I said if

"I Say, If" Author: Curly Curly

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Qin Tian, ​​female, a senior graduate.On the last day of college graduation, I suddenly returned to my sophomore year.In the reality she had to accept, she worked hard to change her own history, and history was also changing her.

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Search keywords: Protagonist: Qin Tian┃Supporting role: Ruguo┃Others: Qin Lezheng Shen Meng

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☆, wake up like a dream

2016.6.20

"Clatter, clatter..." The sound of suitcases rubbing against the ground kept coming from the corridor of the dormitory.The fans above their heads have finally applied for the four-year super-long vacation.The empty four-person room actually aroused a trace of sadness in me.So, I decided to dedicate the last night before my graduation to the dormitory that has been with me for four years.

The dormitory in the middle of the night is much quieter than before.

"Biubiubiu slacker, wake up. Slacker, get up. biubiubiu slacker, get up. Slacker, get up..." Frown, turn over, raise your hand, and pat down, just like a master who has practiced Tai Chi for decades , My set of smooth alarm clock movements is almost perfect.With my eyes closed and still immersed in my sleep, I applaud myself in my heart.

In the blur, I seemed to hear my mother's voice: "Qin Tian, ​​get up soon! I'll give you 30 seconds, otherwise my son will eat the egg fried rice!" He sat up, but his eyelids were still hopelessly closed.No, I was almost cheated, this dream was too realistic.Lie down and go to sleep. "Da da da, da da da" sounded like a dog's paws walking on the wooden floor...Suddenly, someone took the quilt away. , Is my Xiaotian stupid?"! ! !I opened my eyes suddenly!It's my mother!It's my mother!Why is she in my dormitory!Why is the dog sitting on the ground in my dormitory!Why are there posters of Conan and Jaylen on the ceiling!Why is the floor wooden!How did that childish Mickey Mouse alarm clock that was still used in high school end up on my bedside!Why is the aroma of egg fried rice filling the room!

My mother touched my head with her hand, stared at my round and puzzled little eyes and said, "Isn't it burning? Why are you so stupid?"

"Gululu, Gulugulu..." I was hungry.

The adult mother smiled helplessly: "It seems that you are not stupid, you know you are hungry. Get up and eat, you will be late for school."

As soon as I heard the word eat, I couldn't care less.

There are two bowls on the small floral tablecloth, one big and one small.That's right, that washbasin-like sea bowl is mine, and it belongs to me when I was in high school.Under the table, the golden retriever wagged its tail, stuck out its tongue vigorously, and kicked its dog bowl to the kitchen door, drooling all over the floor.This is indeed my home, and that person is indeed my dear mother. "Dog." I barked at the golden retriever, its eyes focused on fried rice with eggs, looked at me reluctantly, and barked at me strangely.That's right, this gluttonous golden retriever named "Dog" is indeed the dog who loathes me and loves me at the same time.But it wasn't last month...?

last month?What month is it today?I look at the electronic calendar at home. On September 2011, 9, several large characters appeared in front of my eyes.

"Why is your mouth so wide open? Do you still want me to feed you?" Mom's words interrupted my bewilderment.

"Mom, what year is this year? Did you get into my dream?" I pinched my mother's arm, and then pinched my arm, as if it hurt.

My mother looked at me with a look of "I don't understand you humans", and then looked at the calendar: "Isn't my daughter usually very smart? Why is she so stupid today? Did you kowtow in bed last night?"

"Hey, I'm joking" I perfunctory my mother.The development of things seems to be a bit out of the ordinary.I suspect that I went back to the past. In 11 years, I was only in the second year of high school this year. OMG, sophomore?Wouldn't that mean going through the college entrance examination again? O!M!G! I don’t want it, I don’t want it... For a scumbag, it’s her shit luck to perform exceptionally once in the college entrance examination room, but this kind of luck will never happen again the second time!Oh my god...why, why did you do this to me!No, no, maybe this is just a dream, and it will be fine when I sleep again at night.Well, that must be the case.Even if I go back to the past, let me go back to the ancient times. It's fine to be a concubine and flirt with girls by the way.Forget it, let's eat first.

