When the mirror ends

Gu Wuyuan 5

For the second consultation, Gu Wuyuan still came to the clinic close to Peng Zefeng's off-duty time, but this time Peng Zefeng did not leave in a hurry, he just locked the door and asked Gu Wuyuan to sit across the table, just like treating ordinary patients.

"Hello, sir." Gu Wuyuan smiled, as if looking forward to this meeting.

"Hello, do you need some water?" Peng Zefeng poured himself another glass of warm water. He has been used to nine glasses of liquid warm water a day for these years.

"Is there any wine? Something stronger." Gu Wuyuan didn't drink fresh water for a long time.

"Yes..." Peng Zefeng stood by the water dispenser, maintaining a drinking posture, and looked at Gu Wuyuan with vain eyes. He finished drinking the water in the glass, "Taste well, and there will be no chance to drink strong alcohol in the future. Because, today I'll fix your taste problem, so you'll love lukewarm water."

Gu Wuyuan's eyes lighted up, "Is it really possible?"

Peng Zefeng eased his tone, nodded and said, "Yes."

Then he turned and went to the refrigerator to get wine and ice cubes.

"Yesterday you cooked hot pot for me, next time I will cook for you." Peng Zefeng said while pouring wine.

"Thank you, it would be great if I could have the honor to eat the dishes you cooked by yourself." Gu Wuyuan's state this time is much better than last time, because he didn't have a nightmare last night, nor did he dream that he killed himself, but was kept being Surrounded by a mass of warm light, the temperature was the same as the temperature transmitted from Peng Zefeng's hands when eating hot pot.

Mr. Peng must have some special power, which is different from the power of ordinary people. Gu Wuyuan felt that he was like a messenger of God, who came to this world to redeem people like them.

I don't know if the dishes made by such a person also have special powers?

"You're in a good state of mind today." Peng Zefeng also made a glass of ice cubes himself, but didn't pour the wine.

"Thanks to you, I didn't have any dreams last night, and I slept peacefully." Gu Wuyuan was very happy. For the first time in so many years, he felt that sleeping was such a beautiful thing.

"It will happen in the future." Peng Zefeng turned on the recorder under the table.

Gu Wuyuan took a big gulp of vodka, calmed down for a minute, and gave himself some mental training: "I said yesterday that I would tell you what I did to lead to the current situation, right?"

Peng Zefeng nodded, then poured another glass for Gu Wuyuan.

"You should be able to see that I have a phobia, right? I'll tell you about the source, that man." Gu Wuyuan talked about the terrible experience lightly in extremely simple language.

Now he is no longer afraid, because the temperature on his hands can really pull him out of the darkness and fear.

"Then I met him again in an unexpected place, and he attacked another child. The child was younger than me at the time, and had many scars on his body." Gu Wuyuan roughly compared the figure of the child to Peng Zefeng , "He is so thin and small. When I saw him, I sat crookedly and shivered."

Gu Wuyuan glanced at Peng Zefeng again. The other party was still as calm as ever. He took a deep breath and continued:

"I don't care about the purpose, I just want to send the child to the hospital as soon as possible, but I saw him when I started it. At that time, I really wanted to kill him, but the child is still important, so I turned the steering wheel and went to the hospital After completing the formalities, the hatred was suppressed, replaced by a steady stream of fear, I persisted until the child's family arrived and then went home.

"At home, I maintained the same posture until late at night. In the end I gave up resisting, and I chose a very extreme method. I drove to Heishi Tincture, found the room number where he lived, and went in to kill him.

"I tried hard, but I failed." Gu Wuyuan propped his hands on the table, and said his conclusion to the young psychologist sitting opposite him, who was calm no matter what he said.

"So you admit to everything you have done?" Peng Zefeng threw the recording pen under the table in front of Gu Wuyuan, "The police gave it to me, they will come and arrest you the moment you affirm what you just said you."

For Peng Zefeng, Gu Wuyuan was his patient, but he was helping another group of people without the patient's knowledge, which was beyond the scope of his principles.Even if Gu Wuyuan really killed someone and violated the law, this kind of request still made Peng Zefeng very uncomfortable, although the intention was stupid.

"Of course, I was reluctant to say it before because they listened to the result rather than the matter itself. They were not interested in what kind of mood I was in committing a crime and ruining the rest of my life. They just wanted to give me Convict them, and then show their glorious image of efficiency and eliminating harm for the people. But for me, I want to be redeemed."

