I heard that you are handsome, but unfortunately I am blind

Lin Xiao locked himself in the room for two whole days, neither eating nor drinking, and not opening the door. Even if the teacher's wife stood outside the door and patted the doorknob until her palms turned red, she only got Lin Xiao's light sentence, "Mom, I'm fine, let me Stay by yourself for a while."

Occasionally, he hesitated and said: "Please persuade my dad to stop being angry...you too."

The teacher's wife is sore and bitter in her heart.

Although she was also stunned and worried, she couldn't figure out why Lin Xiao, who has always been calm and peaceful, and had hardly experienced any rebellious period since childhood, was going to risk the world's bad luck this time and insisted on getting along with a man, but——

She can be considerate of her husband, but she can't help but feel sorry for her son.

The mistress left from the door with the once-heated meal. Lin Xiao sat on the bed with her legs curled up, leaning against the wall at the head of the bed, buried her head deeply in her arms, and listened to the sound of the mistress' footsteps, feeling heavy and tired gasped.

He touched the mobile phone by his feet, put the earphones that had been hanging around his neck for the past two days and hadn't taken them off into his ears, then clicked on WeChat, and began to listen to the voice that Fang Chi sent him yesterday again and again , only a few words.

"I'm fine, be kind to yourself, comfort your parents, and wait for me."

And before that, ever since Fang Chi left home injured that day, Lin Xiao had called him countless times and sent him countless messages when he was most flustered, but they all received no reply. , In fact, he didn't want a guarantee or promise to reassure himself, he just wanted to ask how Fang Chi's injury was.

Is it serious? Does it hurt?

The last time I called Fang Chi, the phone was connected, but Xiao You's voice came from the receiver.

Xiaoyou was concerned, and told him: "Master Xiaolin, Brother Chi... nothing serious, just a concussion and...cough, 80.00% of the time these two days was spent sleeping and resting after taking the medicine, and in the dark day Sleeping continuously during the day, the doctor said that this is a normal reaction after taking medication during the recovery period, so don't worry... Then what, when he wakes up, I'll ask him to call you back?"

Lin Xiao knew that Xiaoyou would not deliberately lie to Fang Chi about his injury, and after getting the effective information he wanted, Lin Xiao finally got a big stone in his heart, and just replied: "No need...let Brother Chi take a good rest. Keep it up, I...I have nothing to ask him to call back... Brother Xiaoyou, I have worked hard for you these few days."

He really didn't mean to ask Fang Chi to call himself. What he wanted to confirm was that Fang Chi had given him the most firm answer at the very beginning.

Especially when they parted ways at home that day, there was no need for any extra comfort and promises between the two of them.

They have the same mind, and they have identified each other a long time ago. Even though there is a long way to go between them, they can still depend on each other because their souls and dreams are bound together.

However, after Lin Xiaohun spent the night in a nightmare, half dream and half awake, he really received a message from Fang Chi.

The time to reply to WeChat is [-]:[-] in the morning.

Lin Xiao pointed on the screen and listened to the voice over and over again, with tears in his eyes, but a smile on the corner of his mouth.

Brother Chi, I'm waiting for you.

The mistress held a bowl in one hand, one dish and one meal, and walked out the door of the main room. Under the eaves of the window on the stone platform, Lin Youyu was sitting in a bamboo chair, with his eyes closed and his head raised, still holding his never-leaving radio in his hand. , but I didn’t listen to any channel programs, I just held it in my hand, rubbing the fuselage with my rough fingertips, and I didn’t know what I was thinking by looking at the expression.

Mistress put the two bowls on the stone platform, sat down on the mat beside her husband, glanced at them, and sighed.

Lin Xiao bought this radio for Lin Youyu many years ago with the money he earned from giving massages to clients for the first time.

Hearing his wife's sigh, Master Lin's fingers rubbing the radio stopped abruptly. After a long while, he asked in a low tone: "Didn't eat? Or do you not open the door?"

The teacher let out a "hmm" from her nose, thought for a while, and the corners of her eyes were a little wet again: "You said... What kind of evil has this child committed... It's been two days, what a crime..."

"If you don't eat, don't eat!" Lin Youyu said angrily, "If I starve to death, I'll pretend I never raised him!"

"What are you talking about!" Mrs. Lin slapped Master Lin's leg, "That's my son! I've raised him for almost 20 years, except I never gave birth to him, he's just like my own son. If you don't recognize him, I'll still recognize him. , you don’t want a son, I want a son! If you starve to death, I won’t starve him to death!”

