Lovely Allergen

[Brother Song Yu, see the words like faces.I heard this traditional Chinese romantic saying from my father recently. It feels very strange. Every time I receive your letter, I have this illusion, as if I have seen you many times.Waiting is really not an easy thing.You shouldn't believe it, because I didn't receive your letter last month, I even bought a ticket to fly to China myself, but I woke up again in the taxi.Because you said that you really hope that the first time we meet when we grow up is you coming to see me.

I heard from my father that you will come in summer, and I can take you to the pasture to see the newborn lambs. My little garden will bloom a lot of flowers by then.There are also white cliffs and coastlines, which we can ride to see.

I wish I could wake up tomorrow and it will be summer. ]

In the summer, Song Yu and his parents boarded the flight to London. The flight time was 11.5 hours, and it was already 19:[-] when they arrived. However, in this high-latitude country, the days are extremely long, the night has not yet set, and the streets are still bustling .

Le Yi and Olivia made a special trip to pick up their family of three.Although they hadn't seen each other for a few years, Song Yu felt that they hadn't changed much, and Le Yi still had the same chattering and laughing appearance.

"Xiaoyu's head jumps so fast. Last time I went back to the country alone to see you, it seems that I'm not so tall."

Song Jin said with a smile: "It's time to grow your body. Your family has half of the genes of Europeans and Americans. I'm afraid they will grow faster."

Olivia can already understand most of Chinese, but she can't speak English with an accent.

Le Yi also waved his hand, "My little guy doesn't grow up as fast as your son, at least..." He checked with his eyes, "It's half a head." After he finished speaking, he said in a tone that he shouldn't blame, " Le Zhishi was on vacation early, so he packed a lot of things and went to the holiday cottage. After all, it is more comfortable than apartments and buildings, and has a garden he likes. He was originally asked to pick you up today, but he was called by the owner of a nearby ranch temporarily. Help take care of the lamb."

He shrugged, "You know, he can't walk when he sees small animals."

Both Song Jin and Lin Rong laughed and told anecdotes about him chasing squirrels in the park when he was a child.Everyone chatted and laughed and got into the car, switching topics naturally, like friends who get along with each other every day, without any unfamiliarity.

In the car, the only one who felt sorry was Song Yu.

After all, the guy who once wrote "When you come, I will pick you up personally" in the letter did not come.

In fact, his elder brother, whom he has correspondence with every month, is no better than a little lamb.

Song Yu leaned on the seat, looked at the bustling city passing by outside the window, and comforted in his heart, maybe it was a large group of lambs.

The last time he and Le Zhishi met was a very long memory. At that time, Le Zhishi was only about three or four years old. Later, Le Yi and his wife wanted to bring him back to China many times, but they all failed due to various reasons. It was because of Leyi's work relationship.What impressed Song Yu deeply was the time when Song Yu was 11 years old. He was looking forward to waiting for them to come, but in the end he was unable to get on the plane because of sudden allergies and asthma attacks during Lezhi.

Very different from the modern efficient and fast way of making friends, the relationship between Le Zhishi and Song Yu is maintained by handwritten letters.This idea came from Le Yi, who is romantic by nature. He thinks that mobile phones and chat software are the worst inventions in the world, omitting the process of thinking and waiting, and throwing everything to each other, which is not even as warm as a phone call.

Letters are good, he said, when you write them with thought and consciously phrasing your greeting.Because you can't touch the sound and picture, you will put all your emotions into the paper and words, and your emotions will also ferment while waiting.

On the other hand, he believes that even though Le Zhishi grew up in the UK, he still needs to master the ability to write Chinese. There is nothing more suitable than an elder brother who is far away in his home country to be his training partner.

They made a strange but interesting agreement that they could only write letters to each other, and any other communication methods were considered cheating.

So they did it like this. Song Yu and Le Zhishi started exchanging letters from a young age, and the frequency was basically once a month.At first, Lezhi didn't even know how to write Chinese characters. Even with Le Yi's teaching, he preferred to use straightforward paintings to communicate with Song Yu.He was ten years old when he first received a text letter from Lezhi.

[Brother Song Yu, your name is really difficult to write. ]

Obviously there is only this sentence, thirteen characters, but Song Yu repeated it for a long time, and found it extremely cute.

