door to happiness

When I got home at night, my family saw a bruise on the corner of my mouth, and they all came forward to question me. I hurriedly used the excuse that I fell and fell, but everyone saw that I didn't want to tell the truth, so they stopped asking.

After entering the room, Li Xiangyu rubbed the medicine on me and muttered: "It was a fist fight. You fought with someone else? You are so old, why are you still acting like a child?"

"There was such a person who deserved a beating, so I got into a fight!" I grinned!

"Gao Yong?"

"No! Some people love to talk about their gods, and if they don't teach them a lesson, they won't be able to control their mouths!"

"Ah? Oh! Let them talk if they like! Have you ever seen a funeral in Hunan?"

"No! Is there anything special about it?"

"The filial piety hat is made of dried bamboo leaves. There are three pieces of white cotton on the forehead and ears. We call them 'white hairs'. Do you know what this is for?"

I shake my head!Suddenly, I became very interested in their funeral system, but when I actually saw that kind of funeral, my heart was so painful that I couldn't breathe.

"The front is to cover your eyes, telling you not to see anything; the sides are to cover your ears, telling you not to listen to anything. Among funerals, dutiful sons dressed in linen are the most humble. No matter what others say or do, they can't contradict them." Even if a dog on the side of the road passes by, you have to salute it. Just pretend that you are in mourning. If you hear something you shouldn’t hear, pretend you didn’t hear it. If you see something you shouldn’t see, pretend you didn’t see it! "

Just as I was talking, my father came in, and when it came to New Year's Day, the family went to the hot springs.

Li Xiangyu was very excited, probably because he had never been in a bath before, so he thought it was strange.I don't think it matters, every time I go to the hot springs, I just look at the beautiful men and have a good time.However, most of those people's figures are not bigger than Li Xiangyu's. On the contrary, I am worried that Li Xiangyu's muscular figure will be shown to others.

On New Year's Day, our family set off excitedly.To be honest, we have never had a family visit to a hot spring like this.why?Naturally, it's because I don't want to get close to my little mother.Every time this happens, I will go to my mother's side and play with my younger siblings there for a few days.Maybe it's because of Li Xiangyu's appearance that the distance between me and my little mother has been shortened, so my little mother gradually fell in love with Li Xiangyu.

While soaking in the hot spring, my father met acquaintances and introduced me and Li Xiangyu to them.He was no longer embarrassed, although the looks of those people were not good-looking.But most of the time it was because of his father's face, he would always exchange some pleasantries.Li Xiangyu was right, I just pretended I didn't see or hear it.Only by being numb like this can I become stronger and become a "shameless" tough, no longer afraid.

Dad soaked in the hot spring, and the mist rose up and covered his face.At that moment, I suddenly felt that my father became mysterious and tall.He turned around, pinched his nose, dived into the hot spring, dived for half a minute, and then surfaced again: "Son, life is like diving! When you feel stuffy, dive for half a minute to experience the suffocation." In that moment, think about what is worthwhile and what is not. Maybe you will have the answer!"

"Then what did Dad think of after holding back for half a minute?"

"Home! I thought of this!"

Home, for him, may have a different meaning.For so many years, Dad has been very depressed.First, my mother quarreled with him, fought and fought, separated, and there was no peace for a moment.Helpless, divorced, he and my mother have their own families, but I hold him back.

I covered my nose and got into the spring water.The temperature of the spring water is not high, more than [-] degrees, which will soak the whole body very comfortably.I hid tightly in the bottom of the water, a sense of suffocation came to my face.Liang Yan once said that only those who have died once can find the courage to live. Is this consistent with what my father said?

I persisted in the water, 40 seconds, 45 seconds, 50 seconds...

I just felt a tightness in my chest, and my heart began to become frantic, and there was a faint tingling pain in the frenzy.There was a sound of rushing water in my ear flaps, and my nose seemed to be choked by water, and it was extremely itchy.I felt like I was about to suffocate, as if if I didn't take another breath of oxygen, I would go straight to my hair.At that moment, Li Xiangyu's shadow appeared in a trance!

Jumping out of the water and leaning quietly against the wall of the bath, I just felt dizzy.I tried my best to calm down my heartbeat, and then suppressed the pain and said, "Family, that's what I thought of too!" I didn't dare to say Li Xiangyu, I began to feel inexplicably scared!At the moment of life and death, what I thought of was actually Li Xiangyu, and there was no one else besides that!I know, I'm hopeless!

"Xiangyu, try it too!" I encouraged him!

He stayed in the water for nearly a minute and a half before he came out, wiped the water, and said, "I saw my mother!" His complexion was not very good!

