old love [rebirth]

When people are impulsive, it is inevitable that they will lose their minds when doing things. Guan Yu pressed the send button only to realize that the tone was not right.He quickly poked a few times on the phone, but found that he couldn't cancel it, and couldn't think of any remedy, so he simply thought: that's it, the big deal is, Chen Lou will know later, let him beat him up to vent his anger, Besides, it's not like Chen Lou didn't do this kind of thing before. Back then, Lu Hening's text messages and calls were all blacklisted by him. Now this qd is just a little guy with unknown background, what a fool!

He thought so, but still couldn't help but feel guilty, and stared at the phone screen to see the other party's new reply as if facing a big enemy.Fortunately, the past 3 minutes, the phone is also quiet, no new text messages or new calls.

Guan Yu breathed a sigh of relief, turned his phone to silent and put it on the table for Chen Lou, and hurried to prepare his New Year's Eve dinner.

Chen Lou fell asleep in a daze. His work and rest these days were very irregular. During the day, he just read books and did homework. When he was tired, he went to bed.The biological clock is completely messed up.When I went out with Guan Yu today, I didn't feel it, but when I got home, I couldn't hold on anymore.

This time he didn't sleep very long, at least he heard Guan Yu say that he was going to cook before he fell asleep, and when he woke up, Guan Yu was still cooking in the kitchen.

There are already several dishes on the table, all of which are upside down with basins, and it is impossible to see what they are.The range hood in the kitchen was still humming, Chen Lou went over to look, Guan Yu seemed to be cooking glutinous rice balls.

There are no dumplings in the supermarket here, and Chen Lou's appetite has not been very good recently, so when Guan Yu was digging through the freezer to find dumplings, he said that eating glutinous rice balls during the New Year is the same.Guan Yu thought he was thinking about his own habits, and was moved for a while, but he didn't know that Chen Lou was just perfunctory for him to finish shopping quickly.

At this moment, Chen Lou woke up, looking at the pot of clear water, feeling a little worried.

Guan Yu thought he was hungry, so he quickly pushed him away and said, "It will be fine soon, you go wash your face and wait."

He said it was right away, but Chen Louzhen waited on the side after washing his face, but he didn't come out.

It is true that Guan Yu has eaten glutinous rice balls since childhood, but he has never cooked them.When I was at home, my aunt or his mother cooked it, and he was the one waiting to eat it.After he was with Chen Lou, he didn't buy it for several years because Chen Lou didn't like it.

It was the first time for him to do it today, and he felt that it was as solemn as a New Year's ceremony. He was nervous and excited, but he couldn't do anything.

Chen Lou waited outside for more than ten minutes. Seeing that Guan Yu hadn't come out yet, he couldn't help but go to the kitchen door and look in, "Guan Yu, you're quite a tall horse."

"Ah?" Guan Yu immediately turned his head to look at him, and subconsciously wanted to cover the pot with the lid.

"Didn't you say it's coming soon? It's been more than ten minutes since I went up." Chen Lou pushed him away to look into the pot, and couldn't help turning his head to stare at him: "Where's the glutinous rice balls?"

"..." Guan Yu felt wronged, and said with a mournful face, "I don't know either."

There was a pot of milky white soup in front of him. Chen Lou stirred it with a spoon, and could smell the smell of sesame seeds and red dates, but he didn't get any skin of the glutinous rice balls.

"I just followed the instructions on the package, boil the water first, and then put the glutinous rice balls in..." Guan Yu was stunned when he opened the pot just now. Obviously, the steps were correct, and the glutinous rice balls were also intact when they were put in. Why is it gone when the pot is opened?

He originally thought that after the cooking was done, he would be able to share a burden with Chen Lou, so that the Lantern Festival would be sweet in his heart, and celebrate the new year sweetly.What else is there to eat one for smooth sailing in the coming year, and two for good things one after another...Eating nine means that Chen Lou will surely win the postgraduate entrance examination...

But now one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine are all gone, there is only one egg left in Guan Yu's mind, it's miserable, it doesn't feel like a good omen.

At the beginning, Chen Lou wanted to say that it was fine, so let's eat directly.But looking back at Guan Yu, seeing that the latter was really disappointed, frowning, looking down at the lid of the pot in his hand, looking aggrieved and sad, couldn't help but softened his heart and asked him: "Didn't you buy it?" Two packs?"

Guan Yu said, "It's all in."

"Are you sure?" Chen Lou squinted at the shopping bag beside him, saw a yellow bag at the bottom, smiled and said, "I bought two big bags, one big bag and two small bags inside."

"Ah?" Guan Yu looked up at him.

"Get out," Chen Lou waved him away, "Don't get in the way here, do you want this pot of soup?"

