Born of Worry

The black dragon paperweight quietly crawled on the table.

The Shocking Wind Divine Bow was also carefully cleaned and returned to its original position.

Nothing seemed to have changed in this bedroom.Sitting in front of the table, Mo Wen poured the freshly brewed tea from the purple sand teapot into the cup.

This set of tea sets was a birthday gift given to Li Xian the first year he came to Li Xian's side, but he has been using it until now and is not willing to change it.The spout of the teapot is the head of a dragon. When the tea is poured, the tea pours out from the mouth of the dragon. A section of the body of the dragon is bowed on the lid of the pot, and the tail of the dragon is wrapped around the handle.

After many years of use and caress, this pot has a warm color, and the dragon on the pot is not half-vigorous, and just quietly brews fragrant tea time and time again.

Mo Wen took a sip of tea, which refreshed his heart and lungs, leaving a fragrance on his lips and teeth.

The best Shifeng Longjing tea is green and luscious, but those who like this tea the most are reluctant to wake up to taste it again.

"Your Majesty, Your Majesty!"

The eunuch's shrill voice suddenly broke the tranquility of the bedroom.

Mo Wen frowned, put down the teacup, and said, "What are you shouting for? Don't you know that His Majesty is resting?"

The eunuch hurriedly bowed his body, "Yes, yes, the slave should die!" He handed over something, "Please take a look at Master Mo."

Mo asked, "What is this?"

"Yes, it's eight hundred miles from southern Xinjiang who hastened to report, saying it's... a foreign invasion, Mr. Mo should take a look!"

"Foreign invasion? Isn't the southern border guarded by General Wei Heng?"

The eunuch was dripping with cold sweat, "This... this slave doesn't know."

"Understood, you go down."

Mo Wen turned the screen, went back to the inner room, started to tell the truth, and seemed to read aloud on purpose: "The southern barbarians invaded, General Wei Heng led the army to meet the enemy, but fell into an ambush by mistake, lost contact, life and death are uncertain?"

As soon as he read a few words, there was a rustling sound on the dragon bed, he closed his eyes, looked over, and dropped the paper in his hand to the ground.

Li Xian, who had been in a coma for more than three months, got up by himself, supported his body with his hands, Mo Wen smiled wryly, and whispered: "Sure enough, only state affairs can wake you up."

Li Xian's voice was terribly hoarse: "Southern Xinjiang... really something happened?"

Mo Wen looked at him for a long time, but in the end he just sighed, and the blood in his heart seemed to be frozen, "No, that's just, it's for you to watch."

There was no word on the so-called report on the ground.

——This was Shen Xin's idea to him. He was worried about whether it would be successful, but he didn't expect it to work like this.

I really don't know whether to cry or laugh.

Li Xian lowered his head and murmured: "Why... did you lie to me?"

"And why don't you wake up?"

Li Xian didn't say a word anymore, and grabbed the quilt tightly with both hands. Mo Wen sat beside him and held his shoulder: "Since you're awake, don't sleep again, okay?... I beg you."

no respond.

The sadness in Mo Wen's eyes was almost overflowing, but he was still struggling, and the forced smile was really not very pretty, "Why? Why don't you wake up? Don't you... really don't want to see me again? "

"Mo Wen... I beg you too, don't force me anymore, okay?"

Hearing what he said, Mo Wen frowned, and finally couldn't restrain his emotions, and said in a low voice, "When did I force you?! We haven't seen each other for two years, and you respond to me in such a way?!"

"You're forcing me now!" Li Xian also roared, and suddenly raised his face, but his eyes refused to fall on him, and he turned his head suddenly, "I don't want to see you, I have no face to see you!"

"I don't dislike it!"

"But I hate it!" Li Xian's eyes were already red, his head was lowered, and his whole body was trembling, "I hate myself, I don't want to kill myself all the time! Don't you feel disgusted? I feel disgusted! You What's the point of still pestering me? You go quickly, you go!"

He seemed to be too excited, and suddenly coughed, Mo Wen also stared madly, and straightened his shoulders, "Li Xian! Look at me, look into my eyes and repeat what you just said if!"

