west wind sleepless

"My dear brother, it's hard for you to be here with us all the time after living here for so long." During breakfast, Guo Sheng said.

"What's the trouble? I'm very happy with my brothers." Cheng Fei smiled, "Besides, my home is very close, so it's convenient anytime."

"Hey, you say you're happy, but I'm afraid you're still not used to the shackles of being in Fenghua Villa," Guo Sheng said, "brother, I've lived for so long, but it's actually because of you. On this occasion, you will deal with all kinds of people. Walking in the rivers and lakes, I have a bottom in my heart."

"I understand big brother's kindness, thank you big brother." Cheng Fei said sincerely, staring at Guo Sheng with a pair of dark and bright star eyes.

Those eyes are really beautiful, Guo Sheng couldn't help but praised: "I'm not saying compliments, my brother is really worthy of a young hero, young and promising, talented and good-looking, a leader among the younger generations, it's no wonder that many martial arts daughters, ladies and chivalrous ladies fall in love with you As for you, if I have a younger sister, I must tie you up to be my brother-in-law, haha!"

When Cheng Fei heard "talented and beautiful", the tea in his mouth "popped", and when he finished listening, his expression was helpless: "Brother, do you think I haven't been teased enough?"

"I'm telling the truth." Guo Shengrao shook his cup with interest, "Hey, do you really want to marry Miss Ling? Well... Longwei Escort and Xiaoyaobao, well, a strong marriage, plus Your talent, your personality, will definitely surpass Yin Fengxiang's reputation in the future!" He said with longing.

Cheng Fei lowered his eyelashes slightly when he heard the words, and said calmly, "It's good to have a clear conscience in life... It's not what I want if you don't overshadow anyone with your name."

"Okay, okay! Knowing that my brother is indifferent to fame and wealth, hey, are you interested in Miss Ling?"

"I really never thought about it..." Cheng Fei was still embarrassed.

"Oh, forget it, it's useless to talk about women with you! It's better to talk about the worldly wisdom you hate the most!" Guo Sheng shook his head and took a sip of tea, "What do you think of Yin Fengxiang?"

"... shrewd and capable, with a quick mind."

"Naturally. I'm asking, what do you think of him?"

Cheng Fei frowned thoughtfully, "Although he is proud, he... doesn't look like a treacherous person."

"Fenghua Villa is well-known as a chivalrous man. Back then, as the young owner of the villa, he also did a lot of great things in the world to punish evil and promote good. But ah, good people also have a narrow-minded side. If he wants to run on you, there will be trouble in the future. You'd better be careful about everything."

"I know, I know, in the future, if I see him not telling the truth, okay?" Cheng Fei smiled.

"Hey, I'm doing it for your own good, you don't take it seriously..."

Outside the courtyard gate, Zhang Xiao, who was going out with his arms outstretched, met Yin Qingyu head-on. "Hey, Mr. Yin! So early?"

"Oh..." Yin Qingyu remembered that she promised Guo Sheng last night to "drink tea together", fearing that she would miss the appointment, she came early in the morning, "Excuse me, is Brother Guo there?"

"Hey, Lao Guo and A Fei are inside, please come in."

"...Then let me ask you, what do you think of Mr. Yin?" Guo Sheng's topic changed from Yin Fengxiang to his elder brother, "Mr. Yin is very warm to us. It's a coincidence... I heard that he was never willing to meet outsiders before, this is the first time in such a situation."

A complex look flashed across Cheng Fei's face, and he was silent for a moment, "...I hate him."

"Why?" Guo Sheng was surprised, completely unexpected.

"I can't tell..." Cheng Fei frowned slightly, and found it difficult to express, "Anyway, when I see him, I feel irritable for some reason... He often does that..."

"Which"

"I want to say something but I don't say it, I always hesitate to say it... make people, people..." Cheng Fei became irritable again, thinking to himself, it's strange, this kind of irritability has never happened before, "I really don't know What does he think! Can't you just say it clearly?" That kind of depression is like a ball of cloth stuck in the bottom of my heart, and I don't feel comfortable at all...

It's okay for him to be like this, he keeps silent on himself, but he always comes around when there is nothing to do, which can almost be regarded as being courteous... It makes people feel panicked...

Guo Sheng was puzzled and said: "My dear brother, among the people I met before, there were some who were not willing to do anything, and you were obviously very patient, why this time..."

Cheng Fei also felt strange, and put down the cup with some annoyance: "...I don't know either."

