Back to 49 days before death

With 24 hours before death, Zheng Ze had completely stopped thinking about it, and started counting down the clock, waiting for the last moment to come.

In the last 24 hours of his life, he didn't feel restless, tossing and turning, sitting or lying down, or pity others. He just slept comfortably until dawn.

While Ye Zichen was still thinking of ways to change the ending and fate, Zheng Ze had already started to bid farewell to the world.

After waking up, he came to Yu Yixin's ward after a morning jog as usual.

Yu Yixin was eating breakfast, when he saw Zheng Ze entering the door, he subconsciously stopped his movements, and then looked at him with a smile.

Zheng Ze was taken aback for a moment, and returned a smile.

"Are you going out?" Yu Yixin glanced at Zheng Ze's clothes, and keenly noticed the abnormality.

"Well, I have something to go out this afternoon." Zheng Ze didn't explain much.

"Come back tonight?"

Looking at Yu Yixin's expectant eyes, Zheng Ze's heart throbbed for no reason, and he tried his best to stabilize his voice so that it would not tremble: "I can't tell, maybe I will live outside."

Yu Yixin was a little disappointed, but he didn't know what he thought of, and soon his eyes lit up again: "Then... If you don't come back, can you call and say something?"

Zheng Ze pursed his lips in confusion, struggled in his heart for a long time, and finally nodded: "Okay, but it may be late, if you can't wait, go to bed first."

Yu Yixin didn't care, but insisted: "It's okay, I'll wait for your news."

The other party's eyes were so hot, Zheng Ze seemed a little embarrassed and uneasy under such gazes, he was afraid that he would not be able to control himself and tell the truth, so he said quickly: "Then you eat slowly, I'll go first .”

Walking towards the door, at the moment when his finger was about to touch the doorknob, Zheng Ze didn't know what happened, and suddenly stopped in his tracks.

"Yu Yixin!"

Yu Yixin was stunned for a moment, and looked at Zheng Ze in a daze: "Is there anything else?"

Zheng Ze shook his head, holding back the tears that were about to overflow from the corners of his eyes: "It's nothing, just to remind you not to forget to trim 'Taxue''s nails today. There is no cat scratching board here. Its nails have grown. Be careful not to catch people."

Hearing this, Yu Yixin nodded slightly and said with a sweet voice, "Okay, I will. Then you also remember to call me, and tell me if you will come back."

"En." Zheng Ze responded, turned around and closed the door.

There is no reluctance before parting, no sorrow when parting, Zheng Ze seems to have really gone out to do something, and will be back tomorrow at the latest.

But only Zheng Ze knew that he would not come back this time.

He had no way to say goodbye to Yu Yixin, so he could only say goodbye in this way.

After leaving the nursing home, Zheng Ze drove towards the city center at high speed.He has run out of time, but there are still many places to go, many places to leave his last memories.

With 12 hours left, he returned to the place where he lived when he was a child, an old-fashioned community built in the 70s.

It was heard that the residential building was going to be demolished, and most of the old residents had already moved out, leaving only a few elderly families who were unwilling to leave, sitting in the courtyard of the community to enjoy the cool air.

That's where he was most impressed by the concept of "home", but that's about to become a thing of the past.

Coming out of the community, he walked along the road at the gate to the elementary school not far away.

The basketball court blocked by barbed wire is the place where he, Qi Shaofeng and Lin Yu once fought, where their blood and tears flowed.

But now the concrete basketball court has changed, replaced with the latest plastic skin and a new basketball stand.The summer vacation is not over yet. There are not many people in the school, only a few sports-loving students are swaying their youthful sweat on it.

Zheng Ze went up to play two balls with them, and waved away after receiving a burst of cheers.

In the end Zheng Ze stopped on the road not far from the elementary school. That was the place where he first met Yu Yixin. The torrential rain concealed the footprints of pedestrians, but it couldn't hide the smile on the young man's face.

He just sat quietly on the road beside the street, until the sun had already set on the ground, and then he slowly started to walk towards the destination of his life.