After finishing my favorite egg fried rice, yes, I finished eating that sea basin.When I came to the bedroom and stood in front of the mirror, I was stunned! Height of 1.72, slender long legs, small waist, oval face, double eyelids, and long black hair. "Wow" I couldn't help shouting out, is this me?I was so beautiful six years ago!It's so beautiful!I can't believe it.However, when I looked down at the endless "Northeast Plain" in front of me, I still believed that this girl was me.

Alas, let's go to school first, and occasionally experience your past life, which is also a good choice.

☆, that year's college entrance examination

Name: Qin Tian

Gender: Female

Hobbies: female

Specialties: In addition to the long legs that have nowhere to put them, does playing and singing the guitar just for teasing girls count?

I once asked my mother, such a beautiful woman like a flower and jade, why I gave a boy's name.My mother said that when I was pregnant with me, my father hired a fortune teller and told me that I was a boy.Oh, that fortune-telling is quite accurate.Except for me that day in the hospital, all boys were born seconds after me.Therefore, my mother often said that my personality is a bit like a boy, and there is a reason for that.

Of course, if I had been born a few seconds later, a boy, my dad wouldn't have disappeared the day I was born.Ever since I found out about this, I have always felt that I drove that man away, and I have always felt sorry for my mother.So, no matter what I am outside, I will be a good baby who listens to my mother at home.

Although my mother never told me, Xiaotian, you have to study hard.But I know that she really hopes that I will study hard in school so that I can enter a good university and find a good job in the future.However, I just can't fall in love with studying, I like playing.Every week before the final exam, I would borrow the notes of the top students to make a surprise attack, and then I was able to get a passable score every time.So I dubbed myself Lucky Dog God (luckydog: Lucky. This is the fate of not learning English well).This kind of cleverness was fine in elementary school and junior high school, but since entering high school, my grades have plummeted.Every time I need to take home the grade ranking for parents to sign, I sign it myself.I was afraid to see my mother's disappointed expression.I found out later that she knows my grades every time by heart.But this kind of fear can't bring back my playful heart.The League of Legends reached the strongest king, but the score slipped to zero.

I will never forget the month before the college entrance examination.That night, I tossed and turned and couldn't sleep.I don't know what time it was in the morning, but I suddenly heard sobbing from my mother's room... I walked gently to the door, and it was my mother who was crying.Holding the photo of the man, she sobbed, "Old Qin, I don't hate you, I hate myself. I didn't take good care of Xiaotian and make her a talent. But no matter what, I want her to be happy forever... ..." I couldn't take it anymore.I clearly know how difficult it is for my mother to take care of me alone, but I just don't live up to it, damn it.I understand so many reasons, why not do it, why?Over the years, I have never seen my mother cry. Even when she told me how the man turned and left, she just smiled helplessly.It turned out that it was not my father who broke my mother's heart, but me.

In the last month, I didn't go to school, bought all the materials in the bookstore, and wrote desperately.If you are sleepy, you can have a cup of coffee, or you can lie down on the table and sleep for a while.My mother thought I was crazy, confiscated all my pens and ordered me to go to sleep.I took my mother's hand, sat down, touched her head and said, "Mom, I'm not crazy, there's only one month left, I want to try, I want to work hard" for you, "OK?" I didn't Tell her those two words.Mother nodded, the tears welling up in her eyes did not fall after all.

On the day the results came down, not only my mother and I, but the whole school were stunned.I, Qin Tian, ​​actually passed one of the exams.You must know that my title of "Lucky Dog God" is not for nothing!Of course, there is always a price to pay for doing such an honorable thing.Due to the high-intensity overdrawn physical strength for one month in a row, I was ill for two whole months. I either had a fever or a cold or suffered from vomiting and diarrhea. It seemed that I had lost ten years of life.Every time I see me who is no longer alive and kicking, my mother will always say, "If I knew it earlier, I wouldn't let you learn it. Look at me now, how can I get angry at me when I am sick." "Silly x...no Silly, it’s good that no one makes you angry. And I heard some people showing off to the neighbors every day, saying that our Qin Tian passed the exam. If I didn’t study at the beginning, what would I use to satisfy my mother? What about the vanity of adults?" Mother nodded my little nose, "You are the only one who is poor."