Guo Sheng sighed and looked at him: "A Fei, you are the only son of Mr. Cheng's bodyguard, the genuine young master, and you don't understand the troubles of other bastards... Do you think that everyone is like you, who can say what they want and do what they want? You also know the rumors about Mr. Yin's background, how can his life compare with yours? It's normal for people to restrain and scruple."

Cheng Fei nodded lightly: "Brother, I understand... I don't know what's wrong with me..." Suddenly he became so intolerant, and he felt quite self-blame in his heart. "I was wrong, big brother." He smiled at Guo Sheng, his bright smile was very sincere.

"Hehe, that's it..."

……

Yin Qingyu walked quickly, her face slightly pale.He walked out of the courtyard gate quickly, walked through the bamboo forest, walked by the lake, and walked along the promenade, without resting all the way... until he entered the Qinglu Garden, he held on to the pillars and began to pant.

It turned out that he hated himself... The corner of his mouth curled up in self-deprecating manner, and he shook his head.The person had already arrived at the front hall and was about to go in when he heard Guo Sheng asking himself. At that time... he stopped unconsciously and breathed lightly because of nervousness. He didn't expect him to speak highly of mediocre self, but ……"Hate"!It's disgusting!

He didn't listen any more, he turned around and left.Why bother... why bother to come to the door again, making people hate and adding to the boredom?

... Also, since I can't speak, I don't understand martial arts affairs, and I can't get along with others, so how can I not be annoying?Really, it's so ignorant...

Pursing her lips, she raised her gaze for a while, looking at the quiet courtyard.

The chrysanthemums are blooming in the wind one after another, bright and quiet, the water in the pool is crystal clear, rippled by the wind, and dragonflies come and go leisurely... a sense of leisure and serenity.

Heaving a sigh of relief, his hand slowly slid down from the pillar, his gaze was withdrawn from a distance, and he looked at the small gazebo in front of him.

The scene in front of me gradually blurred.There is someone standing leaning on a pillar, with his back facing the evening wind, with a quiet expression and a thin figure, a woman from many years ago...Tinge Xiangwan is independent, facing the west wind without worrying about it.She is not good at talking, not lively, when she is alone, she always likes to be lost in silence by herself...

She was slender and weak, but worked very hard, taking good care of the pots of beautiful chrysanthemums.She is also gentle, but she doesn't like to talk. When her companions chat happily, she just smiles shyly beside her.When her companions were comparing new clothes and handkerchiefs with each other, and discussing the master's family affairs, she would quietly come to a deserted place, looking at the flowers, trees, lakes and mountains in a trance.

Another evening, she came to the pavilion and rested against the pillars. Unknowingly, she stared blankly at the sunset for a long time, but she didn't expect that a pair of eyes were looking at her.

is the master.A handsome, burly and lofty master.

When she turned her head around, she found that the master was behind her. She was taken aback, saluted in a panic, and was about to retreat, not wanting to be grabbed by the wrist.

The master didn't know why he did this, let alone where his raging desires came from.Passing by here and seeing a maidservant, it was a very common thing, but he couldn't turn his eyes away—maybe it was because of her too slender figure, maybe it was her eyes that were quietly fascinated... Anyway, at that moment, he burst into tears. Feeling a strong desire, regardless of etiquette, he stepped forward and grabbed the weak man.

Rejection, struggle, pleading, tears...there was no match for the burning desire in the man's heart, and the wind and night covered it all.

Afterwards, the owner regretted it.His wife is a daughter of a famous family, and she is extremely beautiful, and the two have been married for less than a year.

What kind of madness did he go to confront a maid... With such a mediocre appearance, he must have been bewitched that day.

I wanted to cover up this matter, who would have thought that it would be absurd overnight, and the maid became pregnant.

Such a scandal happened not long after the wedding, one can imagine the madam's mood.The young master continued to accompany his wife, regretting in every possible way, but the beautiful lady's face was still clouded.

As for the pregnant maidservant, she was arranged to live alone in a small courtyard, and she has not been given a title for a long time, and there are very few people serving her.

She couldn't kill the child, because people would say that the owner was vicious and cruel; she didn't want to give birth to the child, and no one welcomed the arrival of the child.Including herself.

She didn't want to, she didn't want to from the beginning to the end.

When the child was born, her father never came to see her, and her former companions avoided her like a snake.Soon, rumors spread, and those who admired her at the beginning also made vicious comments:

"She is not beautiful, and the owner is just in a daze for a while. How can she compare with Madam? What a joke!"

"That's right, with her beauty, she still wants to seduce the owner!"

"It looks quite honest on weekdays, but I didn't expect it to be so scheming!"

