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Xu Changjun's younger sister, Xu Mengran, invited the Jian brothers to sit at home for a while.

Jian Ze'an hesitated a little.His brother has an unusual relationship with Xu Changjun, but he just pointed at Xu Changjun's nose and satirized...

But Xu Mengran said: "You are so angry because you liked your brother very much. I think I should give you an explanation."

So Jian Ze'an followed Jian Zeping into Xu Changjun's house.

The four of them sat down on two sets of sofas diagonally facing each other in the living room. Xu Changjun went to pour water and put it in front of Jian Ze'an brothers: "Sorry, there is no tea at home."

The voice was very low and hoarse.

Even if Jian Ze'an had hated him for so many years, he couldn't bear it.Not to mention Jian Zeping.

Jian Ze'an saw that when Xu Changjun put the cup in front of his brother, his brother gently shook the other's hand.

Jian Ze'an couldn't see it.

Xu Changjun's tragic expression finally got better under Jian Zeping's comfort.

He sat beside his sister, while Xu Mengran closed his eyes and spoke in a low voice, telling about the past of their brother and sister.

Brothers and sisters Xu Changjun and Xu Mengran, their father died when they were very young, and their mother, Ms. Xu, was not well educated. She had to raise two children by herself and support the elderly. .

His stepfather was an elderly bachelor, whose surname was Lu, and Xu Changjun's siblings had his surnames at that time, Lu Chang and Lu Ran.

But the new family was not happy.The stepfather is a very irritable person, and he revealed his true nature within a year of marriage, and he would insult Xu's mother endlessly if things went wrong outside, and even punched and kicked him.Sometimes he even tried to do something to the two children, but Xu's mother would try her best to stop her, so in the end it was Xu's mother who was hurt.

But brother and sister Lu Chang still live in panic every day.

Time passed day by day, and the brothers and sisters grew up little by little.But the stepfather got worse, his beating habits remained unchanged, and he also acquired a hobby of gambling.At the beginning, the amount was not large, and it was difficult to win or lose.But then I started losing money, and when I was in a bad mood, I would go home and beat Xu's mother.

Lu Chang grew up in such a family and was very precocious.In his early teens, he looked at his tired and miserable mother and his frightened younger sister, and persuaded his mother to divorce.

Mother Xu just said that they would have no money to survive.

Lu Chang sneered: "Do you think he raised us? That man—now he throws all his money on the gambling table, and I'm afraid he will still be in debt! Doesn't the family use the money from your part-time job now? Come spend!"

"Even if your stepfather doesn't give the family any money now, at least we'll live in his house. If I leave, even if I can manage to feed and drink you two, I won't have the money to find a place to live."

"I can also go out to work and earn money, even if I don't earn much, even if I rent a basement? The three of us can always live on." Lu Chang insisted.

"How old are you? What kind of job do you have? Children, don't think about those who have nothing. Go to school well, get into a good university and find a good job in the future, and I will survive." Xu's mother refused straight away, not allowing him to mention this again. thing.

Lu Chang didn't give up.He wants to prove that he can support his mother and sister.

At the age of 15, he secretly dropped out of school behind his mother's back and went to work in Internet cafes to earn money.

As a result, Ms. Xu learned about this from her homeroom teacher. For the first time, the always gentle and forbearing person who seemed to have no temper lost her temper and sent her son back to study like crazy.

"I don't! If I continue to study, the three of us will still have to rely on that man to live, you will still have to be beaten, and my sister and I will still be scolded by him!"

Lu Chang was very stubborn. No matter what Xu's mother said, he refused to go back to school. He just repeatedly said that he could earn money and asked his mother to divorce.

Xu's mother had a big fight with him and insisted on letting him go back to school.The mother and son had been in a stalemate for a year. After his stepfather beat Mother Xu until her finger was broken, but the latter still refused to allow her son to divorce, 16-year-old Lu Chang ran away from home angrily and went south to find a job.

In order to earn money during the rest time, Lu Chang began to learn to practice and play with him.With outstanding talent, he quickly made his mark in the game, and was discovered by the "Chaoge" team and became an e-sports player.

Lu Chang is talented and able to endure hardships. In just one year, he entered the first team from the second team.

When he was rich, he ran back to find his mother, hoping that she would divorce her stepfather and take his younger sister to live with him.

