my boyfriend is too random

Ding Zimu put his hands behind his back and looked out of the window. Outside the window was an old pagoda tree of unknown age. Since he came to the orphanage, it had been covered with such thick shade. In June, the tree will bloom with white flowers, which are fragrant Assault.Now the Sophora japonica has withered, leaving only a window stained green by the huge green crown.Ding Zimu just looked at the green leaves of this tree quietly. He didn't know where to start, and he didn't know how to explain it to a psychological teacher.In fact, in his life, he is used to "obeying" rather than "talking out".

When he was young, in order to make life easier, he obeyed his mother without any disobedience. Later... After he came to the orphanage, he obeyed the teacher's instructions. Obedience all the way.The landlord aunt said that the rent would be increased, and he didn't remember agreeing to it at all, but he still nodded obediently.

Now, Teacher Yang asked him to "speak" to him, and Ding Zimu felt that there were thousands of words and thoughts, and he didn't know where to start or how to start.

Yang Yiming was not in a hurry, he squinted his eyes slightly, leaned lazily against the wall, and put his feet in the sun to bask.As time passed, Yang Yiming's eyes closed tighter and tighter, as if he could fall asleep at any time.Ding Zimu glanced at Yang Yiming in the warm sunshine, and his heart became inexplicably quiet.

But in fact Yang Yiming was very nervous, he knew that Ding Zimu didn't trust him.Trust between people has always been a condition, and he and Ding Zimu did not meet this condition.All he can do is try his best to ease Ding Zimu's emotions. He makes Ding Zimu feel that he really wants to help him instead of spying on his privacy. He hopes that Ding Zimu can feel safe instead of oppressed.

He didn't prompt or ask, just leaned against the wall so lazily, but a thin layer of sweat was already breaking out on his back.

"Teacher Yang," Ding Zimu said softly, "What kind of disease is schizophrenia?"

"Split?" Yang Yiming opened his eyes and swept Ding Zimu up and down, "Why?"

"I..." Ding Zimu gritted his teeth and said, "I will lose my memory. Sometimes I have no memory of what others say I have done. Moreover, I have recently experienced hallucinations."

"That's not schizophrenia." Yang Yiming said flatly, "It's like drunk people never say they're drunk, schizophrenic people never say they're 'vision', they're pretty sure they're 'really' I see."

"But... I really saw it too."

"But your reason tells you that it's an 'illusion' and not real, so it's not schizophrenia." Yang Yiming opened his eyes, and saw Ding Zimu's clenched fists slowly loosen, and his white knuckles were together. Dots change back to their original color.

"What things are you told by others, but you have no impression at all?"

"Well, when I was in the cake shop, the store manager said that I was fighting with customers, but I didn't remember it; once, they told me that a little girl was separated from her mother and stood crying at the door of the store. I gave She coaxed her into the store with a piece of cake, gave her a glass of milk, and played with her for a while. People in the store kept teasing me about my potential as a kindergarten teacher, but I don’t remember it at all.”

Yang Yiming nodded with unknown meaning, his expression was calm, Ding Zimu seemed to get encouragement and confidence from this subtle action, he paused and continued: "I used to work in a cake shop, because I was fired by three cake shops before and after the fight .I...I feel like I might never find a steady job again, and I feel like...I might actually be schizophrenic."

"You may have a little amnesia, but you definitely don't have schizophrenia." Yang Yiming was more convinced, he said, "The main symptoms of schizophrenia include extensive disturbances in thinking, perception, emotion, and behavior. He will behave strangely, talk nonsense, be irrational, and be crazy. Don’t talk about coaxing the child like that, it’s good if he doesn’t scare the child to death when he’s crazy.”

"Also...the landlord aunt said that I agreed with her to increase the rent, but I didn't remember it either." Ding Zimu moved out another one.

"Well, this is a typical schizophrenic symptom. You said all the crazy and irrational things that agreed to a rent increase."

Ding Zimu couldn't help laughing.

"Student Ding Zimu," Yang Yiming turned to look at him, "Having amnesia does not necessarily mean schizophrenia. I can't remember what I had for lunch now. Do I think I am a schizophrenic?"

"However, I don't believe I did many things when I lost my memory. For example, the store manager said that I fought, and the fight was so hard that he was so scared that he called the police." Ding Zimu suddenly became a little anxious, he He sped up his speech and said, "But let alone fight since I was a child, I don't even know how to fight."

"That's not necessarily true," Yang Yiming said. "Arguing is actually a very brain-intensive thing. Smart people quarrel, and stupid people only swear or be scolded. You see, quarreling requires you to have extremely fast reflexes. Defending and attacking each other requires you to have strong language organization skills, and more importantly, strong logical thinking skills. I always think that people who can quarrel are very smart."