Later, Le Zhishi began to become more and more proficient in Chinese writing, and even quoted sentences from books he had read, showing his Chinese proficiency like a little peacock. Slowly, he began to tell Song Yu about himself He confides to Song Yu unreservedly about the big and small problems in the process of growing up, and the confusion and confusion of adolescence.

Perhaps because they are far apart, it creates a sense of security and beauty.This kind of secret connection between the two at a long distance allows them to grow up with each other, but they also have endless curiosity about each other.

"It's getting late now, and you'll be tired from jet lag, so you won't drive there." Le Yi drove them back to their house in the suburbs of London, and arranged for them to rest. It was a very warm and beautiful townhouse Apartment, upper and lower floors. Olivia arranged for Song Yu to live in Le Zhishi's room.

She opened the door, and for the convenience of showing Song Yu the furnishings in English, she prepared toiletries for him, "He has a childish personality, so there are many things in the room, don't mind."

There are a lot of books inside, a plant picture book he spread out on the carpet, half-painted still life oil paintings on the drawing board, and many plants, ornaments and Lego, which are full, but seem full of life.

Song Yu said calmly, "I should ask him not to mind if I stay here for one night."

"He doesn't mind. It's even his proposal, because he thinks the guest room is too small." A smile appeared on Olivia's face, "But he said you have a clean freak, please let me clean the room before you come, But I finished work too late, so I didn't have time." She said, and opened the closet, "Xiao Yu, go downstairs and have something to eat first."

Song Yu stood by the bed, lowered his head slightly, and glanced at this light blue bed that looked very clean and soft.

"Don't bother." He said to Olivia who was about to get busy.

I thought jet lag would be tormenting, but Lezhishi's bed seemed to have a magical power that could make people fall asleep quickly. Song Yu lay down and looked at the six pots of small plants on his window sill, and his unfinished bed. Smelling the faint aroma of plant roots, cream and wood mixed in the fluffy bedding, I fell into a drowsy dream.

There was always something subtly offensive about falling asleep in his bed before seeing him in person.When Song Yu folded the quilt the next day, he had this idea belatedly.

When he turned around, he saw Le Zhishi's desk with a lot of post-it stickers. The font he wrote in English was easily reminiscent of his writing in Chinese. inappropriate.Although this unsuspecting guy has given him the right to use the entire room.

After breakfast, they drove to the resort, which is a village one hour's drive from London. It is located in the south of England, close to a seaside town. Compared with London's cloudy and unpredictable weather, in Le Yi's mouth , which has the best sunshine in all of England.

When he was about to arrive, Olivia made a call. Song Yu seemed to be looking at the scenery outside the car window carelessly, but the subtle voice from the phone caused some kind of magnetic interference to him.

He seemed to hear Le Zhishi's voice, but it was distorted and unclear.

He heard Olivia call his English name Joey and sweetheart, but he couldn't hear what Lezhi said on the other end.This made Song Yu a little irritable for no reason. The summer in the temperate oceanic climate is not so scorching. The moist summer wind blowing over the car window feels soft and moist on the face, much like Le Zhishi's style of writing letters.

[Brother Song Yu, I heard that it has been raining for a long time over there, and coincidentally, London is also the same.It rained suddenly yesterday evening, and I was drenched all over. I was in a bad mood at first, but when I suddenly thought that you might also be in the rain at this moment, I felt a very sweet mood, feeling that you and I are actually very close.

As always, hope you come sooner, I'll be here waiting for you. ]

When the car drove into the town, there were large expanses of green broad-leaved trees, and honey-colored and dark-grey country cottages scattered on the green lawn like a short-pile carpet.

"Here we are." Le Yi parked the car in front of a three-storey holiday cottage.They got out of the car and walked around to the trunk to get their luggage.Song Yu carried a black box and followed Olivia into the house. White roses and unnamed shrubs were planted in the front yard, and a tea table and a few rocking chairs were placed on the lawn.The door of the house is open, the living room is warmly decorated, there is an unscrewed bottle of sunscreen, a light blue baseball cap and a box of opened ice milk on the table, and a red cotton shorts are put on the back of the chair. sleeve.

"He must be in the backyard." Olivia said firmly.

Song Yu heard the sound of water in the backyard.He felt as if the wooden floor under his feet had turned into driftwood from the bay, and his senses became more sensitive.

