Second break up

Having been together for many years, Gu Cheng somewhat knew about Xiang Yuan's problems. When he was drunk, he became confused and had some "amnesia".Gu Cheng patiently answered his questions one by one, and asked Xiang Yuan his current address when he opened his eyes.

Xiang Yuan ignored him, looked at him with drooping eyelids for a long while, and then said leisurely, "You have a grain of rice under your chin."

Gu Cheng: "..."

He touched his chin, and it was empty. Gu Cheng looked at him again, and the other party had already fallen asleep.

Unable to find Xiang Yuan's current address, Gu Cheng took him home.He came back once on the day of the breakup, and the house was half empty. The photo frames hanging on the wall in the living room were only a pile of broken glass, and the photos were incomplete.He cleaned the living room silently, pulled a piece of tape and pasted the photo on the wall, then went out, never daring to go back.

At that time, he realized very clearly that Xiang Yuan walked away.

In fact, Xiang Yuan should have abandoned him a long time ago. No one would be able to bear his self-willedness. Only he can bear it for so many years.

He couldn't give Xiang Yuan the equivalent affection, but he was selfish and refused to let go completely.Gu Cheng watched helplessly as he grew from a reckless young man to an appearance that even he felt strange now. He had been together for so long, but it seemed that he had been missing for many years in his life.

Gu Cheng woke up from a dream one day, and felt a little dazed looking at Xiang Yuan who was sleeping soundly on the other side. After that, he couldn't tell whether he loved him or the him in the past for a long time.

No one stays the same, not even himself.

Gu Cheng occupied Xiang Yuan's best time, but failed to repay him, made him wait time and time again, and disappointed him time and time again.Now Xiang Yuan finally couldn't stand it anymore, so he was no longer wanted.

deserve it.What are you drawing?

Self-loathing can't make up for Xiang Yuan, and he can't even alleviate his sense of guilt. Gu Cheng was distracted and gave himself an appropriate evaluation: a shocking idiot.

The car drove downstairs, parked the car, Gu Cheng was about to call him, as if telepathically, Xiang Yuan woke up by himself.

Gu Cheng suddenly wanted to ask him if he knew the current year.

Gu Cheng led Xiang Yuan back home, who was suspected of losing his memory again. Xiang Yuan was very quiet all the way, followed him upstairs, took off his shoes, and stood in the living room waiting for his next instructions.

Gu Cheng asked him: "Drink milk?"

Xiang Yuan frowned, looking a little disgusted, "I don't like milk."

Gu Cheng was speechless, there was always milk at home, because he liked it, and Xiang Yuan would come to take a sip from his cup from time to time, thinking that he liked it too.Gu Cheng thought to himself, he didn't even know what the other person liked or disliked, and he dared to call himself his boyfriend before.

Gu Cheng sighed silently, "I'll get you clothes, you go take a shower."

Xiang Yuan's clothes had already been taken away by him, but fortunately, they were of similar stature, so they wore mixed clothes.He took the bath towel and pajamas and came out, just about to call for someone, but the voice didn't come out.

Looking at the "group photo" of them with only one person and one hand left, Xiang Yuan burst into tears.

He said, "Are we separated?"

Gu Cheng felt a slight pain in his heart, "We separated."

Xiang Yuan wiped his face, stepped forward and hugged him, Gu Cheng didn't dodge, raised and lowered his hand, didn't even give him a comforting hug.

"Mr. Gu." Xiang Yuan called him softly in a hoarse voice, "Mr. Gu, have you ever loved me?"

This time Gu Cheng didn't hesitate, "I loved it."

Xiang Yuan smiled softly: "I don't love you anymore, do you?" He put his chin on his shoulder and murmured: "Did I treat you badly?"

Gu Cheng couldn't listen anymore, "Very well, you are very good to me. I am the one who is not good to you."

Xiang Yuan burst into tears again, "Then why aren't you nice to me?"

Gu Cheng took a deep breath, "I don't know. I... I'm too selfish, I'm sorry."

Xiang Yuan tilted his head and kissed his ears and cheeks, and said: "Mr. Gu, I have liked you since the first time we met, and I even despicably deceived you to be with you. Although you never mentioned it, I sometimes I still feel panic when I think about it, wondering if I will be punished.”

"Sure enough, how long can the relationship gained in this way last..." Xiang Yuan let go of him slowly, "I won't bother you a third time, Teacher Gu."

Xiang Yuan smiled and said, "Can you give me one last kiss?"

With slightly red eyes, Gu Cheng leaned close to him, and kissed him between the brows.

At four quarters in the morning, a short whistle sounded outside, and Xiang Yuan woke up with a start, subconsciously looking to his side.Gu Cheng seemed to be sleeping unsteadily, so he turned over and was facing him.

Xiang Yuan admired the picture of a beautiful man sleeping, got up and walked to the study.

He was wearing Gu Cheng's pajamas, which he bought.Xiang Yuan lay down on the sofa, thinking about last night, he still couldn't help being a little annoyed.He didn't want to show in front of his old lover that he still had unrequited love for him.

Touching the center of his eyebrows, Xiang Yuan sighed.

Forget it, just this once.

If you want to leave, you have to tell Gu Cheng anyway, thank him for taking him in.Xiang Yuan absently took the book from the bookshelf. When he saw that the cover was a book related to finance, he suddenly felt bored. He also wanted to get it because it was fate. To plug it back in again.

After finishing the book, a piece of paper flew out lightly, and was picked up by Xiang Yuan before it fell to the ground.

He didn't want to read it, and he didn't know where he put it before, so he flipped a page and wanted to insert it.

Then he paused, turned over the paper on which the two little figures were drawn, and wrote Braille on the reverse side, which was Gu Cheng's handwriting.The paper is a little yellowed and stiff, and it looks like it has been in the book for a while.

After Xiang Yuan finished reading, he closed the book and put it back in place.

This time he took out an unopened book, as thick as an English-Chinese dictionary, in two volumes, with French written on the cover.Xiang Yuan held it in his hand, but he couldn't feel much weight. When he opened it, the inside was empty, with a stack of cards neatly arranged.

So did the other one.

Xiang Yuan hesitated and picked up a card.He knew it was wrong for him to do so, he was considered a guest now and shouldn't touch Gu Cheng's things at will.

Thinking of what he saw just now, Xiang Yuan's hands itch, he thought silently, just take a look, take a look, take a look.

He turned the card over.

Gu Cheng got up at seven o'clock, and Xiang Yuan was still in the living room when he came out, with a few plastic bags on the table, which he bought for breakfast downstairs.

Xiang Yuan raised his head and smiled at him, "Eat after washing up, I think I should tell you if I'm leaving."

Xiang Yuan said, "I lost my temper last night." He spread his hands and said helplessly, "You don't care about drunks, do you?"

Gu Cheng: "No."

Xiang Yuanjian's complexion was not very good, and he said with a smile: "Don't worry, we won't see each other very often in the future. It's true that I complained to you a lot when we were together, but I can take it and let it go, and it won't cause any problems. Hate to set you in a sack."

Gu Cheng didn't feel happy at all, he didn't know what to say, so he simply remained silent.

Xiang Yuan was about to say goodbye, but before he left, he stepped forward and hooked Gu Cheng's chin, "I'm leaving, I didn't suffer too much after thinking about it, at least I slept with you for so many years, and my first love is considered complete, and I will be with you in the future." I won’t always miss it.”

He blew a kiss, and before Gu Cheng could react, he put on his shoes and left.