things i don't know

"Everyone made me forget you."

In the wind and snow, Lu Man sat in front of You Xinnian's tomb, just like countless scenes yesterday when they had a long talk face to face.

"Everyone made me forget you." Lu Man said, "They all said that people always have to look forward, and you can't live in memories forever. Xiao Nian is gone, we all know you are very sad, but you need to find Go back to yourself and start again, so that Xiao Nian can leave with peace of mind.

They know I'm sad?do they knowThey don't actually know.Those who have not experienced it will never understand. "

You Xinnian's tears fell silently along with Lu Man's words at some point. She sat in front of the tombstone, as if she was face to face with Lu Man.

Lu Man took out a diamond ring from his pocket, stared at the ring with red and swollen eyes, and said to himself: "Do you remember this ring? It is the same as the one I gave you when I proposed to you on your 24th birthday more than five years ago." It is exactly the same. I bought three identical rings, you accepted plan B, and this one is plan C. How much do you think I know you? I knew that you might not listen to me at all and just follow your own heart Think about it, and it turns out to be true.”

As if thinking of something particularly beautiful, Lu Man laughed through tears.

"I don't know if you are angry with me, but I didn't wear it in the end, and... I never had a chance to wear it again." Lu Man put the diamond ring on the tombstone, "But it belongs to you and will always be yours." .”

The snow kept falling on the tombstone, and soon buried the ring.Lu Man lowered his head, his shoulders trembled slightly, and sobbed softly.

"I have never felt that you have left me. I can hear your voice when I walk through a familiar place, and I can see your smile when I stay in a familiar room. You are waiting for me at the next intersection, everything about you Still by my side, it's just that I didn't do well enough to make you angry, and you don't want to see me.

I keep all your things.The cups you put in my house, your key case, your clothes, your perfume... I know you don't like messy things the most, and I keep them well, waiting for you to come back and praise me. "

Lu Man wanted to laugh, but before the smile spread, she couldn't help but burst into tears:

"I thought... I would never have the courage to come to your cemetery in my life, I thought I would never have the courage to face the fact that you have left me in my life. The murderer has not been caught yet, so what face do I have to come to see you?" You? But I'm still here.

It's been more than five years, and it's the first time I've come to see you. Do you blame me for making you lonely for so long? "

The heavy snow passed through You Xinnian's body one after another, and she couldn't help sobbing.

"It was our joint birthday that day, and it was also our tenth year together. I always remember that the weather was beautiful that day. From the first moment I woke up in the morning and opened the curtains, the sun was shining, the sky was blue and white clouds, I knew it was a proposal Good day, I also know that you will agree to my marriage proposal.

"You and I are very thoughtful people. Even if we are blood relatives, even if we are the same sex, we don't think our love is special. We don't care about other people's eyes, we don't care about other people's gossip. What kind of blessings do you want for your love, what kind of testimony do you want. Our sincere love for each other is the best contract. But I understand you, you always feel that someone is watching, and you always feel that there is no label for what belongs to you. So I bought it Ring, date the person you care about, and propose to you under the witness of all your friends.

"I want to cut off all your worries, I want to spend my whole life giving you peace of mind, taking care of you and caring for you, and I want to enjoy your unsparing love, so I can spend the rest of my life with you and go to the end of life together.

"I used to think that this was my life, and my life was filled with your name. But..."

Lu Man wiped away tears: "But, no one can predict how life will change. How could I have thought that you would never appear at the next intersection again."

Early summer 2011, June 6th.

You Xinnian ended the birthday party early and told Lu Man that he was going home.

"Are you going back?"

You Xinnian was also a little embarrassed: "I promised to go back to celebrate my birthday with my family today, and I will go to the fencing gym tomorrow morning."

Lu Man was very disappointed, the ring had already been given away, and You Xinnian also took it away, but she didn't see it on, and she was about to withdraw it before the birthday party officially started... Hey, what kind of temper is this young lady playing again.But since she has already decided to respect her, after all, Xiao Nian is a filial child, and Lu Man appreciates her very much.

Lu Man lowered his shoulders: "Okay, you've already made up your mind, so go back."

Seeing that Lu Man seemed a little unhappy, You Xinnian pinched her face and said, "Are you angry silently? Are you unhappy silently? Didn't we spend together every year in the past? My mother was just discharged from the hospital last month and I want to spend more time with her." .She has spoken."

"Understood. You go back." Lu Man had no choice but to make a "please" gesture.

You Xinnian walked in the direction of the car, turning around every step of the way.

Lu Man waved goodbye to her, with his other hand in his pocket, he kept fiddling with her planC.

Lu Man got into the car and was about to go back to have an early rest, when suddenly Jiang Zhengqing walked over.

"Hey, congratulations, the marriage proposal was successful." Jiang Zhengqing didn't fail to see why Lu Man called her here today, and said wittily, "In this case, I can't do without giving up on you. Lu Man, you As for being so cruel?"

From Lu Man's standpoint, it's not appropriate to say anything, she shrugged and pretended to be innocent.

