old love [rebirth]

Guan Yu's living here was temporarily approved by Guan Feng. At that time, he thought that living a day is a day, and because Chen Lou has been trying his best to reject him, so he had no long-term plans.But now that Chen Lou asked, Guan Yu had a hunch that he wanted to express his determination, so he swallowed, and immediately said: "Of course I will stay forever. I will stay as long as you live. If you think this place is not good, let's turn around." Just change places, anywhere will do.”

However, Chen Lou said: "I personally don't want to change, one is to save money, and the other is because the current place is still quiet, no one dances in the square, and there are few children playing around, but the conditions are a bit difficult, maybe I'm going to wrong you."

"Don't feel wronged," Guan Yu immediately said, "I think it's fine here now."

"That's good," Chen Lou said, "I tend to forget the time when I'm reading, so I should cook very little. I feel sorry for you being busy."

"It's okay, I like to do it." Guan Yu felt that it was wrong, but Chen Lou's intention was to live together, and he didn't dare to ask too much, so he took the initiative to ask: "I have nothing to do anyway. , I will take care of the cooking, otherwise it is difficult to control the amount for one person, and it will be a waste if you can't eat."

"...Then I wash the dishes?" Chen Lou said this, hearing the footsteps in the corridor getting more and more noisy, knowing that he would not be able to sleep, so he simply got up and planned: "Or set a time and divide the work between five and five."

"You don't like to wash the pots and dishes, so I'll do it." Guan Yu also sat up, and smiled on the opposite side with his eyes bent, and suggested: "It's good to cook too much, I haven't eaten for a long time I'm done cooking, we're dead...ah, before you came back, you haven't cooked for me for several months, I want to eat your fried tofu with green onions, braised yellow croaker in soy sauce, and fried shrimp with cabbage..."

After he finished speaking, he swallowed, feeling a little hungry. He didn't feel like eating when Chen Lou had a fever last night. He didn't think anything of it at first, but now when he thought that Chen Lou might cook for him, his stomach suddenly started to rumble, rolling and clamoring.

Chen Lou was stunned for a moment, then turned to look at him in surprise: "How many months?"

"That's right," Guan Yu said, "It turned out that it took turns, but then you were too tired when you got home from get off work, and once you even cut your hand, so I did it."

"Oh," Chen Lou looked at him and was silent for a while, then said: "I'm sorry, I...don't remember. How about dividing it into one, three, five, two, four, and six? On Sunday, each eats its own, what's the temporary Arrange and discuss."

"No problem," Guan Yu said, "I'm one three five seven, you two four six, if we go out to eat, we will pick two four six." Guan Yu thought of this and said: "If you are tired and don't cook, I will come Okay, but it’s not good for you to sit all the time, you need to get up and move around appropriately, I see there is still room in the living room, do you want to buy a treadmill or something, do you exercise?”

Chen Lou shook his head.

Guan Yu wanted to say more, but thought that Chen Lou didn't like him talking, so he shut his mouth again.He was still a little excited, touching here and there, grinning and not daring to smile too much.

It's just that Chen Lou's expression was relatively indifferent, as if he had something on his mind.Guan Yu waited for a while without waiting for the next sentence, glanced at Chen Lou, and finally couldn't help asking in a low voice: "Are you...accepting me?"

Chen Lou didn't say a word.

Guan Yu felt that the atmosphere was not right, he moved, and suddenly he didn't dare to ask a second time, seeing Chen Lou hesitated to speak, he quickly jumped out of bed and said: "I know that, let's go back later Although your fever has subsided, you still have to pay attention..."

"...I accept you as a roommate," Chen Lou interrupted him, and said, "Let's share a room, let's be a roommate."

Guan Yu was a little dazed, and stood there blankly looking at Chen Lou.

Chen Lou was silent for a while, and said: "Actually, you are right. There are many good-looking men in this world, and I think that apart from my face, I really have nothing to compare with you. We are two worlds. It was a wrong decision to be together before, and now it is a blessing in misfortune for you and me to correct it in time."