"It's a pity that it's useless, even if you give birth to an heir, you won't be able to get the owner's favor..."

"Yeah, I spent a lot of painstaking efforts in vain, but the bamboo basket fetched water in vain..."

She listened to the sarcasm, her face turned pale, and she looked at the infant child, unable to tell whether it was disgust or pity.Her mind is as delicate as her person, how can she bear so many insults?Gradually, she did not eat or drink, and became bedridden.

Finally, one morning, she left behind her child who was just full moon, dragged her weak body to the gazebo slowly, used all her strength to climb up the low rail, and tied the white silk...

Yin Qingyu had heard of this sad but beautiful story a long time ago, and the woman in the story was his biological mother Qiushang.He grew up in contempt and disgust. The servants often talked about the girl who seduced the owner but failed. He felt inferior and suffered.Until the old mother who took care of him quietly couldn't stand it anymore, and told him the truth when he was ten years old.

Qiu Chang's pregnancy has already added a flaw to the owner's perfect and proud life; Qiu Chang's suicide has aroused a lot of malicious speculation and discussions, and cast a shadow on the resounding and glorious name of Fenghua Villa.

During that period of time, the owner and his wife could be said to be devastated and gloomy. This fairy couple who everyone in the world envied hadn't smiled for two whole months.

Two years later, the second son Yin Fengxiang was born, and the turmoil gradually dissipated, and the owner and his wife were able to walk out of the haze.But the matter of Qiushang has become a stain that cannot be erased by the old owner Yin Mingli and even the entire Fenghua Villa, and will always be caught in the hands of people in the Jianghu.

Since she was a child, Yin Qingyu never got a good look from her father; when facing servants, her father would still smile, but when he saw him, that smile disappeared immediately.It might be better if he had outstanding talents, but he has mediocre talents.When he was seven years old, the master who taught him how to get started looked at him and Feng Xiang, who was five years old, and asked them to do a few moves. To learn martial arts, hard work can only be mediocre.Yin Mingli simply refused to let him learn martial arts, it was better to embarrass the Yin family by not learning martial arts.

Poems and books are also average, although they are not stupid, they are not outstanding either, they are still left behind by Feng Xiang.

He could not succeed in writing or martial arts, so he had to paint silently by himself, painting every day, flowers, stones, birds... year after year.This is obviously his home, but it's not, his father hates him, his wife doesn't like him, Feng Xiang played with him for a while when he was a child, and they separated after practicing martial arts, and they are still strangers now.

He wants to get out of here, really wants to!Even if he has no ability and no money, he doesn't want to stay any longer.He inherited his biological mother's slender physique, neither strong nor strong, and even his mind was as delicate and sensitive as his biological mother... He didn't want to do this, he was a man, and he hated being sad and down every now and then.How many times, he told himself, look away, calm down, don't care what others think or say, don't think about it... But, he still couldn't restrain the stinging pain!Can't stop thinking about it over and over again at night!

At the age of 17, he wanted to tell his father about leaving, but his father never saw him; so he left the village alone and set up a painting booth in the corner of the city.His paintings are already very good, especially the chrysanthemums, which have natural postures, elegant brushstrokes, and full of charm... Literati and scholars often stop to watch and buy with money.

He felt relieved, after all, he also had a skill, and as for leaving without saying goodbye... Anyway, he came and went, no one asked, whether he was in or not, whether he was going or not, had no effect on the villa...

However, his thoughts were quickly shattered.In less than a day, Yin Mingli angrily led people to find him, and angrily scolded him for being ignorant of good and evil, that the village raised him for free, and he wanted to go outside to shame him!It was to show people how Fenghua Villa treated him badly!Is it to let the world know that the majestic young master of Fenghua Villa has been reduced to selling paintings on the street!Do you want the villa to become a big joke in the rivers and lakes!

Looking at his father with an angry face and a disgusted tone, he stood blankly, and the drawing paper in his hand was snatched by Yin Fengxiang who was beside him.Then, under his father's scolding all the way, he returned to the villa in a daze...

From then on, every time he went out, he would be followed by servants, who were called servants and secretly monitored.

24 years, 24 years of life without seeing the sun.He hardly talks to people in the village, and he has no chance to make friends with people outside. The only people who can talk to him are the two maids in the garden and the owner of the painting and calligraphy shop.When I saw Cheng Fei that day, I was overwhelmed by his straightforwardness. He really wanted to have such a friend. This friend might comfort him, enlighten him, encourage him...he just wanted to have a friend .

Thinking of the phrase "disgusting", he was startled again, his heart was so cold that he lowered his eyes and slowly went back to the house.