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"May I support you?" Yang Yiming asked tentatively, he didn't dare to have any physical contact with Xu Lin, for fear of causing the other party's resistance.

Sure enough, Xu Lin shook his head and stood up slowly while leaning on the wall.Sitting for too long, his legs were numb, and he couldn't help falling to one side.Yang Yiming took a step aside and let Xu Lin lean against the wall.

"Take it easy, your legs won't be numb after a while."

Xu Lin leaned against the wall and frowned, endured the initial numbness, and then slowly straightened up.Yang Yiming looked at him with a smile and said, "How is it? He's pretty tall, right?"

"I, have I grown up?" Xu Lin panicked, his whole body was on the verge of collapse.

"Yes, you have grown up, Ding Kuiqiang can't beat you now." Yang Yiming blinked his eyes, as if he was telling a secret, "Xu Lin, do you know that you beat Ding Kuiqiang away not long ago."

"Really?" Xu Lin's eyes widened, "I don't know, I, I don't remember."

Yang Yiming took a breath and began to explain the most difficult part to Xu Lin: "Then let me tell you slowly, or we can sit on the sofa in the living room and say, look, how tired I am standing."

Xu Lin hesitated for a long time, finally nodded, and followed Yang Yiming to the living room.Yang Yiming made a cup of hot chocolate for Xu Lin, and Xu Lin held the cup and drank it very cherished.

"Xu Lin, you know Da Ding, so do you know Ding Zimu?"

Xu Lin nodded.

"Why do you know him?"

Xu Lin thought suspiciously: "I don't know, it seems... I have always known him... I met him not long ago and talked to him."

"What?" Yang Yiming couldn't help exclaiming, feeling the hairs all over his body stand on end, "Where have you seen him? What is he doing?"

"I, I seem to have seen him at home." Xu Lin tried hard to recall, "He wanted to come to me, I, I told him not to come."

Yang Yiming was so nervous that his palms were covered with cold sweat, "Where did he go after that?"

"I don't know." Xu Lin said honestly, "He's gone."

Yang Yiming felt a burst of despair, and the despair after the sudden hope was even more unacceptable. He was stunned, holding back the irritability and uneasiness that was churning in his heart.Xu Lin waited for a while, then asked in a low voice: "Well, Yang, brother, do you know why I know Brother Mu Mu?"

Yang Yiming looked at Xu Lin and said, "Because you are Ding Zimu, you will be called Ding Zimu when you grow up."

"Ah!" Xu Lin let out a short exclamation, he stammered and asked, "Yes, but I am Xu Lin."

"Well, you were called Xu Lin when you were young, and you will be called Ding Zimu when you grow up." Yang Yiming turned his brain quickly, and he warned himself that the person in front of him was only eight years old, and he had to explain everything from the standpoint of a child. "In fact, you know that you have grown up, but sometimes you will think of things when you were a child. You are very scared, so you hide yourself, no one will find you, and you don't come out by yourself. Eight years old."

Xu Lin turned his head in confusion, feeling that this explanation was a bit difficult to understand: "Like the lunatic at Grandma Zheng's house next door?" Xu Lin asked, "He always thinks that someone is going to steal his things."

Yang Yiming rolled his eyes silently. This child is definitely Ding Zimu, and he thinks about the problem in the same way: "It's not exactly like that. You are not crazy. You are just afraid so you dare not come out. Or to put it this way, you were Ding Zimu when he was a child. memory."

Xu Lin spread his hands out in front of his eyes again, and looked at it carefully, as if it was difficult to accept this reality.Yang Yiming waited silently, he knew that Xu Lin needed some time to rebuild his cognition, he only hoped that this process could be faster.

"Then, why should I hide?" Xu Lin asked.

"Because you are frightened." Yang Yiming lowered his voice and said tentatively, "Xu Lin, can you tell me what you are afraid of?"

Xu Lin trembled uncontrollably, Yang Yiming encouraged him and said: "Xu Lin, don't be afraid, you are safe now. You see, Ding Kuiqiang can't come in when you are in my house, and you have grown up, as big as me , Ding Kuiqiang is also old, if he hits you, we can fight back. Last time you beat him away, you were very brave."

