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Zhou Shiqin drove Zhou Luo out of the hotel quickly. Sitting in the car, Zhou Luo couldn't hold back anymore, and tears fell down his face. He leaned against the car window, heartbroken.

Zhou Shiqin frowned, and softly called out in distress: "Zhou Luo..."

Zhou Luo shook his head vigorously. He really didn't want to cry anymore, but tears were like a faucet turned on and couldn't stop at all.

He said in a trembling voice: "Brother Zhou, please, don't talk to me now..."

Zhou Shiqin sighed deeply, looking at Zhou Luo who was crying so hard, he also felt uncomfortable; while Su Jingyan, who had been following them silently, also felt uncomfortable seeing Zhou Luo like this.

Zhou Luo cried all the way until the car stopped, he was still crying and couldn't stop even if he wanted to.He felt that he was such a failure. He liked such a person when he grew up. It can be said that he gave his whole heart and soul, but in the end it was nothing.

That person tugged at every nerve in him, and he suddenly felt an indescribable feeling. When will he be able to calm down and not feel heartache when he thinks of Gao Yu?

I'm afraid it will take a long time, right?

Zhou Shiqin and Su Jingyan in the car sat there quietly accompanying him.After a long while, Zhou Luo fell silent. He sat there leaning against the car window in silence.

But Su Jingyan couldn't hold back any longer, and asked Zhou Shiqin in a low voice, "Where is this place?"

"my home."

"Your family?" Su Jingyan was taken aback: "How many families do you have?"

"This is another residence."

"Oh." Su Jingyan looked at it: "Understood." Clearing his throat, he asked Zhou Luo softly, "Xiao Luoluo, do you want to get out of the car and sit at home?"

Zhou Luo stabilized his emotions and whispered: "Thank you."

"Zhou Luo, let's get out of the car, Jing Yan is right, let's go home." Zhou Shiqin said softly.

Zhou Luo nodded blankly.

When they got home, they sent Zhou Luo to the bedroom to let him lie down for a while, before Zhou Shiqin spoke up to comfort him. He said softly, "Zhou Luo, I'm very sad to see you like this. On the first day of the new year, I still hope that you Can cheer up and try to forget these unpleasant things, okay?"

Zhou Luo felt sour in his heart, and nodded with tears in his eyes.

Zhou Shiqin raised his hand and gently touched his soft hair: "You can sleep in peace, I won't let anyone disturb you again." After Zhou Shiqin finished speaking, he gently kissed Zhou Luo's forehead pitifully: "Go to sleep, When you wake up, everything will be fine."

"Brother Zhou." Zhou Luo called him softly.

"Ok?"

"I..." Zhou Luo pursed his lips, weighed it over and over again, and said embarrassedly: "Is there... a place where I can take a bath? I... have to clean it up."

Zhou Shiqin was stunned for a moment, then understood, and nodded: "Yes. You wait for a while, I'll send someone to prepare hot water and heating."

"Thank you."

Zhou Shiqin looked at him, sighed silently, turned and left the bedroom.

After Yang Yifan determined the location of Zhou Shiqin's car, Gao Yu drove straight to the road and ran away. When he was about to reach Zhou Shiqin's house, he was blocked by a car that came suddenly. If he hadn't braked in time, Really almost hit it.

Gao Yu was angry, and now he was even more angry. He wanted to scold him when he got out of the car, but he saw Shen Yuesong getting out of the opposite car.He quickly put away his emotions and prepared to get in the car and take a detour.

"Child." Shen Yuesong called him to stop.

Gao Yu was already upset enough, he really didn't have any other energy to deal with this old man, he scratched his hair irritably, and responded perfunctorily.

Shen Yuesong walked to his side, looked at him, and said with a sullen face, "Come with me."

Gao Yu frowned: "What's the matter?"

"come over."

There was no way, Gao Yu could only follow, and then Shen Yuesong got into the car, he stopped in front of the car door, and asked, "Why are you in the car?"

"Get in the car." Shen Yuesong just said two words, sonorous and forceful, irresistible.

Gao Yu breathed out, got into the car obediently, and the car started slowly, getting farther and farther away from Zhou Shiqin's house, until it reached the expressway.

Shen Yuesong was speechless all the way, and Gao Yu also remained silent. After a long time, he watched the car get on the expressway before he asked, "Where are we going?"

"Us? Who are we? You don't even call a grandfather, my old man expresses his displeasure." Shen Yue gave him a blank look.

"..." Gao Yu cleared his throat, a little reluctantly: "Grandpa."

