Bow down willingly as a child

"At that time we adopted Xiaoru, thinking that if we made our relationship public, everything would develop in a good direction. We also rented a shop together and opened a flower shop. When pressure from work, society, and friends came to us When I came, the pressure accumulated in my heart more and more, and both of them felt unhappy, and as time passed, they became sad."

After a pause, he continued: "Later, it turned into a quarrel day and night, and we could quarrel over trivial matters. The side that always bears it can't bear it anymore, and the grievance accumulated over the years break out."

Xu Zhenglei sneered and said: "The last quarrel ended with the Cold War. He locked himself in the room when he got home. His parents saw that our relationship had conflicted. It was a good time. They insisted on arranging a blind date for him. It was time to say that the parents of both parties should meet, but he refused to compromise, and I was angry and did not look for him. In the end, when he and his parents had a dispute over this matter, he grabbed the fruit knife in the basket and stuck it into his heart..."

That day, when he rushed to his boyfriend's house, the door was open, and the living room was a shocking scarlet.

There was no one in the empty house, and by the time he inquired about the hospital, his boyfriend's parents had already sent him to the crematorium for cremation, and the speed was determined not to let him see his boyfriend for the last time.

"When I saw you, I thought of us. I have always regretted it. If I hadn't quarreled with him, maybe he wouldn't be so desperate to leave this world."

Xu Zhenglei hopes to tell Shang Xuyan about his experience, and let him know what it means to cherish each other.

Don't be like him, never see him again, only to regret that he didn't treat his boyfriend better, or better.

"Before you strengthen yourself, don't make him a target of public criticism, don't let him bear the pressure that you can't share for him, if you can, don't come out unless you have to, that kind of pressure is not something ordinary people or ordinary families can bear, and being together Just live a good life, cherish each other, and this life will pass."

Everyone who is not forced to that step always thinks that I can, I can do it, and then jump into the abyss step by step.

When you really fall into the abyss, it is too late to look back, but there is no way out ahead, that is the most desperate.

So if you can, keep the status quo and don't come out easily, otherwise your life will change drastically.

The consequences are not something everyone can bear.

This was the first time that Shang Xuyan didn't turn his face when he was taught a political class, and he took it seriously.

Xu Zhenglei's words shattered his desire to let everyone know that Bai Kangzhe belonged to Shang Xuyan. Thinking of Bai Kangzhe's performance after the kiss just now, he fell silent.

Yeah, why do you have to come out?

Why let Bai Kangzhe get hurt?

Life is your own, can't you just live it yourself?

but,

But he is very unwilling, homosexuality is not a disease, why can't he kiss under the same sky as other couples?

Why can't I live an ordinary life like other couples, go back to my mother's house when I'm free, and taste the craftsmanship of my mother-in-law and father-in-law?

He just thought that the next time he sat at the same table with Bai Kangzhe's parents and ate hot pot, they would say that you have a good husband, not a good friend.

He just really thought that next time he couldn't help kissing like today, he could continue kissing instead of making Bai Kangzhe lie at a loss, he is such a person who can't lie.

But if all these warmth can only be obtained by hurting Bai Kangzhe, then he would rather live with Bai Kangzhe under the mud and darkness for the rest of his life.

"Please don't tell Bai Kangzhe about these things. I'll be responsible for all the dark side."

He is so pure, innocent and beautiful, and should not be destroyed by reality.