.

He saved me again...

At that moment, I didn't believe in all the speculations and coincidences, I didn't believe in those indifferent and arrogant words, I didn't believe in all the sharpness and hurt, my heart was beating and hot, longing for... him.

I thought of him pampering me to hug him, the feeling of warm and dry fur touching his face, it was too warm.

He is not a calm person, and neither am I.

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He was about to turn around again, and I exposed the concealment, questioning his contradictions and inconsistencies almost calmly, and asking him what he wanted.

He looked at me so calmly...

I forcefully took off his gloves and kissed his fingertips, thinking he might give me a slap, but he didn't.

I'm finally sure, he cares about me, but he can't admit it

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I was fed up with losing, fed up with being weak and unable to move forward and unequal, enough of distance, and enough of waiting.

I'll take a gamble, life or death.

I don't believe in fate, I don't believe in a mediocre life, I don't believe that all the departures are irreversible, and all the heartbeats are powerless.

He will be mine, I tell myself over and over.

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Zhong Yao copied Yu Mao's diary again, and he always flipped through those words tirelessly in the study, as if he was addicted.

Zhong Yao closed the study door and pushed open the bedroom door.

Yu Mao was sleeping on the bed, his black hair was scattered on the white pillow, his fair and ruddy face was a little flushed from deep sleep, his body was slightly curled up, but his sleeping appearance was very peaceful.

It's a little fatter, and it looks really carefree.

Zhong Yao walked to Yu Mao's side, took off his gloves, and gently touched Yu Mao's face.

Yu Mao moved in a daze, squinted his eyes and looked at Zhong Yao: "Ben Ben..."

Zhong Yao's fingers paused, and instead of correcting him, he responded with a light smile: "Huh?"

"I feel a little cold by me, so I turned into a wolf and let me hug and sleep for a while."

Yu Mao yawned, his eyes were a little dizzy, he opened his arms, waiting for Zhong Yao.

Zhong Yao took off his coat, turned into a wolf and climbed onto the bed.Yu Mao hugged the furry big gray-white wolf, and said lazily, but the corner of his mouth curled up into a triumphant smile: "The fur quality is good."

Zhong Yao rested his chin on Yu Mao's shoulder, closed his dark red eyes, and murmured a few times in his throat.

"It's so warm." Yu Mao rubbed against each other a few times and said with a smile.

Zhong Yao opened his eyes and looked at Yu Mao, he regained his human form and took him into his arms, and asked in a low voice:

"Are you satisfied with my pursuit?"

Yu Mao was a little wary, but still said: "Satisfied."

"Since you are satisfied, then we are legitimate lovers."

Yu Mao nodded. Hearing this, he relaxed, and lazily inserted his fingers into Zhong Yao's hair, and stroked it slowly: "Hmm."

Zhong Yao continued: "Yu Mao, do you want to read my diary?"

Yu Mao was stunned: "You write a diary?"

"Ah."

"But in exchange, you should show me your diary too."

Yu Mao hesitated for a while, scratching his heart and lungs, God knows, he really wanted to know what was going on in Zhong Yao's mind.

"Then you give it to me first."

"Swap at the same time."

Yu Mao nodded: "OK."

So one day when the sun was shining brightly at minus ten degrees, the two exchanged their diaries in the bedroom of Zhong's villa.

Zhong Yao pondered for a while: "You wait and see, keep calm."

Yu Mao thought that there was some earth-shattering secret inside, so he nodded with a smile: "Hehe, shameless things, don't worry, I won't laugh at you."

Zhong Yao nodded: "Take Yu Mao's diary and go out."

Then, standing at the door, he couldn't wait to open the notebook, wanting to read the pages that Yu Mao wrote later.

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Mr. Zhong confessed to me, he said everything about him belongs to me, hahaha...

This can't be a dream, I put on airs and refused to agree to him, does he know how painful he tossed me?

But I am so happy that I want to go to heaven, I just like him, tsk, there is no help.

Who made him so rich and handsome, so handsome, the key is so handsome!He is Benben, the first person I put in my heart. Although he is not honest enough, he has always been very gentle to me, although he often pretends to be dismissive of me.But after seeing him through, he was so cute!

No, I have to keep calm!

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Zhong Yao couldn't help laughing a few times, he was indeed too calm in those few days, did he turn out to be so hot inside?

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I had a blast today, Mr. Zhong was too tempting, I couldn't hold it back and I jumped at him, and even made provocative words to my death, but in the end I was wiped out by Mr. Zhong, an old virgin who has been obsessed with cleanliness for thousands of years.

It's cool, but the ass hurts too much. I can't bear to watch him endure it all the time. I'm still very satisfied with the sex this time. I hope he can restrain himself next time, and I will definitely not try to die again.

I like the way he smiled at that time the most, tsk, it was so boring that it made my heart itch.

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Zhong Yao continued to smile, is that right, be more restrained next time?

Tsk, it's a little difficult.

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At the same time, Yu Mao unfolded the so-called Zhong Yao's notebook. His notebook recorded a lot of irrelevant things. Zhong Yao hadn't finished reading his. He should have finished reading Zhong Yao's, so he was not too worried about Zhong Yao. Yao knows too much.

As a result, as soon as he opened the notebook, he saw the first page of the diary: "The weather is fine, the temperature is minus ten degrees, I discussed with Yu Mao to read his notebook, I was successful, I was very happy, I close-up a few lines as a souvenir. "

Yu Mao turned the page backwards, and there was nothing, and roared angrily: "Zhong Yao——I will trust you next time, and I will be killed by you every day!"

How dare you fucking lie to me!

Zhong Yao closed his notebook, dying every day, how could he be willing to...

I don’t know if there are any bugs or what’s wrong, and there are some extra episodes that say don’t worry