The self-salvation of fast-piercing cannon fodder

It took Chen Ting five years to find out the truth about Qiming's death, although she knew that Qiming was willing to exchange his heart for Han Xingsheng's hope and her life's stability and success.She knew that Qiming would definitely not want her and Han Xing to turn against each other, but every time when Qiming died, she looked at the lonely tombstone and the cold photo on it, and she couldn't help but resent that they took Qiming's heart alive , resenting himself for being the accelerator of Qiming's death.Just today, the fifth anniversary of Qiming's death, Chen Ting finally couldn't bear the torment in her heart. Why can he pretend that nothing happened, why can he be the young master of his Han family in peace, why can he Without suffering from pain, why can he forget her brother completely!So she wanted Han Xing to know what her brother had sacrificed for him!

"No, it's impossible, it's impossible..." Han Xing's voice gradually became softer. He knew that he had guessed the truth the moment he recovered his memory, but he didn't want to believe it, he didn't want to believe it. This cruel fact.It was he who killed Qiming, the person he loved deeply, and the only person who did not hesitate to protect him with his life!

Han Xing's head was buzzing, and the severe pain in his heart made him cling to the clothes on his chest. Unable to accept the reality, he finally passed out after a convulsion in his heart, and the phone slipped from his hand, " It fell to the ground with a bang.

When Han Xing woke up again, it was already the morning of the next day. He stared blankly at this familiar yet unfamiliar ward. Thinking, the corner of Han Xing's mouth curled into a self-deprecating smile. He reached out and covered his chest, and said with a choked voice, "Brother, I miss you so much! You have been gone for five years. If I go looking for you, can I still find you?" ?”

With a "squeak", the door was pushed open, and Han Zhen walked in from the outside. Seeing that Han Xing had woken up, he walked a few steps to the bed, and asked with concern: "Xiao Xing, why are you crying? Does it hurt, grandpa will call the doctor right away."

Han Xing grabbed Han Zhen's arm and said sadly, "Grandpa, I've already remembered it!"

Han Zhen froze when he heard the words, fell silent for a while, then sighed and said: "When the doctor said that you were too sad and hurt your heart, I already guessed that you have recovered your memory, but there is still a little luck in my heart. But that's okay, In order to keep this secret all these years, grandpa has also suffered a lot, and he will be condemned by his conscience every day. Now that you have recovered your memory, there is no need for me to hide it anymore. If you have anything you want to ask, just ask. "

Han Xingqiang suppressed the pain in his heart, and said as calmly as possible: "Grandpa, tell me what happened that night."

Han Zhen was silent for a while, and slowly described what happened that night. He said calmly, "Actually, Qiming knew a long time ago that his heart type is the best match for you. After he was injured, you There seemed to be no problem with your body, but he realized that you were actually at the end of his battle, so he stopped Han Yan from rescuing him and volunteered to transplant his heart to you. Xiaoxing, I understand when you know the truth , how sad it would be. However, that child Chen Ming exchanged his own life for yours, and his heart is still beating in your chest. If you just give up like this, do you think you are worthy of his sacrifice? "

Han Xing was already sobbing. He grabbed his clothes tightly on his chest and sobbed, "Grandpa, the one I would rather die is me. Do you understand? In a world without him, how could I survive... .”

"Child." Han Zhen looked at the sad Han Xing with heartache, his nose couldn't help sore, and he said with a choked voice, "Grandpa understands, grandpa knows, but that child gave you the hope of being born, you can't let him down, otherwise he will How is it possible to rest in peace. Child, you calm down, your heart can't bear too much emotional fluctuations, think about it, it is also his heart, if there is any problem with his heart, then he is really in this world Completely gone."

Han Xing was taken aback when he heard the words, he pressed his right hand tightly on his chest, felt the beating of his heart, and slowly calmed down, he wiped away the tears on his face, looked at Han Zhen and said, "Grandpa, where is my cell phone?" ?”

Seeing that Han Xing had calmed down, Han Zhen couldn't help but heaved a sigh of relief, and quickly said, "It's in the drawer, I'll get it for you."

Han Xing took the phone and said calmly, "Grandpa, can you go out first?"

