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The touch on the lips gradually faded, and when Chen Fang came back to his senses, Lu Shiqing had already left.

He lightly touched the back of his neck with his hands, the temporary bite marks did not heal so quickly, and there was still a slight sting when touched.

Mark, is that the case?

Chen Fang was a little puzzled, it seemed to be completely different from the sign he understood.There was no blood dripping, no embarrassment, no piercing pain, even gentle and careful, just like the action of Lu Shiqing piercing the glands in the back of his neck with alpha canine teeth, even if there was a slight tingling pain, it was all gone. Melted in countless delicate kisses before and after the mark.

The touch brought about a slight glandular reaction, and Chen Fang quickly withdrew his hand in a panic, looking at the inhibitor Lu Shiqing left for him.

Still don't use it.

If it's just for a piece of fried sugar cake, it's fine.The fear of the glands going out of control is, by any means, much stronger than the craving for an optional piece of fritters.

It's just that in this way, Lu Shiqing will be disappointed with him.

Chen Fang squeezed the tiny needle, got up and hid it in the gaps of the piles of clothes, hoping to get rid of the invisible and reduce the dependence on the inhibitor in his mind.

Compared with the not serious glandular reaction after being marked, he was more afraid of seeing Lu Shiqing's disappointed expression again.He saw it once in the rain four years ago, his eyes were dim, like a star river falling, which made him regret every moment since then.

Lu Shiqing came back early at night, and when he returned to the basement, Chen Fang was washing the sheets that Lu Shiqing had replaced. There was moisture hidden in every fold, probably stained with a lot of sweat and tears from last night.

"Let me come." Lu Shiqing walked into the bathroom, shaking the plastic bag in his hand, which contained a piece of yellow fried food, "Go and eat, it's still hot."

"It'll be ready soon." Chen Fang rinsed the sheets for the last time, hung them on the string to dry, wiped his wet hands casually, shook his wrinkled fingertips, and stretched out his hand to take Lu Shiqing's hand. Here come the fried sugar cakes.

"It's the first time I bought it here. I don't know if it tastes that way." Lu Shiqing watched Chen Fang take the first bite, and the melted syrup stained the corner of his mouth, which Lu Shiqing gently wiped away, smiling. He smiled and asked, "Is it delicious?"

"It's delicious, very sweet." Chen Fang licked the corner of his mouth that was wiped by Lu Shiqing's fingers, and the sweetness of the syrup still remained, and asked Lu Shiqing hesitantly: "You brought fried sugar cakes back... how do you know about me?" With or without inhibitors?"

"Actually, I don't know." Lu Shiqing looked at Chen Fang, "So have you used it?"

"No." Chen Fang replied immediately, eager to prove himself, like a child checking homework for the teacher, pointing to the pile of clothes on the sofa, "under the penultimate white shirt."

"It's so hidden." Lu Shiqing smiled, and didn't intend to go to verify it, but just touched Chen Fang's face, and said after a while: "Come with me after eating, okay?"

"...Where are you going?" Chen Fang paused while chewing.

"I've rented a house outside, and it's almost cleaned up, so I can move in." Lu Shiqing explained, "I want to take you in, so don't continue to live here."

"Yes, live together?" Chen Fang lowered his head and silently swallowed the fried sugar cake in his mouth, without taking another bite.

"Yes, I'll move in too, and we'll live together." Lu Shiqing replied simply, and at the same time, it was impossible not to see Chen Fang's poor acting skills, and asked him, "You don't want to?"

Chen Fang didn't speak.

Things seemed to be in order, and he should have followed the planned direction, but he dared not move forward, as if some factors had deprived him of the courage to ask for directions.

They did everything they should do, Lu Shiqing gave him a temporary mark, but it was only a temporary mark... The facts came before the thoughts were settled, Chen Fang did not dare to easily judge the relationship between them in his heart... Have you recovered, lover.

What separates them is the long time, as if the once coherent overlap of their lives had been stolen from the other half, and now it overlaps again, and the missing part cannot be fully returned.