"Yes, yes," Guan Yu shouted back while walking, "My debut novel, please leave me a bowl to taste."

Chen Lou snickered at him, left a bowl for him, quickly rinsed the pot and re-boiled the water, this time the cooking was very successful, the glutinous rice balls floated on the top, Chen Lou divided them into two bowls and brought them out, the outside dishes It's all cooled down.

Guan Yu's enthusiasm remained undiminished, and he kept chattering since he brought out the glutinous rice balls. Chen Lou listened more and talked less, only answering a sentence or two occasionally.

Guan Yu said: "My cooking is okay...well, it's okay, but it's a bit salty, not as delicious as your cooking."

Chen Lou raised his head and glanced at him indifferently, thinking that the core idea of ​​what he said should be the first few words.

Sure enough, Guan Yu boasted again: "...but compared with our peers, I am already at a good level. Tsk, I am also pretty good. I have to be handsome, have long legs, and be able to cook and clean up. House, what are you doing?"

"...the soup comes out after the glutinous rice balls are boiled," Chen Lou couldn't help answering, frowning at him, "Can you please be quiet while eating?"

"..." Guan Yu said innocently, "Aren't I happy to spend New Year's Eve with you on New Year's Eve?"

"How many times have you crossed?" Chen Lou said speechlessly, "Aren't you bothered?"

"No!" Guan Yu immediately said: "Actually, I'm quite happy. I didn't spend this day with you in my last life. Hey, that's right. How did you live that time? Let me tell you about me," Guan said. Yu thought for a while, then sighed and said after a long time: "It seems that there is nothing to say, just eat, and start playing cards after eating. Group messages, group messages, and don't go to sleep until after one o'clock. It's like this every year, and it's not interesting. And you?"

Chen Lou groaned, and thought about it, but finally just smiled.

"What's the matter? Tell me," Guan Yu asked, "What were you doing that year?"

"My hometown is in the countryside." Chen Lou put down his chopsticks and sighed as he watched him chase him closely. Countdown to midnight."

"What's so interesting about this?" Guan Yu clicked his tongue and said, "Is there anything else?"

"...Also," Chen Lou looked down at his palm, smiled and said, "I'm waiting for a text message." A boy who has just fallen in love knows that the life of the person on the other end of the phone is rich and colorful, so he may not be willing. I looked at my phone more, but still couldn't help but press the screen from time to time to see if there was any news from that person.

Guan Yu nodded, and it took two seconds to realize who Chen Lou was talking about.

"...Me," Guan Yu paused, before asking unnaturally, "Then I... did I send it to you later?"

"Send it, it was distributed at [-]:[-]," Chen Lou looked up at him, and smiled, "I have received three text messages from me: happy every day, beautiful and lucky, and sweet miss... ...Guan Yu and his family wish you New Year greetings."

There is no distinctive group post, and there is no commemorative time.After receiving it, Chen Lou was so happy that flowers would pop out, and he grinned for a long time while holding his mobile phone.Later, he persisted until midnight, stuck at 00:00, and sent six words to Guan Yu, "Happy New Year—Chen Lou."

Many times when people who come here look at those men and women who are passionately in love, they will always feel that there are nine out of ten hypocritical and sensitive, and they care about everything.But when I think about it again, these hypocritical and sensitive people care about everything, and only those who are passionately in love will have the emotions.At least for Chen Lou, when he was waiting for Guan Yu's message with his mobile phone, a sense of love and longing that was so strong that it almost burst would almost annihilate him.

He waited nervously and expectantly. When he did receive a text message, it was obviously a mass message, but he always felt that his own was different from others, with different feelings and expectations. Can see a little bit of vague ambiguity and longing.Chen Lou read the text message over and over again, and finally locked it.At twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, he felt that he had a lot to say, but seeing the time getting closer, those gorgeous rhetoric seemed to be unable to express his thoughts, and finally only a sincere sentence was left Happy New Year.

Those four words were concise and concise, and Chen Lou's signature was added, which was inexplicably solemn and proud.

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Guan Yu knew that he had said something wrong, Chen Lou was fine, so he cooked glutinous rice balls for him.But now that he was forced to talk about the past, the expression on his face was not very good.

But he didn't know what other topic to turn to, so he could only shout bluntly: "Oh, I'm so ignorant."

Chen Lou turned to look at him and said, "That's right."

"..." Guan Yu cheekily changed the subject again: "Look at how good I am now, I can work and cook, and I can reflect on myself three times a day for self-examination."

Chen Lou said again: "Yes."

Guan Yu breathed a sigh of relief.

Chen Lou stood up to turn on the TV, and said with a smile, "But you're doing my shit!"

