When the mirror ends

After Yu Feng settled down, Peng Zefeng went to work as usual.

He needs to deal with the accumulated patients as soon as possible, and he has been busy for another day. He wanted to leave work but because of his left-handedness, he decided to work overtime.

An extra day in a family like that would do a lot of damage.

He wants to take him out of fantasy as soon as possible and live independently.

After waiting for an hour, Zuo Yi finally arrived.

When he arrived, he began to talk about his worldview again. It took Peng Zefeng a lot of effort to take over the last question, forcing Zuo Yi to recall his "normal life".

Why is this happening?

Shi Xiangyang is human, but his body is dead.

What if our consciousness is in a virtual world?Then restoring a set of data is not a big deal.

How did they get together?

Zuo Yi thought he had forgotten.But at this time, everything about Shi Xiangyang is clearly arranged in his mind. From the first meeting to the beginning of contact, to the acquaintance, and finally to knowing each other and loving each other, all the memories emerged without falling.

The first meeting did not leave a deep impression, there are nearly 200 people in the whole department, and they are not too conspicuous to each other, and they are busy with the so-called social, so the two just met each other in a hurry.

(If I knew that I would lose you when I loved you so much later, then I must have loved you to the end of my life when we first met. Zuo Yi raised his head and wept. He didn't want to accept this memory again.)

The second time we met was in a public elective class, and we happened to sit together.When the teacher said to form a group freely, the two people I knew naturally formed a team.

The team formation that time was not very pleasant, because the two of them disagreed and quarreled very fiercely during the group discussion time. Zuo Yi was a character who refused to admit defeat when he was young, so he refused to give up even one step, and later said in a hurry. Some personal attacks were made, but the other party still carefully quoted scriptures to support their point of view.

It's just that the other party has a loud voice, so it seems that the other party is making trouble for no reason.

In the end, the teacher came to mediate, but they still refused to accept each other.

(It turns out that you used to be such a principled and stupid big guy, and you argued with me for half a class... But why did you treat me so unreservedly later? When you saw me, you wagged your tail like a stupid dog If you give me another chance, I will definitely not quarrel with you again, otherwise we will not need to take so many detours to get together, wasting so much time in vain.)

The group is fixed, so Zuo Yi is very annoying every time he goes to that class.

With the idea of ​​out of sight and out of mind, Zuo Yi skipped a few classes, but he didn't expect that the other party came to him directly.

Shi Xiangyang told him that if things go on like this, all left-handed attendance points will be deducted, and it will be difficult to pass the final exam. If they really hate him so much, then they can go to class in one or two weeks, and each of them will deduct half of their attendance. Because Zuo Yi hasn't been there for a few weeks, he won't go for the next few weeks, so that Zuo Yi can go to class with peace of mind.

Zuo Yi laughed suddenly, he felt that the person in front of him was like a golden retriever, straightforward and innocent, very cute.

The two went to the nearby Mala Tang to have a rub, and then they settled down, and the relationship became very good as before.

Because they belong to the same department, the dormitories are not far away, and there is only a length of a corridor between them, so the two often go to classes together, even if they are not in the same class, they will leave the dormitory building together as long as they are at the same time.

(This kind of daily life has been going on for a while, right? It almost makes me feel that the university is stable and peaceful. If those things didn’t happen later, then it’s not an exaggeration to call it the Garden of Eden. Do you think so? You won’t , because you don’t think they are full of malice, you always feel that the world is good.)

Later, when Xiangyang confessed to Zuo Yi, he did not do it in front of everyone, did not have a well-planned romantic scene, and did not prepare any decent presents as a token of love. He just walked on the path behind the apartment building on a leafy afternoon. When he told the other party his mind.

He said, Zuo Yi, I don’t know if you will feel disgusted, but I can’t walk beside you calmly as a friend every day, I want to break this relationship... I like you very much, like a lover.

This is the first time that Xiang Yang didn't speak in such a loud voice, but spoke softly and slowly, the first time he liked someone, the first time he confessed his love, the first time he spoke love words, I don't know how such a tone is possible good?Are you qualified?He was very disturbed and tried his best to maintain a superficial calm.

It was also at this moment that Zuo Yi suddenly understood how those heartbeats came from.

Not friendship, but love.

He has liked each other for a long time, and he fell in love when he knew it or didn't know it.