Master Lin, who has superb massage skills in his life, but has never been in the kitchen once: "..."

"Then what do you want?!" After Lin Youyu was stunned for a few seconds, he was still stunned, "He is so stubborn, it is obvious that he is trying to force us to soften our hearts, is it really up to him...with, with a man... Nonsense!"

The teacher wiped her eyes with her cuff, and said bitterly: "I don't know what this child is thinking...how can this matter be so stupid? I don't understand...but I feel sorry for my son. Seeing him like this makes me feel uncomfortable too. ah……"

Lin Youyu: "If you feel uncomfortable, just close your eyes and don't look! If you are blind like me, you won't feel bad!"

After hearing this, the teacher gave up, and slapped Master Lin again, making a muffled "slap" on Master Lin's arm: "Don't you feel bad?! Don't you feel bad, what are you doing sitting under your son's window every day?! Clutching a broken radio and ignoring it, who is watching here like a stalker, huh?!"

Master Lin: "..."

"I..." Old Master Lin was short of words for a while, Jiang was still hot with his wife, and his face turned red with one sentence. After a long while, Old Master Lin squeezed out a few words from between his teeth: "The radio...isn't broken!"

The teacher's wife "hummed" noblely and coldly, and ignored him.

The sun was setting and the small courtyard was so quiet for a while that you could hear the small wind blowing the golden osmanthus. The old couple sat under the window eaves of their son's room, not talking for a long time.

After a long time, the teacher kicked his wife's shoes with her toes, and said softly: "You said... just like the two of them, why do you want to live a lifetime... just like us... Really fake... ..."

Lin Youyu sighed deeply, and said, "It doesn't matter if it's true or not, let alone a lifetime... The two men, just thinking about it, other people's spitting stars can drown them..."

Mistress nodded slowly, and after two seconds, shook her head lightly, and said softly: "Li'er is so reasonable, but...even if it's not the two men, so many years of gossip... Xiaoer can hear it Is there still less?"

Master Lin moved his fingers on the armrest of the bamboo chair.

The teacher's eyes became a little far away, looking at the big iron gate of her yard in front of her, as if she was caught in some kind of memory, she said to herself: "Little blind man, I can't see, follow my parents to see the store, his mother is lame, he Father is blind, the family of three bumped into a big wall..."

"...Do you remember? When Xiao'er was young, children of about the same age surrounded our shop every day, yelling at the house. At that time, the massage shop had just opened, and we knew each other all day long. If I hadn't heard it one time, I took a broom and ran off those bastards. I didn't know they were so bad, and they yelled at Xiao'er all day long... But our son... But I never told us once..."

There were tears in the teacher's eyes, but the corners of her mouth were pulled into a smile. On the old wrinkled face, there was a real distress and sadness: "Xiao'er has been obedient since she was a child, even if she listened to gossip a lot later, she knows that she is not Our own, we just cried all night under the quilt in the house, and the next day...do you remember what he told us?"

"...Remember." Lin Youyu opened his eyes, with old tears in his eyes, "He took our hands and said, 'Mom and Dad, we are a family. My dad is blind and I can't see. It was brought in my blood, and I just followed my father, so the three of us are our own, and no one can change the fate of our parents written in our fate.'”

Mistress nodded and said, "He was just six years old that year."

Master Lin stopped talking, and fell into an inexplicable and strange state of emptying.

The teacher said: "Talk on both sides, don't say that Xiao'er is thinking about that Captain Fang, and don't say that they are both men... It's just the two of us. This man and woman have been together for more than half a lifetime, and the gossip I have heard Is there still less? One is blind and the other is lame. Wherever you go, you can’t hear the muttering behind others? You can’t see, you can’t see the eyes of those people looking at us, but your ears are so good, you can’t see, can’t you hear? ?”

"So, it doesn't matter whether Xiao'er finds a girl to make do with, or lives on his own, he won't be able to get away with other people's gossip and gossip... Then if this is the case—"

Mistress paused, turned her head to look at her husband, then slowly raised her hand to grasp the back of Master Lin's rough hand, and squeezed it hard. She didn't know if she wanted to give herself some kind of strength, or to get a bit of sour resonance from her wife : "What's the difference between being with a woman, living a lifetime by himself, or... being with a man?"