Ding Zimu was stunned by Yang Yiming's "strange talk", and listened to him in a daze.

"But that's not the case in fighting. Fighting is all about physical strength and perseverance. At most, you can add a little motor reaction ability. There are no people who can't fight in this world, only people who suppress their impulse to beat others. You may be the usual Bin Be polite, always suppress your violent side, when you are furious, you will temporarily lose your mind and be controlled by emotions, and then the violent factors in your body will explode, it is not surprising to fight."

"But shouldn't you have no impression afterward?"

Yang Yiming's heart skipped a beat, he remembered the tragic fight in Ding Zimu at the entrance of the amusement park last month.He considered it for a while and decided not to mention this matter again. Ding Zimu's emotions had just eased, so it was best not to make him nervous and frightened.

Yang Yiming put the question to rest, and asked back: "The dean told me that Mr. Feng is going to take you to see a doctor, what department did you see, what did the doctor say?"

"Shennei." Ding Zimu said, "We also investigated in the direction of epilepsy. We did SPECT and PET examinations, EEG, brain CT, and brain MRI. Anyway, there are a lot of them, but in the end we didn't find out why. There are still a few reports that have not come out, and I am waiting for the results."

"In the case of epilepsy, laboratory tests are important, but they still rely more on clinical symptom tests. If you can be sent to a doctor when you have an attack, the results of the test are accurate. In fact, the symptoms you just mentioned, epilepsy patients There will be more or less."

Ding Zimu's fist was completely released, he put his palm on his lap, looked at Yang Yiming and asked, "In fact, epilepsy can be cured, right?"

"80.00% five cures, 90.00% five controllable."

Ding Zimu's entire face lit up.

Yang Yiming said with a bit of a smile: "Also, brain atrophy may also cause you to temporarily lose your memory, and then behave strangely."

"Brain atrophy?" Ding Zimu was a little nervous again, "What is that?"

"For example, senile dementia," Yang Yiming reached out and patted the back of Ding Zimu's head, "premature dementia."

Ding Zimu was awakened by this slap, and that kind of gentle smile floated on his face again, his eyes were very bright.Yang Yiming smiled and closed his eyes and leaned against the wall.Said lightly: "Ding Zimu, don't be afraid, it's nothing serious."

Ding Zimu looked at Yang Yiming's lazy and comfortable look, and he believed that there was nothing terrible about it.

***

Ding Zimu couldn't recall what happened later that day, because he fell asleep in the warm sunshine and Yang Yiming's lazy voice.This sleep was very deep, even at home, Ding Zimu, who rarely fell asleep while lying on the bed, sat on the ground, leaning against the corner of the wall, and fell into a deep sleep in an awkward position.When he woke up, it was already dark, a window was half open, and the room was full of cool breeze. He was wearing Yang Yiming's thin coat.

Yang Yiming has left.

Ding Zimu took Yang Yiming's coat, shook it carefully, and hung it in the closet.There are two coats in Yang Yiming's closet, a sportswear and a pair of sneakers. Although there are not many things, it seems that the orphanage is a place where he will stay for a long time.Ding Zimu looked at the several pieces of clothes in the closet, and felt very warm in his heart, feeling very at ease.

He closed the cabinet door, turned around and walked towards the door, and at a glance, he saw a piece of paper pasted on the door with chic and beautiful pen writing on it.

Student Ding Zimu:

You fell asleep during the mental health class, seriously disrupting classroom discipline, interfering with the teacher's mood and normal teaching rhythm, and causing very bad effects.This is a manifestation of your long-term lack of self-management and self-discipline, and it is also a manifestation of your long-term irregular life schedule.The most serious thing is that you have blatantly violated classroom discipline, which is a great disrespect to the teacher.

Here, after repeated consideration, I decided to give Ding Zimu a verbal warning, hoping that he can always be alert to himself in the future, correct his shortcomings, and strive for greater progress.

Ding Zimu smiled at the piece of paper for a long time, took out his mobile phone, and typed in the "Punishment Notice" word by word, but changed all the "you" into "I" and changed the last paragraph Delete the first sentence, directly change "hope it" to "I", and change "can" to "want".Then added the words "review letter" and sent the text message.

Yang Yiming smiled after receiving the text message, and before he had time to reply, a new text message came in happily:

In order to express my sincerity in admitting my mistakes and reverse the bad impression I left on the teacher, I hereby apply to make a piece of Black Forest cake for the teacher, and hope for approval.

Yang Yiming grinned, and typed the words "I'm sure".