Lovely Allergen

If one word sums up Song Yu's youth, it would probably be that he had no distractions.

Study without distraction, and move toward career planning step by step according to the plan without distraction.

Desperately in love.

Most of the time, Song Yu can manage the weight of the last matter in his life very well, and occasionally loses control, so when he loses control, he will think to himself, if Le Zhishi and him don't live under the same roof Just download it.

Reduce the frequency of contact with him and reduce the density of information about him in life. In this way, he should be able to control his crush more freely.

However, this conclusion was later overturned by Song Yu himself.

Because even if you can't hear his voice or see his smiling face across half of the playground, he will be moved by just a back view of learning how to shoot.

Among all the seemingly controllable things, the feeling for Le Zhishi is the most unstable, but Song Yu thinks it's okay and can be tolerated, but the feeling came inexplicably, as if he couldn't find the starting point.

No matter how he looked back at his memory, he couldn't seem to get an exact point in time when he started to like Lezhi.Or maybe it's because he is always confused, so he always remembers, so Song Yu remembers every bit about Le Zhi's time very clearly.

When he closes his eyes, he can recall the scene when he first met Le Zhi, and he can think of how beautiful and cute he is.A pair of small hands are soft and small, and they don't know how to call them elder brothers.

However, during that period of time he was not having a good time. The guilt of killing Le Zhishi's illness and the psychological stress caused by Uncle Le's unexpected death were tormenting a child who was only six years old.

The only way to alleviate it is to quietly treat Le Zhishi well.

For example, when I was in elementary school, without Lezhishi’s knowledge, I taught him a lesson from the boys in the same class who once scolded him for having no parents, or always put nasty toffee in his pocket, and urged him to brush his teeth at night.

Another example is to ride a bicycle to a far place to buy a comic book that is not easy to buy, and finally lie to him that he bought it at the school gate, and throw it to him casually.

He will be very happy when he knows it, but he really believes that he bought it casually.

He is very easy to deceive, but there is no need to coax him.

So Song Yu didn't even have the chance to show his flaws and let his crush fall in love.

He always treats Le Zhi in a dishonest way, and then shows a look of indifference.The acting at the beginning was really clumsy, but it was more or less concealed.

It rains frequently in this city, and it seems to be soaked in rainwater in summer.People come and go on the road, no matter how careful they are, they will splash their trouser legs.This is true for adults, not to mention children.

When Song Yu was a child, he didn't feel much about the continuous rain, because he was a very cautious child who would put on his rain boots before going out in the morning, and then returned home clean.But Le Zhishi is not, he will look more stupid in rainy days, even if he is not flooded, he will accidentally step on the raised floor tiles, and then splash all over his body pitifully.

It's even worse if it's flooded.Once, Lezhi, who was still in the first grade, was tricked by a male classmate to go outside and asked him to accompany him to the canteen to buy him delicious food. As a result, his pants were completely soaked up to his knees. neither.He was very sad, but he didn't dare to tell Song Yu.

After school, they met on the first floor of the teaching building. Song Yu saw Le Zhishi's trousers and aggrieved face, and realized that he had been in class like this all afternoon.

"You are not allowed to leave the classroom on rainy days." He was a little angry, and made a very unreasonable request to Le Zhishi.

But when Le Zhishi softly said yes, Song Yu couldn't help but change his words.

"You are not allowed to leave the teaching building." He said awkwardly again, "If you want to eat, come upstairs and find me, and I will buy it for you."

Le Zhishi was just sniffling at that time, and stretched out his hand stubbornly to hold Song Yu's hand.

Song Yu withdrew his hand and refused to let him hold her hand, "Do you understand? Don't run away with others."

"Understood." Le Zhishi nodded to Song Yu honestly with red eyes and nose.

However, Lezhishi probably suffered a lot from a loss. Even if Song Yu said that he would take him to the small supermarket, Lezhishi would not leave the classroom when it rained, unless there was a thunderstorm.At that time, he would miss Song Yu very much, and sometimes he couldn't help crying.

When school was over, Le Zhishi would still run outside Song Yu's classroom, open the back door, blink her big eyes silently, and obediently wait for Song Yu.

Generally speaking, Song Yu discovered Lezhishi's existence through the whisperings of the people around him.Because no one dared to talk to Song Yu in class, everyone just talked small things to each other.Hearing words like "that cute little brother" and "cute half-race", he can probably guess that Le Zhishi is waiting for him again.