☆, new semester

"Pay attention to safety", my mother handed me the bicycle key.

Holding the car key with the hellokitty doll still attached, I was in a daze again.I haven't ridden a bicycle for four years, will I still ride it?Why can this pendant be so inferior and ugly?And where did I go to high school, how to get there? ... There was a buzzing sound in my head, and my eyes went blank.This pure white world is probably the world after amnesia, with a slight fragrance of green grass, and the whole body seems to be immersed in softness.

"What are you smirking at, why don't you leave quickly, do you want to be late on the first day of school?" My mother pretended to blame.

"Mom, on the first day of school, can you send me off?" I took my mother's arm and acted like a baby.

"How old are you, and let your old mother send you to school? Don't be ashamed." Although my mother frowned and tapped my forehead with her hands, the corners of her mouth slightly raised gave her away.

"Xiaoyou, Mom, I knew you were the best, and I can't go to school without you on the first day." In fact, I don't know where to go to school at all.

I always feel that there is something wrong with the rules of this dream, what the hell is intermittent amnesia?What the hell am I being so hypocritical?Also "other people" A little girl's family still said "other people", my God, just thinking about it makes me get goosebumps all over my body.

In the end, my mother sent me to the school gate.

"It's better for my mother, see you later, be careful on the road~"

"I know the glib tongue", my mother gave me a look, and smiled helplessly.

Standing in front of the school gate, I looked up at "A City No. [-] Senior High School——Guo Moruo".A familiar feeling came over me...

"What's there to appreciate, I'm going to be late." Someone suddenly patted me on the shoulder, and I yelled "ah".

Turning around to see "Shen Meng?" I blurted out.

"If you don't see me for two days, you won't know me? You can."

"I know, I know, of course I know." Shen Meng, of course I know.My good buddy is also a male god, with good looks, good figure, cute and cute, and flowers bloom when they see each other.Except for the name that doesn't match his gender, it can be said to be perfect.Why do you say he is my male god, because I will destroy his slender legs sooner or later!destroy!

I was pulled into the class by Shen Meng like a chicken, and pushed into the last row of seats.We turned out to be at the same table, and there were only two of us in the last row, huh, huh, huh.It turns out that my high school life was so colorful.

"Milk", student Shen handed it to me without turning his head.Just as I was looking at whether it was pure milk or yogurt, I suddenly felt countless unknown and malicious eyes.I slowly raised my head, and sure enough, the girls in the front row and some boys were all staring at me. At this moment, the air seemed to be sucked away, and I forgot to breathe.Shen Meng took my milk, inserted the straw and put it in my hand.Only then did I come back to my senses. "Hey!" He raised his milk to the sharp eyes in the front row with a half-smile, "pure".

Embarrassment spread across my face and heart, I chose to forget about such a silly behavior just now.

"Qin Tian, ​​what's wrong with you today, do you have a fever, and your face is so hot?" Shen Meng held my face in both hands, looked at me seriously and caringly, and my face turned even redder.

"Don't you know whether a man and a woman will kiss or not? Take your hands away quickly." I turned around in repulsion, avoiding his eyes.There is no heartbeat, just want to avoid the embarrassment of being speechless when the next four eyes meet.

Shen Meng spread out both hands, "excuseme" all over her face. "Who promised to be my girlfriend yesterday? Are you going back on it now?"

"I want to be quiet" yesterday?girlfriend?punish? excuseme?How do I know what I did yesterday.joke!

Finally, the class bell saved me.The chemistry teacher cleared his throat and began his high-spirited speech.

I tried hard to recall the relationship between myself and Shen Meng.In my memory, he is obviously my good buddy. Could it be that I used to like "men"?

"When you pass the college entrance examination and go to university, you will be free, and you can do whatever you want. But now," the teacher suddenly raised his voice, which made me tremble. "You have to listen to me carefully!"