However, Li Xian refused to look directly at him, and lowered his head desperately, then suddenly raised his arm to block his hand, smiling sadly, with tears in his eyes, "She's right, I'm not worthy You, I was not good enough for you, and now I am not good enough for you! Cough... You, you go quickly, okay? I beg you, you go, go! Get out!"

Mo Wen was pushed and shoved by him, but he refused to take half a step back.Li Xian couldn't push him away, and shouted in despair: "Go! Why don't you go? Why don't you go?!"

He was out of breath and short of breath, his chest was oppressed badly, he couldn't stop coughing, his ears were ringing, and his mind was in chaos.Mo Wen just looked at him, didn't make any movements, and didn't say a word.

"You're not going, you're not going, are you?" Li Xian gasped, "You're not going...well, I'll force you to go. Didn't you say that your duty is to protect the emperor? Well, I'll abdicate now, I will write the edict now and abdicate now!"

"Li Xian! What are you doing?!"

Mo Wen was stunned for a moment, seeing that he was about to get out of bed with bare feet, but for some reason he missed his foot and almost fell, so he hurriedly pulled him into his arms.

No matter how slow his reaction was, he could already see that something was wrong with Li Xian, so he couldn't help but lock him tightly in his arms, and refused to let go no matter how hard he struggled, holding his face with both hands so that he could face himself, seeing There were tears in his eyes, but he wasn't half-focused, and his pupils didn't have any focus. He shook his hands in front of his eyes, and he wouldn't roll his eyes.Mo Wen's heart skipped a beat, and he asked in a trembling voice, "Xiao Xian, what's wrong with your eyes...?"

Li Xian suddenly stopped struggling, and his whole body froze. After a long, long time, two lines of tears finally fell slowly, but his lips curled up, and he said something that Mo Wen will never forget in his life:

"Mo Wen, I can't see..." He laughed and cried, "It's good not to see. Then, in front of me... only you."

It's nice not to be seen.

In this way, before my eyes...

It's just you.

"what--!!"

Mo Wen roared heart-piercingly, hugged Li Xian tightly into his arms, raised his head, and shouted hoarsely, "God—! Why did you do this, why did you do this—?!"

"Mo Wen..." Li Xian buried his head in his shoulder, his clothes were wet with tears, "You abandon me. Without me, you will find something better... I am nothing, please... …give up."

"Do not--!!!"

Mo Wen gasped for breath, and his voice changed into a hoarse voice: "I said, the promise of the dragon will never be broken! I don't care if you are blind or dumb, and I don't care if you are the emperor! I, Mo Wen Those who are approved will never change in their lifetime!"

"why……"

Li Xian was already weeping uncontrollably.

"God—!" Mo Wen raised his head, "Listen up! I, Mo Wen, will never surrender to you! Unless you tear my tendons, pull out my skin, and shave my bones , throw me into hell and never turn over! Otherwise, as long as I have a breath left, I will never give up, never stop! One day, I will go against you, I will go against the sky——!! "

"boom--!"

Outside the window, thunder and lightning.

The second elder looked at the suddenly changed sky for a long time, and could only let out a long sigh.

"Mo Wen, if you do this... you will be punished by heaven."

"Mo Wen, is it raining..."

Li Xian leaned in Mo Wen's arms, closed his eyes, and Mo Wen gently pinned his messy hair from his forehead to behind his ears, "Well, it's raining. How do you know it's raining?"

"I heard the rain..."

Mo Wen circled him tighter, fearing that he might get cold, so he wrapped the quilt around him, "Is it cold?"

"not cold."

"Then...is your chest still tight?"

"Not boring."

Mo Wen sighed silently, took his right hand and held it in the palm of his hand, and slowly rubbed the base of his fingers, and heard him ask again: "What day is today?"

"The seventh day of October."

Li Xian let out a sigh of relief, and murmured: "It's already October... I've been asleep for so long." He tilted his head and buried it on the side of his neck, "Winter is coming soon."

"Well, winter is coming soon."