The sun fell on Song Yu's face the moment he stepped out the door, his vision was a little blurred, everything under the bright sunlight looked like an overexposed negative.He squinted slightly, and the light purple hydrangea bushes appeared. Among the grass leaves, a snow-white back was looming, and there was also a water column raised in the air, a transparent arc faintly accompanied by a rainbow.

"Joey!" Olivia stepped in and stopped him, "You showered with the garden hose again!"

The water column disappeared in an instant, and the sound of rushing water also stopped.

A frightened face turned in the hydrangea bushes, the wet hair under the sun exuded a golden halo, and the eyes were big and transparent like gems.

See the word as the face.

The more than 100 letters I have seen before are not worth the surprise.

But Le Zhishi, who was being blamed, quickly turned his head away.Immediately afterwards, Song Yu heard a long, very cute sorry, and saw his snow-white back covered with a large gray towel, coming out from the other end of the bush.

He stepped on the soft grass with bare feet, a pair of white legs, wearing a pair of navy blue swimming trunks, and a bath towel on his body, but his white belly and arms still couldn't cover it, and his wet hair was pulled behind his ears, revealing a pair of wet More pure eyebrows and eyes after water.

"This is the brother you look forward to every day." Olivia introduced it deliberately in a teasing way.

Le Zhishi wiped her hands in embarrassment, reached out to Song Yu, and shook hands with him.The cold and warm body temperature blended and passed on, Le Zhishi's drooping eyelashes were stained with water, trembling slightly.

His voice is also very nice, as if to be solemn, he deliberately spoke in Chinese, calling him "Brother Song Yu" with a slight accent.

In an instant, Song Yu's mind flashed through many letters written by Le Zhishi, long and intimate complaints, and childish showing off, all corresponding to the person in front of him one by one, creating a kind of concrete sweetness.

The corner of Song Yu's mouth raised a slight arc, and in a deep voice, he quoted Le Zhishi's catchphrase lovely with a bit of joking, and shook hands and said to him, "Lovelytoseeyou."

Le Zhishi's ears seemed to be pinched by someone, and they turned translucent red under the sun. He let go of his hand and said that he was going to change his clothes, then ran all the way into the house, and followed the red shorts on the chair sleeve.

His whole body exuded a sense of immaturity full of vitality.

We met again in Song Yu's room on the third floor. He was packing his luggage when he heard a knock on the door. When he turned around, he saw Le Zhi standing by the door, wearing the red coat that made him so white and a black pair of blouses. shorts.He walked in naturally, his blow-dried hair was fluffy and slightly brown in curls.

"You are different from what I imagined." Le Zhishi skipped the opening remarks, stood in front of him directly, and looked at him with curious eyes without any scruples.

Song Yu put down a sunscreen in his hand, looked at him as well, and asked calmly, "What's different?"

The corner of Le Zhishi's mouth suddenly raised into a smile, his arms swayed nervously twice, and he clasped it with both hands again. After he breathed a sigh of relief, he said sincerely, "Much handsomer than I thought."

Seeing that Song Yu seemed unmoved by this kind of compliment, Le Zhi asked, "Are there a lot of people complimenting you on your good looks? Do many girls in your school invite you to the prom as their boyfriend? "

After Song Yu hung up the last piece of clothing, she turned her back to him casually and said, "There is no prom, so there is no talk of a male companion."

Le Zhishi obviously showed a relieved look, "That's really lucky."

Song Yu turned around and saw that he was already sitting on his bed, with his two thin white long legs stretched out, shaking gently, as if he was very happy.

"Aren't you very clear that I have a cleanliness?"

Hearing this sentence, Le Zhishi seemed to be frightened by him, and his eyes widened a little.But Song Yu quickly said, "I'm just kidding."

Lezhi showed confusion, "So you don't have cleanliness."

Song Yu gave a clearer answer, "Not for you."

After he finished speaking, he walked out the door, and Le Zhishi followed him, followed him out, told him that his room was next door, and tried to show him his balcony, but Song Yu didn't go in.There is only a room for the two of them on this floor. When they go downstairs, the second floor is the bedroom of the two couples. Standing on the stairs, they can hear their laughter.

For lunch, they ate barbecue and French fries under the shade of the trees in the front yard. Lezhishi was struggling to cut a piece of beef with tendons. Lin Rong, who was sitting next to him, claimed that she must make a meal for Lezhishi in the afternoon. Delicious and authentic Chinese food, he had been looking forward to it for a long time, immediately put down the knife and fork, and kissed Lin Rong's cheek gratefully.