I'm a bit disappointed - at a moment like that, he's thinking of his mother, not me!It's an instinct.This is the answer to the question of "Who to save when mother and lover fall into the water at the same time"! —Instinct will give us an answer.

After soaking for a while, the family felt bored, so they had to change to another pool to take a bath.This is a resort-style hot spring villa.After entering, there is a large public bath. In addition to this bath, there are various small baths in the garden, which are soaked with different medicinal materials or flowers. They are called "Bupleurum pool", "Osmanthus pool" and "Rose pool". , "Double Tianchi" and so on.The bathing pool next to it even has a cave shape, which is quite ingenious and unique.

The karst cave is very interesting. There are various searchlights installed inside, and the searchlights emit various colors of light, shining on the water surface, criss-crossing, colorful, psychedelic and charming.We were about to go in, but saw a couple kissing deep in the cave.I think the designer only wanted to reflect the "artistic quality" at the beginning. If he knew that it would become a place to hide dirt, he should regret making this design so blurred.

When I got closer, I realized that the kissers were a pair of men, one tall and one short, one fat and one thin.When the little mother saw her, she quickly covered Xiaobo's eyes and complained, "Damn it! It's in broad daylight!"

Her father took her hand, and she realized her gaffe.

Li Xiangyu and I are a little lost, maybe it's because the rabbit died and the fox was sad, and things hurt other people, right?If a man and a woman were kissing here today, would my little mother still say such a thing?

After leaving the cave, my father gave my mother a wink, and my mother immediately understood and stopped the conversation.

Embarrassed, Li Xiangyu quickly laughed at himself: "It's really unsightly! Ah Hong, we must pay attention to these in the future, and don't do such rude things in public!"

"Where is it rude? Men and women can do it, but men and women can't do it?" I don't think so!

Li Xiangyu gave me a blank look.

After soaking all morning, we are going to have lunch.So my mother went back to the ladies' department, and we went back to the men's department, ready to wash.

"Son, rub Dad's back! It's been a long time since you rubbed my back!" Inexplicably, Dad suddenly made a request.

Yes, our father and son haven't seen each other naked for a long time!How long has it been?It should be more than ten years!

I rubbed my father's back, and I realized he was old!The skin was wrinkled and creased, and it was no longer smooth.Years took away his youth, but could not heal his wounds.What are the years?It should be a cruel official!It takes away the youth one by one, and carves out imprints one by one with a carving knife. It will be uncovered after the wound is healed, and it will be better until the heart no longer hurts!He is such a cruel official!He doesn't tell you how much time he will give you, but he warns you blatantly: Just wait, one day I will come and take you away, whether you like it or not!

"Son, how do I feel that I have lost you?"

"Why did Dad say that?"

"When you were just born, I held you in my arms every day, and felt that you were mine, so solid! Gradually, you began to grow up, and then slowly walked out of my world. Many times, I found that I need you so much, but you don't need me! Dad is so lost! Now, you seem to be obsessed with that kid, and Dad feels like he has completely lost you!"

I smiled lightly: "You feel like marrying a daughter! But Dad, I'm not a daughter, so I can't get married. As long as you don't drive us away, Xiangyu and I will stay by your side!"

"So it's the feeling of marrying a daughter! So it's the feeling of marrying a daughter..." Dad kept muttering to himself!

Until this moment, I didn't know how selfish we are as children!We always thought that from the moment we were born, we were independent individuals, belonging only to ourselves and not to anyone else!In fact, since we were born, we have been dubbed the attribute of "XX's".We are children of parents, parents of children; we are grandsons of grandparents, and will also become grandparents of grandchildren... Between these "of" characters, we have already formed a "sense of belonging", so we no longer just Belong to yourself!

Li Xiangyu is right!He is his mother's child, and his mother is also his mother!It is understandable that he couldn't let go of the blood-thick and water-thick family affection.At this moment, I suddenly began to feel sad, and I also began to understand life.If there is a day when I need to let go because of this, I think I should let Li Xiangyu go.Before "Zhang Hong's Li Xiangyu" was formed, he was already "the son of his parents", and I was the third party!

Home, this is a warm unit!Before I formed a family with Li Xiangyu, he already had a family!After I form a family with him, I also hope that my parents can integrate into our family!A family should have parents and children!We were doomed to have no children, so we had to be children.

Father, mother, Xiangyu's father, Xiangyu's mother, will they be willing to be the "parents" of our family?

When he was about to sit, Li Xiangyu was taking a bath for Xiaobo.There came their laughter and laughter!He likes children, but we can't have one of our children!

All these inversions are just for the word "love"!