Guan Yu: "..."

"Don't talk about being so dead." Guan Yu followed him and sat on the sofa, not daring to get too close, and said with a short distance from him: "It's a big New Year's taboo, in case you walk around and find Is it still the original one?"

The Spring Festival Gala on TV had already started, and now a soprano was singing.

Chen Lou frowned, clicked his tongue in a series of high-pitched singing, and said casually, "Aren't you a principled person? I've slept with someone before, and you still want to be the original partner?"

Guan Yu tilted his ears, and couldn't help being shocked when he understood, "Did you really sleep?!"

Chen Lou turned to look at him, neither saying yes nor no.

Guan Yu's throat rolled, and after taking another deep breath, he stared at Chen Lou and said, "If... it's true, just promise not to contact him again."

"..." Chen Lou was a little surprised, but seeing Guan Yu's attitude that at most he could no longer bargain, he couldn't help but want to laugh.

He endured it, pretending to be apologetic: "But... After all, we have had feelings, even if we are friends, it is inevitable that we will meet once or twice."

"...What kind of friends are you still friends with?" Guan Yu said anxiously: "If we are separated, we will be far away, so what kind of friends should we still be friends with?" He shouted, seeing Chen Lou's expression was unmoved, After a pause, he said, "Do you have to meet?"

Look aggrieved and sad.

Chen Lou couldn't bear it anymore, shook his head, and hurriedly said before his face changed from cloudy to sunny: "I'm just joking with you. I... have no intention of finding my original partner."

Guan Yu didn't let go of his breath, and got stuck.

Chen Lou paused, and explained: "No matter how you misunderstood before, let me clarify with you one more time. There is nothing between Lu Hening and I. I never mentioned my orientation to him, and our relationship is also At most, they are just friends.”

Guan Yu asked, "What if he knows?"

"That's hard to say," Chen Lou replied truthfully: "He tried me more than once. I didn't intend to hide it from him, but I just didn't know how to say it. After all, the relationship between the three of us is too embarrassing, and he doesn't know anything. I don't know...Although I have let go of the past, it is one thing to be friends and another to be lovers."

Guan Yu's heart sank slowly, but then he caught it sharply and asked, "You mean he likes you?"

"Maybe," Chen Lou admitted generously, "It's not necessarily the kind of liking of love, it might be something else."

"What about you?" Guan Yu asked, "Do you have any other preferences?"

Chen Lou: "..."

Guan Yu paused for a while, and said in a low voice: "You can't blame me for thinking too much, it's really...you hate him so much, but you can celebrate his birthday as soon as you come back...I'm sorry for the fact that you gave him money in the last life. I can't figure it out either, seeing that you are so kind to him and so cold to me, I can't think of anything else except that you don't love me to love him."

"It's understandable," Chen Lou said, "After all, your IQ is flawed at this stage."

"..." Guan Yu didn't argue, just asked him, "Can you tell me why?"

"What why?" Chen Lou sighed. He and Guan Yu really lacked a serious and peaceful communication to clarify the misunderstanding and plan. The day of saying goodbye to the old and welcoming the new might not be a bad time.

"If you ask about the 20 yuan in the previous life," Chen Lou said, "it was given to me by your brother. He said that Lu Hening's family is a bottomless pit. If you help him this time, it is impossible to guarantee that you will not be able to pay for it next time." times. So he lent me the money and asked me to make a statement with Lu Hening, hoping that he would know that you are a person with a family now."

When Chen Lou said this, he couldn't help frowning, and asked Guan Yu: "I never asked, what happened to Lu Hening's family at that time?" Everyone in the family has become a related household of the enemy, and it deserves their bad luck.But this life is different, he got to know Ning Shan, a gentle and strong girl, if the Lu family is in trouble, no matter what, he doesn't want her to be in trouble.

But Guan Yu said: "I don't know the specifics. At that time, he only said that there was an urgent matter at home and he needed to borrow 20." He looked up at Chen Lou, paused and said, "I didn't make an appointment with him on purpose. The air conditioner in my car was broken that time, and I saw him when I went to the 4S store. Anyway...he was not a good guy, and was reprimanded by the store manager. At first he saw me and hid, but then I was about to leave, and he chased him out again gone."

Chen Lou was dazed for a while, and after a while he asked, "And then?"

"Then he said that there was an urgent need for me to borrow money. I hesitated at first. He said that he had borrowed everything he could borrow, and people he knew and didn't know had spoken. There was really no other way. Guan Yu lowered his head, and couldn't help sighing when he thought of the scene at that time: "He was really...begging me. I have always felt guilty towards him, so I agreed."