"Really?" Xu Lin said, "I don't even remember."

"Really, you don't remember because you have been hiding. If you were there at that time, you must feel very relieved."

Xu Lin laughed softly, "I've always wanted to hit him, always wanted to, really wanted to. But Big Brother Ding said that he would protect me and I don't need to do it."

"So now you don't have to be afraid."

"I don't want him to find me," Xu Lin whispered, "He will bring bad people."

Yang Yiming's heart was clenched tightly by a big hand, and it hurt so much that he began to have difficulty breathing: "Who did he bring here?"

"I don't know you. That night..." Xu Lin's pupils suddenly dilated several times, and his hands clenched into fists involuntarily.

"Come on, don't be afraid." Yang Yiming said, "Tell me what happened that day, and you won't be afraid if you tell me."

"That night, my mother went to play cards, and I didn't have dinner, so Grandma Zheng gave me a bowl of rice cakes, which were very sweet."

"Well, rice cake." Yang Yiming secretly turned on the recording function of the phone, "The rice cake is delicious, I will take you to eat it tomorrow."

"After eating rice cakes and finishing my homework, I went to sleep." Xu Lin said in a low voice, "I know that my mother will not come back at night, so I locked the door and went to sleep." At this point, Xu Lin suddenly couldn't continue. , He opened his mouth several times, trying to say something, but no sound came out of his mouth.

"Who's here?" Yang Yiming started for him.

These three words seemed to be a torrent, suddenly breaking through the blocked river, and the past rushed in.Tears suddenly fell from Xu Lin's eyes, and the big teardrops soon became a string.

Yang Yiming was cruel, and asked, "Don't be afraid of Xu Lin, I'm here, tell me, what happened?"

Xu Lin suddenly burst into tears, curled up into a ball, short of breath, his whole face was flushed, almost dying.It was crying that had been suppressed for many years, and once it started, I couldn't control it.Yang Yiming quickly reached out to hug him into his arms, and patted his back hard: "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, I'm here, and I'll protect you. Cry if you want to cry, just cry out." He repeated Repeat this sentence over and over until Xu Lin's crying gradually subsides.

"Is it better?" Yang Yiming asked.

Xu Lin nodded: "That night, I suddenly felt that someone was pressing on me." Xu Lin's speech speed suddenly accelerated, he was eager to confide, eager to squeeze the nightmare that had fettered him for many years out of his brain, "I can't breathe Come on, when I opened my eyes, I found that my clothes were gone. There was a person pressing on top of me, his mouth was very smelly, very disgusting, he, he touched my place, and then... I was very scared and screamed. Then……"

Xu Lin stopped suddenly, and Yang Yiming tightened his arms, hugging him even tighter.

"Then, I heard someone say, 'Gag him', and that person stuck his tongue into my mouth." Xu Lin trembled violently, and said, "I recognized that voice was from my father. "

Yang Yiming's eyebrows twitched, and anger swept over him instantly. Although he had guessed before, once the answer came out, he still couldn't hold back.I can almost imagine the fear and despair that eight-year-old Ding Zimu felt when he heard his father say "stop his mouth".

Xu Lin took a breath, and continued: "I was shocked at the time, I knew my father didn't like me, but...then Grandma Zheng heard the movement in the yard, she sang at the door, and then...they left .”

Yang Yiming was silent for a while, feeling that his restless anger had calmed down a bit, and then he said comfortingly: "Fortunately, Grandma Zheng woke up and is fine."

"That day, Mom and Dad fought very hard." Xu Lin said, "Mom guarded me for two days, and then Dad beat Mom away again. Dad said that Mom took away the family money to raise a man." Xu Lin choked up. , Said, "Then, Mom didn't come back for two days. After several days, one night, Dad brought back a person."

Yang Yiming suddenly felt like being strangled by the throat, isn't it over yet?