After class, Song Yu packed his schoolbag first, then turned around as if he didn't know.

The moment he met his gaze, Lezhi would jump happily, then ran into the classroom, hugged Song Yu's waist, raised his face and smiled silly, and called him Brother Xiaoyu.

"Did your pants get wet today?"

"No." When Le Zhishi shook his head, his soft curly hair looked very fluffy, and his cuteness was doubled. "I didn't go out even a step today."

Song Yu thought he was stupid, and wanted to say that he could go upstairs to find him, but he didn't say anything in the end.

The driver took sick leave that day, and Song Yu wanted to take Le Zhishi home by taxi.He knew that Le Zhishi would wet his pants no matter what, so he put Le Zhishi on his back and asked Le Zhishi to hold the umbrella.

He lay obediently on Song Yu's back, hugged his arms tightly, and was in a particularly good mood, singing a strange but not unpleasant nursery rhyme.

"Brother Xiaoyu, Zhang Chengyu told me I'm sorry today."

Zhang Chengyu is the classmate who lied to Lezhi and bought him snacks.

"Ah."

Song Yu thought of the scene where he taught him a lesson, and felt that that kind of kid didn't seem like a guy who would really feel sorry, but was just pressured by senior students.

Le Zhishi said something, and started singing again. His head was buried too low, his face was almost touching Song Yu's neck, and when he hummed randomly, his breathing was wet, compared to the air on a rainy day. .

"You don't forgive him."

It seems to be instilling the concept of intolerant into a child, but Song Yu really thinks so.

Le Zhishi is too kind, even if he is bullied, he will feel that he is excluded because he is different from others, and he will not feel that it is the fault of others.

"But I've already said it's okay." Le Zhishi hugged his neck, felt Song Yu stand still, and lifted him up, "I won't forgive him next time."

"Would you like to have another time like this?"

"I don't want to." Le Zhishi sniffed, "It's so uncomfortable when the pants are wet."

Song Yu knew how uncomfortable it was just by imagining it. He walked to the side of the road while carrying Lezhi on his back, "Why didn't you tell the teacher?"

"I forgot." Le Zhishi huddled around his neck, sticky like a fudge that was soaked in water and couldn't be shaken off, "Brother Xiaoyu, I just want to find you."

The car stopped in front of the two children. The taxi driver lowered the window and looked at them hesitantly, "Let's go?"

Song Yu nodded, so he also skipped his response to Le Zhishi.

In the fourth grade, he still doesn't know how to express his inner thoughts to Le Zhishi calmly.

Later, I found out that the same is true when I grow up.

Song Yu dedicated the confusion, rebellion and struggle of adolescence to him in obscurity.

Although he can't remember when he started to have a crush on Le Zhishi, Song Yu remembers the turning point when his feelings turned sour.

It was also summer, the third year of junior high school was approaching the senior high school entrance examination, and it was a thunderstorm night when I knew I couldn't sleep well.At that time, Le Zhishi no longer climbed onto Song Yu's bed desperately like when she was three years old.Even if he was rejected once, he would obediently go back to his room, leaving Song Yu alone to regret.

The reason for the refusal was actually very simple. Someone in the class made a joke about Song Yu and a girl, comparing them to the young couple who fell in love with each other in the next class, and talked about inappropriate topics such as "first kiss" and "first love".He felt bored and his mood continued to be low, so he said to Le Zhishi, "I'm very tired, you should go back to your room and sleep."

Lying on the bed, Song Yu closed his eyes and advised himself to go to bed early.But the heavy rain made his already restless heart even more restless.After an unknown period of time, he finally fell asleep in a daze. Many strange images appeared in his dream. He hugged someone, enjoying his first love and first kiss sweetly, as those classmates said.

Outside the dream, a burst of thunder passed by, illuminating the face of the dreamer.

Song Yu woke up from the dream, sweating all over, and was stunned for half a minute before he felt that something was wrong.At four o'clock in the morning, he changed his pants and sheets, sat on the bathroom floor, and stared at the rumbling drum washing machine for a long time.Embarrassed and depressed.

Opening the bedroom door in the morning, as usual, Song Yu followed Lin Rong's instructions and knocked on the door of Le Zhishi's room, urging him to get up.

