old love [rebirth]

The day of March, the face of a child.

Obviously the sun was shining brightly yesterday, but as soon as I woke up today, it started to rain a little bit outside.

Since Guan Yu experienced the catastrophe last fall, he has had a psychological shadow on rainy days.For this reason, Chen Lou specially found a few post-disaster psychological rehabilitation doctors, and Guan Yu was very cooperative. Chen Lou asked him to see whoever he saw, and he would do what the doctor told him to do.But seeing winter turned to spring and the stinging insects had passed, his treatment had little effect.

Seeing the rain outside the window, Guan Yu pursed his lips, got up and took his pajamas from the bed and put them on, walked to the French window and stared outside for a while.Feeling bored again, he turned around and went back to the living room, smoking a cigarette from the cigarette case.

When the mobile phone babbled and sang, he was looking for lighters all over the room, his thick eyebrows were furrowed, and he was a little impatient.

"Are you up?" Chen Lou was a little noisy, but the voice was quite clear: "I saw the weather forecast said that there will be rain in City C today, are you okay?"

Guan Yu rubbed his nose, subconsciously let go of the space between his brows, and hummed in a low voice.

Chen Lou breathed a sigh of relief, and asked him again: "You don't smoke?"

"No." Guan Yu looked at the cigarette in his hand, paused and threw it into the trash can beside him.

"That's good, do something you like, or chat with Hongmao and the others, don't stay by yourself." Chen Lou said a few more words, and then quickly jumped to other routine sentences: "I It's something, hang up first, take care of yourself."

Guan Yu reacted a little slower this time, and only remembered to say "OK" when he heard the beeping busy line, but he couldn't hear it anymore.

In the past few months, he and Chen Lou have always been in touch by mobile phone.If it wasn't for the fact that when Chen Lou took the medical team to the disaster area, Guan Yu ran to ask him face to face, he would have found it hard to believe that Chen Lou was planning to reconcile with him.It's just that the benefits after the reconciliation were pitiful. Guan Yu's leg injury hadn't healed at the time, and the consequence of his private escape was that he was arrested and locked up at home for a period of time.After he recovered from his injury, Chen Lou had already returned to S University. He intended to chase after him, but just as his annual leave was over, he was urgently called back by the company to deal with several difficult matters.

These few things are not big or small, but they are extremely time-consuming.After the processing was finished, it was the Spring Festival—Chen Lou returned to City C for the Spring Festival, but because Jiang You went to a jet-lagged country on a business trip, he stayed with Old Man Gao's hospital during those short vacations.

Guan Yu often felt that he was falling into the clouds, and when it was spring, his mind became inexplicably sensitive. At one moment, he was worried that Chen Lou was accommodating himself and reluctantly getting back together, and at another moment, he was worried that he was not as good as Jiang You—even though Chen Lou said afterwards that he and Jiang You hadn't had time to start, but Guan Yu knew that if it hadn't been for his accident, the two of them would have been together long ago.What's more, as long as Teacher Gao is in contact, it is impossible for Chen Lou and Jiang You not to meet each other.

Guan Yu was always a little uneasy, and this uneasiness reached its peak when he heard Chen Lou frankly admit that he wanted to give up on him at one point and stay with Jiang You instead.It's just that it's hypocritical to say these feelings, Guan Yu can only keep it in his heart, and slowly adapt to the rhythm of getting along with Chen Lou.

The matter of rainy weather syndrome can be said to be good or bad, at least in rainy days, Chen Lou will always pay more attention to him. He usually calls three times in the morning, noon and evening, and occasionally says a few words of love to coax him.From the heart, his desire for treatment is not that strong.

Guan Yu drove to the company. This kind of mild depression usually occurs when he is alone, but it doesn't have much impact when he is working.It's just that Chen Lou didn't call again this day. Guan Yu had a meeting and work as usual in the morning, and checked his phone several times at noon. Seeing that there was still no movement, he finally became unavoidably irritable.

