Back to 49 days before death

Bai Xiaoyu still can't describe how he felt when he ran away from home to find Yu Yixin regardless of his parents' obstruction, but saw the two of them being intimate downstairs in Yu Yixin's house.

Shock, anger, or fear?

Maybe not, it's more of suspicion, he doesn't believe what he sees, he would rather it was just an illusion.

When Bai Xiaoyu recalled everything that day, it was still like a dream.

In a big city where he was unfamiliar, he found the apartment where Yu Yixin lived by relying on the address recorded on the courier slip sent back from Yu Yixin.He called Yu Yixin and wanted that person to come back to pick him up, but unfortunately, the phone rang for a long time but no one answered, and when he called again, there was only a beeping busy tone.

He didn't have an access card and couldn't contact anyone. In the end, he could only stand outside the gate of the community alone, waiting silently.

At that time, he was anxious, secretly happy, looking forward to it, and full of infinite hope.The only time he used his bravery was here, he only hoped to see that person, and hoped there was still time.

But he didn't expect that he was still late after all.

From morning to sunset, he didn't dare to leave for fear of missing that person's trail.Finally, at the moment of leaving people and returning home, he met the person he was waiting for.

With good eyesight, he recognized Yu Yixin at a glance even though he was separated from the gate of the community.

The man put one hand in his trouser pocket and held a bag in the other. His eyes were ecstatically looking at the small flower bed in front of him, as if he was waiting for someone.

After half a year, Bai Xiaoyu hadn't seen Yu Yixin for a long time, not to mention that he had traveled thousands of miles just to find him, so he was naturally very excited to see someone now.

He opened his mouth excitedly, wanting to call out that person's name, but he lost his voice in the next second.

Because, the moment he uttered the first word, another man rushed out from behind before him.He hugged Yu Yixin's waist and put his chin on Yu Yixin's shoulder without saying a word, and licked twice coquettishly.

That's what they used to do when they were young. He likes to see the man frowning anxiously, and listens to the man coaxing him softly. So every time there is a conflict over a trivial matter, he always loves to cry out. Hidden without saying a word.Then when the man was annoyed because he couldn't find him, he suddenly rushed out, hugged the man, threw himself on his back, put his chin on his shoulder, and said fiercely: "How dare you?" Don’t be mad at me, dare you?”

When he was a child, Yu Yixin would always turn his head away, rub his face against his face, and then helplessly admit defeat, replying: "Don't dare anymore".

And at this time, that person did exactly that, without turning his head, he pulled out his hand from his trouser pocket, put his arm around the person behind him, and rubbed his cheek.

What a familiar action, but unfortunately the target has changed.

Bai Xiaoyu was dumbfounded, he couldn't believe what he saw, he couldn't believe that it was the person he had been waiting for all day.

He wanted to know crazily who that man was, why he could stand beside Yu Yixin, why he could be so close to him, why... stole his position.

However, this scene was just the beginning, and everything after that was what really broke Bai Xiaoyu the most.

Bai Xiaoyu didn't know what was going on in him, instead of looking for Yu Yixin, he hid secretly, and even followed the two of them like a thief.

He knew that he was not a professional and could be easily spotted, so he could only watch from a distance every time.

The day he arrived happened to be Friday, and the next two days were off, so he followed the two of them for two days like a fool.Watch them go to the supermarket to buy daily necessities together, watch them buy food, watch them joke and play, and even watch them kiss secretly in corners where no one is paying attention.

That was the Yu Yixin he had never met before, who would snicker, get angry, raise his eyebrows and say nothing, just waiting for that person to beg for mercy.

All of this was beyond Bai Xiaoyu's understanding.

He was surprised to find that it was only half a year, why did everything change?

Why was that man able to secretly pull Yu Yixin to a corner for a forced kiss on the way home, but he could only obediently hide behind his back and be a well-behaved and sensible brother?

Obviously he was the one who met that person first...

Yu Yixin's figure has been integrated into his life since he can remember, that person is always infinitely tolerant, never gets angry with him, and takes care of him so meticulously that he even forgets that that person also has his own life.

But, how can...

How could that person, how could he be with others after he got used to his gentleness, his protection, and every minute and every second of his life.

He never thought that Yu Yixin would fall in love with someone else one day, and he never thought that all the kindness that person treated him would be imposed on others, and it would be more than that.

But the most hateful thing is that if it's a woman, it's fine. He knows that he will never be able to bear children for that person, so he doesn't ask that person to "cut off children and grandchildren" for him.But he never thought that it would be a man who snatched Yu Yixin away in the end.

And it was an old man ten years older than him...

Why, he is the one who loves Yu Yixin the most!

Yu Yixin's stern voice, which was about to utter, became pale and powerless in front of Bai Xiaoyu's sudden confession. He opened his mouth dumbly, and could only refuse, "I... I always regarded you as my younger brother."

"I know, I know... so what? You just want to reject me directly?" Bai Xiaoyu begged bitterly: "Brother, am I not good enough? We grew up together, and no one knows you better than me , and no one loves you more than me. Look at that person, he is clearly a frivolous person, he can only say some nasty things, he..."