Standing at the door, staring at the combination lock for a minute, I heard the sound of slippers rubbing against the floor inside, the next moment, Le Zhishi slowly opened the door, wearing very soft white pajamas, raised his hand and rubbed his eyes, subconsciously hugged Lived in Song Yu.

"Brother Xiaoyu, I still want to sleep." Le Zhishi buried his face in his arms and wrapped his arms around his waist, and his words were sticky when he was unconscious.

Song Yu held his shoulder uncomfortably and moved him away.

He went downstairs by himself and said to Lin Rong, "Don't ask me to wake him up from now on."

15-year-old Song Yu started the puberty exam paper and made it to the end smoothly, but encountered the most difficult last big question ever.

The first question is, what should I do if I like a boy?

The second question is, what should I do when I fall in love with Le Zhi who is no different from my younger brother?

He rarely had the idea of ​​giving up answering the question.Together with the near-perfect score he got earlier, he didn't want it anymore.

Because he didn't know how to deal with it, Song Yu chose to maintain the status quo. Anyway, Le Zhishi didn't know anything.It's rare for him to imagine naively, maybe he won't like him one day.

Not all people are like this.

But changing one's mind seems to be much more difficult than expected.Song Yu is picky and has a narrow social circle. Since she was a child, she seems to have never seen anything worthy of empathy. Apart from studying, there seems to be only one happy time in life.

After the high school entrance examination was over, Song Jin said that he would give him a gift, so Song Yu could just mention it.He rarely has what he wants because he feels like he has it all.So when his father asked, the first reaction in Song Yu's mind was that Lezhi liked to watch anime, and he wanted a projector.

Of course he got it later, and he spent a morning installing it in his bedroom, facing the bed, because he felt that Lezhishi was lazy and would prefer to lie on the bed and watch TV.

He spent another precious afternoon downloading the cartoons that Le Zhishi liked, and adjusted the screen for a long time in a dark room with the curtains drawn. When he was finally satisfied, he prepared to find an excuse for Le Zhishi to watch.

Song Yu didn't think about the invitation, but practiced repeatedly in his mind how to explain reasonably that he had this animation.

However, Lin Rong never wanted only one child in the family to receive a gift, so on almost the same day, she added a new high-definition wall-mounted TV to Le Zhishi's bedroom.Le Zhishi was very happy and showed off at the dinner table many times. The picture is very high-definition and the color is also very good.

So Song Yu didn't say anything.

Unable to sleep at night, he played the cartoons he downloaded silently all night, and only played more than 20 episodes.

Leaning on the bed, he looked at it and thought, how could it be so long?Where exactly is it beautiful?

What's good, I like it so much.

It was the first time in his life that he felt that the night was difficult.

However, Song Yu didn't feel any resentment towards Le Zhishi for the whole day he wasted. In the dark, he felt that he would still waste a lot of time on this little fool.

He thought indifferently, fortunately, he is an efficient person and has plenty of time.

The next night, under the persecution and persuasion of Qin Yan and the class monitor, Song Yu attended the graduation dinner of his junior high school classmates despite the adverse reaction of insomnia.When everyone is eating, they will talk about a lot of irrelevant topics, and they will continue to diverge, which makes it easy for people to lose their minds.Song Yu couldn't remember how they chatted from eating barbecue to a rumor that was treated as a joke.

"Don't you know German orthopedics? You are too behind."

"Aren't they brothers and sisters?"

"What? Brother and sister dating?"

"It's weird... a bit perverted."

Throughout the whole process, Song Yu didn't say a word, and behaved as usual.On the way home, Qin Yan pestered him to talk.

"That guy Yao Mu is annoying me to death today, so he keeps asking me why your brother doesn't have your surname, and he doesn't look like you." Even if Qin Yan and Le Zhishi's relationship is not that close, they still seem distressed, "Later, I told him that Lele's parents left because of an accident, and they were entrusted to your family. But that idiot told others."

As if afraid that Song Yu would be unhappy, Qin Yan quickly said again, "But I taught him a lesson. He probably won't talk about Lele anymore."

Song Yu hummed indifferently, rode a little faster, and went home silently all the way.

The summer night wind blew up his white T-shirt slightly, but his chest was empty, with a heart hanging.

Le Zhishi was like his only allergen, but it happened to appear in his life everywhere, so soft, so cute, so that he had nowhere to escape and could not refuse.

