door to happiness

After that letter was sent, we rarely saw each other.

No, I deliberately avoided him, avoided Liang Yan, avoided Zhang Lan, avoided Liu Lei, and avoided everyone who could get news of him.

The ones I saw the most were Cheng Hui and Luo Qi.

Rocky said I was cured.Yes, my illness is cured!After so many hesitation, I have to be strong once.

Cheng Hui said that I was sick, that I had a disease called "single loneliness".

I laughed and said, "You are sick too."

He smoked a cigarette and sighed: "Yes, I am also sick, and I have been sick for more than ten years!"

I often go to his space. He once said that if one day he wants to get married, he will send me invitations in his QQ space.Fortunately, there has been no, although a year has passed.

There is no photo of Liang Yan in his QQ space, and every time he uploads "Talking", he only puts photos of himself, or walking, or traveling, or eating delicious food, or inviting friends to go with him.On every photo, he always PS such a line of words "never forget each other".

Never forget each other, this is our oath!

Occasionally, he also writes some texts, or affectionate prose expressing the feelings of spring and autumn, or black short stories that are humorous and satirical.At the signing place, he always writes his personal signature "Hai Wuya is empty and wide, and love is eternal"!

I think he should miss our past sometimes, otherwise he would not have put the "breakup letter" I wrote him on the protagonist of his novel, and portrayed that person so passionately and infatuatedly, It's a pity that the other party only replied with four words: so old as ever.

So old as before?What a good old days!

I haven't seen him for more than a year!I just look at his QQ space occasionally, and it seems that I can feel the breath of his life in this way.

Cheng Hui asked me why I didn't start a new relationship and forget it in a year, which is already long enough.But I know that there will never be another person like Li Xiangyu, I am determined not to fall into the abyss of love.I have been as plain as a breeze, so light that it seems that I can escape the fireworks of the world.

I found that I was more and more like Li Xiangyu.

In 2008, Liang Yan and I finally graduated.

Wearing a graduation gown, there is no joy, no anger, no sadness, no sorrow, and there is only peace.

Walking around the campus, I said goodbye to here silently in my heart.

Farewell, basketball court!Farewell, my passionate youth!Farewell, Li Xiangyu cheering silently outside the basketball court!Farewell, water girl!

Farewell, Danguilin!Farewell, boys who let their daydreams fly under the trees!Farewell, youthful man upstairs!

Farewell, big classroom!Farewell, Matthew!Farewell, that sleeping boy!Farewell, that boy with a literary atmosphere!

Farewell, big banyan tree!Farewell, that rainstorm that year!Farewell, boy with the umbrella!

Farewell, Gu Feng!Farewell, the girl who confessed to me under this tree all those years ago!Farewell, that once memory!

……

While I was thinking, Liang Yan came towards me in her graduation gown.I haven't seen her for a year, but she has become slimmer, and looks like a beautiful woman.

She stretched out her hand and smiled faintly: "Long time no see, Zhang Hong!"

I smiled lightly, and lightly shook hands: "It's been a while, Liang Yan!"

"Long time no see, brother!"

"Long time no see, sister!"

"Long time no see, a friend who will never let go!"

"Long time no see, my whole life...", I was a little choked up, and she vaguely remembered the vows made back then.She said that we would meet again every year on the day her parents divorced, but we have never met before, "A friend who will never let go!"

"Don't move, keep this posture, just this posture!" Zhang Lan held the camera, bent her waist, and took a few pictures with a "click click".When it comes to taking pictures, no one I know can do better than Rocky, except me.

Look, Rocky is wearing jeans and a white shirt, holding up the camera.

Li Yue is here, Liu Lei is here, Lu Zimei is here, and so is Li Xiangyu.They both held two bouquets of flowers!

"If I knew you were together, why would I still hold two sticks? Buy one, and you two can share it. Isn't that enough?" Lu Zimei grinned and smiled heartily.

"That's right, that's right! It's a waste of our money. If I knew this, I might as well save the money and let everyone have a big meal!" Li Yue followed suit.

Li Xiangyu handed me the flowers, and hugged me affectionately for 5 minutes, until Lu Zimei had an opinion: "Damn, don't be so clingy! Otherwise, we'll form a circle, and you guys just take off your pants and have a fight." ?” As expected of Lu Zimei, only she can say such words.

"Why don't we go have a big drink? After graduating, we go our separate ways, and it's hard to get together again." Someone suggested, and everyone responded.

As soon as the group reached the school gate, they saw Cheng Hui holding flowers and looking around at the school gate.

Li Xiangyu still has sharp eyes and a good memory. He can remember it once he has seen it, and he has never forgotten it after more than a year: "We are drinking red wine today, and the boss is here!"

