goddess farmer

The truth is often cruel.For example, my life experience with Tang Ze.Between me and Tang Ze, the original love, but there is such an enmity hidden.I know it's difficult for him to accept it for a while, just as it is difficult for me to accept it.My parents and relatives actually destroyed the ginseng and ganoderma tribes on the island, and they were killed by the ancestors of ginseng in a cruel way.I can't accept that the ginseng grandfather who raised me turned out to be my enemy who killed my father and mother.

What's even more unacceptable to me is that Tang Ze turned out to be a golden cicada ginseng, which transformed into a human form after eating the flesh and blood of my relatives, even though he was passive, and was fed by the ginseng ancestor.But this fact makes it difficult for us to face each other.

The reason why we choose to avoid each other for the time being is just because such truths and facts make it too difficult for us to accept each other for a while.How wonderful it would be if we could meet each other as we did for the first time, no matter in this world or the real world, no matter when we were innocent and young, or the freshness and deja vu when we first met...

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[Arranging for Qin Yuan and Tang Ze to temporarily separate is because both of them need to reorganize emotionally.Past life and present life, that kind of trance, coupled with the unbearable face of each other's life experience, temporarily separated can still maintain the long-term longing for each other, let the longing slowly return to reality! 】

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I returned to Huaguo Mountain with Sun Xingzhe and Jin Diao.

Huaguo Mountain has undergone great changes, the flowers are full of fruit fragrance, the forest is lush, and it is more vibrant than when I came out.However, my mood is a little heavier than before.

Dull pain, can't explain this feeling.After I came back, I lived in seclusion and told Sun Xingzhe that I was tired and wanted to rest for a few days, so I took the golden eagle into the spiritual core space.

The various fresh fruits and trees on Huaguo Mountain don't interest me at all.I want to be quiet...

For several days in a row, I have been in the spiritual core space, meditating, and using the meditating to calm down my mood.During this process, I kept thinking that a short lifespan is a good thing for people in the world. After reincarnation, you can forget everything in your previous life. Depression, it's true.Especially when there are so many unacceptable things and unbearable feelings in the world.

Cultivation can make the mind strong. If not, a person will definitely live in the pain of memory.Sorrows and joys, sometimes separation and sorrow are more unforgettable than joy.

I seem to be able to feel the hatred, the despair and indignation of the ginseng and ganoderma races when they were exterminated; I can also feel the fear and shock of my relatives when they were hunted down one by one; I I can also feel the struggle and contradiction deep in Tang Ze's heart, and even deeply understand the pain and confusion in my heart...

Why pain, confusion?I can't tell.Maybe this world is just the law of the jungle, so why care so much.But when they have spiritual consciousness and demon spirits, they will have pain and hatred, and this hatred will accompany their whole life and be passed on to the next generation...

I secretly swear in my heart: Since God has given me the ability to control beasts in crop farming, I will not abuse it; I swear that no one who has opened his spiritual consciousness should be killed.Once you have spiritual consciousness, you will have advanced emotions, your own spiritual feelings, longer and deeper emotions such as compassion, joy, love, pain, etc., and you will have demon spirits, seven souls and three souls... …

In fact, I don't like to let myself have such a sense of mission. I just want to live my leisurely life quietly and do whatever I want without so many scruples and tasks.But once you enter the role, you can't help yourself.I seem to be able to feel the expectations of those creatures on me. To be honest, sometimes I feel a great sense of rejection in my heart and want to avoid all of this.

How I have such negative emotions, I can't explain.Is it negative when a person just wants to be himself?Maybe it's because of this trip, recalling too many things, plus learning about the unbearable life experience; it is difficult to face the person I once cared about in my heart, plus the fact that the real world and this fairy world were once in my mind. Colliding with each other gave me a sense of trance and emptiness, which eventually gave me some symptoms of depression...

I really don't want to pass this depression on to those around me. [Including friends who read the article! 】

I just want to digest them quietly by myself.

There is only meditation, a personal practice.

In the spiritual core space, my imagination, my ideal world, can dilute all the confusion, pain and dissatisfaction in my heart.I miss the past, I am confused about the future.

Even, I am also thinking about who am I and where do I come from?

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In the spiritual core space, how long has passed?It seems that hundreds of years have passed again, and many past events have been revisited in my heart. I have not recalled them before, or I just heard them from others, but they are all recalled during this retreat.It is not good for a person's memory to be too good, but the human mind is also unimaginably powerful.

I asked the golden eagle: "How many days have I been in the spiritual core space?"