The community of Yu Yixin's family is still so lively. When renting the house, Zheng Ze thought it was too noisy here, but now the noise has become a rare human feeling.

I haven't been back for a long time. The aunt in the fruit shop downstairs still remembers him. When passing by, the aunt even greeted him and told him that the new season of cantaloupe is sweet. Would you like two boxes?

Zheng Ze usually likes to eat this kind of fruit with a lot of sweetness, and buys three or five boxes from time to time to fill up the refrigerator.But this time he smiled and shook his head and refused.

Having not returned to this place for more than a month, when Zheng Ze saw everything in the room again, it seemed like a lifetime away.

Things are right and people are wrong, that's probably the case. Everything here has traces of his life, his sweet memories, and people he can't let go of, but he doesn't belong here anymore.

Zheng Ze pushed the door forward and found that Yu Yixin's room was unlocked.As the former owner of this room, he walked in familiarly.

Originally, he just wanted to find something, but when he opened the closet and looked at Zheng Ze, he was a little stunned.He left in a hurry that day and didn't bring many things with him.He thought that with Yu Yixin's temperament, he should have packed up these extra things long ago, but he didn't expect that pile of clothes to hang there intact just like he left.

It's as if he's not leaving, but just out for a trip, and when the sun goes down, he'll be back.

It's a pity that the pile of clothes waited for their owner, but they didn't wait for the owner to take them away.

Zheng Ze squatted down and rummaged in the closet. Sure enough, he opened the drawer and found the pair of diamond cufflinks in the compartment.

When he was in a car accident in his previous life, the cuff button on his right hand flew somewhere, but now it was lying there quietly.

It was the only gift Yu Yixin gave him on his 30th birthday.Mr. Zheng, who had never received any rare and exotic treasures, was so touched by a pair of small cuffs that he almost cried when he received the gift. He only felt that he was finally accepted, and the feelings he gave were finally responded to.

It's just that he never thought that the emotion at that moment was just a dream, and it didn't take long for it to become a dream.

Zheng Ze later found out that the pair of obsidian cufflinks cost the other party more than half a month's salary. With no savings, he usually lives frugally. That is to say, after he moved in, his quality of life improved a little.

After that, Yu Yixin went to the cafeteria to eat well for a few days, and dealt with it after finding something casually. If Zheng Ze found out that he was eating bread in the office at noon, I am afraid he would never say this in his life. .

When I thought of those things in my previous life, I felt ironic in my heart, but when I think of them again in this life, only a touch of sweetness remains.

He suddenly remembered Yu Yixin's expression when he gave him the cufflinks, with a bit of reluctance and hope.He thought, at that time, Yu Yixin should have been tempted, but this silly boy was too stupid to understand his own heart.

If he still has the chance, he must discipline that fool well, and teach him that when he meets someone he likes in the future, he must tell it clearly.If you don't confess your feelings and put your feelings on the surface, who will know what you are thinking.

If you hide or hold back, you will only miss precious opportunities.The most rare thing in a person's life is an opportunity.

Too bad he doesn't have that time anymore.

He didn't invite any aunt to clean up, but rolled up his sleeves and cleaned up the room by himself.

Although the room is not big, no one has lived in it for more than half a month. It is full of dust and has a musty smell.Zheng Ze seldom does housework on a daily basis, so it is a bit laborious to do it. When he finishes these tasks, the lights outside the window are already bright.

After finishing these, Zheng Ze took out the cuff buttons and carefully put them on the cuffs.He lay quietly on the sofa in the living room, waiting for the last moment to come.

At this moment, Ye Zichen's phone call came in.

His voice was anxious like he had never heard before, but with a bit of surprise, he couldn't wait to call out as soon as the phone was connected: "Hey, Zheng Ze, where are you, I found a way. Don't move now, I'll bring someone to find you!"

Zheng Ze looked up at the timetable, it was a quarter to nine: "Thank you, but it's too late."

After speaking, he hung up the phone and pulled out the calling card.