"Do you mind if I get in the car and chat for a while? Just the last few words." Jiang Zhengqing sighed, "I've liked you for so many years, so I'll say a few words from the bottom of my heart before I'm sentenced to death. I'll tell you as soon as the sun rises tomorrow. You forget. Anyway, you will never like me in this life. "

Lu Man opened the door for her: "These few sentences are really cruel."

Jiang Zhengqing sat in her car, was silent for a moment and then smiled: "I still wanted to play sensational, but I didn't know what to say when I got in the car. In fact, it would be the best thing for me to give up on you, right?" I'm also relieved."

Lu Man leaned on the steering wheel and looked ahead.

"Let's reconcile." Jiang Zhengqing said, "Actually, I don't hate You Xinnian either. She is better than me. No matter how hard I try, I can't catch up with her. I am convinced."

Jiang Zhengqing said to Lu Man: "I wish you happiness. Tell her for me."

"Yes." Lu Man finally said.

Jiang Zhengqing left, Lu Man got off the car, and stayed at the pier, enjoying the sea breeze.

Guessing it was time, Miss You couldn't help but send her a message. When she got back to the car to get her phone, she found that the battery was dead.There are many people and things tonight, and I don't know when the electricity will be out.

Lu Man drove home and charged her phone first, took a shower and came out to see that You Xinian had indeed sent her a WeChat message.

"Did you like the gift I gave you?"

Lu Man replied: "Of course I like it, but next time, don't eat badly just to give me a gift."

After replying on WeChat, Lu Man went to blow dry his hair. While doing it, he kept looking at his phone, but You Xinnian didn't reply.

Probably I was celebrating my birthday with my family, but I didn't see the message.Lu Man thought again, probably not, Xiao Nian was used to keeping her phone in her pocket, so she was slow to reply to others, but she was very quick to reply.I haven't replied for so long, I'm not angry.

After all, You Xinnian didn't understand what happened to Jiang Zhengqing today, and was so angry that he threw away his ring.He is really a child, and his mind will not turn when his temper comes up.

Lu Man went out again without even drying her hair. When she got downstairs, her mother asked her, "Going out so late?"

"Yes." Lu Man replied casually.

"Where are you going? Looking for Xiao Nian again?"

Lu Man ignored it.

Bai Wen murmured loudly: "You children, one or two are not young anymore, and you still play childish temper. It's just that the relationship is too noisy, why are you asking for marriage..."

Lu Man immediately stopped and looked back at her mother, but Bai Wen did the same thing: "Okay, okay...forget my talk. Go early and come back early."

Lu Man drove to You's house, and Jiang Zhengqing, who had been secretly in a daze downstairs at Lu Man's house, suddenly saw her come out, his eyes lit up.

What is she doing so late?

Yes, it must be to find You Xinnian, the proposal just now is of course like glue.

Jiang Zhengqing slapped herself hard on the face, screaming as she slapped.She didn't stop until the pain was unbearable, and followed silently.

You rush to find your happiness at night!Just let me be stupid again one last time, even if I look at your back.

I thought this road would be smooth, and I would return in about half an hour.After all, it was already late, no matter how lively G City was, everyone still had to sleep.Unexpectedly, there was a traffic jam unexpectedly.Lu Man sent a few more WeChat messages to You Xinnian in the car, but still did not receive a reply.

A feeling of uneasiness slowly crept into her heart.

The road finally cleared. Lu Man passed by a car that had been smashed into scrap metal. The traffic police were busy investigating the scene. When Lu Man was about to look away, he accidentally caught a glimpse of a large pool of blood.

Not being able to contact You Xinnian for a long time made Lu Man even more disturbed and couldn't help speeding up the car.

When I came to Junyue Emperor Scenery, everything was silent.

Lu Man lowered the car window, and the guard let her in after glancing at the license plate.

Lu Man parked the car in front of You's house, got out of the car and rang the doorbell.After pressing several times in a row, no one came to open the door for her.

Strange, did the whole family go out?

Lu Man walked aside and looked in from a distance through the crack in the wall. The lights were bright inside, so he should be at home.

She came out in a hurry, and she forgot to bring the key that You Xinnian gave her, so she had to keep ringing the doorbell.

Pressing and pressing, suddenly smelled a strange smell.Lu Man frowned, what kind of smell is this?It seemed to float out of Youjia.Lu Man took a few steps back, and immediately saw a puff of smoke drifting from the direction of Youjia's master bedroom into the night sky.

It's on fire? !

Lu Man froze on the spot, the flames were raging, and in a blink of an eye, half of the night sky was already dyed red.

Unexpectedly, there would be a fire, Lu Man's heart tightened, she rang the doorbell vigorously and knocked on the door, but still no one came to open the door for her.

She immediately called the fire alarm, and after the call, she wanted to call the property security for help, but the entire Junyue Dijing was so big, it would take her three to five minutes to drive out, and it would be too late to turn back and think of a way!

Lu Man made a decisive decision and prepared to climb over the wall!