A couple walked by, they were holding hands, chatting and laughing very sweetly, Zuo Yi was very envious, but he still nodded to Shi Xiangyang, saying that I am too.

Maybe they will never be able to do all kinds of things openly like other couples, but if they like it, they like it. They are no less than others. Why should they avoid this emotion?

The idiot confessed.

Then he has to love him well, and he can't let the other party take the lead in everything.

Zuo Yi felt that he was exaggerating. He seemed to know how many leaves fell from those trees at that moment that day. Anyway, the number he counted was 203.

It happened to be the date of that day.

And they were together for four years and 203 days.

This time is not too short for many couples, and for him it is the treasure of his life, the happiest and best period of his life.

(So ​​how can you leave me alone? Pull me out of the gray cloudy sky and leave me alone.)

Zuo Yi lay on the table suppressing his feelings, the sound of sobbing made people feel distressed.

Peng Zefeng ran his fingers through Zuo Yi's soft hair, stroked and pressed gently, "I'm sorry."

I'm sorry to remind you of such a painful memory, but you must remember it and live on.

You have nothing to rely on, so you cannot escape.

Only those who are loved by others are eligible to escape, but you are not.

So you have to face your pain, overcome it, and start the next journey of life.

"Tell me, what did you go through in college? What did they do to you before and after that." Peng Zefeng did not soften his heart, he hoped to bring people out of endless fantasies as soon as possible.

Not all situations are suitable for taking it slow, and not all situations are suitable for gentle guidance. Sometimes only toughness can solve the problem.

"They...are not willing to accept us." Zuo Yi was still lying on his stomach, and his voice was muffled by the obstruction.

Peng Zefeng didn't let Zuo Yi get depressed anymore, he forced Zuo Yi to face himself, "What happened?"

Zuo Yi saw that Peng Zefeng remained silent, his mind was still full of the scene where they were together and the scene where Xiang Yang closed his eyes at the end, but it didn't take long for him to find that his mood miraculously calmed down.

Because Peng Zefeng was familiar with calming expressions and body cues, the other party soon began to think about the question he just asked: what did they do?What is it like?

After tidying up his thoughts a bit, Zuo Yi said:

"They kicked us out of the dormitory, and the girls also resisted us, and the few who spoke for us were forced to dare not speak. In fact, college students would not have much discrimination or malice against a same-sex couple. But a certain accident made us the devil that everyone blamed.

"They're not demons, we are. Even we thought so for a while.

"We killed a girl, a girl who loved Xiangyang very much. The girl was very beautiful, and she was our wife. They were childhood sweethearts and had a very good relationship. Xiangyang has always taken good care of her. It happened not long after Xiangyang and I got together. , the girl confessed to Xiang Yang.

"Xiang Yang didn't think too much, and just told her that he had a lover, and it was me. The girl was shocked and broke down in tears. Xiang Yang didn't know how to comfort the girl, so he called me over. But we didn't expect that she would be so hurt when she saw me. Big thrill, she screamed and rushed towards me and slapped me.

"Speaking out of words is just scolding, saying I'm disgusting, saying I'm a bitch, saying I'm trash seducing men... I was not angry, Xiangyang didn't do anything to her, I just pulled her away, but she looked at Xiangyang in shock, As if Xiang Yang had done something very wrong, she shook off Xiang Yang's hand and jumped off the roof.

"The people who were attracted to her because of her previous screams saw her expression of astonishment and disbelief, followed by the scene where she jumped down, and she said that she would never let us have a good time.

"The news that she was killed by us spread throughout the school, and we became people's vent. There were more and more people who abused and scolded us, and gradually it became 'Don't treat us like pests. It must be the wrong three views, it is rubbish!', no one in the whole school dared to show kindness to us.

"Wherever I go, I carry the sinner's blame on my back... Obviously I just want to comfort her, and it's clear that Xiangyang has nothing wrong with him. Why do we have to bear the malice of so many people? In fact, many of them can't say anything to the deceased. Mercy or any pursuit of justice, they just want an object to bear the malice they have nowhere to put.

"And we just happened to show up, so we will not only feel guilty for this for the rest of our lives, but also bear the inexplicable sanction from the 'Messenger of Justice'... Why? Just because we killed a glamorous girl...

