Same Bed Different Dreams

These days, Zhou Jingci and Wei Xiao have learned a lot about depression.Together they followed the doctor's advice and searched the Internet for articles published by fellow patients.

Some patients have unfortunate native families, unbearable childhood, and discordant youth; some have suffered emotional or career setbacks, and have fallen into the mire of depression ever since; There was no reason and no warning, the disease just happened to them for no reason, and from then on, they could only accept this pain.

After reading many stories, Zhou Jingci became much calmer.

He knew that he was not the only one, and there were many, many people in this world who were suffering from such torture and destruction.

Fortunately, he still has Wei Xiao.

He knew that Wei Xiao loved him and loved him, and he was always reluctant to let him suffer.

Gradually, Zhou Jingci began to adapt to the days of coexistence with depression, and also learned to self-regulate.

Through regular communication with a psychologist and taking medicine on time every day, Zhou Jingci's condition is much better than before.

Not only is it the effect of external forces, but he himself is also changing.

Every day, Zhou Jingci consciously thinks about the happy and relaxing things in the past.He has lived such a big life, and there are always so many details and moments, so far shining in the long river of time, like stars.

Reading books and newspapers is a daily practice, and looking through old photo albums is an indispensable homework.

He wanted to get better from the bottom of his heart, and also wanted Wei Xiao to rest assured.

Wei Xiao heard from the doctor that going out for a walk more is better for the recovery of depression, but Zhou Jingci is always unable to cheer up and doesn't want to go out for a walk.

Wei Xiao racked his brains to persuade him to go out and have fun. The two of them can't walk very far, sometimes climbing Fragrant Hills, and sometimes visiting the International Trade Center.

Zhou Jingci's physical strength is not good now, and he will get tired after walking for too long, Wei Xiao doesn't force it, and follows Zhou Jingci in everything, and even asks from time to time, "Honey, do you want me to carry you?"

Zhou Jingci was thin-skinned, and immediately put on a straight face when he heard this, and scolded him a few times in a suppressed voice, but Wei Xiao was the most prone to this, and he was not angry, just looked at him with a smile.

Seeing him like this, Zhou Jingci felt even more unhappy, lowering his eyes and unwilling to talk to Wei Xiao.

Only then did Wei Xiao pat him on the shoulder, begging for mercy, "Okay, okay, I was wrong, I was wrong."

Back home, Zhou Jingci was pillowed on Wei Xiao's lap as usual. He was extremely sleepy, squinted his eyes, and suddenly sighed.

Wei Xiao suddenly became nervous, lowered his head and asked, "What's wrong baby? Are you tired?"

Zhou Jingci reluctantly opened his eyes, stared blankly at Wei Xiao's handsome face, feeling a little lost in his heart, he waited for 2 minutes, and then said slowly, "I stay at home all day, doing nothing. It's so easy to get tired."

While stroking Zhou Jingci's hair, Wei Xiao lowered his head and pecked on his smooth forehead, "Baby, you don't need to do anything, you just need to enjoy my love."

After Wei Xiao said this, Zhou Jingci laughed twice, and then he suddenly remembered that Wei Xiao probably hoped that he would do nothing.

Wei Xiao is a typical feudal patriarch. Whether it is Zhou Jingci or Wei Zhao, he always has a stubborn stubbornness in his heart. However, in the past, no matter whether it was Wei Zhao or Zhou Jingci, Wei Xiao would Can't control it and dare not control it.

Zhou Jingci felt that these thoughts of Wei Xiao were a little cute, so his expression softened a little, but he didn't say any more.

One of them was lying down and the other was sitting until the decayed and old long clock rang nine times with a heavy tone. Zhou Jingci couldn't hold on any longer. He pushed Wei Xiao's body and said in a muffled voice, "Sleepy."

Wei Xiao embraced him in his arms, put his lips in his ear and said, "Shall I carry you?"

Zhou Jingci was so happy, he put his head in Wei Xiao's arms, and nodded slightly.