Song Yu sat diagonally across from him, took a sip of gin and tonic, and would occasionally fall on Le Zhishi, watching him in high spirits.

"Did you go swimming today?" Le Yi asked Le Zhishi.

"Yes, the water in the swimming pool is very cold and not clean, so I came back to take a shower." Le Zhi defended himself when he thought about it.

Olivia said with a smile while sharing the meal: "This is not a reason for you to meet guests naked."

Le Zhishi's face was red again, there were gin and tonic and vermouth on the table, he didn't drink a sip, but a lovely blush appeared on his cheeks.Song Yu drank it, but there was no reaction. He lowered his head and cut a plate of beef very carefully, with precision and elegance.

"Wearing swimming trunks doesn't count." Le Zhishi still couldn't help but argue, "Besides, I'm still wearing a bath towel."

"That's right, barefoot." Le Yi added for him.

The adults at the table all laughed.Song Yu raised his eyes, and looked at each other knowingly, and found that he would avoid his gaze, then moved over after two seconds, and asked him nonchalantly if he needed fish.

Song Yu took a piece of grilled trout from him, thanked him, and handed him the whole plate of beef he had divided.

"No need to exchange." Le Zhishi waved his hand quickly.

"It's not an exchange." Song Yu stood up and put the plate in front of Le Zhishi, a tall shadow enveloped him, "It was originally cut for you."

Lezhi was a little dazed, but instead whispered thanks, and stuffed a fork into his mouth.The adults made jokes about "It's nice to have an older brother", and Le Zhishi's cheeks were bulging, and he would look at Song Yu from time to time while chewing.

In the spare time after dinner, everyone sat in the front yard and drank tea.Song Yu sat for a while and read more than a dozen pages of the book on the rocking chair, feeling a little sleepy.So he went upstairs, and when he stepped on the third floor, he heard overlapping footsteps.

Behind the door, like a hunter, he waited for his prey, and got a flustered look.

"You... do you want to sleep?" Le Zhi asked while looking at Song Yu.

"Maybe." Song Yu opened the door wider, like an invitation to enter the room.

"Don't sleep." Le Zhishi followed naturally, even grabbed his wrist, "I know you are coming, I have been thinking about the plan for many days, I have written down all the fun and beautiful places in the UK, just wait looking at you. And now you're going to sleep in this fine weather."

He added: "You don't know how rare good weather is in the UK."

Song Yu believes that the British like to talk about the weather.At the same time, he discovered a strange quality from Le Zhishi, which is the innocence and self-confidence shown by people who have never been hurt before. Awkward, naturally close, and unafraid of rejection.

Of course, he couldn't refuse Le Zhishi either.

"Then follow your plan." Song Yu thought of his mother's nickname for him in the car, so he added, "Little tour guide."

Le Zhishi didn't understand the meaning of the tour guide, and after asking, he was very excited, "I will definitely be a very good tour guide."

He took Song Yu to ride to the bay, where there is no fine white sandy beach, and the coastline is filled with pebbles glistening in the sun.A small shop on the side of the road sold strawberry waffles filled with whipped cream. Le Zhishi couldn't eat waffles, but he turned around three times, so Song Yu said that he really wanted to eat them.

"Really?" Le Zhishi was pleasantly surprised, and quickly stopped the car, "I'll buy it for you."

But Song Yu only took one bite and handed it to him, saying it was too sweet.Le Zhishi used a fork to fork a big red strawberry, stuffed it in his mouth with cream, and said vaguely: "It's okay."

"Strawberry waffles." Song Yu pointed to the box in his hand, "You eat strawberries, I'll take care of the waffles."

They reached a consensus, like some kind of tacit understanding that grew up together, although it wasn't.

Song Yu had the illusion that he grew up watching Le Zhishi, but the vivid Le Zhishi stood in front of him, and there were many beautiful details that Song Yu could not have imagined.The shallow dimples at the corners of his mouth when he smiled, and the movement of stroking his arm when he spoke, introduced the confidence of the artistic buildings in the town.

"This is one of the most open places in the UK, where the LGBT community celebrates and parades every summer. It's rainbow-colored and beautiful."

When he talked about this topic, he would tentatively observe Song Yu's expression.

"Really?" Song Yu said lightly, "Sounds good."