"Xiao Xing, you..." Han Zhenyi said with some concern.

Han Xing laughed at himself and said, "Grandpa, don't worry, I won't do stupid things, because I don't even have the qualifications to seek death now!"

While Han Zhen breathed a sigh of relief, he couldn't help but feel sad. In fact, the one left behind is the most painful. In a world without a loved one, every day is a torment, not to mention that he is still the one he loves in exchange for his life. As Han Xing said, he is not even qualified to seek death.

Han Zhen left the room step by step, turning his head three times, and gently closed the door for Han Xing.

Han Xing turned on the phone, turned to the email Chen Ting had sent him, and eagerly opened the video. The face he had not seen for five years appeared in front of his eyes again, and the tears that had dried up couldn't help but flow down again.

In the video, Qiming looked in good spirits, with a warm smile on his face, Han Xing's familiar pampering in his gentle expression. He looked at the phone screen as if he was talking to him.

"Xiaoxing, when you see this video, it means that you have recovered your memory. To be honest, I would rather you never see it for the rest of your life, because once it appears in front of you, it will be the beginning of your pain. Although we The time we have been together is only a few months, but I think I understand your temperament. If I let you know the truth of the matter, you will definitely be very painful and even do some stupid things. Xiaoxing, maybe I am great in the eyes of others Yes, I left the hope of life to you, but I know that I am selfish, because while I leave the hope of life to you, I also leave you with the pain of a lifetime! Sorry, Xiaoxing, brother is a Cowardly person, I can't bear the pain of losing you, so I selfishly left the pain to you."

"Remember the love story about Mantis that I told you? Everyone said that the Mantis bride was cruel. She ate the groom who loved her so much on her wedding night. She must not love him. I think it's the opposite. , I think the groom is more cruel than the bride. In order to fulfill his deep love, he makes the bride who also loves him suffer the pain of living. Between us, it is like the pair of praying mantises. Although they have different feelings, they are love. We It is family affection, but the same, I am the groom, and you are the bride. Xiao Xing, you once said that no matter what I want, you will give it, so I will tell you now, I want you to live well!"

"I know that when you find out the truth, you can't hide this secret. Tingting may have some extreme reactions. I hope you, as a brother, can tolerate her more. Tingting is a kind person. My child, I believe she will not do too much. Xiaoxing, I hope you can get along peacefully, because you are my most important relatives!"

"Xiao Xing, don't blame anyone, whether it is Han Yan or your grandfather, they are all people who treat you well. The reason why they did this is because I begged you. If you want to blame it, you can blame it! Xiao Xing , I'm sorry, I broke my promise, I don't ask for your forgiveness, I just hope that your life will be easier in the future."

"Xiao Xing, brother is leaving, forget about me!"

Han Xing locked himself in the room for three days and three nights. No one knew what he had done. They only knew that after he came out, his whole personality changed, he became more taciturn, more indifferent and alienated.

A few months later, the Han family held a special wedding. Han Xing held the wedding ceremony with Qiming's portrait in his arms. Only Han Zhen, Han Yan, Chen Ting, Zhou Chen and Zhou Zhou attended the wedding.

Chen Ting looked at Han Xing, who was holding Qiming's portrait tightly, with a gentle smile on his face.Chen Ting's heart was even more heavy. Only then did she understand that Han Xing's feelings for Qiming were much deeper than she imagined. The pain of losing her beloved, except for herself, no one else would understand, how painful it was. .But he doesn't even have the qualifications to go with his lover, so he can only live every day carefully and painfully!

"Brother, I'm sorry, I regret it! I'm not the kind me anymore, can I still go to heaven to find you and my parents?"

Zhou Zhou stepped forward, looked at Qiming's portrait and said, "Brother, why didn't I meet you sooner? Brother, I don't think I will ever forget you for the rest of my life."

"Han Xing, you won, but I am convinced that I lost!"

Since that day, there has been an additional name on the Han family's genealogy, which says "Chen Ming".Han Xing also held a press conference, announcing that he was married, and the married partner was Qiming. This explosive news caused a sensation in the entire capital. Until Han Xing passed away decades later, there was no scandal.