Xu's mother is a woman with a very traditional brain circuit, and years of hardships have made her afraid of changes and do not believe in new things.

She loves her son very much, but she doesn't approve of Lu Chang's career. She insists that e-sports players are unstable, and she earnestly wants Lu Chang to continue his studies and take college entrance exams, and become a civil servant in the future.

Lu Chang will talk about going to school later, at least I have money now, we can survive on our own, you move out of that bastard's house, don't get beaten again.

Xu's mother said: "I don't understand your business of playing games, but I also checked and asked. This is the meal of youth. You can do it for seven or eight years. After that? A young man in his 20s, You don’t have a degree, why do you go? And it’s not nice to say it, you are unemployed. How do you find a partner? If you have a divorced mother, it will be even more embarrassing. It’s okay if you are a boy, and Ran Ran. Others choose Daughters-in-law are more picky, and those from single-parent families will be directly downgraded. If I get divorced, it will be difficult for you brothers and sisters to find a partner in the future."

Lu Chang went crazy: "Return the object? Is it time to think about it? If you live with that thing again, you might be beaten to death by him someday! Can't you see how important it is? ?”

Xu's mother: "It's been so many years, it won't happen. I'll bear with it for a few more years. When you get married, I'll take care of the child for you, so you don't have to live with him."

Lu Chang despaired of his mother's brain circuit.He couldn't convince Mother Xu, who had her own set of criteria, so he could only settle for the next best thing:

"Then tell Ran Ran to follow me. I can't let her stay here any longer. Seeing you being beaten every day will cause problems in her mind."

"Not at all. I won't let your stepfather beat her." Mother Xu still didn't do it, "And Ran Ran's student status is here, how can I study at your place? You don't study by yourself, I can't let you take Ran Ran too The belt is crooked. Your playing games is not a serious profession."

No matter what Lu Chang said, Mother Xu didn't let go.He was not yet an adult at that time, and Lu Ran was only 15 years old.Two minors.Xu's mother is Lu Ran's guardian. She disagrees, and Lu Chang has no way to take his sister away.

He couldn't understand his mother's way of thinking at all, and felt that she was backward in feudalism, stubborn, and a bun without any courage.

Filled with anger, Lu Chang flew back to City S where the team was located, and then he didn't return to his hometown for nearly two years. He just called his mother and asked Lu Ran to live in City S on vacation when he missed his sister.

"...I didn't expect that that quarrel was the last time I saw her."

Lu Chang—now called Xu Changjun—said in a hoarse voice.

He put his hands on his knees, and buried his face heavily in his palms.

When the Jian Zean brothers heard these words, their hearts sank, and they had a glimpse of the past that he hadn't said, but had already revealed a heavy past.

The time went back to three years ago, that is, the year when Jian Ze'an was in the third year of junior high school.

Lu Chang is in excellent form this year. At the age of 20, he is young, energetic, and responsive. At the same time, he has been immersed in the e-sports industry for three years, which can be regarded as rich experience.

Experience and physical fitness have reached the most perfect balance this year. He has become the well-deserved core of the team, and he has also become the unrivaled and unique North Star in the Huaguo Division this year.

People call him "Guangshen" and think he is hope, dawn, the hero who can overcome all obstacles for China in the world arena.

He did lead his team, with "Chaoge", all the way to the world finals.

——Then in the middle of the night two days before the game, or in the early morning, when Lu Chang finished training with his teammates in the training base of the host country in Europe, he picked up the mobile phone that had been muted during training, and a series of domestic The missed call made him suddenly have an ominous premonition.

His hunch was right.

He saw his mother's and his sister's, as well as several unfamiliar numbers, among a string of missed calls from different numbers.

He dialed his mother's phone number, and after a long wait, an unfamiliar male voice answered the phone, and the other party said that he was a policeman from the small county police station in Lu Chang's hometown.

—Mother Xu committed suicide by jumping off the building three hours ago.

At that time, it was nine o'clock in the evening in China.

An hour later, Lu Chang's stepfather came back from gambling outside. He got red-eyed, smashed all kinds of things in the house, and started to find the other two people in the family unhappy.

He punched and kicked Mother Xu, still not satisfied, and wanted to trouble Lu Ran.

