REMIX

On the way home, my head was so empty that I didn't know anything.

The crowd walked against me, like fish struggling in the mud.My body was pushed back by the viscous inertia, and I finally got rid of it. The closer I got to the explosion site, the more I could smell the pungent gas smell, which made my feet feel numb, and I couldn’t see clearly, as if I had hit someone , It seems that there is no, until the crowd is so dense that I can no longer squeeze in, I open my mouth and try to breathe.

Two people from the fire brigade supported me and sent me to a safe area outside the cordon. I couldn't stand still and sat on the ground.

The thing in front of me suddenly became several times taller, like when I looked up at a tall building when I was a child, I pulled Xia Jie by the sleeve and asked her, is this building so precious?

Xia Jie likes to flick my forehead and say, you are stupid, do you want to buy them all?

I rummaged through my pocket with my hand, and found a three-dollar coin. One of the reverses was dirty, and the uneven surface was covered with dirt. It was found for me by an aunt selling sugar melons on the roadside.

I warmed up those few coins in my palm, and said, if you like it, I will save money to buy it for you.

Just you have to wait for me.

It may be a few years longer.

……

It was the restaurant next door to my house that exploded.The floor-to-ceiling windows on the first floor were shattered by the momentary impact. Thick smoke was still billowing out from the hall door. The fire had been brought under control by the firefighters. A few pairs of legs walked past me, dragging long white The water pipe, when I turned on the faucet, some cold water was blown onto my face by the wind.

The cause of the accident is still unclear, and everyone's attention is focused on the kitchen that was charred black and half collapsed.

It's next to our living room.

I tried several times to get up from the ground to find someone, but I didn't know who to look for in the panicked crowd.

There is a woman who seems to have cut her hand with glass, and is crying while wrapping a bandage.

I covered my ears with my hands, and the only thing left in the world was my exhausted breathing like an animal.

—Where did she go?

The sense of cowardice and powerlessness was as fierce as a flood, hitting me head and face, and I had no strength to fight back.

—Where did she go?

I stood up against the broken glass all over the floor, and the people around me were frightened by my nervous behavior and dodged. Just when I didn't know what I would do in the next second, a haggard but excited woman pushed away from the crowd , grabbed my trembling hand, "Baby."

"I went downstairs to buy a box of anti-inflammatory drugs...I'm not at home...I'm fine..."

It took me a few seconds to hear her voice, and the other hand tremblingly groped for her shoulder, and finally pulled her into my arms.

For some unknown reason, those memories that I thought would evaporate long ago are always revisited in such a short moment, and I realized that I haven't hugged her for a long time, how many months?several years?This woman who used to hold my hand and walked the streets and alleys is now shorter than me, slender and thin, and I can't touch the flesh of my body through the clothes.

She hunched over in my arms and coughed, and patted my back with her hand, like she did when she was a child to put me to sleep, "Is the baby scared...I'm fine, mom is fine..."

I closed my eyes hard, buried in her not-so-soft long hair, and took a deep breath.

There is a smell of mother there.

We can't participate much in the follow-up of the accident, because it was purely affected. The large living room on the first floor has been in my house since the drunkard left. Now the floor has been burned through. The hotel owner came to the door that afternoon and delivered it. A small amount of compensation is just a drop in the bucket for the destruction of most of the furniture.

But seeing that the parties involved wished to sell their bodies in the street, Xia Jie and I could only bury our heads and silently pack up the usable things.

Xia Jie dragged his unhealed body, threw the suitcase on the floor, and gritted his teeth, "Fuck, move."

I looked at her helplessly, and the most useful comfort at this time was "It's good that people are fine".

But looking at the mess in front of me, I think that it is because people are good at taking life as the ultimate bottom line, so they are able to drag themselves through their lives with more frustration and more courage.

After all, compared with "living", there are too many reasons to die.

Until Li Qianlan and Qiao Xinxin arrived at my house in the evening, I was immersed in an extremely depressed depression.

"Why are you here?"

I stood by the door that was burnt to nothing but a frame, and looked at their terrified faces calmly.

"Fuck... Auntie, I'm coming in!... What's going on..." Li Qianlan carefully looked for a foothold while looking at the situation in the house, caught me groping, and put her hand on my heart, "People As long as there is nothing to worry about, the green hills will be left without worrying about no firewood."

While speaking, Qiao Xinxin had already walked up to my mother and picked up a cardboard box, "Auntie, let me help you."

"Oh, no need for Xinxin!..." Xia Jie started coughing again in the middle of speaking, and I raised my legs and stepped over the overturned sofa to pour water for her.Hearing Qiao Xinxin's steady voice as usual, "I can move it. I've opened the door for you."

This is not the first time they have come to my house. Tingxia likes them both, especially Qiao Xinxin who is a little bit subtle as a female friend. I suspect that if I hadn't clarified in every possible way, she would have made decisions for my life without authorization.

Now Li Qianlan, a genuine man, couldn't hold back anymore, and hurried over to help me drag the luggage I packed from the bedroom, "I'll come."

"What are you going to do next?" He was worried.

I glanced at him, and reached out to wipe off the dust on the tip of his nose, "Let's live in another place."

That's easy to say.

First of all, the incident happened suddenly. Where can I find a suitable house in a short while?Even if you find it, it is not a problem to maintain daily expenses with the current income, what about the rent?What about the tuition fee for the next semester?

These problems have been bothering me until the four of us packed up all the things we could take away from the house. Xia Du looked at the sky outside and threw her wallet to me, "Let's take Man Lan and Xin Xin out for dinner. , leave me alone."

I held the brown leather bag in my hand, "Bring you a drawer of shrimp dumplings when I come back?"

She looked out the window, turned her head and waved to us, with a smile on her face, "Okay, let's go, eat something good."

I know she has her things to think about and I can't help.