Afterwards, both of them became clear about the matter. After Guan Yu agreed, he disregarded the situation at home and made up things together, while Chen Lou watched angrily.Probably Lu Hening didn't know about Guan Yu being kicked out by the Guan family, and of course Chen Lou didn't know about his desperate situation.

Chen Lou couldn't help but think, in fact, if he had known about it at the time, he might not have become that good person openly.After all, he didn't know Lu Hening at that time, he only knew that he was acting as a substitute for someone in a daze, and he might have to live under the shadow of that name for the rest of his life, unless he broke up with Guan Yu.

But he has liked Guan Yu for so long. Long, long ago, when Guan Yu didn't know him, he was already learning to say "I love you" in French.

In this matter, Guan Yu was innocent, so there was nothing wrong with him.It's only because of good fortune and tricks, the couple Lu Hening and Guan Yu didn't make it, but they let themselves toss for so many years in vain.

"Actually, I also thought about it. When I first came back from rebirth," Guan Yu said frankly: "I think I know the problems Lu Hening will encounter in the future, so we can wait for him to come back from other places and we can continue our relationship. "

Chen Lou nodded, this kind of thinking is natural.

The TV host came out to join the show, and the hostess said, "Six years have passed in the blink of an eye..."

"I didn't continue later, was it because I was forced to follow me?" Chen Lou pinched the corners of his eyes, touched the cigarette case from the table, and took out one.When lighting the cigarette, he turned his face sideways and frowned, the sparks bit by bit, the contours of his face suddenly deepened, completely retreating from his usual student appearance.

Guan Yu wanted to remind him to stop smoking, so he opened his mouth, and when he saw Chen Lou let out a breath, his brows relaxed immediately, and he swallowed the words back, only saying: "It has nothing to do with him, it's me. I remember we used to I remember every little thing about you, when you were angry and when you were happy, and I can’t forget it... When I knew that my life trajectory had not changed, I was actually very happy in my heart, and I thought it would be nice to live another life with you. And ...My feelings for Lu Hening are also different from yours."

"I understand," Chen Lou smiled: "After getting along for a long time, it's hard to quit even if it's a habit. What's more, we have endured hardships together, and we have struggled together. But you don't need to exaggerate this kind of relationship." , thinking about love and love, we have said too many good things between the two of us, as well as bad things, and if we talk too much, we will get tired and have no meaning."

"..." Guan Yu was suddenly speechless. There was indeed no lack of confession between him and Chen Lou. You love me and I love you, you like me and I like you. I don't know how many times I said it before. At the beginning It was still very solemn, and then it gradually became like that.

It's just that the love is deep and the love is deep, and those love words may not hit the ears, but once the hurtful words are said, maybe any sentence will kill the carbine, kill him with one blow, and hit the deathbed.

"Then what about you now?" Guan Yu asked, "You are so nice to Lu Hening...that makes me jealous."

"Really?" Chen Lou paused slightly with his hand holding the cigarette, thought for a while, and said in a low voice, "If you were me, maybe you wouldn't be able to hate it either." Hiring a good tutor for my sister, high-end shoeboxes, storage boxes piled up in the corner...

Chen Lou had to admit that he accidentally bumped into Lu Hening's most unbearable and lonely side.The latter's words and deeds almost run counter to the image of the flower of Gaoling in Chen Lou's impression. After tangling and struggling in such a situation, it is inevitable to feel compassion for them.

After all, these two people are still kind, and they have not actively hurt anyone. Chen Lou can't vent his anger, so it is difficult to generate hatred.

"I'm talking to you tonight because I don't want any unnecessary misunderstandings to continue," Chen Lou said, "If you and Lu Hening have a chance to get back together, I don't want to be an inexplicable stumbling block. But that's all Once, you'd better figure it out yourself when you guess what to do next, I won't explain it anyway."

"What about us?" Guan Yu said: "I can't be with him anymore, I like you, and you don't have a partner now, can you think about me again?"

"I can't," Chen Lou refused flatly, turning his head to stare at him and said, "You said that you don't think too much about anything, so I will agree with you to live here. It's one thing to talk tonight, but There should be some proportion.”

"..." Guan Yu opened his mouth, and asked awkwardly after a while: "Then can I ask another question?"

Chen Loudao: "Say."

"Since Lu Hening likes you, does it mean that you can accept him when you come out to him?"

"I don't know," Chen Lou said, "It's possible."

Guan Yu said: "What about the other gays? Those who are interested in you and you still have their contact information. Does that mean you might consider him?"

"Probably." Chen Lou nodded, "You've already asked two questions."

"Ah, the last one," Guan Yu gritted his teeth, staring into Chen Lou's eyes and asked, "Who is that qd?"