door to happiness

"I have a girlfriend", this sentence has been lingering in my mind, lingering.In the past few days, I have been unable to sleep every night, and I have lost a little bit of weight.I finally realized that I was in a deep panic.I dare not take a step forward, afraid of repeating the same mistakes, but I don't want to let go, after all, it's hard to let go.

During this period, I met Cheng Hui once and told him about it.I faintly felt that he was a little sad, but he still gave me a pertinent opinion: stagnation itself is a kind of fault!It is a kind of "deadlock", if you want to break through, you can only break the deadlock.Progress is always achieved through change!

According to what he said, if I don't confess boldly, Li Xiangyu and I will only maintain this kind of "friend" relationship forever, and we will not be able to go any further.If you confess, maybe Li Xiangyu will be very disgusted, but as long as you stick to it, the misunderstanding will be gradually eliminated. Even if you can't become a lover, at least you can become a friend.

When he said that, he also forked the cut steak into my plate: "It's like me and you, at first, how much you hated me, why don't you just sit in front of me and talk to me now? ?”

Yes!I should confess!At that moment, I made up my mind.

Before leaving, he took my hand: "If he really rejects you, come back to me, I'll wait for you!"

I just smiled shyly: "Even if he is a piece of solid ice, I will melt him."

On Sunday evening, I was quietly waiting for him in Taikoo Cang!Years ago, here I was, kissing a boy; years later, I wanted to tell him the story here.

The setting sun shines at night, dyeing the autumn water of the river red.The water waves rippling with the wind, shattering a little bit of golden light.The dilapidated ship is silent by the river, and the old paint has gradually peeled off.Several designers are carrying surveying instruments and drawings, measuring back and forth on the street.Back then, who would have expected that this place would later become a famous tourist attraction—under the ideas of such a few people!

Li Xiangyu came, wearing a Nike sportswear.This is a famous brand he bought with the money he earned from part-time work, although it is actually not expensive!I like this kind of child very much. They not only pursue the quality of life, but also keep their feet on the ground.

We came to the ferry, climbed into an old boat, leaned on the strings of the boat, and looked at the clouds in the sky.

Watching the sunset in Taikoo Cang is definitely a kind of enjoyment.In the distance, the setting sun is gradually falling, the light is no longer so strong, and it is so soft that it seems to melt away.The golden light casts on the surface of the river, dyeing the autumn water of the whole river golden.Under the setting sun, people are working on the river, as if they are wearing golden clothes.

"It's so beautiful!" Li Xiangyu admired sincerely, "Sometimes I also think, why do people live so tired? There are so many beautiful things in the world, we have no time to appreciate them, but time can't wait to take us away. Such a sunset How many times can I see it? There are also snow mountains and grasslands. If I have the opportunity, I really want to go around, but it’s a pity that I don’t have such strength, and I don’t have so much time!”

I stuck to him tightly: "There will be! There will be time and money, as long as you are willing! The world is so big, I want to see it, if you want, let's go together, okay?"

"Yes! The world is so big!" He sighed.

"Xiangyu, my youth was buried here! I called you here because I want to tell you my story. But, after you listen to the story, you will still sit quietly beside me Is it?" I know, I can't ask him to give me any promise, I just expressed my concern.

"If it's hard to talk about it, you don't have to say it! If you want to say it, I'm willing to listen! In this world, there is no big deal! Don't worry, didn't we promise to be friends who will never let go? I won't turn against you just because I heard a story!"

"I kissed a boy here, he was my junior high school classmate!"

He smiled "squeaky": "Didn't you kiss me too?"

"I'm a comrade, and after that kiss, I was sure of it!" I didn't dare to look into his eyes, or even observe his expression.I just lowered my head and slowly told the shy story deep in my memory.

After a long time, I finally finished telling this seemingly long story, but there was no sound around me anymore.My heart suddenly tensed up inexplicably: Could it be that he knew that I was a comrade and had already left?

"Xiangyu, are you still there?" I asked cautiously, my voice trembling.

"I am still here!"

Hearing his answer, I felt ecstasy in my heart and raised my head suddenly.Yes, he is still there!He didn't discriminate against me because I was gay and chose to leave.There was a smile on the corner of his mouth, which looked so dazzling and blurred under the golden sunlight.

"I..." I confessed to him, but I didn't know how to confess.

Suddenly, he turned his head abruptly, put his arms around my neck, and kissed me hard.His lips were pressed against mine, I only felt my lips trembling, and then it was wet and slippery.I opened my mouth slightly, and the tongues of the two were like spirit snakes, fighting each other, always wanting to get a glimpse of each other's family background.Two armies are at war, and the one who knows the other wins. We seem to be exploring each other in this way, trying to win this war.

