Bandit Shi Xianyu

The author has something to say: What Pei Cangyu knows

Pei Cangyu didn't have much energy in the car, her head was pressed against the window glass, she stared out of the window lifelessly, from the bustling night lights until she walked into the green land home, she remained motionless.

Baishi reached out his hand, and gently shook his head: "Wouldn't it be cool to lean against the glass?"

Pei Cangyu avoided his hand and sat up.

Baishi paused, then suddenly said, "It's disgusting."

Pei Cangyu turned his head away, feeling very irritable.

"This circle is like this." Baishi looked down at his hands, "How much do you know about homosexuality?"

Pei Cangyu frowned: "What does this have to do with homosexuality, it's just that some people are perverts."

Baishi smiled: "That's right, but there are a lot of perverts. If you want to listen to me talk about other things, you might think it's okay."

Pei Cangyu hesitated for a moment: "...Really?"

"For example," Shiraishi kicked the coat away with his feet, "Some people knock out their teeth for better oral sex. In this way," Shiraishi stretched out his hand and made a hole, "isn't it very convenient. "

Pei Cangyu stared coldly: "Damn, it's true."

Shiraishi shrugged his shoulders: "There's more..."

"Okay, okay, don't talk about it." Pei Cangyu interrupted him, "It has nothing to do with me, I just want to know who it is."

Baishi was stunned for a moment: "Isn't that the policeman surnamed Tu?"

Pei Cangyu shook her head: "I don't think so."

"why?"

Pei Cangyu turned to look at him, and began to make gestures: "Master's eyesight is very poor. The surname Tu is wearing a shit-yellow coat today. It is impossible for him to tell that it is yellow. It must be a very bright yellow for him to think it is yellow." , do you understand what I mean?"

"Is that so?"

Pei Cangyu nodded: "Yes, yes, I remember a time a long time ago, I asked a classmate to deliver something to me, and told the uncle that the one in the yellow coat should let him in, but the uncle insisted on stopping him, and insisted on waiting for me to come down." Pick up people. My classmate was wearing super dark yellow at that time, and the uncle insisted that he was wearing black. But the yellow coat of the grandma next door turned red, and the uncle pointed to someone and told me that it was called yellow.”

Bai Shi was silent for a while, then asked again: "You mean there are others?"

Pei Cangyu scratched her head: "Actually, it's not necessarily aimed at me, maybe people who drink too much did it. Anyway, it's weird."

Baishi looked at him and smiled: "Did Tu Ziyun look for you today?"

"How did you know?"

"Because it feels like you have a much better attitude towards him."

Pei Cangyu turned her face away: "It's not..."

"That's great." Baishi sighed with a smile, "It's all because of 'bad' thoughts, he can gain your trust, but I can't. Is it really because of Sunday's incident?"

Almost instantly Pei Cangyu understood what this "bad" thought was referring to, his face turned red, and as soon as the car stopped, he opened the door and jumped down, hurriedly changing the subject: "You Are you hungry? I’m starving to death.” Then he rushed into the house like a whirlwind, and Shiraishi watched him from behind.

The house where Shiraishi was not there was indeed pitch-black.

Pei Cangyu went to turn on the lights after entering the door. After the lights on the dome were smashed, many standing lamps were temporarily used. Pei Cangyu stepped on them one by one. Baishi watched him run around and light up the room.

He took off his coat: "What do you want to eat?"

Pei Cangyu shook his head: "Not hungry." He turned his head, "Speaking of which, shouldn't you be more on guard? Security or something."

Baishi went to the fireplace, opened the stove hood, pressed the switch of the fire, and watched the fire rise little by little: "No need, it's fine."

Pei Cangyu walked beside him: "You really have a big heart."

Shiraishi didn't speak.

In the silence, a bright fire rose up, and the standing lamps all over the place shone dimly, pulling the shadows of the two people standing from all directions, and the fire reflected them erratically.

Pei Cangyu became more and more embarrassed in this silence. If possible, he didn't want to be alone with Baishi.He coughed and started to talk: "Then I'll go up first... I still have papers..."

Bai Shi stretched out his hand to hold his arm: "Let's have a chat."

"what?"

***

So they sat down, by the fire, opposite each other.

Baishi crossed his legs, leaned on the sofa, and stared at Pei Cangyu.Pei Cangyu put her legs together, sat upright, very alert, glanced at Baishi's face, then turned to stare at his fingers on the rest of the hand.