"Father gagged me and tied my hands to the head of the bed. He... and left. Sitting at the door drinking, I could hear the sound of the wine bottle." Xu Lin held Yang Yiming's hand tightly. Clothes, I retracted myself into Yang Yiming's arms, as if retracting into the corner of the wall, "Then, that person, that person, just pressed on me. I kicked him hard, kicked him hard...but he was very heavy. , I can't move... It hurts, Brother Yang, it hurts, I don't remember anything, I just remember it hurts. Then I kicked him again, and he rolled off the bed and hit the bedside table... There is Moonlight, I saw blood all over his face. Then he hit me..."

Yang Yiming nodded, and suddenly saw a drop of water falling on the top of Xu Lin's head, sliding down the black hair, followed by another drop... He blinked, and was startled to feel the wetness on his face. It turned out that it was my own tears.Yang Yiming bit his lower lip firmly, biting out the bloody smell in his mouth.

Xu Lin didn't raise his head, and said to himself: "Mom came back the next day, and then they quarreled. Dad beat me and mom again. He said that I caused him to pay a large amount of medical expenses. Mom said that Dad did it for The money even sells the son, the father said that he has no son, that I am a bastard...then my mother was killed by him..."

"Okay, okay," Yang Yiming shook Xu Lin lightly, "Don't tell me, I know, you are fine now, you are safe now, you are at my house, Da Ding and I will protect you."

Xu Lin choked and said in a low voice, "I can hit him too."

"That's right," Yang Yiming said, "You can fight back, you've grown up."

Xu Lin's crying stopped, and he collapsed in Yang Yiming's arms exhausted, his eyes were red and swollen: "I, I'm a little tired."

"Well, then close your eyes and take a rest." Yang Yiming patted him and said, "Can I stay with you?"

"I, I'm afraid."

Yang Yiming froze for a moment and said, "Who do you want to accompany you?"

"Where is Big Brother Ding?"

"Do you want Da Ding to accompany you?"

Xu Lin nodded.

Yang Yiming supported Xu Lin to sit on the sofa, and he asked, "Then let me call Big Brother Ding out for you, please wait."

Xu Lin nodded obediently, a little tired after crying bitterly, he closed his eyes and was drowsy.

Yang Yiming took a deep breath and called softly, "Da Ding?"

Xu Lin didn't respond.

"Da Ding? Are you there? Can you come out?"

"Yes." Xu Lin still closed his eyes, but suddenly responded.

Yang Yiming let out a long breath, "Xu Lin wants you to accompany him."

"Okay." Ding's response was simple, but every word was as hard as a bullet, filled with great anger.Yang Yiming believed that he heard all the big men Xu Lin said just now, so he said, "Take him to a safe place and stay with him for a while. He is very scared. You have to tell him that he is safe and there will be no more troubles." Knowing hurt him."

Da Ding was silent for a while, then threw out two words stiffly: "I know."

"Don't be angry," Yang Yiming sighed, "Although I am also very angry, I wanted to strangle that Ding Kuiqiang to death just now, but don't be angry, at least don't let Xu Lin see that you are angry, he needs a stable environment , needs your comfort and protection. He still trusts you more, he needs you. "

Da Ding didn't speak.

Yang Yiming sat down on the ground tiredly, and said in a low voice, "If you want to beat Ding Kuiqiang next time, can you call me?"

"Okay." Da Ding jumped out a word with murderous intent.

"Take him away," Yang Yiming waved his hand, "Comfort him before you come back."

"You don't want Ding Zimu to come back?"

"Of course I hope, but you're right, if he doesn't want to come back, there's nothing we can do. But if he comes back, I will protect him."

It took a long time for Yang Yiming to say this, and found that Ding didn't respond anymore. He gently pushed the person on the sofa and found that he had fallen asleep.Yang Yiming struggled to go to the bedroom and brought a quilt to cover him. He didn't know who this person would be when he opened his eyes tomorrow, whether it was Da Ding or Ding Zimu, but no matter who it was, he needed to put up all his energy to deal with it. .

Yang Yiming was too lazy to go back to the bedroom, let alone Ding Zimu left alone here, so he simply sat on the floor, leaning against the sofa, and pulled half of the quilt over his body.Although it is not very comfortable, but fortunately it is not cold, Yang Yiming smiled wryly: "At least I managed to sleep in the same quilt."