The wall of Youjia is very high, and there is an anti-theft layer on the top of the wall.Lu Man has practiced all year round, and he is very confident in his skills.And in desperation, unexpected strength burst out, and he clasped the outer eaves decoration on the wall with a single leap.She once played rock climbing for a while, although she was not professional, she did increase her arm strength.Lu Man stepped on the wall, and kicking hard made her grab the top of the wall!She grabbed it so hard to keep her balance that her arm was directly cut open by the sharp blade of the anti-theft layer, bleeding profusely on the spot.

Lu Man gritted his teeth and endured the pain, grabbed the only sharp knife he could use, and finally climbed to the top of the wall and entered Youjia's courtyard.

At this time, tongues of fire had spewed out from the master bedroom, turning Lu Man's face red.

She didn't care about the injury on her arm and wanted to rush into the house, but unexpectedly, all the doors and windows were locked.

Seeing that the fire was getting bigger and bigger, Lu Man was very anxious. She searched all over the yard and only found a swimming pool net.She aimed the long handle of the fishing net at the glass door of the living room and slammed it down. The long handle broke instantly, and her arm was also sprained.

Lu Man was covered in blood, and the wound on his arm could no longer feel pain.Seeing the flames spreading across the sky, she yelled into the room: "Xiao Nian——Xiao Nian!"

No one answered her except for the roar of flames.

She was so anxious that she trembled all over, her eyes were bloodshot, but she was helpless!

Lu Man recklessly kicked hard on the hard door, more ruthless and more forceful, she even felt her leg bones were shattered, but the extremely restless emotions in her body continued to provide energy, making her kick again and again. banging on the door.

The door couldn't be knocked open, the window couldn't be smashed, and the burning Youjia mansion was like a strong fortress, locking the person she loved the most inside.Lu Man could only watch helplessly as the flames engulfed most of the house.

There was nothing she could do, nothing she could do.

Lu Man was covered in wounds, standing in the yard of Youjia like a ghost, completely swallowed by despair for the first time in his life.

Just then, Wu Xiuying came back.

"Miss Biao! Why are you here?!" Wu Xiuying glanced at her hurriedly while holding the key, and immediately went to the house to save someone.Wu Xiuying also found that the doors and windows were locked, so she hurriedly took out the key to open the door and ran upstairs.

Lu Man quickly followed in and went upstairs together.

The corridor was full of thick smoke, and Wu Xiuying and Lu Man were so smoked that they coughed again and again.

It was only when they ran to the second floor that they found that the fire was irreversible. The master bedroom and You Xinnian's bedroom had disappeared in the fire.

Wu Xiuying dragged You Renxue out of the bathroom, and hurriedly withdrew outside without caring about the others.Lu Man is very familiar with the structure of Youjia, she knows that You Xinnian's bedroom is right in front of her eyes!

Lu Man was about to throw himself into the sea of ​​flames with a sharp stab, but suddenly his waist tightened and he was hugged back.She was injured and physically weakened, even though the strength of the people behind her was far inferior to her, they couldn't break free at this time.

"Are you crazy! You are going to die!" Jiang Zhengqing grabbed her tightly, "Don't go! Lu Man! It's too late!"

"It's too late" these four words cut through Lu Man's mind, she pushed Jiang Zhengqing away, and ran into the fire without hesitation.

Her lover is inside, how can she leave her lover behind.

If the firemen hadn't arrived in time to forcibly stop Lu Man and drag her and Jiang Zhengqing back to the fire truck outside the house, probably more than the three of You Jia would have died in the fire that night.

"Go away - go away!"

Jiang Zhengqing had never seen such a hysterical Lu Man, she was like an angry beast, trying to kill everyone who stopped her.

"Calm down! Lu Man! Lu Man!" Jiang Zhengqing hugged her all the time, "It's useless for you to go, think about it carefully, think about it carefully! You can't die in vain, and You Xinnian wouldn't want you to get hurt Right! Right! Calm down!"

Jiang Zhengqing's voice buzzed in her ears, Lu Man was trapped in the fire engine for what seemed like a century, and the fire finally died down.She heard the fireman say, "Three bodies were found, two women and one man."

Lu Man looked out the car window and saw Wu Xiuying and the medical staff sending You Renxue to the ambulance. You Randong, who had just rushed home, stood in the yard with a look of bewilderment.

Two women and one man.

Lu Man wanted to go up to confirm the body, but he stepped on the air and fell to the ground, losing consciousness.

This coma is the most arduous walk through.

Lu Man returned to the scene of the fire countless times in the dream, no matter how hard she tried, she tried every means, but she couldn't rescue You Xinnian once.

She returned to the real world in tears.

Lu Chengzhong and Bai Wen sat beside the hospital bed, and they were both relieved and distressed when they saw her wake up.

"Xiao Nian..." Lu Man took Bai Wen's hand regardless of the severe pain in his body, "Where is Xiao Nian? How is Xiao Nian! Where is she!"

Bai Wen's tears kept falling, Lu Man was taken aback, she didn't believe the answer.