Shen Yuesong hummed, and cleared his throat: "You child, on the first day of the new year, you should calm down."

Gao Yu grimaced sadly and didn't answer.

Shen Yuesong sighed: "You look like this, which makes people very uneasy. I originally thought of letting you go, but now it seems that I have to change my mind."

Gao Yu looked at him and said speechlessly, "I'm already 22." The implication is that I'm not young anymore.

Shen Yuesong looked at him and smiled slightly: "Son, even if you are 32, you are still a child in the eyes of my old man. What's more, you have to get rid of some of your bad habits. Bad temper and selfishness are two of them. , especially your selfishness, which is very disliked."

Gao Yu frowned even more, and said unhappily, "Am I selfish?"

"Aren't you selfish? That child has spent so much time and energy on you. He is tired now. He wants to leave you and calm down by himself, but you keep pushing. See for yourself What kind of situation is that child? Run away when you see you, take a good look at yourself."

Gao Yu pouted, speechless.

"You said it yourself, what do you call selfish? You just care about your own feelings and don't care about other people's life or death. This is simply extremely selfish."

Gao Yu closed his eyes dully, he was really speechless by Shen Yuesong's words.

Shen Yuesong looked at him: "What? No more words to say?"

Gao Yu opened his eyes and exhaled, "Are you done? Let them find a place to park when they're done."

"It's a highway, you can't stop."

Gao Yu pulled out his phone depressedly, ready to make a call.

Shen Yuesong stretched out his hand to hold him down: "Your grandfather hasn't finished talking to me yet, wait until I finish." Then he said: "What's the hurry, it's yours, sooner or later it's yours; if it's not yours, you can do everything you can It's not yours either."

Gao Yu changed his posture and scratched his hair impatiently: "If you have anything to say, tell me."

Shen Yuesong took a deep breath, was silent for a while, and then slowly asked: "Have you ever ridden a tricycle?"

Gao Yu didn't understand why he asked such a question, but he replied obediently, "I've sat down."

"Bicycle? Motorcycle, bus, train?"

Gao Yu snorted: "Of course I have ridden all of them. Besides buses, trains, I have also ridden bicycles and motorcycles."

Shen Yuesong smiled faintly: "What about the plane?"

"Take your luck and sit down."

Shen Yuesong felt ashamed, sighed, calmed down, and continued to ask: "Then which means of transportation do you like best?"

"It doesn't matter." Gao Yu said lightly: "It's just a means of transportation, what do you like or not?"

Shen Yuesong smiled and looked at the front: "Yes." He paused: "I remember when your father was very young, I bought him a lot of toys, almost all of them were cars, all kinds All kinds of toy cars, when I got home, he would take my hand and say, Dad, I want to drive when I grow up. I asked him, what car do you want to drive? He looked at a lot of toy cars , Picking and picking, but I don’t know which one to choose. Later, when he was older, I took him on a plane, and he suddenly pointed at the plane and shouted, I want to drive this car, and said that when I grow up, I must Be a pilot. But later, as he got older, his knowledge became wider and his vision became higher and higher, and even after we bought a private jet, he felt that flying a plane was not as comfortable as flying a plane.”

Gao Yu frowned: "Grandpa, you talk so much, I think it's not just for me... Your son is so simple, right?"

Shen Yuesong looked at him: "I'm going to see him in a few days, and then you will call him Dad, right?"

Gao Yu froze and didn't reply.

Shen Yuesong sighed: "You have to shout, no matter what, he is your father, and he doesn't know that your mother left with his flesh and blood. Some things were done by my grandfather, you have to distinguish clearly."

Gao Yu chuckled: "What's the use of being indistinguishable? Anyway, my mother is gone."

Shen Yuesong looked at him firmly, then lowered his head, thought for a while, and said again: "Well, that's right."

"Grandpa, you let me get in the car to talk about this with me?" Gao Yu asked.

Shen Yuesong shook his head: "No, I want to talk to you about you and that child. It's just that when I talked about your father just now, I couldn't hold back all of a sudden, it got a bit far away."

Gao Yu lowered his head and played with his hands: "You want me to leave him?"

Shen Yuesong nodded: "Yes, leaving him is good for both you and him."

Gao Yu smiled wryly, raised his head, and his eyes danced with sadness: "Leaving him? It's easy for you to say, and I won't leave him either. I can leave you, the Shen family, anyone, even him. I can't do it." .”

Shen Yuesong was stunned: "Son, don't be so excited, just listen to me."

Gao Yu shook his head: "No need, I won't leave him no matter what you say."