That night, Song Yu thought about the gags made by his classmates at the dinner table, and deleted all the animations he had downloaded for Le Zhishi.I don't know why, that kind of joke is not funny to him, but instead produces a very divided emotion.

On the one hand, like many normal people, I feel that siblings together are abnormal, and the older brother must be despicable.

On the one hand, I want to know what happened next.

Discovered, broken leg, cured, and then what?

In the end, he couldn't come up with the following, and the online comments were also unavailable, but Song Yu made a decision on his own. He didn't want Le Zhishi to call him brother anymore.

Like Qin Yan, he didn't know how to face other people's questioning. He didn't know how to explain the reason so that everyone would know that he lost his parents. harm.

What's more, he wasn't Le Zhishi's real brother in the first place.

He plainly believes that as long as Le Zhishi and him are not like his real brothers in the eyes of outsiders, he can have a shield of forgiveness and have the space to be more focused.

The projector bought for Le Zhishi was used by Song Yu to play many geological documentaries. Seeing these, he would think of Le Yi in the past, so he became more vigilant.

Le Zhishi also got tired of his new TV very quickly, and he would run to Song Yu's room without permission, pester him to play games together, and stay in his room without leaving even after being rejected by Song Yu Watch documentaries that don't interest you.

Whenever this time comes, Song Yu's focus will fail.

He stared at the footage of the documentary, but what he thought about was when Le Zhishi would get bored, and then go back to his room.

But as long as he doesn't rush, and Lin Rong doesn't come to urge him to go back to sleep, Le Zhishi won't leave.

He is the most simple and persistent one among all possible traps, and he must guard Song Yu and jump down.

It seems that you will not give up until you get the result.

Went to another school district to study high school, Le Zhishi also entered the Pei Ya Junior High School, and everyone changed a group of classmates.Song Yu implemented his own isolation plan according to the previous decision.

Le Zhishi was always obedient to him, and he always obeyed and took what he wanted, so he also cooperated with the performance, pretending to be a stranger at school, and there was no intersection or interaction.

Song Yu was the one who felt uncomfortable at first.

When I was still in the same elementary school, Le Zhishi would wait for him at the door of the classroom after class.Now we are in the same middle school, Le Zhishi still waits for him, but enlarges the range and distance to the level of a stranger, sitting and waiting for him on the corridor connecting the two classrooms.

In fact, Song Yu knew all about it.

Song Yu knew it from the first day when Le Zhishi wandered in the corridor but dared not go to the teaching building of the high school.

But he thinks this is the right way, and it is impossible for him to really do anything to his younger brother.

Excluding the early incompatibility and occasional surge of possessiveness, this kind of tacit understanding of acting as a stranger in the crowd sometimes brings a little bit of happiness to Song Yu.

I met him several times in the cafeteria, and when I saw him when I was happy, I would unconsciously be silly, sometimes with the same hands and feet.Occasionally hits pedestrians.

Another time, Le Zhishi, who didn't like to look at the road while walking, ran directly into Song Yu's arms.

He lowered his head halfway, not daring to look at Song Yu, his long and soft eyelashes were trembling, he stammered to say sorry, and then called him "senior" very strangely.

Thinking of how this guy tried his best to sneak into his room at night and begged him to teach him math problems, for a moment, Song Yu also felt that the contrast of pretending to be unfamiliar was very interesting.

"It's okay." When he reached out to support Le Zhi.

"Watch the way, junior."

It is difficult to have a close crush, but it is undeniable that liking will bring excitement and joy.

Peiya’s flag-raising team is composed of junior high school and high school. There are four flag bearers, two of whom cooperate to raise the flag, one high school and one junior high school.

Song Yu, who was selected as the flag-raiser in the first year of high school, kept pushing and procrastinating, but in the end he couldn't get rid of it. He was forcibly assigned in the second year of high school.During the meeting, he always solved the problems by himself, until a meeting in the second semester of the second year of high school, the group leader mentioned a name.

"...Luo Xing, who was partnered with Le Zhishi from the junior high school, sprained his foot. Now our senior high school needs to be adjusted, and it will be next week. There must be a replacement. Who wants to advance?"

Song Yu, who had never been associated with being helpful, proposed at this time that he could be replaced.

