goddess farmer

According to the normal procedure, I graduated with a Ph.D. a year ago, but in order to stay in my current unit after graduation, I listened to my boss’s suggestion and postponed my graduation, trying to complete an influential academic paper before my graduation defense , when the time comes, he will be fully qualified to stay.

My boss is really demanding on me, maybe because I am a girl, a female Ph.D. needs to pay much more than a man.

My boss, surnamed Shi and named Mo Ni, in our field, Boss Shi is a well-known academic figure, and his authority cannot be doubted.If he had a word, I would have a great chance of staying, but he is the most "fair" person in doing things, and he also values ​​reputation very much. He is most afraid of being caught by others, because I am his student, and I am still a bit pretty. For female students, he is even more demanding, even to the point of being harsh.In fact, he doesn't have to be like this at all, everyone on earth knows that he is not close to women.

In the eyes of Boss Shi, it seems that women should not do such research projects. He even suggested several times that I would change careers midway, but I firmly rejected them all.

[ps: Shi Moni in the real world - Sakyamuni and Tathagata Buddha in Journey to the West]

This is my character. Once I do something, I will stick to it.I love my job and my career. Whenever I come to the alpine and remote areas and see the rare flowers and plants, rare birds and animals, I can't help but lament the wonder of life...

I am a biological worker. Specifically, I study the growth and distribution of wild animals and plants. The subject I am currently studying is the study of the habits of wild animals in the severe cold area of ​​the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau. I need to go to the wild from time to time. Or at noon, or in the evening, late at night, wearing camouflage uniforms, wearing binoculars around their necks, hiding themselves behind grass or mounds, quietly observing and recording the whereabouts of Tibetan antelopes, white-lipped deer, golden eagles, Tibetan mastiffs, etc. ...

In this kind of unpopular industry that mainly works in the field, girls are rare and not to be seen.Moreover, this kind of field work is dangerous and challenging, and requires strong physical strength and endurance.It's really not suitable for girls.

For my choice and enthusiasm, in the eyes of ordinary people, it may be a little unreasonable, including my several boyfriends.Also because of my job, they all chose to break up in the end.

In my opinion, those who havetily choose to leave me because of my work and my personality are not worth keeping.So, I have been waiting, waiting for the appearance of someone who really belongs to me...

For this belief, I have always ignored my age.But since last year, after my 30th birthday, I began to doubt myself.I wonder if I chose the wrong industry and am still alone.Looking at my face that is no longer young, I have to become a "woman-like" appearance in the wild, and I suddenly feel a little lonely, the loneliness of being a woman...

This year, I seem to have lost my previous enthusiasm for field work.It was originally planned to go to the plateau area with the two juniors after the beginning of spring, but I shirked it with various reasons.But the actual situation is that he is busy with a blind date.It's really funny to say it, but if you put it in your previous personality, you wouldn't hide things like blind dates.I don't care what other people say, I just don't want gossip behind my back to affect my good mood.What's more, I also feel that personal feelings don't need to become public entertainment.

To be honest, I never lost confidence in myself.Even though she is now a leftover woman, she still insists on her extremely critical vision.In fact, I don't have much requirements, I just want to find the right feeling, the right person who is worthy of my investment, an affectionate person.

[ps: Me, Qin Yuan in the real world——Qin Yuan and Fairy Qinyuan in Journey to the West]

Looking back on the boys who chased me before, the one who impressed me the most was a former senior and a colleague who studied paleontological fossils.

Let me talk about my senior brother first. His name is Sun Xingzhe. Although he looks ordinary, he treats people very considerately... To be honest, I have never had any special feelings for him. In my eyes, he is like a big brother.Later, I agreed to try to date him, or it may be because of the long-term relationship, but I mistook friendship or family affection for love...

Emotionally, sometimes it is inevitable to be confused.Even a woman like me who believes that "if you don't love, you will love deeply", you will inevitably be confused about what love is.

The reason why I agreed to associate with him was because I was moved. During the days we spent together, whether in the ivory tower or on business trips in the wild, his caring eyes and the little things he did for me...

I remember that time on the cold plateau, I was a little hypoxic and trembling. He took off his coat, put it on my shoulders, and passed a warm look that was hard to catch; The back of the firewood, blowing the fire to cook, and brought me the meals he made...

Every time he cares and loves, he takes care of me in every possible way...

He had a big fight with my mentor, Boss Shi, for my graduation, and even went to the research institute to make a big fuss, which backfired...

