[net king] dead leaves

I

"Pain or end, which would you choose?"

When the lights were on that day, he found her at a glance on the street full of people coming and going.

He held her cool palm in his hand, and when he saw the dazzling red, he wanted to turn around and question her.But when he met her eyes, he found that whether it was her or himself in her eyes, the expression on his face was the usual smile.

Maybe they are really similar.

"What are you talking about, classmate Haiyinsi?" He let go of his hand and said with a smile.

The moment just now was just an illusion... even he was about to believe it.

So he, who has always had a good observation ability, could only decide to keep the answer at that time, because he couldn't make a good judgment with subjective thoughts, and this answer was very important to him.

Very important.

"The answer is obvious. Do you want to know which one I would choose?"

"But you will be one of the obstacles, whether you know it or not."

That was the first conversation he had with her after many days of absence.

At that time, he did not trust his intuition and the results he had observed during this period of time on the grounds that he had lost his judgment.He vaguely knew that he couldn't stay out of this matter. As an insider, he thought that what he had grasped must not be comprehensive enough.

But the authorities are confused, and the bystanders are not necessarily clear.

What's more, there are some things that only those who have been watching her will understand.

It's a pity that by the time he found out...or it should be said that he was willing to believe, it was too late.

"The best classmate."

"Thank you."

The wind ruffled her hair and scattered her voice.In the end, he could only guess these two words from the shape of his mouth.

Perhaps, this is all her last goodbye.

This is so cruel.

One year and two months—this is the time they met, and the time she endured.

Endure this world without help.

She lost Fuji Shusuke in that world, but re-acquainted Fuji Shusuke in this world.

But it took her a whole year to realize that they were two completely different individuals.

Maybe he has the same appearance, the same name, the same interests, the same personality, and the same circle as him, but he is not her best helper.

He is him, but not him.

It is impossible to connect to the timeline that was staggered once, no matter what the future holds.

But now she can't bear to lose again, even if it's just an approximate existence.

"Sorry, I still can't be your pity."

Ⅱ

There will be countless encounters in a lifetime, but the most ordinary one is something she will never forget.

But what is unforgettable is always the person, not the experience.

So when he left, all the memories became fragmented because the carrier was lost.

They have known each other for seven years, been classmates for six years, and friends for five years...

They also dated for three years and became a fiancé couple for one month.

All this was completely destroyed seven years later.

He died accidentally while traveling.

At that time, most of the people who accompanied him were teammates from middle school and high school clubs, such as Tezuka, Kikumaru, Kaji, etc., and they were all mutual friends they knew, so she was also very relieved.

As a result, Tezuka came to apologize to her afterwards with his belongings.

When they were climbing a mountain, he fell down with his bag, in order to save a college student of Tezuka.So all that remains is the scarf she wove herself, and nothing else, including their engagement ring.

If Tezuka hadn't pulled his scarf that day when he was about to fall, he probably wouldn't have even the last remnant.

After taking the relic's scarf from the other party's hand, she hugged it tightly with all her strength, even wishing to insert her nails through the skin into her own flesh and blood, as if she could ignore the piercing pain by doing so.

It felt like something was eating her heart, and every beat would involve her wound, making it so painful that she couldn't breathe.

In the end, there will only be a big hole left, and it may hurt, or it may not feel any more.

Was she still alive then?

"Kaiyinji, I'm sorry." Tezuka looked at her who had the same expressionless face as him, "I couldn't save Fuji."

"I know it's not Tezuka-kun's fault."

When she opened her mouth, she realized that her voice had begun to choke.

Tezuka just apologized once more and left.

This accident was not Tezuka's fault, nor was it that junior's fault.

Tezuka would come to apologize to her probably because he was the one who invited her fiancé to climb the mountain this time.

He is very good regardless of the relationship between the opposite sex or the same sex, so many people are sad for him, and many people comfort her.Those companions who went with him were all burdened with deep guilt, but she just told them not to mind every time.

The one who was gentle to everyone left, and everyone would be as sad as she was.

And she was helpless about that kind of sadness, which could not be replaced by any kind of emotion.

"Zhou Zhu, are you really willing to let so many people feel sad for you?"

Ⅲ

The first time he saw her, he didn't even know her name, but only recorded her appearance in the section of his memory that belonged to his classmates.

The second time, the third time, the fourth time...they just passed by, not even a nodding acquaintance.

