What am I going to use to survive?

"Song Ming, don't waste your efforts in vain, it is impossible for me to like you." Lin Yan was smiling, but there was no smile in his eyes. Song Ming could see through his eyes.

Song Ming: "But you can't give an answer about what happened in the hospital before."

Lin Yan knew what he was referring to, so he said indifferently, "Even if it was there before, it was in the past, but it's impossible now." Not to mention that it didn't exist before.

Song Ming laughed, he held Lin Yan's hand, his expression was a little distorted, and he changed as soon as he said it: "You finally admit it, you finally admit it!"

Lin Yan frowned, "Are you happy?"

"Of course I'm happy, but when I think about what you said is impossible, I'm not happy now." Song Ming said, then let go of Lin Yan's hand and held his face instead, "You like me again OK?"

Lin Yan glanced at him, lowered his eyes, and remained silent.

Song Ming waited and waited, the smile disappeared, and his face gradually darkened.

Lin Yan said: "I'm tired, let's wipe it off, I'm going to sleep after I wipe it off."

"Why is it impossible?" Song Ming asked stubbornly, chasing after the answer.

Lin Yan didn't bother to talk to him, why?There is no reason for this, it is impossible.

"If you don't wipe it again, I will come by myself." He said.

After a few minutes of stalemate, Song Ming wiped his body again, "I want to know."

"Don't try to get the sincerity of others if you don't give your sincerity. What's more, I don't believe in you, Song Ming. Even if I liked you at that time, so what? Don't forget how you treated me in the past." Lin Yan said. Everything he did he remembered and took to heart.

It is very rare for Lin Yan not to hate or complain, but is it even possible to expect him to abandon the humiliation he has suffered?

"That's why it's impossible?" Song Ming laughed.

Lin Yan said, "This is just one of them."

"What else?"

"And my mother!" When Lin Yan mentioned Zhou Ya, his heart ached, "Obviously I was born by her, and I was her son, but in her heart you are thousands of times more important than me, She even forced me to commit suicide for you!"

Lin Yan thought it was ridiculous. Although he still felt a little pain in his heart, he didn't care anymore. He only felt pain for himself, not because Zhou Ya hurt himself.

"To be honest, I used to hate you, I hated you very much, but after being humiliated by you again and again, I understand a truth. What is sincerity? What is true love? That kind of thing... Lin Yan sneered: "I don't care. Do you think I sent her abroad to protect her? No, no, no, if you think so, you are wrong. I am because she wants to stay and treat you well." , I'm going to send her away."

Lin Yan didn't hate him, but he wanted revenge. If he had a bad life, they couldn't think about it either.Who is not afraid of pain?Those who can survive are the final winners.

"No, you said you don't hate me, don't you really hate me?" Song Ming held his face and turned to himself.

"I don't hate, I only hate myself." Lin Yan said, "When I am where I am today, everything is caused by myself, no one can blame me."

Song Ming remained silent, watching him with changing eyes, something appeared on Lin Yan that made him feel in danger.

"You've changed a lot," he said.

"Isn't it good? Look, you are a paranoid and I am a lunatic, right?" Lin Yan smiled, beautiful and cruel.

"It was you who forced the former Lin Yan to death, so what you wanted may have already died!"