door to happiness

"It is said that the phoenix is ​​the messenger of happiness in the world. Every 500 years, it holds a sycamore tree in its mouth, builds a bonfire, and then bears all the unhappiness and hatred in the world, and devotes itself to the raging fire. The end is exchanged for the peace and happiness of the world. I don’t know when the last "Phoenix Nirvana" was, I hope it will come soon, so that there will be no more unhappiness and hatred. The end of life and beauty is exchanged for the peace and happiness of the world. I don’t know when the last "Phoenix Nirvana" was, I hope it will come soon, so that there will be no more pain." Today Liang Yan is a little out of order—— So sad, so fragile, completely inconsistent with her label of "female man", this can't help worrying me.She is an unbeatable Xiaoqiang, how can she be so fragile?

"About 'Phoenix Nirvana', it is actually recorded in the scriptures. There is a saying in "Nirvana Anonymous Theory" that says: Husband and man are empty and nothing, and everything is nothing but my creation. It means reaching a certain level People who live in the world must have the experience of emptiness and ambiguity, so they don't care about everything in the world. In his view, everything comes from his heart. There is another sentence: the vastness of the universe is called Nirvana. It means , put all things in the world, everything and me as one, detach yourself, that is Nirvana. That is to say, as long as you don't have anger, greed, stupidity and attachment, you can transcend all kinds of constraints on the heart in the world, and realize the so-called " There is a surplus of Nirvana'." As long as he talked about literature, Li Xiangyu would ramble and chatter endlessly.

"Don't have anger or greed?" Liang Yan sneered coldly, and said sarcastically, "Try it yourself! I don't know what is leftover nirvana, and there is no leftover nirvana. It is unavoidable. If, as you said, you let go of your desires and desires, then you are no longer like plants. What is the point of being alive?"

"The remaining nirvana is not what you said," Li Xiangyu hurriedly interrupted Liang Yan, feeling that he had misled her.

"Then do you understand? Are you nirvana?" Liang Yan turned against the general.

Li Xiangyu was immediately aroused, and after a while, he said: "It's one thing to understand, but another thing to do it. There are many people in this world who know how to do things, but they can't do it anyway. There are very few people who know how to do it and do it, and these people are usually called 'successful people.' I don't, as you say, I'm just an ordinary person who achieves nothing." What will be done What's up.

"Li Xiangyu, can you swim? Answer honestly." Liang Yan stared into Li Xiangyu's eyes, and Li Xiangyu almost turned his face upside down. He quickly turned his face away, nodded, and said "Yes" in response.

"Zhang Hong, can you swim?" She turned to me again.

"A little bit, what's the matter?"

"I can't, save me!" Liang Yan said, jumping into the river, and then grabbed wildly, but caught nothing, except for the river water in one hand, and then screamed.This scream woke up Li Xiangyu and I who were stunned on the shore.

Li Xiangyu hurriedly jumped into the river, swam over, and fished her up.I'm a little overwhelmed, to be honest, I'm not very good at water.But seeing Li Xiangyu jumped down, he was worried that something would happen to him, so he had no choice but to jump down.

When Liang Yan was rescued, the three of us were already dripping wet.This can't help but remind me of the heavy rain.Li Xiangyu went to hold an umbrella for Liang Yan, and I went to hold an umbrella for Li Xiangyu, but in the end, no one could block the rain, and I was completely drenched in water.I clearly remember that day, because I kissed him that day!

Looking at Liang Yan who was dripping wet, and then looking at himself, he was also in a mess. Li Xiangyu was furious, and said angrily, "What are you doing, are you crazy? If you want to die, you have to take advantage of my absence! What a disaster!" , every time I meet you, nothing good happens." Li Xiangyu has always been steady, such a moment of thunder and fury is really rare.

Liang Yan smiled heartily: "Who wants to die? I don't dance because you are not here! You are all here, and you can swim, so I dance." Seeing her laugh so unscrupulously, my hanging heart fell to the ground.This is the brave, persistent and almost paranoid Liang Yan!