In the afternoon, there was a quarterly report meeting. The newly appointed person in charge of the project department played tricks and bargained with him for the next quarter's sales load. Guan Yu's only patience was finally exhausted. The quarterly report was thrown in the face of the person in charge on the spot, forcing them to recalculate the new figures before reluctantly letting it go.

It was already ten o'clock in the evening when he got off work after all this tossing. People from the project department passed by his office tremblingly. He dialed his number on the landline and saw that the phone rang quickly, so he sighed and drove home.

The house is still cold, and there is no trace of heat.Guan Yu's mood was unprecedentedly low, and he sat on the sofa for a while before realizing that he hadn't eaten dinner yet.He had just placed an order for takeaway when the doorbell rang, but he was stunned when the door opened.

Standing outside was Chen Lou.

The two spoke almost at the same time, and Chen Lou asked, "What's wrong with you?"

Guan Yu asked, "Why are you here?"

"Come and see you." Chen Lou stared at his face twice, pointed to the suitcase beside him and said, "Push it for me, I'm exhausted."

It was the first time that Chen Lou came to look for him after the two of them parted ways during the Spring Festival.Guan Yu pushed the two suitcases to the bedroom, didn't know how to react for a moment, then turned around and watched Chen Lou change his clothes.

Chen Lou hung his coat on the hanger in his bedroom, glanced at him through the full-length mirror and asked, "You don't look very well, haven't you slept in the past two days?"

"It's okay," Guan Yu looked at him in a daze for a while, and then asked, "Why are you back?"

"Come back to see you." Chen Lou unbuttoned two shirt buttons in front of the full-length mirror, paused, and then changed his words: "I'm back to see you."

Guan Yu blinked, but didn't react much.Then I heard Chen Lou say: "I have contacted Taishan Hospital, and I will go to work there from next month. The salary is not bad, but I may be busy at the beginning of work."

Seeing that Guan Yu was stunned, he smiled, turned around and patted his face lightly, and said, "I've thought about it, we can't live in two places forever in the future. You have worked for several years to get to where you are today." Location, unlike me, I just chose a job, and it is easy to change places."

"...You're not in S University anymore?" Guan Yu was stunned for a while before digesting the news, and said in shock, "You just resigned? If you're afraid of the two places, I can go there! Why do you..."

He took a deep breath and paused for the second half of the sentence, unable to speak.

The two were silent for a moment, Chen Lou sighed softly, glanced at him and asked, "Guan Yu, do you have any thoughts about our relationship?"

Guan Yu: "..."

"Usually I call you and you answer in seconds, but you rarely take the initiative to call me. And I heard from Dr. Zhang that your problem now is not post-disaster psychological reconstruction. You don't have any stimulating reactions to those scenes and descriptions. , but you have a tendency to be depressed, it's still subjective," Chen Lou stretched out his hand to hold his shoulder, and said in a low tone: "Can you tell me, what do you think?"

Guan Yu stood silently, but his eyes couldn't be avoided—Chen Lou had only half undressed just now, and now he was facing himself defenselessly, revealing his fair skin and beautiful collarbone.He raised his hand to wipe his face, and said after a while: "...I don't have any thoughts about our relationship."

"what is that?"

"I..." Guan Yu was stunned for a moment, and said in a low voice, "...I just want to know what kind of life you lived in those two years."

"..."

"When I first found out that you were willing to start over with me, I was so happy that I couldn't believe it. But later, I couldn't help but wonder whether you felt compassion because of the special situation at that time, or because of other things..." Guan Yu turned his face sideways, After a pause, he said, "I saw Jiang You again when I came back. To be honest, I was so jealous of him that I went crazy. I saw him confess his love to you, and I saw you go to see the house together... And in all fairness, he is indeed very good. Guan Feng was full of praise for him. So I couldn't help but wonder if you would regret not choosing him in the future. At that time, I found that I seemed to be following the path you walked, doubting myself, and worrying about gains and losses."

"So you passively waited for me to contact you, to experience my feelings back then?" Chen Lou sighed and said, "Are you stupid?"

