tell my family she hates me

It was in her ears, but she was busy at that time, so she thought it was Du Mosheng's birthday that day, so she asked for a leave to celebrate her birthday.

Tsk, I didn't think about it carefully at that time, but when I heard where Du Suosheng's request for leave happened, the whole cause and effect became clear in an instant.

It was only then that Qin Zijin remembered that his ex was not someone who would ask for leave to celebrate his birthday.

When the two of them first dated, Du Suosheng showed the potential sense of responsibility in his bones.Obviously they have been dating for so long, but they still think that they can't give themselves a stable future, and never touch themselves.

At that time, when he was still too young, and when the love was strong, Qin Zijin would be secretly annoyed in his heart, thinking that Du Mosheng was too old-fashioned and stubborn.

Later, when we separated, I secretly rejoiced that the other party never touched me, otherwise, what should I do in the future, and I should find some reason for my future marriage partner.

People, they regret the things they have lost the most, especially the things that they once liked so much.

At that time, falling in love was real, but Qin Zijin valued future prospects more than love.

As for falling in love with Du Mosheng, she can explain to herself that when she is too young, she won't think too much about it, and as long as this person treats her well, she can't help but rely on her.

At that time, Du Mosheng was too beautiful, and when he couldn't get it, his heart was full of turmoil.Every day I think about how to make this enthusiastic senior with such an indifferent face like me and get close to me.

When I got it later, I was still ecstatic.It's just that as he grew older, Qin Zijin gradually realized that it was impossible for the two of them to go on like this.

It's not that falling in love is impossible, it's that the world doesn't allow it.

When young people talk about love, three points of love can pretend to be ten points.Qin Zijin was no exception, he was clearly about to withdraw and leave Du Mosheng, but he still had the look of insisting on her.

Seeing Du Mosheng crossing out his favorite school on the college application letter, seeing Du Mosheng showing a reluctant smile as he sent himself to the airport, Qin Zijin had the thought of regret countless times.

I really love her.

It's not fake, it's a love that can hardly be suppressed by reason.

But in this world, not being in love can solve everything. Qin Zijin is not very old, but she has already understood this truth.

She can't accept being looked at strangely by her family, and she can't accept that the house is deserted after old age.The most unacceptable thing is probably that, in her mind, Du Mosheng, who is as unattainable as the bright moon, would compromise for her.

This shouldn't be Du Mosheng.A person like her should be aloof. On the road of growth, she always overcomes obstacles alone.

Instead of putting on armor for the people behind him, he has a weakness.

Obviously, he kept thinking in his mind that it was time to give up on the other party, but every time the words were stuck in his throat, just thinking of Du Mosheng's smile on the other end of the phone made Qin Zijin panic. .

Once when the two were chatting, they talked about the topic of the future.

Qin Zijin talked eloquently and made all his future plans.But Du Mosheng on the other end of the phone forced a smile, and after hesitating for a long time asked, "Why is there no me in your future? Did you forget to mention it, or did you not think about it?"

It was also at that moment that Qin Zijin finally came to his senses. She was greedy for Du Mosheng, but Qin Zijin had already made a choice about Du Mosheng and her own future.

She fell in love with a boy.This boy is much more proactive than Du Mosheng. Although he is not careful enough with himself, he is still there when he needs it.

They kissed for the first time on the fifth day after confirming their relationship.

Seeing the boy's affectionate devotion, Qin Zijin opened his eyes and was unusually sober.

He was even thinking about the first kiss between Du Mosheng and himself.

Even though they have been together for a year, they still dare not take the initiative to kiss themselves.After finally mustering up the courage, the whole person was still trembling slightly.The whole kissing process is tense and serious.

It's weird, when I'm kissing one person, I'm thinking about another person.

Du Mosheng's face appeared in Qin Zijin's mind, Qin Zijin moved slightly and responded to the kiss.

But when the kiss was over, Qin Zijin suddenly felt sick to his stomach when he saw the man in front of him blushing with a blushing face and bright eyes.

One year passed, another year.Qin Zijin still couldn't say that we broke up.

Even though he went to a university so far away to get rid of Du Mosheng, the shadow of Du Mosheng seemed to be everywhere.

Qin Zijin had rehearsed what he would say when they broke up several times in his heart, but every time he called Du Mosheng on the phone, before he could say it, tears began to flow down non-stop.

Perhaps the one who cannot live without the other party has always been himself.