Liar, you will be free after you go to college, just change to a bigger cage.University?Yes, I was a freshman and Shen Meng broke up peacefully, and we are still good buddies afterwards.So, have I been talking to my fellow men for three years from now?Or with my best friend?Why does my life seem a little bloody.Even though it's just a dream, I'm going to fix it!I can't be sorry to my good friend, let alone myself.

After school, I dragged Shen Meng to the bench in the playground.

"Shen Meng, shall we continue to be buddies?"

He stared at me silently for a long time, and he didn't know whether it was sadness, surprise, calmness, or what he had expected in his eyes. "I want a reason."

"I like women." I told him bluntly.

"Then continue to be buddies, let's go and take you home." He didn't seem surprised at all.

As soon as I entered the house, my mother began to gossip: "It was the cute and handsome guy who brought it back to our Xiaotian. This guy is really nice, when will he bring him home and treat him to dinner?"

I gave my mother a naive face, and wrote four large characters "Don't mention him" on her face.

In the evening, I lay down early, and my body was extremely tired.Close your eyes, I want to say goodbye to this beautiful dream, and I still feel a little bit reluctant...

It was late at night, and the dog was breathing evenly by my hanging hand. I was relieved, and I also fell asleep.

Tomorrow, everything will be back to normal.

☆、Qin Lezheng

The sound of "biubiubiu slackers get up, slackers get up" successfully woke me up from my dream, and I quickly sat up from the bed like a corpse.Lao Jin (I prefer to call him Lao Jin compared to the name of a dog) even screamed in fright at my sudden fraudulent corpse. . .That's good, my mother thought something happened, and rushed into my room with her spatula desperately.

When she saw that there were still poops hanging from our sleepy eyes, she let out a sigh of relief, "Xiao Tian, ​​are you bullying my son again?"

Before I came, I was anxious to think whether the scene in front of me was real or not, but I was so choked by my mother's words that I wanted to spit out a mouthful of old blood.

"My lord mother, if you say that, you are biased. I am your own. Even if something happens, shouldn't you care about my injured little heart first." I put on a shy expression.

But my mother didn't even look at me, she just squatted down, touched Lao Jin's head and said, "My little boy, don't be afraid, don't be afraid, mom protects you, so sister doesn't dare to bully you."

Friends are exhausted.I want to be friends with you two! ! !

During breakfast, I finally realized the important problem.Yes, everything in front of me looks so real, Lao Jin is soft and hot, mother is warm and fragrant, and the arm that was pinched with all my strength is also burning and hurting.So, if it's not a dream that I can't wake up from, it means that I really went back in time, back to my high school days?

My subconscious seems to have accepted this point of view a long time ago. There is no surprise or anxiety, but excitement and curiosity.When I start over again, what kind of change will happen to my destiny?The unknown always has a kind of magical power that makes people excited.

"Give mother a kneel, Xiaomin has gone to school."

"be careful."

The school gate, desks, classrooms, and the bottle of milk just opened, everything became familiar, and some fragments flashed in my mind, as if those playful memories finally reminded me of going home.

"Morning." Mengmeng looked more cordial.

"Did you wake up?" He was frightened by my sunny smile.

Before we could continue to say anything, a sweet aroma came from behind, followed by an unexpected hug on the back.I reflexively tried to break free, but it didn't work.

"Honey, miss me?" Breathing, the words slipped into my right ear.

"I want to, I really want to." In order to get rid of this inexplicable closeness, I perfunctory.

Sure enough, the other party let go of his hand.

I turned around and saw a girl about my height.Wearing a very nice ponytail, very delicate.In comparison, I am still more beautiful (uh ha ha ha).It dawned on me.Qin Lezheng.Although it has the same surname as mine, it is an indistinguishable relative.She is excellent in all aspects and takes good care of me. She is a person who has the potential to become my goddess.By the way, Lezheng was finally admitted to L University, the number one university in the country!With this in mind, now I want to have a good relationship with her. (It turns out that I am such a utilitarian woman)

Speaking of our relationship... it should be fine.Fragmentary memories always make people feel a little uneasy, as if something more important has been missed.