"I'm stupid... I didn't know how to cherish you when you were so good to me." Guan Yu's throat rolled, and after a while he said: "Occasionally this will give me the pleasure of self-torture, but I am also really afraid You leave me."

"But I also made mistakes. In the last two years, I had a bad temper and tortured you with coldness and violence. Why didn't you leave me?"

"……I love you."

"I don't love you?"

Both of them fell silent, Guan Yu subconsciously glanced at Chen Lou.

"Guan Yu, the past is the past. The reason why I thought about agreeing to Jiang You before I went to Qingshi was because I thought I had missed you at that time." Chen Lou's eyes were focused, seeing that he didn't speak, suddenly helpless Said: "But if you have been so...indifferent, it may not be certain that one day I will really fall in love with you."

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Chen Lou came all the way back with his suitcase, not to feed each other chicken soup.It's just that Guan Yu's state is really not right. In Dr. Zhang's words, he doesn't feel safe at the moment.

When Chen Lou heard this, he was operating on a rabbit in the laboratory, and his subordinates didn't stop, and asked directly, "What do you think should be done?"

Doctor Zhang answered simply and violently: "Just give it a fuck."

Chen Lou: "..."

Doctor Zhang is a typical beast in clothes and clothes. Originally, the scale of jokes between doctors is very large, but this one is especially too much. He never knows how to be reserved.Chen Lou was choked by his answer, and unconsciously thought about it.Doctor Zhang discovered the secret from his brief silence, and yelled strangely: "Fuck! Are you down there?!"

Chen Lou: "!!" He hung up the phone without saying a word.

It's just hanging on, this beast really hit the point.

Chen Lou was not an ascetic from the very beginning. He used to masturbate by himself when he had no date, but after graduation, he was free to fall in love. Naturally, he had to conform to his nature and liberate himself.Among the questions he raised with Jiang You at the beginning, in fact, besides their personalities, working in a different place was indeed the second biggest factor that made him hesitate-after all, for a young and middle-aged person, it is impossible to fly around every day. It's too aggrieved to run around and roll the sheets.

It's just that I didn't expect to avoid Jiang You but not Guan Yu. Since Chen Lou decided to start over with Guan Yu and received positive feedback from the other party, he has been thinking about the issue of the workplace. Coincidentally, he joined the job not long ago. Later, I heard that the daughter of a certain leader in the province wanted to teach at S University. This daughter is also a graduate of this school. The school has a good impression of her, but it is difficult to arrange because the quota has just been filled.Chen Lou has never been so virtuous in the past [-] years. If he hadn't left in a hurry when he finally left the school, the school probably would have held a farewell ceremony for him.

It's just that he doesn't need to tell Guan Yu the details right now.As a person who thinks he has a well-maintained body, good skin and good face, there is nothing more depressing than taking half of his clothes off, only to have the person on the other side continue to mutter about self-reflection.

Chen Lou sighed, seeing that Guan Yu's eyes widened as if he had just understood, and he was about to walk out with a blank expression.

As soon as he turned around, someone grabbed his wrist, and then Guan Yu directly grabbed his waist and dragged him back.

Chen Lou almost bumped into Guan Yu's arms.

Guan Yu's eyes were frighteningly bright, but his expression was extremely serious.Chen Lou looked up at him and blinked. The next second, Guan Yu leaned over and lowered his head to bite his earlobe lightly.Chen Lou was agitated, and the hairs all over his body stood on end. Guan Yu suddenly smiled lowly, and pressed his ear, pretending to be angry, and said, "Who do you want to empathize with?" Rubbing the back of the waist, he asked in a low voice: "Can others satisfy you?"

Chen Lou's face was on fire immediately, but he was the one who opened his mouth first, and he couldn't beg for mercy right away, so he reluctantly hid to the side, took a look at Guan Yu and lit up, "Of course."

Seeing that Guan Yu was taken aback, he took advantage of the victory and pointed his finger on the other's chest, saying, "What about you? Can you satisfy me, little director?"

