Landlord, why is there no water?

I like Xia Youqing's gentleness, but I don't like her gentleness. Her actions these days always make me guess for no reason.

"So what if you have it, so what if you don't have it?" I opened my mouth but didn't make a sound, I didn't know if I was thinking about being in the library or if I was ashamed to say it.People always heal their scars and forget the pain. That's how I was. When I was hurt by her, I swore never to see her again.While not wanting to see her, he began to miss her again.

I don't know if Sister Youqing understood the shape of my mouth, she just took a look and stopped answering.I don't like the way she is silent. When she is not silent, I don't even know what she is thinking, let alone when she is silent.I don't know what she was thinking when she was silent, or how to stop my mindless joy.She always said a word casually, and my enthusiasm died down.

When I left the library, Xia Youqing followed behind me.I turned my head and saw her, feeling annoyed in my heart, and impulsively said something insincere. "If you don't like me, don't appear in my life again, not in any form."

In front of her again, I admitted that I liked her once again and couldn't let her go.

I turned to leave, she took a few steps and grabbed my wrist. "I tried."

"But it can't be done." The landlord just pulled my wrist like this. "I'm sorry, if I give you..."

"Bringing me trouble, you're going to leave me for another whole year? Did you suddenly appear when I was used to a peaceful life and disturb my tranquility?" The grievance in front of Xia Youqing fermented all of a sudden.

Xia Youqing's throat moved. "Xiao Wan, I..."

"What hurtful things are you going to say to me again?"

"Can I... can I hug you?" After saying that, Xia Youqing hugged me.She hugged me tightly.

"Even though I have made a lot of changes, I still seem very indecisive in front of you." Xia Youqing said. "sorry……"

Xia Youqing and I said "I'm sorry" twice.

"I don't want your sorry..." I bit my lower lip.This person's embrace is still so warm, but I don't want to compromise too quickly, I don't want to be ambiguous, I don't want to be unclear.

"If you are with her, I will be happy for you. If you are not with her, I..." Sister Youqing rubbed the back of my head, her tone is still very gentle, what is different from usual is her tone , her tone raised.

"She's right, there's something wrong with me. I don't want you...I don't even know if I can get out..." Sister Youqing said. "I just didn't know at the time, I didn't know..."

"So are you clear now?"

"No..." Xia Youqing still hugged me like this.

What do you mean by hugging me like this?People come and go, this may already be the most daring thing the gentle Xia Youqing has ever done.

"I don't want to miss you again."

When I went back to the dormitory, I was still a little dazed.But I'm sure I'm happy, my whole body is happy.I have fantasized that Sister Qing also likes me, and I feel happy or sad for my fantasies, but I have never experienced this feeling.It turns out that fantasy is one thing, and actual experience is another.

It's a bit cold in the capital now, so she straightened my scarf. "I'll pick you up for lunch tomorrow, okay?"

"Sister Huan will come to see me tomorrow..." I said, "She has opened a branch in Beijing and wants me to help."

"En." Sister Youqing said, "Then when are you free?"

"I'll call you when I come back from the company tomorrow, okay?"

"Okay, I'll wait for you." Sister Youqing pinched my ear. "It's cold, you go in."

"Then you should go back early and be careful on the road."

"Ok."

When I entered the gate, Sister Youqing was still standing there, waving to me.Back in the dormitory, I let out a sigh of relief, even though I will be 30 years old next year.When you meet someone you like like this, you will still feel that your legs are weak for a while.

"Xiaowan, what's the matter with you?" The roommate was cooking hot pot in the dormitory, and she bit her chopsticks. "did you eat?"

"Eat." I sat on the stool, I wanted to eat when I was unhappy, and I especially wanted to eat when I was happy. "Give me a pair of chopsticks too."

"Huh? I have a good appetite." My roommate brought me bowls and chopsticks. "Didn't you say some time ago that you were nearly thirty and you couldn't digest well?"

"Happy today."

"What's the fun?" After the roommate finished speaking, she paused again, and she blinked. "Let me guess, did Teacher Xia send you back just now?"

Teacher Xia... this name... feels so forbidden... I really like it...

"Um……"

"Did she kiss you?"

"……No."

"She hasn't kissed you yet, so you're like this?" The roommate said, "If she really did something to you, why don't you set off firecrackers?"