Lu Ran was taking a shower before he came back, and when she heard the movement outside, she was so scared that she hid in the bathroom and dared not come out.

Lu Dawei, the stepfather surnamed Lu, started kicking the door.

The door, which he had kicked countless times, failed to hold on this time, the lock broke with a "bang", and then the door panel bounced violently, revealing the trembling girl in the bathroom.

Xu's mother, who always protected the child, was still in the living room because of the pain. Lu Dawei smiled grimly and wanted to do something to Lu Ran.

However, when he took a closer look, he realized something was different.

Lu Ran just turned 17 years old.The young girl is like a flower in bud. After taking a bath, her slightly wet hair hangs down her shoulders. The thin nightgown is stained with some water stains and sticks to her body, outlining her beautiful lines.

The malicious anger in Lu Dawei's heart suddenly changed.

His expression became obscene, and he approached the trembling girl.And Lu Ran let out a terrified scream.

"...Mom will be here soon."

Lu Ran, or Xu Mengran, was holding the glass with both hands, shaking all the time, causing the water in the glass to shake out, and she had to put the glass on the table.

Xu Changjun looked at his sister, feeling extremely distressed.He stretched out his hand and pressed the back of his sister's hand: "Okay, Ran Ran, don't talk about it, you go into the room first, and I will talk about it later."

Xu Mengran shook her head.

Her teeth bit her lip, making her lower lip pale.But she continued stubbornly:

"... Mom saw that...that bastard jumped on me...and pulled my skirt. She was furious. She started hitting Lu Dawei, trying to tear him away. Lu Dawei kicked her away, and she jumped on her desperately again. Stopped in front of Lu Dawei, told me to run quickly... I was very scared, and ran out of the house when Lu Dawei was stopped... If I knew, if I knew, I would... I would never leave..."

Xu Mengran couldn't continue, her voice suddenly choked up, her shoulders trembled, tears welled up from her eyes, and flowed down her cheeks.

Jian Ze'an couldn't bear to hear that, he took out two napkins on the side of the table and handed them over: "Well, don't talk about it. I probably know that I misunderstood before, Light... your brother must have a reason, Didn't mean not to play. Stop talking, I didn't expect to bring up something that made you guys so sad."

But Xu Mengran shook his head: "I want to finish. Let me finish. In the past three years, I dare not think back, mention it, or say it. I have never been able to face myself, but what happened is what happened... I am a bastard , I am cowardly, I have no conscience..."

Back then, she left home in panic, found a female classmate, and asked her to stay overnight.

She was also worried that her mother would be beaten, but for a girl, she had only experienced such a terrible scene. The fear and nausea made her unable to concentrate on worrying about staying at home and facing Lu Dawei's mother.

She never imagined that before she ran away from home in a panic, the anxious face of her mother was the last time she saw her.

——Mama Xu may be cowardly, may be outdated, may be stubborn, and may have various problems, but she is a mother who loves her children.

All cowardice, the moment she realized that her husband had dirty thoughts about her daughter, was replaced by unprecedented sharp courage.

No one thought about how a woman who had been beaten for more than ten years but insisted on not divorcing decided to pick up a sharp knife, and how she completed this matter under the beating of a stronger husband.

Mother Xu stabbed Lu Dawei five times.

She wanted to remove possible danger for her daughter.

Lu Dawei didn't die - but Xu's mother didn't know it at the time.After stabbing the man, looking at Lu Dawei who was lying in a pool of blood, she finally regained her senses and overwhelmed the soaring anger and determination before.

The fear of killing someone made this cowardly woman who had always followed the rules terrified.

Her husband's "corpse" - what she thought was a corpse - fell to the ground, and Xu's mother tossed, struggled, and wandered in the room, and no one knew what she was thinking at the last moment.

She didn't leave a word.

—Maybe she wanted to leave something to say, because she made three phone calls to her son who was far away in Europe.

But Lu Chang, who was preparing for the finals at that time, neither heard nor answered.

So in the end, this woman who had been cowardly all her life and was only brave once at the end didn't have any last words.

Mother Xu finally jumped down from the sixth floor.

It bloomed into a tragic blood flower in the night.

The author has something to say: Mother Xu is a very contradictory and complicated character.

She may be very conservative and timid, and would not dare to take the step of divorce even if she was beaten, but maternal love will make her brave to the point of sharpness...