"Try it?" Guan Yu squinted at him for a while, without denying it, the other hand had slowly touched Chen Lou's buttocks, and after pinching it twice, he said in a low voice: "Everyone who has used it can say good."

Chen Lou stared fiercely, and bit Guan Yu's arm.

Guan Yu let him bite, without complaining of pain, and leaned over to kiss the corner of Chen Lou's lips lightly.The other hand clasped his waist, rubbing him firmly in his arms.

The breaths of each other are intertwined and entangled. Chen Lou originally made up his mind not to let go, but Guan Yu moved from the corner of his lips along the road, slowly to his cheeks, and the back of his neck was on the side of his ears—Chen Lou felt that he was still careless. The two of them have done it countless times in their previous lives, and Guan Yu is very clear about his sensitive points.How could there be no way.

Uncontrollable excitement surged up, Chen Lou finally couldn't help but let out a low hum, and let go.In the next second, the world was spinning before his eyes, and Guan Yu had already pinned him down on the bed.

"Where's the condom?" Chen Lou quickly grabbed his hand, "Go and put on the condom."

"No." Guan Yu leaned on top of him, his eyes were gloomy, his fingers unconsciously groped for Chen Lou's wrist, and he said in a low voice, "I've never been here before."

The overlapping silhouettes on the dressing mirror were all disheveled and breathing heavily. Guan Yu pushed forward slowly. Chen Lou couldn't stand it and was about to give up when he heard the doorbell ding-dong—Guan Yu even forgot his original plan. Ordered takeaway.

The bodies of the two of them froze immediately, and then they heard someone knock on the door a few times, and then Guan Yu's cell phone vibrated in the living room.

"Go out and have a look." Chen Lou suddenly understood, pushed Guan Yu's chest, and whispered, "I'm not in a hurry."

What he said suddenly seemed a bit shy as a little daughter-in-law. Chen Lou himself was a little shy after saying it. Anyway, Guan Yu liked this kind of thing. Although the situation was embarrassing, he obediently got up and wrapped a bath towel and went to open the door.

The takeaway boy has never seen a person wearing clothes with a bath towel around his waist, but he still has other deliveries in his hand, and he has been delayed here for a long time, so he gave Guan Yu a strange look, and did not dare to look at him. Glancing randomly, he handed in the packed things and ran away quickly.

Guan Yu laid out the takeaway on the dining table without embarrassment. He didn't feel like eating it himself, but he was still thinking about Chen Lou's return from S City. He probably was hungry after a tiring journey.

Chen Lou was really hungry, but he ate very little. Guan Yu watched him pick up a few chopsticks and stopped moving, and asked in surprise, "You eat so little?"

"Isn't it to keep fit..." Chen Lou leaned back on the chair and squinted his eyes, answering casually.

"Don't fool me," Guan Yu asked, "Are you feeling uncomfortable?"

Chen Lou closed his eyes and said nothing, but unconsciously pressed his hands on his upper abdomen.

"Superficial gastritis?" Guan Yu glanced at it in surprise and said, "Why do you still have this problem? Do you still have to drink while studying for a PhD?"

"...I didn't drink alcohol, I didn't eat regularly, and I drank too much coffee." Chen Lou didn't want to hide it, so he said casually, "It's not that bad, but it's just a monster once in a while, just take it easy."

Chen Lou used to have a rotten problem that he didn't want to talk about. Guan Yu didn't know if his slowing down was really nothing to do, or it was to the point where he couldn't bear it and had to slow down.He squatted beside Chen Lou, stretched out his hand to cover Chen Lou's hand, rubbed it gently twice, and said in silence for a while: "In the future, you eat and chew slowly, and you don't need to be in a hurry when you do anything. It hurts your stomach when you eat too fast. Drink less coffee, didn’t you not like to drink this stuff before? Why are you still addicted to it now?”