Pei Cangyu was actually thinking, first of all, I have to stand firm, and secondly, I have to think about whether I can win in a fight.Although I don't know why the fight happened, but we must be prepared. Although Baishi looks tall, he lacks training, combat effectiveness, and most importantly, lack of actual combat experience. [-]-[-].Well, that’s right, the Freedom Fighting Faction is not in vain, you haven’t seen Brother Hepinglu’s big move...

"What are you thinking?"

Shiraishi asked suddenly.

"Ah?" Pei Cangyu was taken aback, "It's nothing."

"It's too far." Baishi said so, leaning forward, reaching out, grabbing the two handles of Pei Cangyu's sofa, and pulling him forward with the sofa until their knees touched.

Pei Cangyu was stunned, seeing the bulging lines of Baishi's arms when he pulled the sofa with absolute certainty, and felt that he needed to re-evaluate the combat power of both sides.

Baishi pressed his hands on Pei Cangyu's sides: "I think I should apologize to you for what happened on Sunday."

"Well, indeed."

"..."

Pei Cangyu spoke uprightly: "You shouldn't?"

"……Should."

"correct."

Baishi was silent, Pei Cangyu looked at him: "What else are you talking about?"

Shiraishi sighed.

Pei Cangyu leaned back, leaving a distance from Baishi: "I see, you want to ask me if I will take it to heart. To be honest, I don't know you very well. I don't know what you like to eat or play. I don’t know, and I don’t think it’s my business. And then... I’m very busy with my studies, so,” he paused with his head down, a little embarrassed, “it would be great if I can continue to live here... Anyway, thank you Take me in, if nothing like this happens again in the future. Is it okay to live in peace? Do you want to shake hands?"

Shiraishi didn't speak.

Pei Cangyu thought he disagreed: "I can pay you the rent."

Baishi looked at him: "I'm not interested in rent."

"Then what do you have..."

Pei Cangyu subconsciously asked the question, and because she was afraid that the answer would not be finished, she abruptly stopped.

Baishi continued to look at him: "You don't have any loss, do you? It won't really matter."

Pei Cangyu lowered his head.

Shiraishi approached him slowly.

The fire was burning brightly, reflecting half of the two people's bodies red, and the other half was covered by the overflowing goose yellow light, a warm look wrapped around the two people, and the firewood occasionally made a crackling sound, sending a rush of logs. The smell, lingering in the fragrance that filled the room, passed to Pei Cangyu's lips leisurely.Baishi also got close to this lip, he only needed to turn his head, and he could bite on it.

Pei Cangyu spoke up.

He said: "I will move out tomorrow, thank you for this time."

So the warm light and fragrance, as well as the approaching Baishi, all stopped.

Pei Cangyu herself seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, and was about to stand up.

He stood up, but Shiraishi grabbed his hand.

Shiraishi hangs his head, his hair is on top of his head, his back is arched under his shirt, the muscles under his shirt are tense, showing a tense aura, but because he is trapped on the sofa, he always has an indescribable sense of depression , holding Pei Cangyu stubbornly with one arm, but said nothing.

Seeing him like this, Pei Cangyu couldn't move anymore. He habitually reached out his hand, wanting to pat him on the shoulder, just like in the police station, but hesitated after reaching out.

He didn't like Shiraishi like this.When he was in junior high school, Baishi was a very eye-catching person. Although he was too close to him and knew some inhumane embarrassments, on the contrary, he felt that Baishi should be brilliant, the kind of person who knew that he had a bright future at a glance. The man is smart and strong.Because he was very flamboyant and caused trouble when he was a child, so he can understand how gentle and restrained he is now.But it's always so sad, it's not good...it's really not good...why is it always so gloomy, Shiraishi?He can't ask directly.

So he reached out and patted Shiraishi on the shoulder.

Baishi laughed softly, full of helplessness: "This can't work, right?"

Pei Cangyu didn't know what to say.

"You liked gentle people when you were in junior high, didn't you? That monitor, I know you like her." Baishi still didn't look up, his tone became faster, which was another tone that Pei Cangyu had never heard before, "So Which one do you like now? There must be a direction."

Pei Cangyu really didn't know what to say, so he had no choice but to sit back opposite Baishi and began to think about his words.

Baishi still didn't raise his head, he stared at a certain point on the ground, without blinking his eyes, but didn't let go of his hands, and there was some reproach in his tone: "You are like this, you can't understand anyone who appears in front of you."