"Oh, I was wrong. I shouldn't have come, and I shouldn't know how to swim, right? If you die, I'll be the one who murdered you, because I said I could swim, right?" Li Xiangyu was furious.After speaking, he took off his clothes and squeezed the water vigorously.

"You think I want to die, I just feel too tired, I need to find the courage to live again." Liang Yan seemed to have suffered a lot of grievances, and suddenly squatted on the ground, crying.

Her crying made me anxious!To be honest, knowing her, I thought I wanted to die, I just felt too tired, I needed to find the courage to live again. "Liang Yan seemed to have been greatly wronged, and suddenly squatted on the ground, crying.

Her crying made me anxious!To be honest, I have known her for so long, I have never seen her cry like this.I hurriedly winked at Li Xiangyu: "Don't say a few words! She must be so sad!"

"I just want to know how my aunt felt when she jumped from here"

aunt?Both Li Xiangyu and I were stunned!That woman is her aunt?The tomb without a stele in front is her aunt's grave?It turned out that the woman she was talking about that day was not someone else, but her aunt!

"Have you seen "The Promise"? He Fan stood on the edge of the 'heaven' and said: If I don't go forward, I have to go back alive. That's how he found the reason and courage to live. In fact' Dying is a very difficult thing. I jumped down with firm belief, telling myself not to resist, just sinking slowly into the water. But the moment I entered the water, my body had an instinctive reaction and began to shout , and began to desperately want to grab something. This instinctive reaction is beyond the control of the mind. If I die at this moment, there will definitely be signs of struggle, and it is not my will at the last moment. That feeling is terrifying , It's like sinking into a bottomless abyss, there will never be an end, that kind of panic makes every nerve of yours tense. I believe that people who have died once will never die a second time Yes, because that takes more courage."

Li Xiangyu sat down beside her, looked at her with weird eyes, and said after a long time: "Then do you have the courage to live now?"

Liang Yan nodded, and then gently wiped the corners of her eyes, not sure if it was water or tears: "It is said that my aunt didn't struggle at all when she died, but I want to know how dissatisfied she is with life. What a firm belief to choose death. How difficult it is to overcome the instinctive reaction. If you don’t believe me, you go home and try to pour water into your mouth, and then don’t move your Adam’s apple or tongue, let the water flow down naturally , see if you can hold on for three seconds!"

It's been an eventful season!Seeing Li Xiangyu, Liu Lei, and Liang Yan live so hard, I can't help but secretly feel lucky for myself.Although my parents divorced, at least they gave me more love.Looking at Liang Yan, I couldn't help feeling a little distressed.What did this girl go through when she returned to her hometown this time?

"I think, I have regained the courage to live! However, I should never have the courage to marry again. Marriage is simply a curse!" She suddenly got up and ran away.

A gust of cold wind blew by, and I shivered all over.Only then did I realize that the water in late autumn is so cold.Li Xiangyu's face was pale, his lips were purple from the cold, and he was even trembling.

"Xiangyu, let's make a call and go back to Auntie's house!" Our salute was placed at Tongtong's house.I took my wallet out of my pocket, only to see that the wallet was completely soaked, and the money inside was also stuck together.Fortunately, the trouser pockets are tight, otherwise, once the wallet falls into the bottom of the river, it may be hard to find.

"Who wants that money? Let's run back!"

In such a late autumn, two guys in wet clothes were running around the county town, and everything they passed became the focus of people's attention.The wind of walking and the cold wind of late autumn, one after another, hurt the muscles and bones.Li Xiangyu looked at me in a state of distress, smiled and stroked my hair: "Crazy, why are you jumping into the water too! You're not very good at swimming!"

"Crazy! I'm afraid that you will elope with Liang Yan and live in seclusion in the Palace of Yama! If you dare to elope, I will not forgive you lightly! Find you and beat me up!"

Tongtong's mother was frightened by our distressed appearance. She hurriedly put hot water on us to take a shower first, and prepared ginger tea.

In the bathroom, we looked at each other in a mess and couldn't help laughing.