Wei Xiao laughed twice, "Honey, don't you scold me now?" As he spoke, he grabbed Zhou Jingci's thigh with his hands and carried him on his back.

Zhou Jingci lightly bit his shoulder and said, "I don't scold you, I bite you."

Wei Xiao smiled, "Bite it, leave a mark."

Zhou Jingci thought it was funny, and wanted to use some strength, at least to give Wei Xiao a poke, but when the teeth fell out, he couldn't bear it, so he had to kiss him superficially, and said angrily, "Are you stupid? ah?"

Wei Xiao put Zhou Jingci on the bed, touched his face, "It's not stupid, I like it."

Zhou Jingci was so sleepy that he couldn't keep his eyes open. He smiled and opened his arms towards Wei Xiao. Wei Xiao bent down to hug him, and then kissed his lips, "Jing Ci, get well soon, okay? The days are long."

Zhou Jingci's mind was dizzy, he couldn't hear anything, he couldn't think of anything, no matter what Wei Xiao said, he could only nod his head.

Seeing him nodding in a daze and saying "OK", Wei Xiao felt affection in his heart. He stroked Zhou Jingci's hand and said softly, "You promised me, don't go back on your word."

Later, when he was half asleep and half awake, Zhou Jingci faltered and said something, but Wei Xiao couldn't quite hear him anymore. He pulled the quilt for Zhou Jingci with a smile, and then waded in himself.

He hugged Zhou Jingci's soft and warm body, his mood was ups and downs.

These days, Zhou Jingci's condition has improved a lot. Even the doctor said that Jing Ci is a man of great resilience. Even if he is suffering mentally and physically. Unimaginable pain, love and hope can take him through the darkness long night.

At first, when Zhou Jingci had just been diagnosed, Wei Xiao checked a lot of information and saw the descriptions of those patients on the Internet, and he was worried and afraid almost every minute and every second.

He was afraid that Zhou Jingci's condition would continue to deteriorate, and he was also afraid that he would have a hard life every day, he was afraid that Zhou Jingci would force a smile on his face, and he was also afraid that no matter how sad he was, he would hide it from him...

I am afraid that he will seek death, and even more afraid that he will fight for himself.

Wei Xiao didn't dare to force Zhou Jingci to take medicine. He knew that every time Zhou Jingci took medicine, he would feel uncomfortable for a long time.

He couldn't bear to see Zhou Jingci lying in front of the pool and retching, but how could he get better if he didn't take medicine.

Whenever Wei Xiao brought water and medicine to Zhou Jingci, he was actually terrified in his heart. He was afraid that Zhou Jingci would lose his temper at him, and he was even more afraid that Zhou Jingci would act like a baby to him.

He didn't deserve to ask Zhou Jingci to take medicine, but he had to take medicine.

Fortunately, Zhou Jingci is very obedient every day.

Wei Xiao thought, if he was the one suffering from depression, he would try his best to accompany Zhou Jingci, no matter how uncomfortable, no matter how painful, he was reluctant to leave Zhou Jingci alone.

It is Zhou Jingci who can get sick.

If there is such a day, Zhou Jingci really doesn't want to persevere, and really needs death as a relief, Wei Xiao can only do as he wishes.

He couldn't bear and couldn't bear to watch Zhou Jingci work hard.

But they have been together for so many years, and the relationship between them has spanned most of each other's lives. If you cut it out, you will lose your entire soul.

It's too lonely to be alone, it's really meaningless, it's better to be with Zhou Jingci.

Wei Xiao is not a pessimist. On the contrary, he has always been a supporter of "man can conquer nature". The almost tragic spirit of resistance is a battle song written in his flesh and blood.

But facing Zhou Jingci, he couldn't help thinking about it, and he had to figure out the worst outcome.

Seeing that Zhou Jingci was getting better and recovering day by day, Wei Xiao relaxed a little.

Looking at Zhou Jingci's sleeping face, he couldn't help but think, if you love someone, you will be reluctant to bear him suffering, and you will be reluctant to bear him suffering, there is really nothing you can do.