Bow down willingly as a child

Xu Zhenglei invited Bai Kangzhe to have dinner together. Anyway, we were all alone, so it happened to be company, and the meal was lively when there were many people.

Bai Kangzhe turned his back on customers, saying that he was going to the seafood restaurant where Shang Xuyan took him to eat last year. Xu Zhenglei and Xiaoru had no objections, so they led the way.

Bai Kangzhe didn't take the menu from the waiter's hand, recalled the scene from last year, and ordered from his memory.

"Salt and Pepper Mantis Shrimp, Spicy Crab, Steamed Yellow Bone Fish, and Grilled Oyster. By the way, let's have a pot of millet porridge."

This is what he and Shang Xuyan ate last year.

After the waiter left, Xu Zhenglei said, "Order so much? Can the three of us finish it?"

Thinking about it being inappropriate to ask, he quickly added: "It's not that I'm reluctant to invite you, but I just think we can't finish eating, it's a waste of food, it's shameful to waste."

Bai Kangzhe cleaned the bowls and chopsticks, and said with a smile: "No waste, I'll pack it up if I can't finish it, and this meal, I have to treat it. It's not so deserted if you eat with me."

He has already made up his mind not to leave the hotel entrance for the next few days, but to stay in the place where he and Shang Xuyan once stayed, to absorb the slightest warmth.

He misses him very much.

"It's the same for everyone."

Xu Zhenglei poured him tea.

"By the way, why are you here this time? What a coincidence."

The last time we met was the Dragon Boat Festival, and now it’s just after May Day, and it’s not yet the Dragon Boat Festival.

"Well, because I can't come for the Dragon Boat Festival this year, so I took advantage of my free time to come and see him in advance, and I also paid homage to him by the way."

His lover is from Gecheng, and he is buried in the cemetery in Gecheng. The Dragon Boat Festival is the day of his death.

Every year when the Dragon Boat Festival comes, he will take Xiaoru to worship him, and then play on the beach for a few days.

Because when he was alive, the two often took Xiaoru to play on this beach.

It is a way to let go of thoughts.

"Do you mind if I ask, how did he get away?"

Xu Zhenglei thought for a while and said, "Suicide."

"suicide?"

He nodded and said calmly: "Actually, I already told Shang Xuyan in the orphanage, but he didn't let me tell you, but since you are separated, it doesn't hurt to tell you."

Orphanage?

Did they meet at the orphanage?

He didn't even know!

"My boyfriend couldn't bear the pain of coming out, so he wanted to die to escape. Shang Xuyan didn't let me tell you at that time, saying that he didn't want you to be full of fear about this road, and said that no matter what, he would take his place. You carry it, you just need to be happy, you were fine last year, why did you split up? It's a pity."

He remembered being moved by Shang Xuyan's deep emotion for a long time.

"Mr. Bai? Why are you crying?"

Seeing him, Xu Zhenglei suddenly burst into tears, and hastily pulled out a tissue and stuffed it into his hand.

Eyelids closed, Bai Kangzhe took the tissue and said thank you.

Wiping away the tears, a sunny smile appeared on his face again.

It's just the pain in the sun, only he knows it.

Picking up the chopsticks, he suppressed tears and said, "Eat it while it's hot, the seafood will become fishy when it's cold."

Seeing that he didn't want to continue this topic, Xu Zhenglei shut up wisely and started eating.

Suddenly he remembered something, and he said again: "By the way, your appearance reminded me of a beggar I met in Gecheng yesterday. The name he said in his mouth at that time seemed familiar to me. I only remembered it when I saw you." , he called your name!"

beggar?

calling his name?