Cheng Hui found us, came up to greet us, and handed flowers: "You are all here! Here, congratulations on graduating!" He looked at his watch, as if he was a little anxious, "I invite you to dinner another day, I have an important meeting If you don’t leave, it will be too late. I’m sorry, Zhang Hong!” In fact, no one asked him to come, why did he pretend to be so busy when he came?I'm slightly annoyed.

"Don't! Don't change the day, just today!" Li Xiangyu seemed to be fighting him, "You are not free, we are free. You treat, you pay the bill, it doesn't matter if you come or not!"

"Then... let's do this! In Nansha, I opened a seaside resort, and I'm going to have a meeting there. I'll ask the driver to take you there first, arrange your food and accommodation, and play for a day or two. How about coming back to see you after a while?" He looked at his watch anxiously again, "I really can't, I have to go, I'll ask the driver to call Zhang Hong later, you guys are ready." gone.

An hour later, Cheng Hui's driver came to pick us up.It's summer, and it's a good time to play in the water. Everyone is happy, only Li Xiangyu is a little unhappy.It's probably because Cheng Hui is the host - he probably doesn't like Cheng Hui, and always feels that his things have been taken away by others.For a moment, I was in a trance. Could it be that I was really just a "thing" in his heart?

When we arrived at the resort, the driver arranged a room for us: one room for Lu Zimei and Liang Yan, one room for Zhang Lan, Luo Qi and Li Yue, one room for Liu Lei and Li Xiangyu, and he arranged a room for me alone.Everyone has no objection to this arrangement, except Li Xiangyu.He felt that Cheng Hui had ulterior motives for arranging me to live in a room alone, maybe, who knows?

But no one listened to his complaints, not even me!

I'm relieved, no one belongs to anyone, why bother so much.

Everyone put on their swimsuits and rushed towards the soft sandy beach and the blue sea excitedly.

The sea is surprisingly blue, like the shining eyes of a kitten in the dark night.A few coconut trees stand lazily along the shoreline shallowly and slantingly.The sea breeze blows, bringing a breath of the sea.In the breath, I seem to be able to hear the voice of the elves.

Wearing a swimsuit and sunglasses, under the green shade, holding a big parasol, lying on a rocking chair, letting the sea breeze blow your hair, whispering in your ears, it is wonderful.This is Cheng Hui's private beach, and it has done a good job in environmental protection. It is really a good place to live a good life.

"I'll put some sunscreen on you! The ultraviolet rays are so strong, if you don't put on some, you will get sunburned." Li Xiangyu unscrewed the sunscreen he "abducted" from the resort, poured some on his hand, and poured it on my chest smear.I didn't resist, and let him walk up and down my body, pushing the oil out of the hole.

"You have... You ignored me for more than a year." He pushed and said coyly.

"Really? Time flies so fast, I thought it was only a few months." His words touched me, yes, I have ignored him for more than a year.But I really want to ask a question: Doesn't this mean that you have ignored me for more than a year?Why do I have to care about you?

Rather than saying that he is pushing me, it is better to say that he is teasing me.I suppressed the most primitive desire in my heart, and resisted my instinctive reaction: "Don't do this, if you do this again, I will strip you naked on the spot and fuck you."

"Really? It seems that you have been brooding about not being able to reach me."

Seeing his humble appearance, I felt very upset, turned over quickly, and turned my back to him: "Yes, why, let me do it last time?"

"There's nothing wrong with that."

"Pull it down! After women play too much, they miss men again? Men who have touched women are dirty, and I don't want to touch them." Actually, I never had such thoughts.I don't know if a man who has touched a woman is dirty or not, but I know that a man who has a marriage contract with a woman must never touch a man.What a sad thing when a man and a family go to battle!Not to mention that you can't win, even if you win, but looking at the child, don't you feel guilty?

His hands paused on my body for a moment, and then continued to circle around: "So you have never changed, you are still the same."

"What was it like in the old days?"

He was silent and no longer spoke.

What was my old look?Even I myself don't know my original face, can he know it?

"It's finished, I'm going to soak in water for a while."

I turned over and saw him running towards Liang Yan and the others, my heart ached.I worked hard to calm down my mood for more than a year, but it started to fluctuate at this moment.I tried my best to calm down my mood, telling myself not to be emotional, absolutely not to be emotional!

He plunged into the water!The people next to him clapped their hands and counted the seconds: "One, two, three, four...91, 92, 93,...one hundred and one, one hundred and two..."

In the case of one hundred and two, that is nearly 2 minutes, and Li Xiangyu's highest record did not exceed one and a half minutes.For ordinary people, holding their breath underwater for 1 minute is already a long time.I realized it was not good, so I stood up immediately, rushed over, and shouted, "Where is Li Xiangyu?"

They froze for a moment, dived into the water, and within a dozen seconds they came out of the water again, shouting, "Find someone! Find someone!"

As a result, a group of people jumped around and panicked...