"Mo Wen." Li Xian suddenly opened his out-of-focus eyes, and shook his hand instead, "I want to take a bath."

Mo Wen was startled, and then said: "Okay, you wait here, I'll boil the water."

After he left, Li Xian curled himself into a ball, hugged his knees, and stared into the darkness where he couldn't see anything with his eyes wide open.

Darkness is always something that can scare people.

Even in his own palace, he couldn't help shivering with fear.

His breathing became quickened unconsciously, and he clutched the quilt tightly with both hands. The sound of thunder and rain outside reached his ears, startling his heart to beat violently, and he shrank, not daring to move.

But it is fear, the easier it is to bring back bad memories of the past...

Mo asked, why haven't you come back...

The bedroom was empty, he finally couldn't bear it anymore, suddenly remembered someone, couldn't help shouting: "Brother Ghost! Brother Ghost, are you there?!"

——But he forgot that the other party was a ghost, and he couldn't see it himself. Even if he appeared, he would have no way of knowing.

"He's gone, he's not in the palace anymore." Mo Wen finally moved the tub back, filled it with hot water, looked at Li Xian, frowned and said, "Little Xian, what's wrong with you? Why is your face so pale?"

Li Xian's eyes were still wide open. Hearing his voice, his shortness of breath slowly eased.

Mo Wen finally understood what was going on, hurried to his side, held his hand, felt that his fingertips were getting cold, and couldn't help but annoyed, "Are you scared? I'm sorry, I should find someone to accompany you."

Li Xian breathed a sigh of relief and said in a low voice, "I'm fine."

Mo Wen hugged him for a while to calm his emotions, and then said, "Are you still taking a bath?"

"……Um."

"wait for me."

Mo Wen went to set up the screen, and told the eunuch outside the door to close the door so that no one could come in. Then he gently carried Li Xian off the bed. Because he was weak, he had been asleep for several months and just woke up, and he couldn't stand up. Stabilizing his body, he took his arms and helped him take off his clothes.

Li Xian trembled a little, but did not resist.

Mo Wen took off his clean clothes, picked him up horizontally, and tested the temperature of the water in the tub. When he felt it was right, he touched his feet first to the surface of the water and asked him, "Is it hot?"

Li Xian tested the water with his toes and said, "It's not hot."

Only then did Mo Wen slowly put him into the water. Li Xian's whole body was immersed in the hot water, and he trembled slightly, and the water vapor penetrated into his nasal cavity again. Voice.

"not comfortable?"

"No, no." Li Xian quickly explained, and after a while he felt used to it, and asked, "You just said that he left, what happened?"

Mo Wen let go of his hair, scooped up water with a wooden ladle, and slowly poured it on the back of his shoulders and neck, and briefly described to him about the ghost and the snake. After listening, Li Xian was silent for a long time before saying: : "In this way... it can be regarded as a relief."

Mo asked no more questions, abandoned the wooden ladle, and pressed the acupuncture points on his back little by little with his hands. Li Xian closed his eyes, and said again: "Third brother...would you go to court for me?"

"No, I told the ministers that His Majesty was accidentally injured during the expedition and needs to recuperate for a while." He rubbed and washed his whole body, "Don't worry, everything is on me."

"Um……"

Li Xian didn't answer any more, Mo Wen didn't know if he was really tired and didn't want to care about state affairs anymore, and didn't want to know, he just continued to help him bathe, looking at the scars on his body, he couldn't help feeling distressed.

He remembered that when he left, Li Xian's body was very clean, and when he came back two years later, he had turned into this appearance.Even if the person who hurt him is dead, the trace left by the injury can't be erased no matter what.

He glanced at the brand mark on the back of his waist, and didn't dare to touch it with force, but even if he swept over it lightly, he could clearly feel Li Xian's body shaking.He lowered his hand further, but he suddenly grabbed it, and heard his low voice: "Mo Wen! That's enough..."

Mo Wen closed his eyes for a moment, the pain in his heart increased, and he comforted him, "Don't be afraid. Put your arms around my neck, okay?"