"So you are selfish." Shen Yuesong shot back at him.

This made Gao Yu very unhappy. He was startled, and finally discouraged: "Say it."

Shen Yuesong showed a satisfied smile, and slowly said: "The thing I told you about your father just now is actually to tell you a truth, people will change, with the passage of time, coupled with the broad knowledge, along with The eyes will be raised, and the angle of seeing people and things will become different."

"What do you mean?" Gao Yu didn't quite understand.

"What I mean is that you are a descendant of my Shen family. Your eyes should not be limited to a man, and you still look like you are dying." Just as Gao Yu was about to open his mouth, Shen Yuesong said first: "Don't tell me anything True love, my old man has lived such a big life, I have never seen anything."

Gao Yu snorted: "So, that's how you broke up my mother back then, right?" Then he said: "Your principle is not suitable for me."

Shen Yuesong's expression froze: "Yes, that's how I separated your parents, but in the final analysis, it was your father who let him go, because he sees things differently, and his perspective of thinking about things is also different, so in the end He chose to give up the relationship with your mother and chose your Aunt Fang."

Gao Yu snorted again: "Why, do you want me to hate him even more by saying this?"

"I haven't finished my words yet." Shen Yuesong said without changing his face.

Gao Yu paused with a sullen face, and Shen Yuesong continued: "I did not cause your parents to get to where they are today, nor is it your father's fault alone. There are some things that you, as a younger generation, don't know, but I must Let me tell you, your mother is different from that child Zhou Luo, so I won’t talk to you about what kind of person your mother is, let’s talk about Zhou Luo.” He looked at Gao Yu and asked, “Do you think that in your eyes Zhou Luo What kind of person is Luo?"

Gao Yu thought for a moment in silence, what kind of person Zhou Luo is, he seems to have never thought about this question, recalling all the things he has been with Zhou Luo for so many years, he feels a little guilty in his heart.

"He..." Gao Yu whispered: "He is too stupid, too kind, too soft-hearted, but also too cowardly."

"Yes, that child is indeed too stupid, so stupid that he has no self, so stupid that he only lives for others." Shen Yuesong sighed: "However, in my eyes, I think he is not cowardly, but very strong. He is like...a tricycle, yes, it is a tricycle, and it is a small tricycle carrying dreams, hopes, pressure and you. He is working hard on his life path, even in the face of his mother. Abandonment, your cynicism, and later when a man became pregnant, he faced it alone. Although you lived with him, you did not work hard with him, but let him carry you, Carrying you all the way to the present, do you know that he is very tired, think about it, a small tricycle carries so many things on it, just you, it is almost unbearable for him Not to mention there are others, so over time, he will collapse sooner or later, and he will be scarred and stop walking."

Gao Yu sat there and listened quietly, thinking about it and regretting it in his heart.

Shen Yuesong continued: "The little tricycle has been injured and can no longer work normally. You should get off him, let him rest easily, let him return to himself, and go on the road again to pursue what he wants."

Gao Yu didn't know how to answer for a moment, he murmured: "You say that, as if all I brought him was pain and fatigue? I... among other things, he loves me, and I love him too. The two of us...maybe it's only because of the things between our parents that we have come to this point, I now know that I was wrong, and I will treat him well in the future. "

"If you love him, you should let him go..."

"What are you talking about? I love him, why did you let him go?" Gao Yu interrupted him unceremoniously, and said angrily, "What do you mean by saying so much? Don't you just want me to be happy? "

Shen Yuesong looked at the distraught Gao Yu, and frowned: "Son, you are my grandson, of course I hope you are happy, but at the same time I also hope you can mature."

"Mature?" Gao Yu snorted, "Then tell me, what's the standard for a person to be mature? Hmm? Could it be that he is like a bastard like Zhou Shiqin, who keeps one thing on the surface and keeps another on his back, and sneaks in and puts on airs?" of?"

"There is no standard for a person's maturity, but what I call maturity is financial independence, psychological independence, whether one is prudent in dealing with others, whether one thinks about things comprehensively, and, most importantly, whether one knows love."

Gao Yu made a sharp cut: "That's what you said, and what I said was that I wanted to say fuck your mother in my heart, but I said you were awesome. Grandpa, just like I treat you, Shen Shijie and Fang Hui, if I'm not enough Mature, even if you kneel down to me, I will not go home with you, let alone promise you to go to the United States to meet Shen Shijie."

After hearing these words, Shen Yuesong suddenly felt sad, he stared at Gao Yu in a daze, and did not speak.