He spoke slowly, seeing that Guan Yu's expression gradually changed from excitement to disappointment, and then a little bit of grievance eager to justify, so he smiled at him, and said: "But we have been together for a long time, after all, you and I have feelings. I don’t deny that I have a little love left, or I feel unwilling, and feel that it is too regretful to write off the relationship of the seven years of hard work before... From this point of view, I think you should be similar to me. People have been hurt , There will be an itching process when the wound is scarred, if this process cannot pass, you can't help but go back and pick it."

"I didn't think so," Guan Yu said anxiously as he heard the direction getting worse, "I don't think so."

Chen Lou shook his head, and suddenly took a deep look at him.

It was the first time for Guan Yu to see so many emotions in Chen Lou's eyes. He didn't know what Chen Lou had experienced in the past few days, or who he heard said, that could make him suddenly change to this point.Chen Lou's eyes seemed to be looking at someone he loved deeply, and at the same time seemed to be looking at a stranger. Guan Yu wanted to distinguish again, but Chen Lou turned his face away and smiled lightly.

"Do you know?" Chen Lou smiled and said, "If a person wants to commit suicide, it's best to follow the procedure of crying, making trouble, and hanging himself. This way, the emotions are well prepared, and the intention is clear enough, and things will happen in the future. , although the family members are sad, subconsciously they will feel that it is natural and not abrupt. And the most unbearable way to leave is to withdraw suddenly, without any greetings or foreshadowing... People are animals that are afraid of change, and this is the most unbearable way Sudden change, caught off guard and shocking enough.

The same is true for breaking up. Although we have struggled many times in our previous life, we have never reached the final step.Or maybe you knew too much about me and knew that I would not leave you at that time, so after I came back this time, my attitude made you feel incomprehensible. Think about it for yourself, have you been surprised many times? We can all make up, I always disagree this time? "

Guan Yu opened his mouth, instinctively wanting to deny it, but what Chen Lou said was heartbreaking and irrefutable.He lowered his head and stared at the white bed sheet and white pillow in front of him. After a long time, he whispered: "I thought so."

Chen Lou nodded: "That's it, this is the itching process before the wound heals. I don't know if you are still affected by the trajectory of your previous life..."

What he meant was that there were many things Guan Yu couldn't handle. In fact, when Guan Yu first came back, this situation was very serious, even to the point where he couldn't sleep without being under the same roof as Chen Lou.But since Lu Hening came back, such influence has become more and more shallow.After Guan Yu realized this, he didn't feel the joy of freedom, but felt a little nervous.Fortunately, he secretly rented the room next door to Chen Lou, otherwise Chen Lou would know that things were changing when he thought about it.

"I'm still affected," Guan Yu took a deep breath and said, "I haven't been able to sleep well in the past few days in Yunnan." He was afraid that his convincing power was not enough, so he emphasized: "Look, I've been giving you advice in the middle of the night. Text."

Chen Lou didn't doubt that he was there, so he hummed and said, "So I thought, maybe it would be better for us to rent together for a while. This way I don't have to deliberately change my bad habits, and you don't have to worry about my feelings and try to accommodate. Our diet and rest Even the clothes and habits can be whatever you want. I will accompany you through a scene where you cry, make trouble and hang yourself, and you should also pay attention to suitable people of the same sex around you, maybe you won’t be restrained after you let go.”

Guan Yu couldn't accept it. When he woke up in the morning, he was still sharing the same bed. How could he know how to say a word, and the situation turned upside down like this.He stared fixedly at Chen Lou, wanted to say something but felt powerless, and asked in a low voice after a long time: "Why does it have to be like this? What are you up to, Chen Lou, won't everything be fine if we reconcile? I'm not afraid of being kicked out by my family, and I'm not afraid of suffering, and I don't think you're running out of clothes to eat, so I won't bother you anymore, why do you have to do this?"

As he talked, he already had a tendency to feel aggrieved, and finally asked over and over again, "Why are you?"

Chen Lou stayed silent with him for a long time, seeing that he couldn't bear it after all, he could only lower his voice and patiently said: "Some choices may only be decided for a short moment, but in the future it will take a lifetime to regret. But why repeat the same mistakes.”