With the sea close at hand, they walked on the pebbles in their shoes, and the beach was full of men and women in bikinis and swimming trunks.Le Zhishi took Song Yu to the beach and suggested that he take off his shoes to feel it.Song Yu did as he did, they carried their shoes, the salty sea breeze rolled up their clothes, and the tide came up and touched their insteps and ankles.

"It's so cool." Le Zhi smiled like a child, then moved a little closer to Song Yu, her round thumb resting on the edge of Song Yu's sole.There is also a difference in the size of their feet. Song Yu's skin color is a little darker, and when he knows it, he looks whiter at the bottom of the water, like glowing porcelain.

Song Yu also moved a little closer to him, and even lightly stepped on his white and soft instep with half of his foot, Le Zhishi did not resist.

This gesture is more intimate than holding hands.

When Song Yu withdrew his foot, the water was shaking, Le Zhi stepped on the sole of his foot on him, and smiled at him with his face up.

"Are you taking revenge?" Song Yu said.

"This is communication." Le Zhishi was serious.They stood side by side in the sea water and sea breeze, rubbing their arms against each other. When they knew it, they lowered their heads to look at it, then grabbed Song Yu's wrist and lifted it up. It didn't seem like they were going to hold hands with him, but they just used their thumb and index finger to measure Song Yu's body. Wrist, but unable to wrap around.His fingertips pressed against Song Yu's protruding wrist bones and his fresh veins through the skin.

"I have a watch." Le Zhishi held his wrist and said, "It's very suitable for you."

"Your?" Song Yu also held his thin wrist instead.

"Yes, but I only wore it once, actually..."

As he was speaking, a brown-haired white girl in a black bikini walked towards them, her eyes locked on Song Yu's body, sizing up his broad shoulders and straight facial features.She enthusiastically stood in front of Song Yu and asked him if he was an overseas student or a tourist, and if he wanted to have a cocktail with him in the bar by the sea.

Le Zhi also raised his face at this time, frowning slightly.

Song Yu refused, "I've already had a drink."

The other party keenly sensed his meaning and the resistance of the boy beside him, so he couldn't help laughing, "Oh, sorry, I didn't know you were a couple."

Le Zhishi's frown loosened, and turned into panic, shaking his head in embarrassment, but he didn't want to shake it too much.

"us……"

Song Yu neither denied nor admitted, but grabbed Le Zhishi's wrist.The girl said that she would not disturb your date and left.

"We don't have a date." After she left, Le Zhishi replied weakly.

Song Yu let go, "It's the first time we meet after so many years. To be more serious, it's considered an appointment."

Le Zhishi tried hard to understand what he said, and saw the faint red mark on his wrist after he held it.

"I didn't finish talking just now." Le Zhishi looked at Song Yu's side face, "I bought that watch for you that you only wore once."

"I want to send you a birthday present."

It was agreed that we could only exchange letters.

"But it's against the rules, isn't it?" Le Zhi seemed to be talking to himself.

"I'm in front of you now." Song Yu also looked at him, "I was the one who broke the rules first."

Le Zhishi's eyelashes swayed slightly, his eyes were clear and confused.

Song Yu said, "Do you know that you missed a letter?"

Panic flashed in his eyes when he looked at Le Zhi, and Song Yu continued.

"A letter that was only half written, you crossed out most of it with your pen."

[Brother Song Yu, after I have an asthma attack, I always fall into a long period of depression. Being unhealthy makes me very troubled. Whenever this happens, I don’t want you to come to see me. I hope that when you come, I will be healthy and full of energy. active.I hope you'll like me for the real me (with rashes when I'm sick and ugly) and not just for the name I'm signing on.It's strange, I actually don't remember seeing you when I was a child, but I miss you very much, why do people miss someone they haven't met?

You are the only one in the world that I can talk to without reservation, my family, my friend, no one can replace you.No matter what happens, as long as I can hear from you in the mailbox, I will be happy.You can't believe it, I had a dream about you in the hospital bed after the attack.We met, didn't shake hands, you kissed me on the cheek and said lovelytoseeyou.

It's too bad, it's not the worst, the horrible thing is waking up feeling so sorry, I wish that kiss had landed on my lips.

do i like it]

"Zhishi." For the first time, he used the title that he had thought about many times. He always wanted to write it at the beginning of the letter, but he wavered again.

The last sentence that was not finished, Song Yu asked him face to face, seemingly calmly.

"Are you in love with me?"