Many unexplainable things gathered into a torrent bit by bit through the gap of time, filling the long gully between them.If they believe that they can easily pass through just relying on temporary sympathy or dependence... They will not be teenagers who will make wishes on sparks, nor will they naively pray and wait for their wishes to come true. The things that need to be considered are even more important than four years ago. Much more, Chen Fang didn't dare to be blindly confident just because of his loneliness or love.

Because as early as four years ago, he had been crushed by those things.

Now he is still not sure, if he continues to entangle with Lu Shiqing, whether he is making another mistake and whether he needs to be corrected tragically in time; whether his every thought or decision is building a bridge for crossing this chasm. The single-plank bridge is still pushing Lu Shiqing further.

After all, he was the one who left first, and he didn't dare to look back for four years, so he wasn't sure whether Lu Shiqing would still stand where he was.

Many things have not yet happened, which makes people feel humble.

But Lu Shiqing didn't allow him to back down.

"Chen Fang, I marked you. Do you know what this means?" After a long silence, Lu Shiqing seemed a little angry. He asked Chen Fang eagerly without waiting for an answer, "It means you are mine." Omega, I have an unquestionable desire to protect and possess you, and I am obliged to be responsible for everything about you."

Lu Shiqing knew that this was not the best rhetoric, but it seemed to be the most convincing. After all, at this moment, it is really illusory to say love to a person who has a close heart.

At the same time, he was also thankful that he knew that he was not a desperate gambler. Although he was still desperate, at least he still had a negligible bargaining chip in his hand—the inhibitor hidden under his clothes.

It was his consideration for Chen Fang not to allow Chen Fang to abuse the inhibitor; but it was Chen Fang's concession for him to keep this inhibitor.

Before that, maybe the inhibitor was the foundation of Chen Fang's survival, but after that, Lu Shiqing could at least be sure that in Chen Fang's subconscious mind, he was probably more important than the inhibitor.

Lu Shiqing got up, and accurately found the inhibitor hidden by Chen Fang from under his clothes, and his gaze sank as he looked at the tiny needle tube.

"I can make concessions, but I'm very fussy, so it's only a little bit." Lu Shiqing squatted down, looked up at Chen Fang, took his hand, and gently put the needle into his palm, "But there are some things I won't give in. You are mine, even if it's just a temporary mark, even if you don't want to, you regret it now, but before the effect of the mark disappears, you are mine, understand?"

The words were so straightforward that there was no room for Chen Fang not to understand.And he just opened his mouth, still silent, looking at Lu Shiqing's eyes flickering a few times, as if he knew it but couldn't believe it.

"Don't rely on inhibitors."

But Lu Shiqing's words were so absolute and firm that it was hard for people to doubt them.

"Rely on me."

The plastic bag wrapped in fried sugar cake rang, briefly breaking the silence between the two.

Chen Fang didn't speak, but moved his fingers awkwardly, put the syringe of the inhibitor aside, lowered his head and continued to take small bites of the fried sugar cake.The temperature of the syrup in the stuffing dropped, and the crystallized sugar particles rubbed against the mouth, but Chen Fang didn't seem to care, and kept chewing quietly.

Until the last bite of fried sugar cake was swallowed, and the last bit of sweetness disappeared in his mouth, he held the plastic bag, looked at Lu Shiqing who was still squatting in front of him, and nodded.

In fact, Chen Fang was not considering whether to move to Lu Shiqing's new home, but recalled the questions that puzzled him four years ago and was finally forced to accept.

Why can't you have both what you want and what you should get? Why must one of him and Lu Shiqing give in and give up.

It was wrong for him to be greedy and wishful thinking, but maybe it was also a mistake to make decisions for Lu Shiqing. He thought that in the name of thinking about him, he turned Lu Shiqing into the person who hurt the most.

Looking into Lu Shiqing's eyes, Chen Fang suddenly felt a burst of regret. If he had dared to look up into Lu Shiqing's eyes when he made that tragic decision four years ago, he might have understood this truth long ago.

He could never refuse anything that Lu Shiqing gave him or asked for, or as long as it was Lu Shiqing.

If this is what Lu Shiqing wants now.

A Chen Fang that was broken and put together again.

Then give it all to him.