Master Lin fell silent for a long time, and after a long time, he held his wife's hand behind his back, patted his leg, and said, "I understand the truth, but... with a man, what security can he have in this life? Maybe the two of you are infatuated for a while, if one day Fang's surname changes and finds a woman to marry and have a child with, then what will our son do?"

The teacher was also silent for a while, and then asked: "Do you think that Captain Fang...is that passer-by? Why do I think...it doesn't look like..."

Lin Youyu choked for a moment.

Indeed, he couldn't refute his wife's opinion.

From the first meeting until now, Fang Chi's traits and upbringing have been vividly displayed. He is respectful, polite, and considerate. Whether he treats Lin Xiao or the old couple, he treats him like he treats his dearest relatives. .

Not to mention... Two days ago, he was beaten with his own crutches because of Lin Xiao.

Moreover, it is said that Fang Chi ran straight out of the hospital at that time, and had a concussion in the first place...

Although Master Lin didn't want to think this way, he had to admit that it wasn't for a man, but for his own wife, not everyone could do this.

Lin Youyu sighed silently, and his expression became a little helpless: "Then what do you mean? I don't care about this matter, just... let them go? Who can guarantee whether the future will be a honey pot or a fire pit?"

"You also said that no one can guarantee it." Shi Niang said, "But I know one thing, if I continue to be so stubborn now, my son will really collapse."

"Besides, don't look at Xiao'er who doesn't like to talk since she was a child, but don't you know how righteous his ideas are? He really knows what to do... just use the previous one to force himself to live like a normal person, or Later, when he went to ordinary high school or was single-minded about going to college, it was so hard and hard, did he ever drop out?"

Lin Youyu shook his head slowly after recalling for a moment.

"So you can't be more stubborn than him in this matter."

"But..." Master Lin frowned, struggling for the last time, "Two men... this is too evil, it didn't happen like this..."

"Why not?" Mistress thumped Old Master Lin's leg heavily: "What did Xiao'er say that day, but the remaining peaches were cut off... You listen to storytelling, and when you hear that Emperor Ai of the Han Dynasty cut off his sleeves, you are less happy What’s the matter—the emperors in the past could do it, but young people can do it now, but my son can’t, right?”

Lin Youyu: "..."

Blame me for laughing too early.

"Same..." Mistress stopped for a moment, and she swallowed the words again. Although she was able to persuade herself and attack her husband indiscriminately, but she really wanted to use the term "homosexuality" After all, the old lady still felt a bit reluctant to say the three words that others kept secret, especially when it was related to her son.

Mistress paused for a few seconds, suppressed the strange emotions in her heart, and then spoke again, deliberately avoiding those three words, and said: "It doesn't matter whether he likes men or women, no matter how he wants to live in this life, who he will live with , What kind of life is it? My son is my son. When I picked him up at the entrance of the eye hospital 20 years ago, half of the blood on his body was mine. I don’t care what others say, my son, I I hurt myself."

Lin Youyu held his wife's hand and patted his leg lightly, seemingly entangled, but in the end he couldn't help but said: "...that's my son too."

Master Lin let out a long sigh, and reluctantly discussed with his wife: "How about... in two days... call, call that, cough... ask Fang Chi to come home, and I will find out more about it?"

The teacher was stunned for a moment, and after realizing the deep meaning of Lin Youyu's words, she immediately exploded: "Come home, don't beat people anymore!"

Lin Youyu blushed and had a thick neck: "I..."

Mistress: "What are you doing?!"

Lin Youyu: "...Nothing, I got it!"

So after a long time, I'm still not a human being inside and out? !

If I really wanted to do something, I would have smashed the little bastard who hooked up with my son a long time ago!

snort!

Master Lin shook off his wife's hand, which he had been holding all the time, and got up with a resentful and unhappy expression. His wife hurriedly asked, "What are you doing!"

"Deliver food!" Master Lin bent down and groped on the stone platform next to him. When he came across the two bowls that his wife had put down just now, he lifted them up tremblingly, and said with disgust, "Whatever you are doing, you can't do anything." He’ll slap me! He can’t even bring in a bowl of rice—I’ll go and see if he dares to eat it!”

Mistress: "..."

Can take what you can!

So far, in an ordinary dusk two days after Lin Xiao suddenly came out of the closet at home, the old couple, who have never left this small courtyard in their entire lives, have been chaotic and bumpy for half their lives. With each other's company and comfort, they completed an almost Self-discovery that is impossible to achieve.In their inherent traditional thinking, those relationships that were regarded as unimaginable, or feelings that were considered deviant, were silently locked into the wooden box in their hearts by the two old people.

