Bow down willingly as a child

After going back that day, Shang Xuyan didn't say anything, sitting on the balcony and looking downstairs, he became withdrawn. Bai Kangzhe knew he was in a bad mood, so he didn't bother him.

When he was sleeping at night, Shang Xuyan slept with his back facing him, and he seemed to feel some movement in the people beside him in a daze.

Turning around, Bai Kangzhe saw Shang Xuyan looking up at the ceiling in a daze, and on his face, there were traces of tears gleaming with the bright moonlight.

He cried?

Bai Kangzhe looked at him calmly, while he pressed one hand on his forehead, his bright eyes stared at the bottomless ceiling in a daze.

Bai Kangzhe suddenly remembered a line of lyrics:

I thought my tenderness could give you the whole universe

I thought I could fill the void in your feelings with all my might

Stay by your side with peace of mind and make up for all his mistakes

Maybe I was too naive, thinking that a miracle would happen.

This is "I Thought" by Pinguan.

When I first listened to it, I couldn't understand how the lyricist could come up with such a silly lyrics. Who can bear the fact that the person he likes has someone else in his heart?In other words, he ran away long ago, and still stayed by his side with peace of mind?

But when the reality comes, he can understand the grief and helplessness in this song with empathy, as well as the empty heartache for the person he likes.

Time passed by, and the two of them didn't feel sleepy at all. When the sky was shining brightly, Shang Xuyan suddenly turned his head.

"Did I wake you up?"

With the faint light, Bai Kangzhe saw that the tears on his face had dried up, and there was no trace of crying.

Having opened his eyes for too long and forgot to close them, Bai Kangzhe turned his head back, blinked his dry eyes, and stammered, "No, no, I can't sleep."

"Oh."

Shang Xuyan didn't speak again, lying on his back quietly, looking at the somewhat gray ceiling.

At first he was struggling in his heart whether he should go to see Xu Ming, take a sneak peek and make sure he was safe and well.

Then he was thinking, how about calling the director and asking the hospital to pay more attention to Xu Ming and give him the best treatment and arrangement.

Finally, when the sky was slightly bright, the overwhelming heart became calm. Even though he really wanted to know Xu Ming's safety, he didn't want to take the initiative to inquire about him.

Xu Shi felt a bit vengeful, he separated from Xu Ming, and has been a passer-by ever since, Xu Ming's life or death is his own choice and has nothing to do with him.

Or maybe they don't want to hear any more news about Xu Ming, and don't want to know whether his life is going well after marriage, because his good or bad has nothing to do with his Shang Xuyan anymore.

"How about I go to see him for you? It just so happens that I'm going to the hospital for an examination today."

Can Bai Kangzhe remember that Shang Xuyan told him to do all the head checks.

"no need."

Shang Xuyan opened his mouth, then closed his tired eyes.

"I'll take you to the hospital for an examination when I wake up. You should ask for leave these two days and don't go to work. Just say that your head is still dizzy and you have to stay in the hospital for observation."

Bai Kangzhe propped himself up and sat up, looking at Shang Xuyan's sleeping face, feeling pity in his heart.

"Or else I'll ask about Xu Ming's situation during the inspection."

Not knowing about Xu Ming's life or death, Shang Xuyan might continue to toss and turn insomnia, he really doesn't understand this person, he is obviously worried to death, but he refuses to look at Xu Ming.

A popular term on the Internet: Tsundere.

It couldn't be more suitable to describe him.

"I said, no need."

Shang Xuyan pressed the hand on his forehead to the back of his head, his heavy eyelids were fighting, and he felt sleepy.

"Shang Xuyan, you are obviously so worried about him, why do you have to torture yourself? Can't you just take a look? At least let yourself feel at ease!"

Bai Kangzhe felt that he was the biggest idiot in the world. Others wished that the person they liked would stay by their side every day and not get entangled with their ex. His brain was burned out so he kept pushing Shang Xuyan to see Xu Ming.

But he couldn't see Shang Xuyan's appearance like this. A person as high as Shang Xuyan shouldn't be so depressed.

"Bai Kangzhe, I said no! Don't you understand!"

Shang Xuyan was already in a gloomy mood, and was very annoyed by the nagging of Bai Kangzhe.

Being yelled at by Shang Xuyan, Bai Kangzhe shed tears of grievance, picked up the pillow and threw it on his face: "What are you yelling at! You think I'm willing to take care of the shitty things between you and Xu Ming, if it wasn't for..."

Suddenly stopped in the middle of speaking, Bai Kangzhe bit his lips and remained silent.

Shang Xuyan took down the pillow, but still closed his eyes heavily.

"What if?"