"Xiao Yu!" Yu Yixin couldn't help interrupting him, "He's not that kind of person."

"Not that kind of person? You heard what I said just now, he could seduce me in front of you, and even gave me this business card!" Bai Xiaoyu's eyes flooded with tears, "Brother, forget about him, don't talk to me He contacted, I will love you very much..."

"Don't talk about Xiaoyu!" Yu Yixin closed his eyes, took a deep breath, shook his head and said: "You don't understand, emotional things are not as simple as first come first, first come first, and it's not as simple as forgetting. Zheng Ze There are indeed many bad things, but in terms of feelings, he has never been sorry to me, on the contrary, it is me who has been doing wrong."

"Brother..." Bai Xiaoyu cried miserably, tears kept falling down.

Yu Yixin took a step forward, trying to comfort him as before, wiping the tears off his face, but after raising his hand, he still took it back.

Shaking his head, he said in a low voice: "Don't cry, Xiao Yu, when you grow up, you will understand that the love you have for me now is just an illusion, you are too young to know how to control yourself mood."

"I understand, I just like you, brother..."

Seeing this, Yu Yixin was helpless, he hesitated again and again, finally took a deep breath, and gave the most decisive answer: "But I don't like it."

"Xiao Yu, you also know that I am very stubborn, and I will never change easily. I have always loved you as a younger brother. I have never thought about changing and it is impossible to change, so you..." Zheng Ze paused After a pause, Fu continued: "So stop talking about these meaningless things, I will protect you for the rest of my life, just because you are my younger brother, there is no other possibility. As for the matter between me and Zheng Ze, I can forgive you I made a mistake for a while, but I won't trust you again in the future. Xiao Yu, you can do it yourself."

After speaking, Yu Yiyi ignored Bai Xiaoyu's persuasion, turned around and left.

Bai Xiaoyu's face was ashen ashes, she stared at Yu Yixin's back in a daze, and fell heavily to the ground.

He knew it was over between them, and the 18-year relationship had been burnt after he said those words and did what he did.In the days to come, he could only look at that person from a distance, completely losing the right to stand by his side.

And all of this is because of that man...

"Zheng Ze, I will make you regret it..." Bai Xiaoyu tightly grasped the business card that Zheng Ze gave him before leaving, his face was full of resentment, that delicate face was distorted and distorted, no more Back to the original simple and lovely appearance.

After being so delayed by Bai Xiaoyu, Yu Yixin came out late after all.By the time he chased to the gate, Zheng Ze had long since disappeared.

He looked at the rushing traffic in a daze, he didn't know which car was sitting in the person he was chasing, he only knew that what they took away was his last hope.He had been waiting for Zheng Ze to come to him, wanting to take the opportunity to talk again, trying to restore the relationship he had lost, but he didn't expect that by accident, he heard those...

In fact, he arrived at the small garden quite early before, and he thought that Zheng Ze might not have left yet, so he tried to search along the way to see if there was a real relationship between them.

In the end, it proved that the fate between them is really not shallow, but it is a pity that it is only a bad fate.

More than half of Zheng Ze's molesting words fell into his ears, and it was hard for Yu Yixin to tell what kind of mood he was feeling at that time.His rationality told him that Zheng Ze's words were just teasing. Isn't that man with that kind of temper, very unprincipled, able to joke around with anyone?But emotional matters can't be controlled by reason, and he really listened to the words, but he couldn't stop doubting, what should he do if it is true?

He was like a boudoir, thinking that if that person really didn't love him anymore and started to be interested in others, what should he do?Take it back, or let him live his own life?

At that time, Yu Yixin only felt that a knife had been stabbed in his head, and every time Zheng Ze said a word, the knife would deepen, and in the end it had completely stabbed his heart.

It was as if there was a drum next to his ear, and the pounding made his ears hurt.

He would rather the drum be louder, so that he could pretend he didn't hear anything, and greet that person with a smile.

Unfortunately, it backfired.

Slumped on the bench by the door, Yu Yixin took out his cell phone from his pocket, dialed the deleted number several times but got no answer, then he silently closed the dialing interface and switched the screen to Go to the first page of your phone's camera roll.There was a separate photo there, which Yu Yixin carefully hid, the only photo of the two of them together - downloaded from the threatening email Bai Xiaoyu sent him.

Yu Yixin is usually polite and restrained in his words and deeds, and only when he is with Zheng Ze will he lose his temper that a person of his age should have.

It was only after seeing those secretly taken photos that he realized that he had so many expressions.

He would also be dumbfounded by Zheng Ze's childish behavior, would quarrel for a long time because of a gift, could not help but peek at that person, and would change himself because of him.

That feeling has long been integrated into his life unconsciously, but he discovered it too late and acted too slowly.

Holding the phone tightly, Yu Yixin's mind suddenly went blank. He didn't know what he thought of, but there was a faint smile on his face.

Staring blankly at the sky, he didn't stand up until the burning clouds in the sky also subsided, and walked slowly back to the nursing home.

What Yu Yixin didn't know was that after he left, at a corner not far away, a majestic Cherokee slowly drove out.