[Danmei] You and I never meet

I put down my phone, and sat in my seat in a daze.

Charter here?Charter coming to America?The news that Qi Yang brought was like a thunderbolt that blew my whole world flat.I was so excited that I couldn't calm down at all. I wanted to go to him immediately, hug him, and breathe in the familiar smell of him. When I thought of seeing him, I couldn't help but tremble. I felt that every pore in my body was breathing excitedly, and I felt that I only needed to turn around to see his face, the face I thought about day and night.

Ye Yincheng looked at me worriedly, she held my hand uneasily, and asked nervously, "Qiyang, what's wrong with you?"

I shook my head, tears filled my eyes with excitement, but I smiled happily through the tears. I smiled and choked up and said to Ye Yincheng: "Yincheng, I... Zhang Zhang, Zhang Zhang has come to the United States!"

I know that I must be smiling very ugly now, but I don't care, at this moment, I just want to share the great joy in my heart with her.

Ye Yincheng's beautiful eyes were startled, then they lit up as if remembering something, and asked in surprise, "You mean, the regulations?"

I nodded desperately, tears streaming down my cheeks.

Suddenly, her smile froze on her face.She looked at me with a strange look, and said, "Qiyang, the charter is here, do you want to see him?"

Should I go to see the charter?Of course I'm going to see the charter!

... I woke up suddenly, can I go to see the charter?No, can't!At this moment, I thought about the upcoming surgery with only a 20.00% success rate, and I remembered that I hardly had any bright future.I thought that maybe I would sleep forever in that dark, damp and cold tomb in two months.All of this made all the impulse and excitement I had just frozen into ice.Yes, I will die.

I came to America to escape the regulations.I don't want him to suffer my pain.

The pain of waiting from birth to death, the pain of looking forward to the endless night of tomorrow with little hope, the pain of watching someone you love die.

I lay down on the table and cried loudly.Hot tears flowed from the corners of my eyes, like the long-lasting sadness in my heart.This kind of pain that I want to see but can't see, and I can see but can't see is lingering in my mind. I don't know what to do. I can only let myself take all the pain and grievances in my heart these days to this sad night. Cry out fast.

Ye Yincheng sat down on the seat beside me, gently stroking my back with her hand, she said: "Qiyang, although I don't know why you don't want to see him, but I believe you have your reasons, if you need me For your help, you tell me, I will do my best to help you. You have to remember, we are friends."

Tears soaked my sleeves, and after I recovered slowly, I said, "I can't let him find me."

Ye Yincheng gave me a complicated look, then looked at Qi Chenguang.