REMIX

My back left the hard seat of the subway, and I lost all sleepiness. The whispers and commotions of the crowd were buzzing in my ears, as if I was in a huge beehive, with eyes greeting me with subtext, the girl turned her back Looking at the needle-like gaze, the shrunken shoulders trembled slightly, and the hair was stained with tears on the face.

I asked her in a voice that only the two of us could hear, did this person touch you just now?

The little girl suddenly looked up at me, her eyes were big and terrified, she held Xia Jie's sleeves with both hands, as if it was the last straw, she bit her lips and nodded vigorously.

The man was still stubborn and choked with Xia Jie: "What evidence do you have? Ah? Can't you be more honest with a big belly, and slander people with empty words..."

"If I have falsely accused you, I will apologize. But before that, please show the big guys first."

Xia Jie smiled angrily, his tone changed from agitated to sneering, narrowed his eyes narrowly, "Don't cover your pants with your bag, there are so many people around, you can't make a mistake."

The man's face suddenly became extremely ugly.

The dissatisfied accusations from the surrounding people became more and more loud, he picked up the black leather bag in his hand and threw it at Xia Jie: "None of your business...!"

I stretched out my hand and hit the bag on the ground with a snap.

The crowd backed away like ants, and the paper bag I was carrying fell on the subway-stained ground, spilling out the newly bought silk scarves and discounted daily necessities, and Xia Jie hesitated for a long time before The brooch she bought, she wanted to wear when she went to Zhou Jingyang's house to meet her parents the day after tomorrow.

I said, dare to do it.

My hat had just been knocked off, and I stood up half a head taller than the man, my hand hanging by my side was clenched into a fist, the cold white light in the carriage shone on my face, and out of the corner of my eye, I saw a [-] A [-]-year-old boy ran over, and at the instigation of a woman who looked like his mother, picked up the brooch and returned it to Xia Du.

"Stay away."

I slammed the dusty leather bag onto his chest, using the angular side to resist him and push him back.

"Smells like scum."

The subway station announcement came in time.

As soon as the side door opened, the passengers in the same car made a detour one after another. The man got out of the crowd like a loach, embarrassed and flustered, and soon disappeared.

The little girl sat in my original position, holding the deformed paper bag in her arms, and thanked Xia Jie non-stop. After a while, she raised her face to see me, the tears hanging on her cheeks were wiped away, and her voice was soft as if Mosquito said: "Thank you brother."

I took my things back and sat down in the empty seat next to her.

She got off at the same stop as us, and chatted with Xia Jie on the way. I didn't pay attention to the content, but I could tell she was a very polite girl.After getting off the subway, she solemnly said thank you again before leaving. Xia Jie said "be careful in the future", and she left the station in the opposite direction with her schoolbag on her back.

"Okay, let's go."

Xia Jiekong waved his hands back and forth, and his words were brisk: "Doing some good deeds can be regarded as accumulating virtue for the little baby..."

She took my arm to pull me up the escalator, but I stood still.

"mom."

She put away her smile and looked at me, as if she didn't understand why I was so serious, even with a trace of reproach.

"Before you speak, have you ever thought about what you would do if that man beat you if I wasn't there at the time?"

She didn't take it seriously: "I'm not dead, I won't fight back..."

"Is it the same now as before?"

Once the picture of the man hitting her with a handbag was played back in my mind, I just felt that she was so insane that people hated it. When I got emotional, I couldn't control my words, "Didn't you still go head-to-head with people ten years ago?" How old are you! Take care of the child in your belly, in case, I said in case, that man is a lunatic, if I touch you and push you, can I kill him? "

The light in her eyes dimmed, and she still wanted to argue with me: "Did I do this wrong?"

"That's right."

I took a breath, realized my gaffe, and softened my tone, "...But when you score, there are things that are feasible and unfeasible."

——"If you really can't sing for the rest of your life, it's useless to take their lives." I can finally put myself in the situation and understand Gong Junye's words. Any sacrifice can be replaced by equivalent value, and some people cannot afford it.

How much can not afford to pay.

I can feel that my words are too serious, and the matter may not be that serious, but it can't bear to think about it, everything is unexpected.I'm not the kind of person with a big heart, I can't be afraid when encountering such a thing, and I don't have the capital and skills like Gong Junye, enough to be responsible for every loss.

In fact, not even him.

The flow of people in the subway station gradually thinned out, and only Xia Jie and I were left on the platform. At this moment, we seemed to have switched identities. She bowed her head like a child who had gotten into trouble and was reprimanded by me. , and I am that fierce and tyrannical parent, I don't understand her slightest grievances.

She suddenly smiled.There is a trace of fine lines in the corners of the eyes that are not easy to be noticed. It is the kind of smile that adults start to rely on their children when they get older, with a little bit of flattery and perfection.

"I know, I won't do it next time...forgive me."

When the wind settled down, I heard her say: "...the baby has really grown up."

I was stunned for a moment.

The heart is like a premature fruit, squeezing out some sour juice.

I asked Gong Junye if I was weird.

I want her happiness more than anyone else, but I'm afraid she won't need me anymore.I am used to being dependent on each other, and I regard her as the reason why I must become stronger. Only by becoming her fortress can my growth be meaningful.

Only in this way can I repay her kindness for raising me all these years.

But how can the kindness be repaid.

I put myself in such a dilemma. On the one hand, I knew that the future would leave her calmly, so that I don’t have to put her dreams on me, and let go to do what I want; on the other hand, it is hard to let go Nostalgia, like a bird flying out of the nest, can't help but look back several times when it flaps its wings.Maybe every child has a contradictory life like me, but I am different from them.

Gong Junye said, that's why people need a companion.

——Just when Zhou Jingyang took out a diamond ring in front of everyone in the coffee shop, cheers and screams almost overturned the roof, and Xia Jie was still standing at the counter and accidentally spilled a glass of milk.

She said, you are stupid!What are you doing!Didn't you agree to meet your parents first? ?

He seemed to be completely unprepared, such recklessness was not in line with his style of acting, and he stumbled in his speech, but he still insisted on making it clear: "Because...the wedding dress won't fit any longer."

I suddenly felt that the room was so small that it was unnecessary for me to stand anywhere.