He shook his head and said, "I don't remember either. This spiritual core space is different from the outside world. Every day is a sunny sky. I never remember the days."

So he lives easily and happily.

I smiled and stopped asking.The rare birds and animals in the spiritual core space are all like this. They live carefree, and each of them has a long life span of thousands of years, and the golden eagle has a life span of ten thousand years. Such a long day.Anyway, every day is the same, and there is no end to life anyway.

I got up, feeling refreshed all over.In the distance, those white-lipped deer and mountain leopards all surrounded me.I know they want to get close to me, I listen to their tweets, I know they are singing for me, they are welcoming my return, and I am leaving the customs.

I laughed.They make me feel comfortable and let me regain my strength. Now that I have come to this world, I am not only living for myself, but also to make more people in this world live better and make this world a better place. more beautiful and more harmonious.

I am not fighting alone, I can feel that they are also looking forward to such a world, I think, there will be more people supporting me and standing with me...

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I walked out of the spiritual core!

The first time Sun Xingzhe saw me, he asked with concern: "Junior Sister, are you okay? You haven't come out for almost half a year!"

"Small half a year?" I didn't expect that this retreat actually lasted for half a year.But it was worth it, at least, I adjusted myself and remembered all the memories I had.

"Yeah, it's been five months."

I listened, remained silent for a while, and asked, "Is everything alright in Huaguoshan?"

"It's all good. Today's Huaguo Mountain is full of flowers and fruits, and it is very lively. There is an endless stream of people coming from afar. They exchanged their magic weapons for our fresh fruits. We got a lot of magic weapons. You Do you want to take a look?"

I nodded.

Following Sun Xingzhe, they came to the side hole of the Water Curtain Cave, where there were some magic weapons and spiritual weapons, all of which were of ordinary grade.However, the placement is extremely particular.The spiritual power of each magic weapon is different, and their respective power points are also different, so there is a reason for them to be placed in this way.

"These are all placed by Chi Jiu, so that these magic weapons can work together to transmit the spiritual power to the ground, and the mechanism set by our ancient kung fu can be brought into play even more."

"Yes, Not Bad."

"It's just that these magic weapons are too ordinary, and their spiritual power is also very poor. I'm waiting for you to come out. There are fairy fruits in your spiritual core space. If you can exchange them with fairy fruits in the spiritual core space, you will definitely get a lot of spiritual power." Strong magic weapon, with such a magic weapon township, we Huaguoshan can rest easy."

I smiled, "So you waited for me because of those fairy fruits, I thought you were worried about me."

"Haha, of course I miss you more, but I'm afraid that you care more about that person."

I was taken aback, originally I wanted to joke with him, but when he mentioned that person, I felt a surge of emotion in my previously forgotten heart.However, after this practice, I quickly suppressed those thoughts, and still said with a smile:

"That person? Who is that person?"

"Haha, I don't know, you should ask yourself."

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In the past half a year, the Spirit Nucleus Space has harvested three more batches of flat peaches, ginseng fruits, and fairy fruits, all of which were harvested with the help of golden eagles and other animals, and then sprayed with the preservative liquid I refined some time ago and kept them next to the Apocalypse Stone. In the ice cave.

I went to the spiritual core space again, and roughly cleared it. There are about [-] flat peaches, more than a dozen ginseng fruits, countless fairy fruits, and there are three small hills.

I thought in my heart that although there are so many fairy peaches and fairy fruits, I once swore in front of Tathagata that half of the peaches and fairy fruits in the spiritual core space will be distributed to Xitian. , No one can come in, and it is not clear how many there are; but if they are taken out, they will be distributed to the Tathagata.Therefore, I plan to only use part of it for the time being to exchange magic weapons.There is still half of it to be handed over to Xitian, after all, we are still unable to deal with Xitian Tathagata.

I brought a hundred flat peaches and hundreds of them to Sun Xingzhe, and asked him to announce to the world that there are longevity flat peaches in Huaguo Mountain, which can be exchanged with spiritual weapons and treasures.

Soon, the news spread, and Huaguo Mountain was in commotion again.Immortals and demons from all walks of life come to exchange flat peaches with their magic treasures. Chi Jiu and Sun Xingzhe judge the authenticity of the magic treasures before announcing whether they will participate in the auction to exchange flat peaches or fairy fruits...

This auction is also planned by me by referring to the auctions in the real world. Only through the auction can I raise the price of each fairy fruit and fairy peach and sell it better...

Three days later, more than a hundred gods and demons from all walks of life came, and the auction opened on a meadow at the foot of the mountain...