Just when he was about to pull out the battery, he didn't know what to think of, he stopped and turned on the video recording function.

He switched to the selfie mode, pointed the camera at himself, looked at the screen for a long time before slowly opening his mouth: "Yu Yixin..."

Unexpectedly, as soon as he called out that name, the door opened in response.

Outside the door, Yu Yixin couldn't hide his surprise: "I knew you were here. Why didn't you turn on the light?"

Zheng Ze hurriedly put away his phone and looked over in surprise: "How do you know I'm here?"

"Guess." Yu Yixin curled his lips and walked in without turning on the light, "I called Mr. Qi and asked him, but he said he didn't look for him, and when he called Jane, he also said that you didn't go to the company, so I I wonder if you are 'going home'? So I took a look with the heart of giving it a try, but I didn't expect that you are really here. Didn't you say that you will come back tomorrow? Why can't I wait to come back today? Home?"

Zheng Ze was a little panicked: "It's nothing, I just came back to find something."

"So did you find something?"

"I found it, and I'm about to leave." He stood up and wanted to leave.

"Wait." Yu Yixin keenly noticed the extra thing on Zheng Ze's cuff. He smiled and bent his eyes and said, "Since I found it, I should be fine, right? That's just right, can you leave the rest of the time for Me, I just had something to tell you."

The clock on the wall was ticking, and there were less than 5 minutes left.

Zheng Ze was a little anxious: "Can't you say something tomorrow if you have something?"

"I can't." Yu Yixin took two steps forward and took Zheng Ze's hand, "Because I can't wait."

Zheng Ze was stunned, the obsession line on his fingertips was so hot that it almost burned his skin.

The thread entangled him too tightly, he had no way to retreat, no way to avoid it.

"I wanted to talk to you later, but since I'm here today, let's talk about it together." Yu Yixin smiled slightly, even with a bit of embarrassment on his face, "Zheng Ze, you said before that we are We met outside your alma mater, so today is exactly 200 days since we met."

"A lot of things have happened in these 200 days. We went from unfamiliar to familiar, from familiar to unfamiliar, and finally experienced life and death together, and went through adversity together."

"Zheng Ze, I know that I have done many things wrong and missed many times before. But you believe me, I am no longer the stunned Qingyu Yixin I used to be. I understand what love is, and I also understand how I treat you. Feelings. I will never cringe again in the future, nor will I deceive myself."

"So..." He looked up at Zheng Ze, the orange light came in from the window and cast it on his side face, reflecting his smile brighter than the sun, "I want to ask you to give me a chance now , the chance to be with you for the rest of my life, are you... willing?"

Yu Yixin's every word, every word hit Zheng Ze's heart, those sweet and slightly shy words were enough to smash the fortress and melt the ice and snow.

Zheng Ze listened quietly, almost crying.

Those relationship experts said that no matter how much you like, don't rekindle your old relationship, because the resurgence of your old relationship will only repeat the same mistakes.

Zheng Ze didn't believe this, but believed in Yu Yixin. At this moment, he really wanted to give Yu Yixin a so-called "chance", but it was too late.

The countdown of life has begun, and he has lost himself.

Zheng Ze's body trembled slightly, and he spoke with a strong nasal voice: "Yu Yixin..."

Ten

"Don't be so stupid in the future."

nine

"Such a good temper will only make people bully."

Eight

"I won't be here in the future."

Seven

"You'd better be tough."

六

"Also when you meet someone you like, don't be like a dull gourd."

五

"Say what's on your mind."

four

"If you don't confess, how will others know."

three

"You have to take good care of Taxue, but you were also bullied by it."

two

"Yu Yixin, I don't regret meeting you."

一

"Yu Yixin, goodbye."

……

The voices in his ears became louder and louder, and the scene in front of him became more and more blurred. Zheng Ze felt that his body began to lean forward uncontrollably, the space began to tear, and the world was also turned upside down.

In the next second, screams and brakes rang in my ears.

"Boom..."

The world returns to silence.