Because of Qiming, Han Yan took more care of Chen Ting. Chen Ting, who didn't know the truth, had a good impression of Han Yan, and Han Yan also had feelings for her.Later, when Chen Ting learned the truth, she couldn't accept Han Yan, and her heart was very painful. It was not until Chen Ting was drunk that she had a relationship with Han Yan. Not long after, she found out that she was pregnant with Han Yan's child, and the relationship between the two eased a little. , but the two were never married.Nine months later, Chen Ting successfully gave birth to a pair of twin boys, one named Chen Nian and the other named Han Xiang.

Because of the stimulation of that night, Pingwan went crazy all day long, and she didn't look like a lady.For the sake of the Ping family's incense, Ping Lan would choose a man to send to Ping Wan's bed every day, until Ping Wan became pregnant, and Ping Wan sadly became a tool for the Ping family to give birth.Although Qiming's death is not directly related to the Ping family, the Ping family did plot against Han Xing, and Han Xing desperately needed an outlet to vent his anger, so the Ping family became his target.He teamed up with Zhou Zhou and spent three years swallowing up the huge Heike family. Since then, there has been no trace of the Heike family in the capital.

No matter how busy he is at work, Han Xing will get off work on time every day, and when he gets home from work, he will cook dinner by himself. In order to make it delicious, he even hired a teacher to teach him, but he really has no talent for cooking, so he cooks dinner every time Many times, he will not stop until he feels ready to serve.There are always two pairs of chopsticks and two bowls on the dinner table.He would always tell the pair of chopsticks and the bowl what he had seen and heard that day, and when he went to sleep at night, he would curl himself up, just like he used to do in Qiming's arms.

Until one day decades later, Han Xing, who had been in a coma for several days, suddenly woke up. He opened his eyes, pulled out all the tubes in his body, got out of bed in good spirits, took a taxi home, and when passing by the vegetable market, Also specially bought vegetables.Picking vegetables, washing vegetables, steaming rice, just like the past few decades.

Holding the bowl containing the eggs, Han Xing showed a smile on his face and said, "Brother, look, I'm beating the eggs now, but I'm beating them very well, and I won't be careless about dropping the bowl again."

Han Xing brought the prepared meals to the table, steamed fish, stewed chicken with mushrooms, a large pot of mushroom soup, and a plate of dumplings stuffed with celery and meat, square peanut candy, corn candy, yam cake, and two pairs of chopsticks , two bowls, a full table.

Han Xing looked at the opposite position gently, and said shyly: "Brother, you made these delicious food for me. I am old and my memory is not good. If you forget, brother, you can Don't blame me. Brother, I don't have the talent to cook, and the cooking is definitely not as good as yours, so you can just make do with it."

After dinner, Han Xing didn't clean up. He carried Qiming's portrait and went back to his room.Putting the portrait on his left side, he slowly climbed onto the bed, his deep eyes became cloudy, he lay on the right side of the bed, when he looked up, he found Qiming was looking at him tenderly, he leaned over happily, He retracted his whole body into Qiming's arms, hugged him tightly, as if embracing the whole world, a happy and shy smile appeared on his old face, and he swallowed his last breath.

"Brother, I can finally find you, do you still remember your little star?"

Han wanted to receive the notice from the hospital, hurried home and found the food on the table, and Han Xing who had passed away peacefully curled up on the bed.Han wanted to cry bitterly, but Han Xing was happy. After suffering all his life, he could finally find his lover!

On the day of the funeral, it was drizzling, everyone held black umbrellas and stood in the rain to bid farewell to their former friends.Han wants to bury Han Xing's ashes and Qiming's ashes together, and sincerely hopes that Han Xing can find Qiming, and the two can meet again in another world.

Chen Ting looked at Han Xing's tombstone, two lines of tears were left on her old face, she choked up and said: "Han Xing, I have forgiven you a long time ago. If you can find your brother, please tell him, I miss him very much." !"

Han Yan patted Chen Ting's shoulder gently, and said affectionately, "Don't be afraid, you still have me."

"Ayan, let's get married."

The author has something to say: I will update this chapter today, and I really don’t know how to divide it into chapters.My crying point is low, these chapters are basically written while crying, alas, I feel too sad to write! !

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