Li Xian was silent for a long time, and just when Mo Wen was about to give up, he finally let go of his hand, slowly stretched out his arm, and wrapped it around his neck.

Mo Wen relaxed a little, and regardless of the water on his arms soaking his clothes, he slightly raised his body and gently lifted him up, before trying to put his hand between his crotch.

Li Xian's body trembled even more, his eyes were closed, and his teeth were chattering. It was almost with all his might that he let the other party clean his private place. That place was already so sensitive that even a touch was enough to make him scalp. Numb.

He wasn't actually dirty, Mo Wen would scrub his body every day, but he didn't expect his reaction to be so violent when he woke up and touched him again.Put him down quickly, washed his legs and feet, fished him out of the water, wrapped him in the towel prepared in advance, and put him on the bed.

Li Xian was still shaking, I don't know if it was because of the cold or fear.Mo Wen was so distressed that he quickly dried his hair, and at the same time put the clean clothes in his arms to warm up, then changed him, surrounded him with a quilt, half-kneeled in front of him, shaking gently on his shoulder, calling him: "Xiao Xian?"

Li Xian clenched his hands into fists, and after a while, he slowly let go, and his body relaxed. Seeing that his mood had eased, Mo Wen dared to hold him in his arms, patted his back lightly, and said: " Don't be afraid, Xiao Xian."

"Um……"

Mo Wen just hugged him like this and didn't dare to let go. He felt his breathing calm down a little bit, and when he called him again, there was no response.

fell asleep again.

Maybe I'm tired...

His hair was not completely dry, and he was afraid that he would have a headache if he fell asleep like this, so he didn't let him go, but gently wiped the dripping water from the tip of his hair with a towel, and stayed there until it was completely dry before leaving it on his temples. One kiss and let him lie down.

"Shen Xin!"

He raised his volume and called her softly, Shen Xin came in from outside the house, turned around the screen and walked in front of him: "What's wrong?"

Mo Wen scratched Li Xian's palm, but there was no response. He must be fast asleep, but he was still afraid of waking him up, so he swiped his finger next to his ear and cast a sound-proof spell, before saying to her, "Little Xian Blind."

"...Blindness?" Shen Xin frowned, "How come?"

"I also find it incredible, so I asked you to take a look."

Shen Xin nodded, sat down on the couch, took Li Xian's pulse, checked the acupuncture points around his eyes, and asked, "Is there cloudiness in his eyes?"

"No, I just looked at it specially, it's very clear."

"That's weird...the pulse condition is not abnormal, the acupoints are not blocked, and the eyes have not yet clouded, how could he be blind for no reason?"

Mo Wen frowned: "Even you can't see the way?"

"Don't worry, let me think about it." Shen Xin comforted him, bowed her head in thought for a while, and then said with uncertainty, "When I was studying medicine as a teacher, I heard such a saying, Some people will close their five senses to keep themselves safe after suffering a huge mental trauma, just like a person will go into a coma after being seriously injured or in severe pain, it is a body's self-protection mechanism. If so, Blindness, deafness or aphasia may occur."

"There is no abnormality in His Majesty's body now, I can only conclude that it is due to this situation."

Mo Wen pursed his lips and said, "Maybe heal?"

Shen Xin shook his head, "I'm afraid it's very difficult. To put it bluntly, this disease is a heart disease. He doesn't want to see it, because he has a huge fear of the outside world, so he closes himself, and it can't be regarded as a real disease. Taking medicine or acupuncture... I'm afraid It doesn't work."

"How about that?!"

She pondered for a while, "I can only rely on you."

"……I?"

"If you can get him to eliminate his fear of the outside world and get out of the shadows, maybe you can let him see the light again."

Mo Wen fell silent.

Shen Xin sighed helplessly: "Unexpectedly, I have studied medicine for more than ten years, and I have treated countless difficult and miscellaneous diseases. This time, I was stumped twice by the same person." She chuckled, "It seems that Your Majesty is really the nemesis of medicine .”

Mo Wen didn't understand her jokes, and kept looking at Li Xian's sleeping face without saying a word.

Why...why do you torture yourself like this?

Li Xian...