"It's not impossible..." I ate my roommate's shrimp balls.

"Sister Qingmei, what are you going to do?"

My roommate asked this question, and I thought about it for a long time.In the evening, Sister Youqing sent some pictures, which were the supper she made.It's done beautifully. "I can cook, you come back."

I have always been the one who took the initiative, and I am not used to Sister Qing's sudden initiative... She has abused me for too long, which made me feel a little trembling. "Sister, you never said such a thing to me."

"Yeah." Sister Youqing replied, "Actually, I was a little shy when I said it, but I don't want to regret it more than being shy. I was afraid that I would regret it in the future, so I didn't tell you the truest feeling right now."

"I'm going to take it easy..."

"Ok?"

"Today's mood is really full of ups and downs. I'm going to be 30 years old. I need to calm down a little so that I won't grow old quickly."

"Not yet 30 years old."

"It's coming soon." The days are counting like this, and it will be New Year's Day again.

"It's only thirty." Sister Youqing sent a smiling expression. "It's great to spend your 30th birthday with you."

It's been a long time since I talked with Sister Youqing for so long, and we talked until the early hours of the morning. "Sister, don't you go to bed?"

"I'll sleep when you fall asleep."

"Then I'm going to bed." As a result, they chatted for half an hour just "good night".I feel like one of those teenage teens who can chat online for so long.My current routine is similar to that of my parents. I go to bed early and get up early, and sometimes I go for a morning run.

The next day, sister Huan came to pick me up to the company.A few days ago, when Sister Youqing talked about starting a business, I just picked up this idea a few years ago.I really want to start a business. My working experience in Shencheng tells me that if I really want to make a case that satisfies me, I must jump out of the framework of the enterprise.Enterprises are for profit, and there are often trade-offs. You don't know how the project you have been busy for more than half a year will be presented to the public.

"Sister Huan, I can help, but I don't want to take any position." I said.I don't want to reject Sister Huan's kindness, I know that this statement will embarrass her, and the position is the guarantee of "a teacher who is famous".

"Yes, you can do it according to your idea." Sister Huan was silent for a while after finishing speaking. "Are you and Youqing together these days?"

"Well... sister, I..." I paused. "You think I'm worthless, but I... still haven't been able to forget her."

"Have you made a decision?" Sister Huan looked at me, her expression became a little sad.

"Hmm." I lowered my head.

"I see."

As soon as I got out of the car and walked a few steps away, I was stopped by sister Huan who got off the driver's seat again. "I also hope that I can be more open-minded, come here when you need it, and leave when you don't...but..."

"My heart is not made of iron." Sister Huan's lower lip trembled. "I should have come back earlier, Xiaowan."

"Sister, you always tell me something about my childhood... I am touched, but I can't remember it..." I have no memory of many childhood things, only a few words in the diary, or family members. dictate.I don't even remember the sadness I went through as a child.

"I also want to grow up with you." Sister Huan's eyes were red, she had never looked like this.She hugged me. "I just walked away for a while."

After the ups and downs, we never met again.When I was young, I should have liked Sister Huan very much, and now I can feel the mood when I was young.But the me I was when I was a child is no longer the me I am now.I can no longer fulfill my wish for me when I was a child.

Rejecting Sister Huan made me very sad, and Sister Qing came to pick me up at night, and I also declined.I was lying in the dormitory by myself, completely turned upside down by my own mood.

I am almost 30 years old, and I feel that my ability to handle things is still a mess.When I'm alone, I always think about a lot of things.Soon, there was a light knock on the door.

"Xiaowan." Sister Youqing was carrying a wooden lunch box, and she handed it to me. "Eat something, I'll come back tomorrow."

"sister……"

"Huh?" Seeing my red eyes, Sister Youqing stretched out her arms to embrace me.

"Am I a failure in life?"

"How could it be?" Sister Youqing rubbed my head and coaxed me.

Sister Youqing always coaxes me, making me involuntarily fall into her gentle whirlpool, from the age of 25 to the present, and to the future that I can't predict.

"I like you." Sister Youqing whispered in my ear.

Awakened by her day and night, she is my pain.I have been waiting for this response for several years, but fortunately, for me, everything is worth it.