But I don't blame him.

Because I know that emotionally, I owe him.I can't lie to myself, this deep feeling is not love...

Later, Boss Shi recommended him to go abroad.

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[ps: Sun Xingzhe in the real world——Sun Wukong and Sun Xingzhe in Journey to the West]

Last year, I met a colleague who studied biological fossils during a business trip in the field.On the cold plateau, in such a specific environment, it is easier to have special feelings.

Or maybe it was because I was too lonely at that time, and I felt that I really should have someone to rely on, so I started a relationship casually.

His name is Yang Jian. He is tall and handsome. This is perhaps what attracts me the most about him. He is sunny, handsome and energetic.He likes to talk eloquently, astronomy, geography, and international affairs.He also told me about the projects he was researching, about biological fossils, etc. She said that there are dinosaur fossils, fern fossils, three-toed horse fossils on the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau, and even ancient marine biological fossils, which are said to be two to three hundred million years ago. Mount Everest used to be a vast ocean, and the roof of the world has undergone vicissitudes, etc. I am very interested...

When I was talking about this, I occasionally had a hallucination, and images flashed through my mind one after another, and when he was talking about fossil bones, I stared at his handsome face and saw a skull with black holes... …

In Yang Jian's rented house, there was actually a skeleton, only the spine and skull. It was not human, but a kind of cattle.I don't like these things, and I don't like having them in my bedroom.Now that these creatures are dead, let them rest in peace.

What made me even more upset was that we had an argument over this matter, which also made me understand that his enthusiasm for those fossils and animal skeletons far exceeds his enthusiasm for me.

This is not how I want to feel.

We're done before we even started.He came to me later, on a date or something, and I just shrugged it off.

I also wondered if I was a little picky.But it feels like this kind of thing is really hard to come by.

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[ps: Yang Jian in the real world——Yang Jian in Journey to the West]

Now, I have also started dating.It's just that I still believe in fate, and I still have fantasies, and I want to give myself one more chance.

In fact, this is not my first blind date, and I really can't remember the exact number of times.It's just that it's the first time I feel like this.A friend introduced him roughly. He just turned 30 this year, supposedly one year younger than me, an IT guy.It seems that he didn't introduce much at that time. It was at night that he added my QQ, and a friend told me in advance.After adding each other as friends, they began to chat with each other, and the feeling of chatting changed from indifferent to interesting, and gradually became smoother.

Every time, before he sends a message, I can feel what he is going to say, and I haven't felt like this for a long time.Even with very close girlfriends, it seems that there is no such tacit understanding.Chatting and chatting, before I knew it, it was late at night.We made an appointment to meet the next day and said good night to each other.

We made an appointment at the coffee shop in Danjiang, Calgary, which is an old shop with ancient wood style.It is said that it is a door panel screen made of thousand-year-old sandalwood.When I stepped into the coffee shop, I heard yo-yo music, and I felt a cool feeling, as if I had stepped into another world.

He was sitting in a corner, and I recognized him at first glance.A boy who looks very refreshing. Although his appearance is not handsome, his first impression is clean and comfortable.It made me recognize him at first glance. Now that I think about it, there is something about him that makes me feel close. I can't say what it is.

When he saw me from a distance, he stood up and seemed to recognize me.

Approaching each other, they smiled faintly as a greeting.

After sitting down, he asked me what to drink?I ordered milk tea casually.He ordered coffee.

The two of them were just like that, drinking milk tea and coffee, listening to music, and looking out the window.In the coffee shop by the Dan River, you can see the river, the banks of the stone bridges, tourists strolling, the shadows of the trees dancing, and the cars coming and going.

This feeling is very good, even if it is just quietly, I feel that there is someone by my side, watching the scenery together, and feeling everything in the world together.

"Your hair is messed up!"

He suddenly reached out and smoothed my hair on the side of my head.What surprised me even more was that I didn't avoid it, but obeyed naturally.

"thanks……"

I say.

He smiled.The two started looking out the window again.

That afternoon, apart from drinking their own milk tea and coffee, they kept looking out of the window and glanced at each other from time to time.The strange thing is that after being silent for an afternoon, I didn't feel embarrassed and bored, but felt that the afternoon was very short and intoxicating.

When we parted, we asked each other's name, his name was Tang Ze, and my name was Qin Yuan.

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[ps: Tang Ze in the real world——Tang Seng, Jin Chan, Tang Ze, Ozawa in Journey to the West]

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