Qin Lezheng, how ugly this name is.It is said that because Lao Qin's parents were so busy that they didn't even have time to name them, they simply combined their surnames together and came up with the word Qin Lezheng.I was thinking, it would be great if Lao Qin's mother's surname was Cai instead of the rare Lezheng.

Thinking of this, I unconsciously smiled treacherously.When Lao Qin mentioned my ears, there was a series of noises.I raised my hands wisely and said sorry repeatedly.

Although it is my favorite physics class, I didn't listen to a word the teacher said.The slightly different feeling towards Qin Lezheng from the bottom of my heart makes me a little uneasy.

"Mom, we're back." Lao Qin's parents are not at home all year round. She lives with her grandma and often comes to my house, so she calls mom more affectionately than I do.

"Hey, my little Le is coming back. Come on, come on, mom will make you braised pork." My mother held Lao Qin in her arms like this, stroking her head and pulling her in a soft voice. homely.

"Humph" I gave them both a big roll of my eyes, and entered the bedroom.Not jealous, not jealous at all, not jealous at all!

Master Mushang squeezed Lao Qin's meat hard, and ignored my resentful little eyes.Even the old golden bowl has more meat than mine!snort!

In this way, the dinner ended in the laughter of the two of them.Lao Qin didn't leave tonight, he occupied half of my bed, my soft bed!

It was late at night, and the familiar fragrance woke me up from the restless dream.I don't know when Lao Qin and I have interlocked our fingers.The moonlight slipped in through the gaps in the window and illuminated her beautifully.Thick lips, high nose bridge, long eyelashes.It completely meets my criteria for choosing a concubine, hahahahahaha.

However, it is in this familiar scene that memories will come quietly.

☆, the first ever: Qin Lezheng

That year, the college entrance examination ended.Shen Meng and I were admitted to the same university, and Lao Qin was in L University in the same city as us.

After enrolling for about a month, she failed to contact Lao Qin, and Shen Meng said that she had gone abroad again.

Later, at noon on a Saturday, I was awakened by a hasty knock on the door, and reluctantly went to open the door.

"Old Qin?" Lezheng, who hadn't seen him for a long time, seemed to be more mature.I hugged her tightly, and the emotion of missing surged up.

She touched my head, put her hands on my shoulders, looked at me tenderly, with a slight smile on her lips.I was so innocent and innocent that I didn't see another layer of meaning in that smile.

In the afternoon, we had lunch together, and she drove me to her house.Yes, her family, Lao Qin's father specially bought her a small high-rise next to the school.

For me at that time, the 20th floor was very tall, with large floor-to-ceiling windows, and a panoramic view of the city.The style of home decoration is a touch of warm colors.This is exactly what I imagine my future home will look like.

Lao Qin has been busy in the kitchen. I wanted to help, but fell asleep lying on the bed, and slept until dark.

At about nine o'clock, Lao Qin asked me to get up and have dinner.Seeing a table of exquisite meals, my stomach growled again.Lao Qin smiled, very similar to my mother's smile to me that day, but with something more.

Now that I think about it, Lao Qin has been watching me for dinner that night.But I only know what to eat but I don't care.

Lao Qin hardly ate anything, only drank some wine.She knew that I poured it from a bottle, but she still persuaded me to drink a small glass.Apart from dizziness, there is nothing else, it is Lao Qin anyway.

In order to express my gratitude, I took the initiative to wash the dishes after the meal.Put on those obnoxious pink gloves and turn on the tap.The moment I picked up the first bowl, Qin Yue hugged me from behind.I was startled, and took a step back, just stepping on her foot, and she hugged her even tighter.I was stunned, I didn't know what happened, and I didn't know what to do. I just stood there stupidly.The only thing left in my mind was the buzzing echo of that glass of wine.

There was a warm and moist touch on the neck, and with deeper and deeper breathing, he slowly approached the right ear.