And Gao Yu's mind was messed up at the moment, upset, and his heart, which had finally calmed down, suddenly became irritable again, and even began to curse in his heart, talking about bullshit, ruining all his plans.

He scratched his hair and said to the driver: "Find a place to get off the highway and stop."

The driver didn't answer, Shen Yuesong said: "You are showing immaturity, don't deny it, as long as what others say doesn't mean it to you, you will get angry; Get angry, or even run away, because you don't want to admit it, your child is selfish and doesn't understand love and likes to deceive himself and others."

As if being stared at by someone, Gao Yu exploded, his eyes widened, his fists clenched, his lips pursed, his eyes as sharp as a falcon, staring at Shen Yuesong.

And Shen Yuesong looked at him without changing his face, without the slightest fear, but met his eyes meeting his eyes.

After a while, Gao Yu surrendered and said displeasedly, "Okay, I'll show my maturity today, and I want to see what else you can say."

This made Shen Yuesong laugh. He shook his head helplessly, thinking to himself, he is really childish. He collected himself and said in the tone of a grandpa to his grandson, "Son, what grandpa said you don't understand love is true. Because you only see your own pain, but not the scars of others. You lost your mother, and Zhou Luo also lost him. You use him as a punching bag, but he regards you as the person who cares for you. This is the relationship between you and him. The biggest difference is that he knows how to love, how to be tolerant, and how to think about things from your point of view.” Speaking of this, he sighed with emotion: “Besides, that child, you have low self-esteem, don’t you see it? "

Gao Yu hesitated for a moment: "I've lived with him for so many years, and I'm not blind, of course I can tell."

Shen Yuesong let out a sigh, and sighed: "I won't say it in front of others, but in front of you, he also has low self-esteem. In love, there is a person who has low self-esteem and always keeps a low profile in front of another person. Do you think he will Do you feel good?"

Gao Yu blinked and remained silent.

Shen Yuesong smiled: "Grandpa knows that you understand it in your heart. I have said so much, but I just want to tell you that you two should separate for a while, let him be quiet, and let that child put the center of life on himself, for the sake of You are busy, and you also need to get off the tricycle to enrich your experience. For example, if you want to go fast, you must take a car or a bullet train. If you want to fly high, you must take a ride. airplane……"

Hearing this, Gao Yu became a little unhappy again: "Are you asking me to leave Zhou Luo and choose someone else?" He snorted: "You can't figure it out, and after going around such a big circle, you actually let me go in the end." Talking about love with other people is really hard for you. Then I am very embarrassed to tell you here, I can't do it. "

Shen Yuesong frowned: "Why don't you listen to me, kid? My old man didn't say that."

"Then if you compare Zhou Luo to a tricycle, don't the others be other people?" Gao Yu said angrily, "Okay, I don't want to listen to your long talk anymore, let your driver find a place to park."

Shen Yuesong looked at him, and said sullenly: "The old man's words mean that during the time you leave Zhou Luo, you should work hard to make yourself excellent and capable of taking care of him, instead of letting him take care of you." You, get in touch with many things and people, and let yourself be strong and reliable when you stand in front of him again, instead of losing your temper every now and then, throwing a face, or even saying that it hurts without your brain the words of man."

Gao Yu felt his face burn as if he had been slapped in the head, and he sat there silently with a sullen face.

Shen Yuesong patted him on the shoulder, and changed his tone: "Son, I can't decide your life, and I won't stop you from being with that child in every possible way like before, but I want to say something, if a relationship If it makes both you and him feel tired, then it's wrong." Pause, and persuade: "If you are reluctant to give up, then give each other time to calm down."

Gao Yu smiled wryly and breathed a sigh of relief. Suddenly his nose felt a little sore, and he said softly, "But I'm worried, he left with someone else."

"That means that your love is not that firm." Shen Yuesong said, "Is what Grandpa said right?"

Gao Yu bit his lip and remained silent. After a while, he nodded: "I understand."

Shen Yuesong smiled: "Grandpa hopes you really understand." He breathed a sigh of relief: "Actually, at your age, is love that important? Don't miss other things."

Gao Yu lowered his head and said nothing.

Shen Yuesong asked the driver to get off the expressway, and then stopped at a certain intersection. He said, "Son, there are two roads at this fork. One is to return to the original road, and the other is to go in a new direction. You can choose by yourself. The car is left to you. My old man took the bus and left."

Gao Yu stood alone in place for a long time, thinking about Shen Yuesong's words, and Zhou Luo's little things...

At a certain moment, he made a decision. The moment he got into the car and drove away, he almost turned the car into a ditch because his hands were shaking so badly.