Pei Cangyu froze for a moment, what does this mean?

They fell into silence again. Pei Cangyu really wanted to say something, but she didn't know how to express it, or what to express.

The silence ended when Shiraishi let go of his hand.

Pei Cangyu watched Baishi's tense back stretch out, and the hard lines gradually relaxed. The aura like drawing a knife disappeared in an instant, which made Pei Cangyu clear the alarm all at once. It was at this time that he realized that Baishi There is such a powerful ability to affect the surrounding emotions.

Baishi raised his face and smiled, as if he had never made any strange remarks just now.He looked at Pei Cangyu with a smile: "Do you have a girlfriend now?"

Pei Cangyu shook his head honestly.

With a relaxed tone, Baishi continued, "Then what concerns do you have?"

Pei Cangyu was speechless: "This is not a question of whether to be considerate or not."

"What's the problem?" Baishi looked at him calmly.

"This is..." Pei Cangyu frowned and began to think, "This is a matter of preference, right, you know what a preference is."

Baishi nodded: "I know. The preference is that some people like to eat fish, and some people like to eat beef, so they can't come."

Pei Cangyu nodded frantically upon hearing the words "reluctantly not coming", "That's right, that's what it means."

"Then have you ever eaten fish?"

"Eat it."

"Have you ever eaten beef?"

"Eat it, what's the matter?"

"Which one do you like?"

"...Fish."

"Have you ever had a girlfriend?"

"I've handed it over."

"Have you ever had a boyfriend?"

"……No."

"Then why can you judge and compare? Beef and fish can only be compared after they have been tasted?"

……

……

……

What's wrong?

Pei Cangyu's throat moved: "That's what it means...it's like this...that's..."

Shiraishi looked at him calmly.

In Pei Cangyu's mind, there was always a voice echoing: "What Baishi said makes sense." Pei Cangyu had no choice but to yell at him to fart, don't disturb my thinking now.But as soon as the voice left, his mind was at a loss, so the voice ran back again, and continued to mutter, "It really makes sense."Pei Cangyu continued to shout, get out, don't speak for him.Then the voice disappeared again, Pei Cangyu continued to be blank.

Baishi lowered his head and fiddled with his fingers. He flipped his fingers and caught Pei Cangyu's gaze. His low voice flowed in the night, like an unfinished ambiguity in the air.

"Not everyone can have such luck. The person who loves just loves himself."

Pei Cangyu's face turned red immediately, he was very unaccustomed to talking about such words, which did not conform to the realman's speech habits.

But Baishi is still going on, his voice is really nice, in the hoarseness he is still rubbing unspeakable melancholy, the lonely confession in the middle of the night, only revealing the weakness of one person, like an unspeakable confession, with an understatement of calm The tone of voice, with heavy and suppressed emotions underneath, slowly enveloped Pei Cangyu.

"If you can be disassembled and divided into components, such as personality, looks, experience, or more subdivided, such as eyes, fingers, knees and laughter, then I can pick and choose from which I like Part, even if you don’t want me, I can still use these elements to build a new you, a complete and my favorite you. But after the formation, I feel that it’s not suitable for your ears, and it’s not okay if it’s not your voice. At this moment I understood, this is not you, this is just a stranger.

So I still want the parts I don’t like, the parts I don’t think are so important, so in the end it’s me who loses, because I can’t pick and choose, and you are so selfish, and you don’t want to give me the heart that was broken elsewhere .

I thought I should be you—after all, I couldn't be closer to you than to be you.

I shouldn't have been treated like this, I have a bright future, I have a strong will, I can see the future even if I am blind, but you come and go, go too fast, I can't forget, I can't Know how to reconcile.

I really have no choice, I can only draw the ground as a prison.

I can never be willing.

I think I must not be willing.

No one will do it willingly. "

Baishi raised his head to look at him, Pei Cangyu's shadow was completely reflected in his black pupils, his face was full of pain, like an extremely wronged child who was forced to grit his teeth and say he hated it.

"So I don't like you."

Shiraishi ended like this.

Pei Cangyu was stunned, he stared blankly, in Baishi's twinkling eyes, suddenly bent down, cupped his face, and kissed him lightly.

He thought, how can someone deserve to make others suffer so much?

No one can be justified, indifferent, and have peace of mind.

No one should be justified, indifferent, and at ease.

So he kissed Shiraishi.