When applying for studying abroad, Qin Zijin suddenly felt relaxed all over. He could even bring up the breakup that was difficult to say at the moment.

Just listening to Du Suosheng on the other end of the phone suppressing his tears and begging not to break up, Qin Zijin still couldn't help but soften his heart.

She felt a little proud, but more of a depression.

This man really loves her.

It's fine if you're a boy.

Qin Zijin even thought viciously that maybe he could control the two relationships well.

If, if Du Mosheng can wait until he becomes a mature adult, can wait until he is free of money, can wait until he is good enough.

Then no matter how bad the secular eyes are at that time, she will hold Du Mosheng's hand.

Qin Zijin is very convinced that once a person like Du Mosheng loves someone deeply, it will be difficult for him to get out.

So luck trumped everything.

It's just that it's too difficult to stabilize the two relationships. Qin Zijin has to choose which one to take lightly among the two relationships.

She chose to take Du Mosheng lightly.

After all, the two people are so far apart, as long as you say that you are busy, the other party will have nothing to say.Those who are favored are always confident, Qin Zijin thought so at that time.

It doesn't feel so good to fall in love with a boy.But she needs a cover.

It's just that she didn't even think that when Du Mosheng found out about the matter between herself and that boy, she instantly shattered all the rationality of these years and went crazy. She just wanted to hug Du Mosheng and tell her not to Walk.

"It's so strange, can one person really like two people at the same time?" Du Mosheng's eyes were all red, and he looked so beautiful trying not to let his tears fall.

Qin Zijin didn't have much guilty conscience, but she was extremely scared. She kept thinking in her mind, what should she do to make Du Mosheng not leave her.

"Zijin, let's separate." There were tears in Du Mosheng's eyes, but he still had the same gentle smile as before.It's just that no matter how you cover up your voice, you can hear crying.

No, I don't want this.Qin Zijin's body trembled, and his heart seemed to have stopped working at this moment, and it became difficult to breathe.

don't leave me pleaseI don't want anything anymore, and I don't worry about my future. Don't mention breaking up, okay?

There were a lot of thoughts in her mind, but in the end, what Qin Zijin said was something she didn't even think of, "It's pretty speechless, you can do whatever you want."

Later, when he went abroad to study, Qin Zijin often dreamed about this incident in his dreams. Every time, Du Suosheng left with his back straight, without turning his head once.Standing in place by myself, indifferent.

She couldn't move her body at all, and she was so anxious that tears flowed out.The pillow gets wet again and again

Almost as soon as they separated, Qin Zijin immediately broke up with that boy.Just so what?She lost Du Mosheng who only belonged to her.

Not long after returning to China, when she was talking about the project, she met a girl who used to be in the same class as Du Mosheng in high school. Hearing from the other party that Du Mosheng had always been single, Qin Zijin had a slightly impossible guess in her heart. .

Will she still be waiting for herself?

The encounter was carefully planned, and everything went smoothly until she saw Wei Yuxun.

That Wei Yuxun who had Du Mosheng in his heart and eyes.

She is the person I like, and no one can take a second look at her.Qin Zijin smiled and watched Wei Entropy looking like a clown in front of him, unmoved.

Interested in declaring ownership?

Qin Zijin remembered that in the restaurant that day, Wei Entropy looked like he was showing off his might, thinking a lot in his heart.

After all, this person is still too reckless, don't you know that an obvious liking is just a burden, and what should you do if you become a target in others' mouths?

Qin Zijin didn't think Wei Entropy could make Du Mosheng fall in love with her.

From childhood favorites to adult choices.They are all perfect.

Even though they were embarrassed when they broke up, in Qin Zijin's heart, these were nothing.Who cares about the process?Isn't it good to focus on the result?

But it seems that the situation is different from what he imagined. Du Suosheng actually took a long vacation for Wei Entropy and put down work.

Only now did Qin Zijin feel jealous of this rival in love who had never taken it seriously.

She called again, but no one answered the phone.

There is a lot of traffic outside the window, even in the dark night, it is brightly lit.

Not a single lamp in these thousands of households is on for themselves.Qin Zijin glanced at the phone, bit his lips and smiled.

The fact that she likes Du Mosheng is known to no one except her.She didn't even dare to tell her best friend that she liked a girl.

This concern is like a snowball, it accumulates bigger and bigger, she submitted the manuscript anonymously,