He killed people, he was a criminal, but he was also human.Although it doesn't matter to him to continue to live freely, even if the police convict him and he is sentenced to death, it doesn't matter, but if he can make himself bow his head and plead guilty, then he won't be stuck in his own way Hom.

Gu Wuyuan is the captain of a rare rock band in China, and also the drummer in the team. He always faces the fans with a sunny side. No one would think that he would kill someone.

If he hadn't been picked out and became the protagonist of the child molestation case more than ten years ago, the police would not have thought of him.

That is the truth, and it is the shadow that Gu Wuyuan has never been able to erase.

Every night I wake up from a nightmare. No matter what kind of dream is warm or cold, it will be destroyed by that man and turned into a nightmare. The goodness in the dream at the beginning has become the raw material for fermentation. Pushing the fire to the extreme, it became a physical fear that consumed him.

Struggling to wake up in the dream, cold sweat drenched Gu Wuyuan's whole body, he got out of bed and threw the sheet and quilt into the washing machine, and then took a bath, and even in summer he didn't dare to take cold water, because the habit didn't make him numb, hot water He warmed his body but still couldn't stop shaking.

But at least it's not as hopeless as cowering in cold water.

In the question-and-answer session for fans, there was a question: How many times do you take a bath every day as a person with little sweat or even no sweat?

Twice he answered with a smile, once after work and once as dawn approached.

He smiled so beautifully that fans thought that he would take a shower every day before dawn to wake up because of his dream of waking up early to practice. They also wrinkled their faces and told him not to work too hard.

No hard work, he said.

It's just pain.

But he has been working hard to live a clean and beautiful life, and everyone thinks so, and he has always wanted to live as he showed, but he failed.

Not only did he fail, he also removed the source of his pain in extreme ways.

He was a loser from start to finish.

Gu Wuyuan's appearance is very handsome, different from Peng Zefeng's cool and handsome, he looks a bit ostentatious.He has been a cute and cute doll since he was born, and he becomes more and more lovable as he gets older. With red lips and white teeth and a unique voice for children, almost no one doesn't like him.

That's why he lived unsuspectingly, and that's why he stepped into the abyss of darkness.

At noon on a Friday in the fourth grade, he accepted the candy and biscuits from the security man at the school gate as usual, thanked him with a smile, and kissed the security man's side face before going to class.

This security guard likes the appearance of children very much. Every day, he brings a lot of candies and biscuits to the children who come to school, and then asks them to kiss his bearded cheeks. Just a middle-aged man, he has a good reputation among parents, students and teachers.

Gu Wuyuan also likes him very much. It should be said that most of the children like him. What they don't like is because they didn't get candy.

Why don't some kids get candy cookies?Little Gu Wuyuan also had such doubts, but quickly put them aside, because the biscuits are really delicious.

Then that day, when the security uncle told him to go find him after school, and he had something more delicious for him, he agreed without thinking about it, and even looked forward to it.

It wasn't until he was dragged into the dirty and messy old classroom in the abandoned teaching building of the school that Gu Wuyuan felt the fear belatedly. Why did this usually kind uncle laugh so disgustingly at this time?In Gu Wuyuan's eyes, the man's face seemed to be full of anticipation and he closed his eyes and took a bite of bread, but when he opened his eyes, he found that it was covered with dense green mold-like nausea.

But soon he discovered that it wasn't just the man's smile that was disgusting, there were even more disgusting ones.

He still can't forget the touch of those rough hands moving all over his body. The stench in his mouth and the sharp pain of tearing are engraved in his nerves, constantly tormenting him.

He stayed in the hospital for a month, and after two months of absence from school, he was still confused. Then Gu Jingnian directly sold the company and took him and his family to other provinces, starting from scratch.

In a strange environment, he couldn't tell whether he was more afraid or more at ease. A smile on a warm summer day would also turn into a tearing weed that entangled the drowning person. So what would wait in this strange place? What about him?

He didn't dare to speak for half a year. At first he was afraid that something would enter his mouth, and later he frantically rinsed his mouth because of the stench in his mouth. While communicating with his family, his cleanliness became very serious.

When I take a shower, I rub my skin over and over again, then curl up in the bathtub and soak for hours without moving until my skin turns pale, as pale as a swollen dead person.

It didn't take long for him to toss himself into the hospital again, because none of the skin on his body was intact, and he looked very frightened.This time, the doctor's diagnosis was preliminary depression and self-abuse tendencies, and I hope the parents will pay more attention.

When he was hospitalized, Gu Wuyuan often stared at his hands in a daze, without thinking about anything, just staring at his hands.