"...Old...Qin, you, don't...ah..." She bit my ear lightly, her soft tongue wandering between the pinnae , the body unconsciously trembled following the rapid breathing close to the ear, and a warm current in the lower abdomen slowly fainted and spread to the whole body.It was this unbearable sound that seemed to open the door that Lezheng had been holding back for a long time.She turned me, who was at a loss, and kissed me hard.That warm tongue was no longer gentle, it pushed my teeth straight to the deepest part of the root of my tongue, and it turned upside down in my mouth, as if it wanted to eat me...

I'm stupid, I'm really stupid.Standing there helpless.Tears flowed out unconsciously and couldn't stop.The lunatic Qin Lezheng stopped suddenly. She looked up at my red and swollen eyes and was stunned.There is anxiety in the eyes, it is sorry, it is worry, it is... more to say.She can only wipe my tears for me, over and over again.But tears are like a broken dam, flowing continuously, unstoppable flow.Lezheng's cuffs have been drenched with my tears, and her eyes are full of distress.She wanted to kiss my face, but she hesitated.In the end, her sanity did not prevail.The soft lips left a cool warmth on the forehead, on the tip of the nose, and on the cheeks.The uvula in the two lips greedily stroked and sucked the tears she shed.

My blank mind finally had a little awareness, but I seemed to have completely forgotten what happened just now.I subconsciously pushed her away and rushed out the door.

With tears still hanging from the corners of his eyes, he ran forward without direction, running with all his strength.I don't know how many red lights I ran, and I don't know how many times I was scolded for walking without eyes.

Finally, she found me and grabbed me.

"I'm sorry. I... shouldn't have done this. I'm sorry."

I didn't say anything, I didn't do anything, I didn't know what to say, I didn't know what to do.Blank spaces in the mind become lingering imprints.

She pulled me back home, put me on the bed where I slept in the afternoon, and went to the sofa by herself.

After turning off the lights, everything around became quiet, but the voice of Qin Le drinking in the living room became clearer.

I just want to sort out this sudden feeling in this clumsy brain.But I can't remember any details at all, and the only conclusion I can get is that she kissed me.

The unstoppable tears did not stop after all.But I don't know why the tears flow. I don't feel a trace of sadness or excitement in my heart.

Qin Lezheng drank too much and vomited.Although she deliberately lowered her voice, I heard it.

I got out of bed, opened the door, and saw Lao Qin curled up in the corner, feeling sore.

That proud Qin Lezheng, because of me, fell to the bottom where he would never recover.

Blame me.

I can't bear it.Stepped forward and hugged her.

"I like you. The day I transferred from junior high school, I knew that I liked you." She hugged me tightly, "But, even now, I don't know if you can accept me. Every time I see you refuse Boys chasing you one after another, my heart will dance over and over again, but every time I try my words and actions, I can't get your response." She let go and looked directly at me "I love you ".

I have heard these three words countless times, and I have read the love letter countless times, but none of them made me more nervous than what came out of Qin Lezheng's mouth.But I know that this tension is not love.

"Let's be together, okay?" Her tone was filled with unprecedented unconfidence. "Six years, Xiaotian, I thought that everything would fade away as time goes by. But I was wrong. The feelings that have accumulated little by little in the past six years have become stronger and stronger, so strong that I can no longer control myself. Do something." She was trembling, her eyes were so sincere, I have never seen such Lezheng.

I couldn't help but want to promise her.I'm often said that my heart is too soft, yes, I just can't resist other people's truth to me, especially Qin Lezheng, the person closest to me.

At this time, everything about her appeared in my mind.Her hugs, her help, her care, her attention, all her secrets were exposed by those gray eyes, but I didn't care.

I don't want my best friend to get hurt, much less because of me.

Slowly, I calmed down.I have feelings for her, but I'm sure it's not love.But I am willing to try to love her, because she is my most important Lezheng.

"it is good."

Her eyes widened, she couldn't believe what she heard.

"But, you have to know, I am to you..." She stopped my next words with her lips.

"I know." She looked at me, with ripples in her eyes and a faint smile on the corner of her mouth.

Lezheng kissed me again, and I cooperated clumsily.