They didn't suddenly become enlightened and tolerant, nor did they refresh and overturn their cognition of the world within two days. If these things were placed on other people, they might still be unacceptable, but that "other" The "person" is not someone else, but their son who has been loving for almost 20 years.

Because of this love, they gritted their teeth and silently completed a silent reconciliation with this grotesque world in their remaining years of destiny.

There is no special way to "break the problem". My son hurts himself, only love.

Since they all love Lin Xiao just like them, then...one more person is also good, as for men and women——

That's it, how about an operation?

Outside the door of Lin Xiao's room, old master Lin took the meal that his wife had reheated, kicked the door twice, and shouted in a bad temper: "Open the door!"

On the bed in the room, when Lin Xiao first heard the voice, his whole body trembled like an electric shock, then suppressed his dry and hoarse voice, and asked softly, "Dad?"

"Nonsense!" Old Master Lin said in a vigorous manner, "Who else could it be if it's not your father? Just two days later, I can't even hear my own father's voice? Open the door, it's stupid!"

Lin Xiao bit her lip and replied, "...I'm afraid you'll be angry seeing me..."

"I really want to see you, and I have to have my own qualifications!" Old Master Lin still had nothing to say, and said impatiently, "Hurry up! It just so happens that you can't see me and I can't see you, so we won't see each other Upset!"

Lin Xiao sighed, slowly moved out of bed, put on his shoes and went to open the door, but he hadn't had a drop of water in two days, his physical energy had been exhausted to the limit, his legs were weak, and he was flustered, so the few steps from the bed to the door were difficult for him. Walk very slowly.

When the door opened, he smelled the smell of rice. Lin Xiao's eyes suddenly turned sour, and his voice became unsteady. He opened his mouth and called out, "Dad..."

Master Lin raised his foot into the room, walked to Lin Xiao's desk in a few steps, kicked the table leg with his toe, and put the two sea bowls in his hand on the table with a "bang-dang", and ordered: "Come and eat, Mr. The young man still came to go on a hunger strike, who are you to blame?"

Lin Xiao stood by the door, fingering the cracks in the horizontal stripes on the door panel, and replied, "I'm not on a hunger strike, and I didn't intend to intentionally obstruct you and my mother... I, I just have no face to see you..."

"It's really embarrassing to see us when you make a good deal of yourself and no one will take care of me and your mother."

Lin Youyu sat on Lin Xiao's bed, sighed, and his tone softened a little: "Come here, let's have a meal first... Our father and I... chatting?"

Lin Xiao was silent for a while, knowing that the one who should come could not hide, nodded, walked to the table and sat down.

Lin Xiao and old master Lin have always eaten light tastes, so over the years, my wife has developed a habit of using less salt when cooking. Now that Lin Xiao is eating the meals made by my wife, I just feel that it is really his food. The best delicacy in the world that he has ever had, what virtue and ability he has, and how lucky he is, after he caused such an unfaithful and unfilial disaster to the old couple, he can still eat another bite made by his wife Home cooking.

Lin Xiao endured the choking in his throat, and did not dare to make a sound, so he could only bury his head in the food.

"Eat slowly." Master Lin listened to his son's movement, and said leisurely, "My stomach has been empty for two days, and I can't bear to eat so fast."

"...Hmm." Lin Xiao nodded indiscriminately holding back tears.

"You..." After a while, Lin Youyu guessed that Lin Xiao had almost finished eating, and then asked, "You and that...cough, just that person, you two...tsk..."

Master Lin was halfway through speaking, and suddenly he didn't know how to proceed.

How could an old blind man ask such a thing?

It would be fine if the other party was a girl, but he was still a young man with all the things like his son!

Sorry!

Lin Xiao put down his chopsticks, touched the tissue bag on the desk, pulled a tissue to wipe his mouth, then held the tissue in his palm, turned to face Lin Youyu, and said in a deep voice, "Dad, what do you want to say? Just say anything, as long as you ask, I will say it."

Old Master Lin frowned, and after a long time of psychological training for himself, he finally asked tentatively, "You two... are you really, really ready?"

Lin Xiao was silent for a while, not sure if he answered "yes" now, would it make his father more sad, or... sad again, but, what he just said, as long as the other party asks, he must tell the truth.