Even more reticent than at home, it seems that he has returned to the original point all of a sudden.

But Gu Jingnian and Zhou Shengshu did not give up, they took turns to accompany Gu Wuyuan, basically someone was watching him 24 hours a day.

His parents never showed any negative emotions in front of him, the most unnatural thing was the forced smile, which was so forced that it seemed to be crying.

But Gu Wuyuan didn't expect that they would really cry.

Waking up from a nightmare in the middle of the night, Gu Wuyuan mechanically walked to the bathroom, but heard a man's suppressed cry. He walked in and saw Gu Jingnian.

He stood quietly, and Gu Jingnian didn't notice him. He saw that Gu Jingnian had been wiping his tears, but he seemed to want to leave here again, so he kept splashing the tears on his face with cold water at the sink, but immediately There were new tears coming from his eyes, so he kept repeating the action of splashing water.

I don't know how long it took, when the man finally packed up his emotions and was about to walk out of the bathroom, he saw Gu Wuyuan, he was startled at first, then he hugged Gu Wuyuan gently, and said softly, "Baby, are you coming to the bathroom? Dad Waiting for you outside."

Gu Jingnian stood up and took a deep breath. When he walked out of the bathroom, he heard: Dad, I will be fine, don't cry.

Then there was the sound of a child closing the toilet cubicle door.

At that moment, all the strength in his body was pulled away, and he leaned against the cold white wall, wanting to cry but unable to cry, only the corners of his mouth heaved up and down.

As for Gu Wuyuan, as he said, the situation has improved visibly. He no longer cleans his body nervously, and starts to communicate with people other than his parents, and learns to laugh. He seems to be recovering to his original state step by step The way it used to be is sunny and beautiful at a glance.

He was forcing himself to change back, to be like a normal kid, even more positive than a normal kid.

He thought he had done it when he was in contact with the outside world, but when he was alone, he realized that it was just an illusion.He has been lying to himself.

To be alive was nothing but torture for him.

But... because that's changed now.

Gu Wuyuan smiled and lowered his head.

"It's enough for someone to understand my feelings." Gu Wuyuan took the recording pen on the table and pressed the delete button, "I will surrender myself, thank you for giving me the final choice."

Peng Zefeng stopped Gu Wuyuan.

Peng Zefeng: "Cry a little, I will lend you my shoulder."

The tear glands that had been dry since that day were awakened at this moment, probably only Peng Zefeng could understand how unwilling Gu Wuyuan was to be strong and optimistic, he just wanted to cry, and he didn't need to suppress it when he couldn't cry.

Gu Wuyuan: "Thank you for not only giving me a choice, but also giving me the right to be cowardly as a child."

The alarm bell rang outside the door, and Peng Zefeng looked at Gu Wuyuan with sharp eyes.

Peng Zefeng: "Did you call the police? Turn yourself in?"

Gu Wuyuan: "Before I came, I told my assistant to call the police for me. She is a silly girl, and she agreed to help me after crying for a long time. If I had the ability to love before then, I would definitely marry her."

Peng Zefeng's eyes were complicated, and he stopped walking towards the door.

Peng Zefeng: "Although you are committing intentional homicide, it is caused by the victim's serious fault, so you should only be sentenced to three years. I will ask the lawyer to help you squeeze the time, so don't be afraid, you will be fine. .”

A gleam of light flashed in Gu Wuyuan's eyes, but then dimmed again.

Gu Wuyuan: "But I can't even kiss, I can't even hug, it should be said that as long as it is physical contact, I am very resistant."

Peng Zefeng: "Come here."

Gu Wuyuan: "Huh?"

Gu Wuyuan walked over, and then he froze.

He found that the thing he was resisting was actually not that scary, at least now his feeling told him that it was warm and looked soft and sweet like cotton candy.

The other person's body was as warm and reassuring as his hands.

Peng Zefeng: "Don't be afraid anymore, everything will be fine."

Gu Wuyuan responded to Peng Zefeng's hug.

Gu Wuyuan: "If possible, please be my best man at that time."

Peng Zefeng: "Yes."

Gu Wuyuan: "Alright, let's open the door, Mr. Peng."

Peng Zefeng: "If there is no way to get you acquitted, then you can tell me what's going on in the prison. I also have connections with the police."

After speaking, Peng Zefeng opened the door.

Gu Wuyuan's gaze has been following Peng Zefeng's movements.

"It's really great to meet you."

It's never too late to be redeemed.