She kissed my lips, and the tip of her tongue that still had alcohol wandered over every piece of land on my lips.I consciously opened the guard in front of my tongue, and her tongue was like a curious explorer, exploring deeper.Tongue-to-tongue lingering, lip-to-lip solace.I'm a little confused.

I held Lezheng's hand tightly and followed her to the room just now.

Lezheng protects my head with his hands and gently lays me down on the bed.She looked at me with unspeakable tenderness and longing in her eyes.

Her hand slid across my brow, slid across my cheek, lingered between my lips.I gently bit Lezheng's index finger, and touched it gently with the tip of my tongue.Heartbeat is accelerating, breathing is accelerating.I sucked her hand deeper, like a breastfed baby, greedy, greedy.

Lezheng swallowed, as if all the confinement had been lifted.

She couldn't take it any longer, like a sleepy little beast, desperately tore open my shirt, ripped off my jeans...

I trembled under her lips again and again, as if the sensitive points of my body had been marked in advance, they were discovered over and over again.I don't want to hear such a confused cry from myself, but I can't control it one after another...

"...Le, Lezheng...it hurts..." I couldn't tell whether it was pain, excitement, or the pleasure of being touched.

"...Ah..." Every sound was like a shot in the arm, making her, a beast, even more excited.

......

My throat finally couldn't say anything.

The sky is also bright.

The author has something to say: I am so entangled, this is my first post.I can’t write about things below the neck... But I feel that the work is incomplete if I don’t write... I am entangled...

☆, Qin, Shen, Qin

"biubiubiu slackers get up, slackers get up. Biubiubiu slackers get up, slackers get up..." It's this disturbing alarm clock again.

Lezheng turned off the alarm clock, looked at me, and touched my forehead.

"Little fool, didn't you sleep well last night? The dark circles under your eyes are so heavy?"

"You take up more than half of my bed, can you sleep well." I pretended to be angry.Spending all night with you, judging myself all night, can I sleep well?

About my bad relationship history, I think about it all.

After that night, I was with her.I still don't know what kind of feeling I have for her, but after a long time, being together has become a habit.Thinking about it now, the self at that time should be a kind of admiration for her, a kind of yearning, eager to become an excellent person like her.A wealthy family, extraordinary intelligence, refined temperament, and a father who loves her.

There have been many people who have liked me since childhood, but I have never promised anyone to be his girlfriend.Slowly those boys who chased me became my good buddies.I hate being cautious among girls, and I like the ease of making friends with boys, so I hardly play with girls, Lao Qin is an exception.

Qin Lezheng.I gave you my first night.

In this way, we passed three years.

She takes good care of me and can clearly feel that she really likes me.I decided to let myself try to love her so as not to disappoint her.

I was so innocent, I actually thought that this kind of love was feasible.

Deep in my heart, I have always regarded her as my own sister. Her care and concern made me feel extremely happy. I thought this was love.But whenever Lezheng kisses me, touches me, and has sex with me, there will always be a trace of grudge in my heart.Only I never told her.However, she knew all of this.

Then, suddenly one day, Lezheng asked me if I wanted to have another normal relationship with a boy.She said, if you're straight, I'll let you go.

Ever since I got together with Lezheng, I seem to have lost the ability to think independently and listen to her in everything.So, this boyfriend plan, I'm not protesting.

Later, I found out that Shen Meng and Le Zheng had a big fight.Shen Meng said that Lezheng killed my happiness and my choice.Therefore, Le Zheng decided to give Shen Meng a chance, give me a chance, and give herself a chance.

He asked me if I would like to try again with him, just for a month.Of course, with my male god, who wouldn't.Shen Meng is a very considerate person. During the three years of dating with him, he never forced me to do anything.He knows I don't want to.In fact, whether we try it or not, we all know the result.The reason why I agreed was that I just wanted to give myself a reason to escape from Lezheng and change my living space.

The days of dating a male god can be summed up in four words - envious of others.

Holding the male god's little hand, holding the male god's arm, leaning on the male god's shoulder, watching movies with the male god, having dinner with the male god, and going to school with the male god