"Xiaolu gave me a coffee machine." After finishing speaking, Chen Lou was taken aback for a moment, remembering Guan Yu's previous misunderstandings and the embarrassing relationship between the three of them, he cleared his throat unnaturally, and looked down at Guan Yu's expression.

Guan Yu lowered his head and let out a sigh.Chen Lou breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that this person was indifferent, but in the end he was not relieved, and saw Guan Yu get up and go to the bedroom, and when he came out, he had already put on a long coat, and he closed the door and went out without saying anything .

Chen Lou: "..." Fortunately, he saw that Guan Yu took the key and went out.

10 minutes passed, 10 minutes passed, Guan Yu didn't bring his mobile phone with him, Chen Lou waited for a long time and saw that no one came back, and couldn't get in touch to ask what was wrong, so he couldn't help but feel a little sleepy.It is not difficult for him to say soft words now, but Guan Yu is probably just jealous and throwing a fit. After all, the two of them have gone through the cycle of life and death twice, and now they are serious about trivial matters. , wouldn't it be a waste of living these two times.

Chen Lou didn't have any psychological pressure, and made up his mind to smooth Guan Yu's hair when he came back, so he went back to the bedroom first, planning to sleep for a while, so that he could play well when someone came.

He lay on the bed in a daze, still thinking about eighteen sweet words in his heart, but he fell asleep after thinking about it.

In the middle of the night, he heard someone calling his name, and another voice urging him to take off his clothes. Chen Lou was so sleepy and impatient, but he felt that it seemed that he was four or five years old, and he went to bed after a day of fun. The scene where I fell asleep, but was patted by my grandma, undressed and fell asleep again.The feeling of impatience was real, but so was the sense of security that came with warm hands unclothing himself.

Chen Lou cooperated very well by turning over when it was time to turn over, and lifting his buttocks when it was time to lift his butt. After struggling for a while, he felt someone hug him tightly from behind, and finally fell asleep again.

Early the next morning, Chen Lou was awakened by the itching from his neck. He looked back in a daze, and stretched out his hand to scratch his neck, but someone grabbed his wrist and dragged him over.

Guan Yu asked him, "Are you awake?"

Chen Lou didn't wake up, looked at him half-drowsily and nodded.

Guan Yu licked his lower lip, but still couldn't hold it back, he leaned over and bit his lip lightly, "I cooked you porridge to nourish your stomach, should you drink it after you're done or drink it now?"

Chen Lou woke up immediately. Someone had grabbed his wrist. When he moved, he found that their legs were also entangled.It's just that Guan Yu's men are domineering, but his eyes are only focused on him, his thin lips are tightly pursed, and his expression is very gentle.

Of course it's after a busy day.

Chen Lou's heart skipped a beat, and before answering, he asked, "Where did you go yesterday?"

"Going shopping." Guan Yu paused, and said, "Condoms, lubricating oil, and millet..." Going out in the middle of the night, the family planning store is easy to find, and everything is available, but the grain and oil store is still open. Not a few Chen Lou let out a sigh, feeling relieved now, smiled at Guan Yu, pulled his wrists around his neck and said, "I thought you were jealous and ran away from home."

"I'm just jealous," Guan Yu said viciously: "One soy sauce is not enough, and there is a small road waiting here, saying, did you do it on purpose!"

While talking, he put his arms around Chen Lou's waist, turned over and pressed on him, but his other hand slid down and squeezed Chen Lou's buttocks hard.Chen Lou's heart couldn't help speeding up. Looking at the deep and beautiful eyes of the person in front of him, only his own image was reflected, he wanted to laugh with satisfaction for a moment.

The morning light was mostly blocked by the curtains, Guan Yu watched the person below him with his eyes bent unsuspectingly, couldn't help but twitched the corners of his mouth, and pressed down gently.

The jealousy will be settled slowly in the future. It is better to have an appetizer on such a beautiful morning.

The author has something to say: Hey, this is a dumbass that even a little porn can't save... Let's just make do with it.In addition, there may be no logic in the extra episode, so write whatever you think of, please eat it selectively, I will try to keep the chapters concise and accurate.