"Dad." Lin Xiao rolled his Adam's apple, and tentatively said softly, "If I'm telling the truth, can you stop getting angry?"

Master Lin was taken aback, and understood, this is an affirmative answer.

At this point, he has been scolded and beaten, even if he gets angry again, what else can he do?

Lin Youyu sighed, and said slowly: "Xiao'er, this matter... your mother and I are half-buried in the ground, and now you let us accept that our son wants to be with a man... It's hard for us ..."

"I know." Lin Xiao's throat hurts badly, and his tone is mournful, "I'm the bastard, I'm angry with you and my mother... I, I also scared you..."

Old Master Lin laughed when he heard the words, and said with some vicissitudes: "It's not enough to be scared... a person who has lived through wind and rain for more than half his life, and has never experienced anything, just—"

"I can't accept it." Lin Xiao said, "I understand, don't say it's you... Even, even I, I couldn't turn this corner at first."

"then you……"

"Dad." Lin Xiao called him, with a sad tone but with a longing that couldn't be concealed, "But, I fell in love with this man before I turned the corner, but I didn't know it. , I thought it was habit, dependence, and trust, but... when I figured it out, I realized that the sum of all these things is my mind."

"Dad, after I finish telling you today, you can beat me with a cane again, but I can't lie to you, and I can't lie to you. In order to dispel the worries of you and my mother, I changed my words and said no .”

Lin Youyu blinked his drooping eyelids and sighed silently.

"I... I like Fang Chi, I like men, that's what they say is the same..." Lin Xiao suddenly stopped talking when he said this, knowing what kind of wound these words were for Old Master Lin, he forced Resisting the words on his lips, he swallowed them back.

Unexpectedly, Lin Youyu lowered his eyelids, and after a long silence, he said, "Gay, right?"

Lin Xiao raised his head suddenly.

Master Lin unconsciously rubbed the hand on his leg, and wiped the material of his trousers: "This... I understand, I just want to ask, before this surnamed Fang, you..."

Lin Xiao understood what he meant, shook his head, and said, "No, I haven't... been interested in other men."

"I only ever liked him."

Only like this one person.

Lin Youyu was silent for a while, and couldn't help but gritted his teeth: "Cough... You are quite up to me in this regard."

Lin Xiao was taken aback for a moment, and then the first sincere smile appeared on his face in so many days.

"Yes, I just follow you."

Hearing his son's long-lost chuckle, Master Lin felt sore and bitter. He didn't know whether to be happy or sad for a while. After the two of them were silent for a while, he suddenly said: "Then what, you...you tell that Fang Chi After two days, his injuries are almost healed, and he can move, so... just let him come and have a few words, as a father, I have to talk to him in person. "

Lin Xiao was stunned and couldn't get back to his senses for a long time. After realizing what the words meant, a wave surged in his heart, and he murmured, "Dad...you mean...you, are you..."

The madness in his heart turned into ecstasy, and Lin Xiao was speechless for a moment.

"What am I?" Lin Youyu said angrily, "Did I really think that I didn't hear the two whispers that kid said to you before leaving that day?——Why wait for your mother and me to calm down before he comes back? What did he do?" Come on, forcefully break into the door and rob someone? Dare! I'll abduct him with a stick, believe it or not?!"

Lin Xiao couldn't speak, bit his lip and nodded vigorously: "I believe, I believe!"

Lin Youyu stood up from the bed, faced Lin Xiao condescendingly, and said seriously: "Besides, I am your father! My son's life-long event, I should not be in charge of it?!"

"...Yes!" Lin Xiao couldn't control it, tears welled up silently, and after taking a deep breath, he couldn't suppress his crying anymore, stood up, took a step forward, hugged the old man tightly, and trembled yelled——

"……dad!"

All the kindness is also contained in this hoarse statement.

From the childhood when they were poor in food and clothing, to the young man standing taller than the old man, their family has always been connected by blood, and their hearts are connected with each other.

The great kindness and the strong family affection can poke a hole in this day!

The author has something to say: Captain Fang: Thank you Dad, thank you Mom!

Master Kobayashi: ...

Nineteen: Cough cough, let me say a few words with real feelings. Up to now, this article has actually moved me and even brought tears to my eyes. There are not many scenes. The scene of "seeing" Fang Chi's appearance, there is another one, which is today's chapter... To be honest, at the end of this chapter, I moved myself QAQ...

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