I am fickle

I lowered my head wearily, and smiled wryly: "They all said that I did something wrong, but why am I wrong?"

"Susu..."

I looked into his deep and dark eyes, and moved my lips with difficulty: "I always said that I want to wash the fairy palace with blood, but what can I do after the bloodbath? Ghost, I found that I have lost interest in everything , what am I doing, what am I trying to do..."

Gu Yu brewed a cup of warm tea and handed it to my palm, patted my shoulder lightly, and said: "Susu, you are so kind, if everyone is as kind as you."

I stared at him blankly, my hands were trembling, and the tea was spilled all over the table.I asked in a low voice: "I... I'm good, what's the good thing, I'm an inhuman executioner."

"That's you in their eyes, Susu in my eyes is the most compassionate and radiant Susu in the world."

I smiled brightly at him, put down the cup of tea and reached out to brush his sleeves away.Those long and narrow scars, like centipedes zigzagging forward, stung my eyes, "Ghost, does it still hurt?"

Gu Yu shook his head, put down his sleeves lightly, and said, "Susu, I just heard that you took Chang'an to the Kunlun Bridge in Tushan, why did you come back alone?"

I shook my head not knowing how to respond.

Gu Yu also guessed a thing or two, and looked at me guiltily: "Susu, I really blame me for this matter, I shouldn't ask you to get married."

"I just thought, how can I make her go away disheartened by me."

Gu Yu smiled faintly: "You don't want to implicate her, I can see that your neglect of her these days is intentional."

"I don't like to be in debt, whether it's others to me or me to others." I glanced at the green grass, and couldn't help worrying if she would catch a cold or something lying there.

In fact, every time I see her, I always think of that stubborn woman. Qingshang also treats me so wholeheartedly. I have never wanted to kill her. I have thought about many ways to protect her, but I am still caught off guard...

Qingshang's death is a knot in my heart. I always feel that I ordered Gu Yu's long sword to cut off her arm and goug her eyes. She died in the end because of me, even in my dream. It was bloody hands, and her cold corpse was under her feet.

I'm like a furnace, whoever comes near me will be incinerated.So is Aunt, so is Yuanxin, and so is Duan Qingshang.

I can't bear to say goodbye anymore, and a goodbye is a forever farewell.

Gu Yu said slowly: "Susu, you really have changed a lot. You used to be indifferent, but now you know how to look forward and backward."

I couldn't help but smiled bitterly, and said, "I've become cowardly, and I dare not lose any more. Even if I pay blood, I can't get them back by my side."

Gu Yu knew that when I thought of my aunt and the others, my heart would ache, so I simply changed the subject: "Does Susu like Chang'an?"

I shook my head and replied without thinking, "Like a sister, I'm grateful I don't take it."

"I can't find anyone I like anymore. Sometimes I even feel that my heart is like a cold stone, without temperature or beating."

There was once a person I liked, but he stabbed a knife in my heart severely.

"People who are close to me will not die well, let her stay away from me, and you too."

Gu Yu firmly grasped my hand, staring at me closely: "You are my good brother, I will never give up on life and death."

"Susu, listen well, I will take care of what you want to take care of and what you want to cherish, I will take care of it for you. I will be your right-hand man forever."

He hugged me tightly and said righteously: "Don't be afraid, even if the road ahead is dark, I will open a bright road for you."

"Others don't understand you, but I do. You are just too compassionate."

"Susu, you are really kind. If only everyone were as nice as you."

My eyes were red, and I hugged his solid back tightly, as if I had found a reason to risk my life.