"I understand everything, but I still ran away in despair. I dare not walk with Xiangyang, and I will not appear in school except in class, but this is not how we can live in peace. Violence and cold violence are both Yes... Finally, the counselor found a relationship for us and transferred to another school.

"During that time, I wanted to break up and drop out of school countless times, but Xiang Yang didn't let me do it. He always refused to agree to the separation. He said that we were not mentally prepared to be disapproved from the beginning, or even if we did. Is it still a decision to be together? Why give up on him?

"On the other hand, my family heard about this incident and started to put pressure on me, saying that if I don't break up with them, I will sever ties with them. They don't want to be a dead homosexual. They call me every day to scold me, saying that I have failed them and will harm them. Being pointed at, saying that homosexuality is the scum of society, let me go back to the right path.

"Xiangyang's situation is no better than mine, because two families are putting pressure on him, and I have always wanted to separate...he has to carry everything by himself, and he doesn't say a word when he is beaten or scolded, except for the point of not breaking up. Extra firm.

"I thought about it for a long time, and I chose to be with him very selfishly. Although we don't have our own homes anymore, as long as we are with each other, we are home, our home."

When Zuo Yi said this, his whole body collapsed, why did he force him to recall those things?He just needs to keep those memories related to Xiangyang... No, it's best not to have all the memories, it's too painful...

"Because no one has shown you kindness, so you choose to escape? You can't really resurrect people, you can only make your life not so bad, because you are just an ordinary person. What is a miracle and You have nothing to do, you can neither manipulate the world nor convince yourself thoroughly, you can only face the reality." Peng Zefeng's words did not have the slightest euphemism at all.

This is a world that has hurt you severely, but it is also a world where you have been happy. Are you willing to let sadness and pain be the dominant color of your world?

How do you regain the initiative without facing it?

Zuo Yi glared at Peng Zefeng with bloodshot eyes, "So ordinary people should accept it! It's too much to ask me to cater to the world if I can't fight back?"

Since I was a child, my family has only demanded me but not loved me. After finally meeting him, I was spurned by everyone. I persisted in my heart but was no match for natural disasters and man-made disasters... I have... already been very strong... But what should I do? Facing this world full of thorns...

Peng Zefeng did not answer Zuo Yi's question, but eased his expression, then pressed his forehead against the other's forehead, and said softly: "You have been strong for so long, please be stronger again, okay?"

Zuo Yi almost couldn't control his emotions, he sniffed and didn't let himself burst into tears, "Yeah."

His voice is very similar to the whimper of a breastfeeding puppy. The world is so miserable but he still wants to live well and be treated tenderly.

Tears filled his eyes, and he suppressed not crying.

I can't cry, the only place where I can cry is gone, so I can't cry, just be stronger, just for a while...

In the following time, Peng Zefeng reversed his previous toughness and was extremely gentle, chatting with Zuo Yi for a long time until midnight.

Before Zuo Yi left, Peng Zefeng gave him a card, "I hope you can find a new place and start from scratch."

Cary is the reservation deposit that Zuo Qian paid before, which is enough for Zuo Yi to use it as the first capital for starting a business.

Zuo Yi pushed the card back, "I can do it myself, I can find a job and save some money before I think about other things, such as setting up a small shop and opening a bookstore..." Zuo Yi laughed again, " But this will definitely lose money, so let’s build a coffee bookstore? What do you think, sir?”

I don't know why the dream of the big fool is to open a bookstore. Don't you think it is a luxury to have such a dream in the age of e-books?

"Since you don't want to take the card, then I'll return it. As for the coffee bookstore you mentioned, would you mind counting me in? I invest in your business, with [-] shares, you seven and I three, and then... remember to give me Save a spot."

"Do you know? Right now, my mind is full of 'Your Majesty can't do it'." Zuo Yi smiled for a while before saying again: "Thank you, I will definitely manage the bookstore well."

"Okay." Peng Zefeng nodded.

After being silent for a while, Zuo Yi got up to say goodbye.

When Zuo Yi was about to step over the threshold, Peng Zefeng said, "I don't care about the business. I'll be fined. You can follow his ideals."

Zuo Yi's nose was sore and he almost wanted to cry again. He took a deep breath and put on a smile again, "Well, for sure."

You are really gentle... probably there is no one you can't heal, right?You can always think about our future, and you are a little confused about what kind of beliefs you are engaged in this industry... But if I say "love", you will definitely divest...