"I don't want to raise the flag near the end of the term, just ahead of time." He gave a clumsy reason, but this waywardness was in line with the impression he gave to others, and he stood up again, so the group leader also expressed gratitude The order was changed.

Out of the desire to scare Le Zhishi, Song Yu didn't tell him about it. Even though Le Zhishi said several times during supper at home that he was going to raise the flag next week, he didn't open his mouth to answer.

Lezhishi made him really look like an adolescent high school boy, who would play boring pranks on the people he likes, and never tired of imagining the picture of him being scared.

On Monday, they went out before dawn and changed into their flag-bearer uniforms when they got to school.On a misty early summer morning, the light of the sky casts faintly on the dew-soaked playground.Song Yu pressed down on the brim of his hat, and followed another boy from the high school to the back of the two flag-raisers in the junior high school with trained steps.

This little idiot didn't realize until he stood on the flag-raising platform representing the high school and faced Le Zhishi, who had a serious and cute expression.

Under the brim of his hat, his beautiful eyes were wide open, and the thick eyelashes touched up and down, and then parted again like a dragonfly on water.

I thought that after making enough preparations to face each other, Le Zhishi would be alone in the chaos.

But in fact it wasn't, Song Yu's heart was very disturbed.

Amidst the sound of music and the chirping of cicadas in summer, he cleared his throat slightly, reminding Lezhi of his stupor. When he looked at Lezhi, he visibly became nervous. He seemed to have forgotten most of the movements he had practiced repeatedly on the balcony at home, but I still worked hard to follow Song Yu, and cooperated to raise the red flag to the top when the music ended.

Then there was the school flag, and Pei Ya's school song sounded.The main flag-raiser of the school flag is a junior high school student, that is, Le Zhishi.He waved the purple school flag with the school badge on it stiffly, and pulled the flag rope a little bit along with the school song, carefully controlling his speed.

Song Yu stood beside him quietly, when he suddenly heard a sound, followed by a crashing sound, just as he felt something was wrong, the huge school flag suddenly fell down, covering him and Le Zhishi inside.

Thousands of students under the flag-raising stage watched the accident happen, and some people even let out a lot of exclamation.

Song Yu, who was wrapped in the flag at the moment, was dazed, but still able to think, but in the next second, Lezhi grabbed his arm and spoke softly.

"Brother, what should I do?"

Submerged under the flag, they avoided everyone's eyes, as if they briefly regained their intimacy.So Song Yu quickly shook his hand.

"It's okay, don't be afraid."

He lifted the school flag, saluted and apologized to the leaders and students in the audience, and bowed deeply with Le Zhishi.Standing up calmly, he saluted again in the direction of the clock tower of the radio station.

As the head of the radio station, Qin Yan quickly reacted and replayed the school song when Le Zhishi was ready, giving them a chance to make amends immediately after the accident.

After the end, both Le Zhishi and Song Yu were taken to talk by the teacher of the national flag team, but they were not punished, because the accident was not entirely because of Le Zhishi's nervousness, but in fact it was because of the flag rope of the school flagpole. Aging, will break.

"Fortunately, you handled it well." The teacher glanced at Song Yu, "The seniors in high school are different, they are very calm."

When she smiled and encouraged Lezhi, "You have to thank the senior later."

When he came out of the office, Le Zhishi felt a little depressed, the summer sun hit him a little bit, which made his uniform look better.

In the corridor where people come and go, they still keep a strange distance.

"You didn't tell me either." Le Zhishi said vaguely and in a low voice, as if he was afraid that the stranger's drama would be exposed by passing students. "Scare me."

"So you think it's my responsibility?" Song Yu also seemed to be a senior whose relationship with him stopped at the national flag team.

Le Zhishi shook his head, "My fault." He seemed to want to say something, but a girl holding a thick stack of homework walked through the wide gap between them, so he paused.

"You're right." Song Yu said lightly, "I just said that there is a problem with the rope."

"No." When there was no one there, Le Zhishi spoke again, softly but frankly, "I was too nervous."

Walking up the stairs with him, Le Zhi lowered his head, as if he was talking to himself: "I will be distracted when I see you, what should I do..." A student came up the stairs, and he added another title in a deceptive way.

"...Senior."

The warm summer wind blew Le Zhishi's soft tone into Song Yu's ears.

"It's not a big deal to be distracted." He comforted, seemingly indifferently.

It's better than being tempted.