The opponent launched a venom war, and the "sweet" venom permeated the entire battlefield!What's even worse is that he actually propped up a powerful barrier, isolating oxygen from the barrier, and I almost died of suffocation.I start moaning, I can't help moaning!I am suffering and happy!

He let go of me and smiled silly.

"You..." I never thought he would be so proactive, what's wrong with him, is he possessed?

He stuck out his tongue at me: "You kiss me once, I kiss you once, now it's even, we don't owe each other!"

"No! I just kissed your lips, but you kissed my tongue. I was at a disadvantage. I will kiss you back next time!"

"Really? It seems right to say that! Then think that I have the upper hand for the time being!" He raised his head and looked at the sunset with a smirk.

"You...are you gay too?" I was a little timid.

"No! I like girls, and I've talked to several girls."

"Then why did you kiss me? Is it a prank? I remember you said you had a girlfriend." I was a little disappointed. Although he kissed me, he liked girls.I realized that maybe his kiss was just a prank.I was suspicious because he felt embarrassed when he heard that I was gay, so he had to use such a joke to resolve it.

He held my face and stared into my eyes: "Little fool, I've made it so obvious, don't you understand? You called me here because you want to confess? I've already given you the answer Ah! You are so timid and hesitant, if I don't kiss you, I'm afraid you wouldn't dare to say it today!"

"How do you know I like you?" This time, it was me who blushed, not him.Although I have a thick skin, but when my thoughts were guessed by him, I felt quite embarrassed.

He looked at the intoxicated sunset, and touched my head: "You are a nympho, with 'Zhang Hong likes Li Xiangyu' written all over your face, I am not a fool, how could I not know. When I first lived in the dormitory, you He just came to spy on me in the dormitory building, and later in the classroom. In order to get close to me, he deliberately went to the place where I worked part-time and left the MP3 there..."

"You...you..." I was dumbfounded, it turned out that he saw all of this, "You know it all?"

"You idiot! You managed to leave the Mp3 there, but you dare not come to me. If I don't come to you, are you planning to give up the MP3?"

Unfortunately, I was a little embarrassed by what he said.

"However, you can't accommodate me just because I like you. You already have a girlfriend, but kissing me rashly like this will give me the illusion that you like me. "

"Actually, you've seen my girlfriend too."

"Have I seen it?" A figure appeared in my mind——Liang Yan.His female friend, I should have seen only Liang Yan!

"Your girlfriend is on page 36 of your sketchbook, and my girlfriend is on page 8 of your sketchbook!"

Page 36?I try to remember!The picture on page 36 is Li Xiangyu!That's the one I secretly pictured at KFC.he?Has he already flipped through my sketchbook?page eight?The eighth page... If I remember correctly, the eighth page should be my self-portrait.

he?The girlfriend he said turned out to be me?

I felt ecstasy in my heart, and hugged his waist tightly: "The eighth page is my self-portrait! You...you mean, your girlfriend is me? You told Liang Yan that day that you had a girlfriend Now—the 'girlfriend' refers to me?"

He turned his middle finger into a hook shape and scratched the bridge of my nose: "Little fool, do you know now? You are so stupid! When you snatched the sketchbook and didn't let Liang Yan read it, I knew what you said My lover is me now. In fact, I have already flipped through that sketchbook."

"But, you... didn't you say you like women?"

"Yes, I like women. But, I also like you, but you happen to be a man! I think I'm at a disadvantage-you like men, there are so many men in the world, and I have many hidden rivals in love But among men, I only like you! Now you can sit back and relax! I think God is too unfair to me!"

"Don't worry! I'm drowning for three thousand, I'll just take a scoop to drink! Baby, I love you, and I only love you in this life!"

He hurriedly covered my mouth with his fingers: "If you promise lightly, you will be trustworthy! People in the world always like promises, but they can't keep them. Keep such promises in your heart, and you just know it. The more hope you give, the less disappointment you will get." There will be more. To live every 'today' well is to live a good life. You can prove it to me with your daily practical actions!"

"I was kissed forcefully by you just now, and I feel like I'm at a disadvantage! I want to kiss you back now!" Before he agreed, my lips had already blocked his mouth.This time, I got his consent and kissed so wildly and unscrupulously that I couldn't even move my hands around his body involuntarily.

When my hand touched his secret, he suddenly pushed me away, and his face turned red instantly.It turned out that this was his Achilles' heel, as long as that kind of thing was involved, he would blush.