He used great willpower to force himself not to collapse; he hates himself so much now, he doesn't blame anyone when he has come to the point where he is like a stray dog ​​today, everything is caused by himself.

His heart throbbed violently, feeling like the sky was falling apart; Gao Yu couldn't imagine how he would spend the days to come without Zhou Luo by his side.The pride and self-confidence he had always thought of was worthless in front of Shen Yuesong just now, and his confidence in chasing Zhou Luo back disappeared all of a sudden.

Before, he still had a lot of thoughts about the future. He hoped that Zhou Luo could forgive him, reconcile with him, and then try his best to make up for him, and have a few children with him. The family will live happily ever after. All kinds of happiness and all kinds of beauty need Zhou Luo's company.

But today it's all over...

And this ending is your choice.

Gao Yu touched his face. He couldn't remember how many times he had shed tears these days. He stared blankly at the transparent liquid on his fingertips, a little at a loss.

In the past years of his life, he never thought that one day he could cry so well, as long as it was about Zhou Luo, the tears would fall without warning... The days when he was with Zhou Luo, Make yourself excited, happy, happy, nervous, anxious, irritable, depressed, lost, desperate...

Maybe in the days to come, time will make me calm, relieved, calm...

But how long will this time take?

How many days?How many months?

a year?ten years? 20 years?or longer?

Or maybe I just can't face all this calmly...

A future without Zhou Luo really makes Gao Yu feel like an endless torment just thinking about it...

He drove back to Shen's house, went straight to the bedroom, and locked himself in the house. Gao Yu felt that he couldn't stay here anymore, otherwise he would definitely find Zhou Luo uncontrollably.

Gao Yu was very anxious. He walked back and forth in the room, always feeling as if he had lost something important, but what was it?

He couldn't remember it, but he felt that there was something very important, very important, very precious, that he lost, but he didn't know what it was, and after thinking about it for a long time, he couldn't remember it.

He sat on the ground limply in a daze, staring blankly at the empty room.

This feeling makes me despair...

My heart is empty and can't be filled...

What was that thing he dropped?

Gao Yu was thinking hard, his heart was in severe pain, the pain ran through his whole body, and finally he couldn't hold it anymore, he just hugged his head and cried bitterly...

That's my heart, my love, my Zhou Luo...

But now I can't see it anymore and can't take it away...

He suddenly became afraid again, what if Zhou Luo's small three-wheeler carried other people?

that oneself...

Just when he was overwhelmed and sad, a knock on the door pulled Gao Yu back from the pain.

Gao Yu calmed down and asked, "Who?"

"Good grandson, it's grandpa." Shen Yuesong stood at the door, worried: "Are you okay?"

"I am fine."

"You open the door and let grandpa see you."

"It's fine." Gao Yu said impatiently, "Leave me alone."

Shen Yuesong was silent for a moment, and asked someone to get the door key and opened the door. Seeing Gao Yu's distraught look, he felt distressed, walked over and called softly: "Good grandson."

Gao Yu raised his head in a daze, and asked with red eyes, "Say, can I take him to the United States? I'll make up for him while I'm struggling? Grandpa, do you think so?"

Gao Yu's fragility and helplessness made Shen Yuesong feel uncomfortable. His Adam's apple rolled, and it took him a long time to speak: "My child, I don't know if it's good or not. I only know that there are no such cheap things in this world. There are always gains and losses."

After hearing this, Gao Yu's tears flowed down again, as if his chest was pressed by something, he felt a little out of breath, he held his head in pain, and beat his own head hard.

"Son, child..." Shen Yuesong grabbed his hand to prevent him from hitting him.

Gao Yu's sadness made the old man's brows twitch into a knot.

Gao Yu said sadly: "Grandpa, I'm so sad, what should I do, I'm so sad..." He looked at Shen Yuesong dejectedly, with tears in his eyes: "I feel like I'm going to die... No, I, I have to go find him , I have to find him."

After speaking, he stood up and wanted to leave, Shen Yuesong held him back: "Son, calm down." He sighed: "You two are only separated temporarily, it's not a big deal."

Gao Yu stopped in his tracks, he stood there blankly silent, Shen Yuesong didn't know what was going on in his mind, he could only see that the child couldn't bear it at the moment.

At a certain point, Gao Yu half knelt on the ground with weak legs, covered his face, and cried again.

Shen Yuesong felt sorry for him, gently hugged Gao Yu in his arms, and patted his back to comfort him.He sighed deeply, and decided to advance the time to go to America.