I don't know how many times it happened, it was when the second grade was reassigned, she was assigned to the same class as him, and her seat was diagonally in front of him.

Only then did he realize that her eyes were always a little sad.

The corners of the mouth were curled into a smile, but the brows were slightly furrowed, as if he was forcing a smile or sympathizing with others.

I believe it will not be the latter.

Gentle and polite, treat people kindly.

This is everyone's evaluation of the two, and it is also a pair that the public is optimistic about.

He has never minded this kind of thing, and thinks it is good to let it be.However, if it affects the life of the other party, he is still happy to clarify the relationship between the two. After all, he still cherishes this friendship, no matter whether it will evolve into love in the future.

I have a little research on plants, I am interested in photography, and I know a little tennis... There are infinite topics between him and her, and she basically dabbles in all his interests; while she likes reading books, listening to music, watching movies, and visiting art exhibitions , Visiting photography exhibitions... To put it simply, what she likes are stories.

He thought it was fine.

But gradually getting along, the sad atmosphere when we first met became more and more intense.

Especially every time she calls him.

As if she had lost the most important thing, she had almost no desire for other things; and her smile looked more like a habit than happiness.

This must be his paranoia.

"Fu Er, the mock exam is coming soon." When the club activities were over one day, he happened to meet her who was leaving the library, and heard her say this.

He habitually walked to her side, "That's right, how are you getting ready?"

"It's because of this." She lowered her head suddenly, "I plan to study hard, and I won't see my classmate Fuji recently."

He paused for half a second, then quickly answered with a smile.

"Student Haiyin Temple, prepare well."

Originally, he thought she just wanted to spend more time studying, so she wouldn't go out on weekends or after school. Unexpectedly, her "not seeing each other" really meant not seeing each other again.

It's not that it's as simple as not going to the photography exhibition or watching him practice, but it's really completely cut off contact.

They no longer chat after class, no longer send emails to each other, and when they meet on the road, they just nod and pass by, almost returning to the state before they knew each other.

Moreover, she was avoiding him.

He began to tense up.In fact, he cared about her very much.

It's a pity that when he made up his mind to ask her the real reason, she just smiled and said nothing.

He really couldn't take it anymore.

"It's because Bu Er thinks too much."

"Then, after the mock exam, would you like to go with me to the photography exhibition mentioned last time?"

"……Um."

The days without speaking the first half of the sentence continued after that.

Perhaps taciturnity was in her nature, he could not help thinking.

The more he observed her in secret, the more he felt that she was different from the one he usually came into contact with.

It's like two different individuals with two different personalities, but the two personalities also have similarities at the root.

It's like two personalities split from one personality.

One with joy, one with sadness.

The happy one always makes people feel comfortable staying with her, and her smile can make the angry people calm down immediately, and they are happy to stay by her side; while the sad one is also smiling, but it is only for others The arc shown, the real her has no expression at all.

Occasionally, when he saw her side face, she with this expression appeared in his mind, without any sense of disobedience.

He desperately didn't want to admit to her self-destructive tendencies.

"Pity, I actually don't know you very well."

Ⅳ

"I like you, pity...you should know that."

"But I'm sorry, I'm not your Haiyin Silian."

If he could have noticed it earlier, or believed in his intuition, maybe he would have a chance to bring her back at this moment.

He still has not been able to understand the truth of the matter until today.

In the end, he still couldn't hold on to her, in every sense of the word.

This can be described as the most serious loss in his life so far.

"I didn't expect you to leave me here."

"Goodbye, pity."

The author has something to say:

Failed to practice short stories, wrote and ran away QAQ

But forget it~ The short stories here are written more casually~~~

If you don't understand, please explain the words below

This is the story of the second fiancée who was reborn and returned to the time when the two first met.

PART Ⅰ: Rei Kaiyinji's self-destruction is in progress

PART Ⅱ: Rei Kaiyinji before rebirth

PARTⅢ: Haiyinji Rei ten years later

PARTⅣ: Haiyinsi Rei ten years later only belongs to Fuji Zhouzhu ten years later, and Haiyinsi Rei Sutra ten years ago no longer exists, because it was replaced by her ten years later

END: Just as Rei Kaiyinji couldn't catch up with Fuji Shusuke who fell down the mountain ten years later, Fuji Shusuke ten years ago couldn't catch Rei Kaiyinji who fell from the building