Seeing Guan Yu's mouth tightly pursed into a line, he stubbornly turned his face away from him, and after a moment of silence, he went to answer his previous question: "I didn't do this for a reason. You and I are considerate of each other, and each is safe. From then on, we can manage our respective families with care, and we can live our lives in peace and joy, regardless of whether we are rich or poor."

An hour later they checked out and asked the hotel for a taxi to go back.The heavy rain has stopped, and the remaining water on the road is rolled up and scattered by the wheels, making a sound of scrubbing.Chen Lou borrowed the pencil and notes from the hotel, and when he returned, he had already started to think about the arrangements for the next few weeks. During the period, he asked about Guan Yu's internship plan, his tone was so calm that there was no fluctuation.

Guan Yu agreed everything, and in the next few days, he followed Chen Lou's instructions.

In fact, apart from these, he didn't know what else to do. According to the previous trend, it was not easy for Chen Lou to make such a concession.Guan Yu didn't know what caused this transformation.It seems that the two of them can be under the same roof and cook and eat together is not far from what he wants, but once he thinks about Chen Lou's purpose and attitude, he can't feel at ease.

Not long after, there was movement from Guan Feng. Guan Yu was contacting the internship unit where his classmates were, but was caught by Guan Feng who came to him.

Guan Feng frowned and asked: "You should find a company for an internship, why is there no movement now, is it hard to find?"

Guan Yu shook his head. He was tired of being with Chen Lou in his previous life map, and he didn't go out for an internship. Finally, he found someone to issue an internship certificate.In this life, he was in a mess and didn't think about what to do, so he instinctively made choices according to the order of the previous life.

Guan Feng paused, sighed, and said, "I've tried my best to do my parents' work. They can't accept your orientation. The best situation at present is to believe that you can change your ways. You know that their health is not good. , if you are filial, come back with me this weekend, give them a good apology, and make a promise."

Guan Yu hesitated to speak, and finally nodded.He knew that the only ones he would hurt by coming out were his family members. Chen Lou's theory of "hanging himself" actually made sense. Even in family conflicts, slow grinding is more effective than sudden toughness.

Guan Feng's face softened a lot, and he said again: "I don't know how much you can change back, and I don't know if you can really let Lu Hening go, since you want to separate from him, I have prepared a very good way .”

"What method?" Guan Yu raised his head and asked, "What is a good method?"

"I don't think you plan to find a company for a good internship." Guan Feng handed over a document bag, looked at him and said, "You are a fool in your major, and you are expected to be sent to Africa after your undergraduate degree. So I will give you I found a few French schools, look back and see which one you like, and let me know when you think about it.”

"What do you mean?" Guan Yu glanced at the file bag and was stunned.

"I'll take you out," Guan Feng said, "it doesn't matter if you can learn some skills or not, but at least you can stay away from here so that you can stop thinking about it. I have a classmate who works in an overseas study agency, so you don't have to worry about the application. , as long as you are ready for the final interview.”

"...I won't go," Guan Yu said, "I've already broken up with Lu Hening. If I don't go out, I can live a good life in China."

"You and Lu Hening are clean, but what about Chen Lou?" Guan Feng held the steering wheel and stared at him with raised eyebrows: "Although you and Lu Hening have been dating for several years and have a deep relationship, it is undeniable that Chen Lou It looks very similar to Lu Hening. I always felt that something was wrong before, but later I realized that such a coincidence has to make people vigilant, and I would rather kill a thousand by mistake than let one go."

Seeing Guan Yu's complexion suddenly changed, he said with a stern expression: "Take the information back and read it slowly, I will give you enough time to buffer. But the longer you think about it, the less living expenses you will get from me in the future .”

Guan Yu was still in a state of shock, and insisted for a while, "I won't go."

"There's no room for you to choose here," Guan Feng smiled, "I love you because I'm just such a younger brother, but it doesn't mean that I will consider your feelings in everything. If you want to be like an adult, tell me Talking about conditions, please go back and look at your weight and capital."